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:: 2005 26 September :: 8.45pm

god im so fucking tired.
I cant get untired no matter how hard I try and its not even like im doing anything im just going to work and school and not doing anything else.
I have a sore throat and my chest hurts if i inhale deeply or yawn and im tired so im constantly yawning so my chest just keeps on hurting. i dont know what the problem is but i dont like it and it worries me. \
nothing is right like its supposed to be itsjust all suckiness and boring.\
I want to make new friends at school and not be so stuck in high school and the past
fuck fuck fucking fuck.
I wish pj didnt have jamie with him so that he coudl come and stay with me tonight. i just want to spend the day in bed with him. only he would want to get up and play some video game at like 10 anyway so fuck that shit right in the ass..

why am i so pissed off all the time. gawd.
I want to read some good book that i havent read in awhile but alas i have no time. im always on the go. doing something. no time.\
everything i say is a contradiction.

im so fucking tired.
i have a paper that im supposed to peer edit tomorrow and of course i have yet to start it.
but im not going to that class anyway for two reasons.
one i have a thing at work that apparently i must attend even though it is against my availability and all that bullshit.
second i despise peer editing. why because i hate reading people papers and having a million suggestions that they get angry when i make them, or try to help them make their paper way better, or at least grammatically correct, then there is that they read my paper and tell me how to change it and while sometime i get valuable advice usually i get a "its good I dont have any suggestions"
WTF there is always room for improvement stop pussyfooting around and tell me what I can do to make this the best damn paper ever. so being that it is an analytical paper i am going to pass on the peer editing because I hate peer editing and if my paper sucks well then i will just pass on putting it in my main portfolio. fuck i find myself tired and aching for bed.

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skife

:: 2005 26 September :: 7.35am

been feelling like shit lately.

my leg is killing and my lower back hurts, fucking transmission.
i've got this cold/flu thing going around, i just got up to go pee and while i was standing there everything started to get really fuzzy and i started getting dizzy, i think i almost passed out. my ears started ringing too.

but i've just stayed in bed most of the time now, i hate being sick.

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liz

:: 2005 25 September :: 4.44am

IM home finally,
after two very tiresome nights.
interesting shit ill tell ya what and you think you know somebody.
matter we have GOT to talk soon. but ive got to be to work at 1130 so my ass is going ot sleep a little bit.
I love pj and miss him and hope he is having a fantab weekend. When do you work this week anyway pj.???

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skife

:: 2005 24 September :: 8.44pm

the motor is in.
only a few more days, some belts and pullys, a lower alternator bracket.
some assembly required

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skife

:: 2005 22 September :: 11.33pm

finally after a year and a month its going to run.

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liz	:: 2005 22 September :: 9.39pm "Restriction of free thought and free speech is the most dangerous of all subversions. It is the one un-American act that could most easily defeat us." -William O. Douglas leave a comment

liz

:: 2005 22 September :: 4.51pm

class break equals teh suckness. I want to be at home with pj. I love you pj.
why does class suck so bad, oh thats right cuz my teacher is a turd face who always has something to do and doesnt waste a minute of our time, but at least hes a good guy and says funny things about bumper balls.
ha calvin pisses on something.

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liz

:: 2005 22 September :: 3.51pm

Im sitting here in the lab, just waiting for class to start. I am bored as hell.
I thought these couple of days were going to be different. They are good they just arent what I expected and Im a little upset with myself.
My mounting financial issues being my biggest frustration. But as always I will get through them because I have nothing else to do. I will pick the best solution that doesn't include asking my parents for money. My check was about 150$ less than norm so I am teh screwed, because with groceries gas and the million unnecesarry things that I spend my money on I find myself about 15$ short of the money that I owe my school. this being payday, so even if I found that money somewhere I would be moneyless for the next two weeks, that would be okay except for the gas that I will eventually need in the next two weeks, so my solution to this is to be as frivalous as possible, only putting money in my gas tank and suffering through the late fees that will come off of the school owed money, to me its better than borrowing and paying the overdraft fee from the bank. cheaper than the overdraft as well, plus i wont have to worry later on about the gas money that I don't have. I can't really live all that well on completely cleaned out so good ol' gvsu will just sit tight for two weeks until pay day rolls around again and they will be happy because they will rake in 24$ worth of late fees. I have definately thought this all out because well, I have to be as logical and practical as possible at this point and that my high school friends is the suckiest part of going to college, if I ran out of money in high school woopty doo. I could walk to work then.
Okay class starting in three. Loves.

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liz	:: 2005 22 September :: 8.13am so like officially this is the first day of school that ive gotten up on time. goody goody for me. 2 comments \| leave a comment

liz	:: 2005 21 September :: 11.45pm out-fucking-standing phew leave a comment

liz	:: 2005 21 September :: 4.02pm holy good. 1 comment \| leave a comment

liz

:: 2005 21 September :: 1.23pm

oh my god.
I keep doing really stupid shit.
like over and over and i keep doing it even though i know that i will regret it later on.
i sleep through my alarm this morning and ended up just not going to any of my classes. I slept until just now. My art class is right in the middle. I wanted to go to language lab this morning so that I wouldn't have to go while Pj is here but I guess that isn't going to happen since he will be here in like 30 mintues
Im hungry too. I hope he is hungry. I have like 150$ left on my school debit thing and that has to last the rest of the semester I doubt it.
conisidering Ive spent 150$ since i got there. 300$ isnt really that much. Ill live though. I always do. I really have to stop with the coffee shops and such though. Only for Fridays. DAMN it.
I need to take a shower and eat something.
I love you PJ.

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liz

:: 2005 21 September :: 2.04am

hey guess what online family this is me, who once again has yet to go to sleep and its 2:04 with a 9 am class and needing to talk to profesor in la manana about my spanish issues.
shit shit shit.
in other news great quote of to-day

"I love you so fucking long time you die"

I heart matt whetzel so much.

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liz

:: 2005 19 September :: 11.10pm

so I carry this bag.
this messenger bag,
its pink and fits me like perfect.
ive carried it since i was in like eighth grade right.
I love it,
It is my complete security in one bag.
once on a survey the question was how would you identify yourself and kelly said I dont know but it has something to do with that pink bag and he was right. so anyway I love this thing and its still perfect only broken in and I bought it on mackinac island so ithought no one would ever have the same one.
I walk into the damn bookstore on campus and they have not only my bag but the same one in blue and black.
OMG
I was so excited only not.
because now I can buy a blue one. and a pink one for my little sister, but also not because well its so damn sucky that anyone on campus can steal my security,
but it wont be the same securtiy i dont know i just know that im bummed but pleased and like 5 years later they still make that bag.
craziness.

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liz	:: 2005 19 September :: 2.36pm so i went to that ranting-gryphon site. effing hilarious the whole thing, only less hilarious because everything he says is true. america is sucking pretty hardcore right now. 1 comment \| leave a comment

liz

:: 2005 19 September :: 11.01am

well im a level four warlock, who got a 75% on her spanish test. its passing at least I suppose.
I was sad though because well i dont get along with average and the class average was like an 87 so i brought it down quite a bit. and that would make me below average which i most certainly am not. studying may become a priority in college while it wasnt in high school. hhmmness.
anyway.
thats my life

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liz

:: 2005 19 September :: 1.23am
:: Music: oasis, champagne supernova

I hate being awake at 1:23 in the morning, wishing that you were here.
I hate it when your right.
I hate school.
I hate crying over back episodes of the O.C. like some stupid teenage girl.
I hate being a teenage girl.
I hate work.
I hate myself mostly for being who I am so wholeheartedly and feeling bad about it.
I love you though. I just wish you were here right now, with me,
I need you so much.
I hate needing you.

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