My soul (or lack thereof)

:: 2004 3 November :: 6.20am

Canada or bust.

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Lavitz1985

:: 2004 2 November :: 7.53pm

Hey look, once again I update, and once again nobody will care. So I might as well do something like

Fuck you

:: 2004 2 November :: 11.32am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Hold On by Jet

Nothing in the real world ever lives up to what you feel inside. You just find happiness where you can.

No school today. I've been lying in bed since 7. Wonderful.

My mom's at work/voting. I be home alone.

I love you all.

P.S. Somebody told me you had a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend that I had in February of last year.

P.P.S. I'm just a crosshair.

:: 2004 1 November :: 3.12pm

Besides the lesbian undertones, I like Salior Moon. My favorite thing about it though is Queen Serenity and King Darien. I love that dress, I really do. It took forever to find any good pictures with Darien and Serena in their royal outfits, and I decided to use the first one I found. All the other pictures I have are either too small or too blurry. Anyway, that's about all I have to say about that.

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:: 2004 31 October :: 12.47pm

Yesterday was really windy.

So windy, in fact, that the wind blew something off of our 'lectricity line thing down at the end of the cul-de-sac and at 11:20ish, none of the people on our cul-de-sac had power.

So I took a shower in the dark for the first time in my life. It was a fun time, especially with the fact that the hot water might run out any second now zooming around my brain.

When I left for Kyle's party at 5:30, the electricity was still out. We were leaping for the corded phone for a chance at outside contact.

When I got home at 1, it was still out.

I woke up to the sound of the television.

I love electricity.

Kyle's pre-Halloween party was pretty nice. Played some Halo, made fun of a scary movie, watched Spawn, had a good time.

Today, I have no idea what I'm going to do for Halloween. I was thinking of finding a pumpkin patch and waiting for the great pumpkin but maybe I'll just see if people want to hang out.

I love you all.

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:: 2004 31 October :: 1.47am

Kyles party was cool, even though I was only there for a while. And I got to see everyone! Yay!

:: 2004 29 October :: 5.16pm

Today was Mr. Hess' last day.

Somehow they got the guvnuh to make today Alan Hess day in Michigan.

No lie.

They brought him to school in a limo.

There was a big banner in front of the school that said Alan Hess Day and tons of banners that said, "We'll miss you".

He must have had ten cakes that people brought him.

Mine included.

I think everyone cried.

They got a few football players and the chariot from Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat. At the end of the day, they let us out of 6th hour early and Mr. Hess was carried around the downstairs hallway.

They had a big story about him on the school news too.

It was sad. Sad but happy.

The chorale, I think that's the highest choir, came in during our class (third hour) and sang to Mr. Hess. It was beautiful.

I wish we could have had a happier celebration but it was sort of happy sad.

I didn't do anything else during the day.

Sigh. I miss Mr. Hess already. I found out where his new house is approximately located too.

I love you all.

:: 2004 28 October :: 11.23pm

Damn Bush and his helicopters flying around my campus.

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:: 2004 28 October :: 6.42pm

Everyday I find out more and more how much I hate people.

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:: 2004 28 October :: 3.44pm

Bush creeps me out sometimes. I watched that without the sound and he just creeped me out.

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:: 2004 27 October :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: blah

The lunar eclipse is beautiful right now.

Rusty red and disappearing.

Beautiful.

I love you all.

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:: 2004 27 October :: 5.42pm
:: Mood: meh

Tomorrow Kelly and I have our presentation in AP Lit.

~~I really should have written some journal pages in math but instead I read a book that I've read a thousand times.~~

I went to anime club today.

Sort of.

Not really.

I didn't want to deal with people talking to me because it seems like that's all people are anymore. That's all they do really. Talk to you. Talk at you.

I didn't want to deal with people.

So I first went down and got the projector. Lil Ben and I went to turn in some counselor application thing that you have to have your counselor send in to the college you apply to.

We ran into with Ben on the way back up to anime club. He gave me his car keys and said that Sims 2 was in his glove compartment and he'd be in the Scene Shop.

So Lil Ben and I went to go grab the copy of Sims 2 that Ben burned for me because Ben's a sweetie. We got sidetracked on the way back and ended up talking to Danny, some kid, Brett and Kyle for a while.

Then we went to give Ben his keys and some hard lovin'.

Lil Ben and I sat at the spot talking.

Danny found us again and we all sat around being perverted until he left.

Lil Ben and I didn't go back to anime club until it was finished. We just wandered around talking.

Meh.

I love you all.

Shinigami

:: 2004 27 October :: 9.49am
:: Music: Hamasaki Ayumi - Hanabi

I look up at the blurry sky
So that my tears don't overflow
Why can't people live
As they want to?
A weak heart that's unable to cry
Doesn't need the strength to keep from crying
I look for a shooting star
To place my wish on
But the dawn comes too soon
And I'm unable to find one

The reason there isn't a day
When I remember you
Is because I haven't forgotten you for a moment

It's become a habit to say it's alright
Whenever I come across something sad
Something stopped on that day
For me, and now
No matter how much I pray
I can't see a single star

I miss you, I miss you
Only in my memory your smile is too tender
There's nothing I can do

The reason there isn't a day
When I remember you
Is because I haven't forgotten you for a moment

I miss you, I miss you
Only in my memory your smile is too tender
There's just nothing I can do

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:: 2004 27 October :: 6.18am

If you phrase things just right, our group can be really messed up.

I could say: I am tired because I spent a long time on the phone last night when I should have gone to bed.

Or: I talked to Ben for a long time last night and now I'm really tired. I didn't finish talking to him until late.

Or: I spent three hours and twenty-four minutes on the phone with my ex-boyfriend last night. We didn't get done talking until 2 this morning. I got four hours of sleep so I'm completely exhausted.

Things are weird if you phrase them certain ways.

And really, it was three hours, twenty-four minutes and eleven seconds.

I'm really really really really tired.

I love you all.

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