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2007 31 October :: 10.20am
Song or Suicide
Sorrow rebuild me as I step out of the light
Misery strengthen me as I say my goodbyes
I heal my wounds with grief
And dream of you
And weep myself alive
Sleepwalking Past Hope
I hid the keys to unlock love's heart
To hold you in my sweetest pain and suffering
Everything's unfair in our lust and war
Redemption beyond right and wrong
In our hearts love keeps sweet-talking to despair
And goes on sleepwalking past hope
All is lost in this war
And all we can do is to wail and weep to the saddest song
Sleepwalking past hope
I unlit the light to embrace the dark
To be near but not to turn into you my darling
Forever we're lost in our souls' storm
Reflections of each other's faults
I gave up long ago
Painting love with crimson flow
Ran out of blood and hope
So I paint you no more
My hell begins from the 10th and descends to the circle
Six hundred threescore and six
And from there I crawl beneath Lucifer's claws just for one last kiss
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2007 30 October :: 10.35am
I've decided I can't do art anymore.
Not...straight art anyway. Like..drawing and painting and such. I can't help but feel creative in most things. But as for just plain drawing, I don't think I can do it anymore.
And I've also decided that I'm going to give up on almost everything. Except for pure friendship. And see where I will end up.
I hold on to too much pointlessness...
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2007 30 October :: 8.37am
:: Music: Daniel Lioney
Who knew celebrities had their own myspaces? Like, for reals.
They're hard to find, but they're out there.
=]
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2007 27 October :: 5.16pm
HIM
Well, as Addison has given the analytical view, I will give the fun, fan view. =P
Well, I made it, there were quite a few times where I didn't think I'd be able to. about 30 hours without sleep, plus about a gazillion cigarette's worth of smoke making me sick to my stomach. I made it through the whole show okay. =]
The lights went dark, and Linde starts playing. for about 30 seconds....
Then finally, the lights come on, and Gas, Mige, and Burton join in. And finally (honestly, I don't even know where he came from, he was just suddenly there =/ ) Ville comes out, and even better, with a giant smile on his face, like there was no where else he'd rather be right then. Thats a great impression to give, I think. It was contagious in any case. =]
And so they opened with "Passion's Killing Floor" and continued on through many of my favorites.
I was very impressed. I always knew they were fantastic live, from watching other live videos and hearing other people's recounts from shows they had been to. But when you're actually there yourself, it is so much different.
I literally had to force myself to stay awake, having gone nearly 30 hours without sleep, but I just couldn't miss it. At one point, I had to leave our spot up front, and at least make a pit stop to the bathroom, watching the rest of the show from the back, but it was all good. It was a small theatre, and you could still see them quite well from the back, and plus, you could really see all the guys at once, without having to try and peer over people's heads.
After the show, Erica comes up to me and says, "Eddy! Eddy, come here! Is that Bam!?!" Haha, sadly, it wasn't, he was a very good look-alike (intentional) and people were calling him 'Bam' but it wasn't. And plus he sounded nothing like him. I wish I had gotten a picture of him though. When Erica pointed him out to me, he looked at us, and it would have been a bit awkward for me to pull out my camera and take a picture I think.
Before the show, Mige came out, and was signing autographs, and taking pictures and what not. I was on the phone, and I'm a bit shy =/ so I kinda...didn't run up to him or anything (even though he was 5 feet away) and just continued in the line. I kind of felt bad, like I was ignoring him or something, lol. After the show we went and were waiting a little bit by the bus. When Mige was the first one out, and he had a small group gathering around him. Then he walked by us, and I was too damned shy to ask for a picture again. v_v There were some dumbasses there who kept, almost literally plastering themselves against the bus' door, and even one girl who opened the door and went to go inside. (she didn't realize there were already security people and whatnot in there) And even one girl who....was quite....disgustingly freaky. She had one of those liberty spikes-shaved head things going on, with fishnet panty hose, shiny red leather skirt, and even better...a fish net shirt. Completely fishnet shirt. She was wearing stickers if you know what I mean.
The security guard was getting super pissed at people, which I don't blame him. I think I would have too. XD At one point, the semi was backing up to the trailer of all their equipment, and was about 10 feet away from the trailer when a couple more dumbasses decided that that was enough room to run between a moving semi and the trailer it was trying to back up to.
At one point, a car drives by, and a guy sticks his head out the window, and asks what band had played that night. I say "HIM" and show him the flier I had in my hand. And he says "Ahhh, Bam Margera's Band" I'm like "Yeah.........................." Fuckin' tard. I like Bam, I do. But I hate when people think Bam brought HIM in to existence. True, many in America didn't know about HIM before Bam advertised them. But claiming that HIM is Bam's band....come on. Be a little more ignorant.
Anyway, after a bit of excitement of that sort, I started to feel even more nauseous, and decided I couldn't wait for Ville or the others to come out. And we started to head back to the car. I walked about 10 steps and seriously felt like throwing up, so I kneeled down on the ground, ready to do so. =/ That's when Linde came out and got on the bus. (no point to the story but I thought Id share that part =] ) So after about 4 or 5 mins of sitting on the ground, I felt alright to get back up and head to the car again. I didn't actually throw up, which I was glad for. A little ways on we heard the screams that meant that Ville had finally come out, and watched as the door of the bus became a giant mob of screaming girls. Honestly, with all he has, sometimes I really feel sorry for that man. (I know what some of you are thinking at this point, and fyi, no, I would not ><) So, I finally got to the car and we headed to Jessa's, (Thank you sooooooooooo much for letting us stay!!) Where I fell asleep within half an hour of walking in the door, and when Jessa decided she wanted to take pictures of me sleeping, apparently and persuaded Addison to do the same ><
When we got up, we specifically searched around Chicago for a Long John Silvers. =] It was fun! And we did eventually find it, so it was even better. At which point we decided it was time to go home. And so we did. Got home about 7:30 last night, where I slept, had to get up at 10 to go to work, got home this morning and slept til about 3. Which brings me to this point now. =]
I'm so ready to do it again.
Pictures!!
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eddy
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2007 24 October :: 9.45pm
I want one of these, but I think it would piss me off too much.
Watch the video!
Click Me
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rayray
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2007 24 October :: 3.50pm
Things have been looking up lately.
Not that they had far to go, seens how things had already been going good.
But I was told today that I was recommended for a job. (in the same shop).
Hopefully I get it.
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eddy
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2007 24 October :: 10.12am
I'm Going Slightly Mad
For some strange reason he reminds me of John Brooks in this video.
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Click Me
I don't know what my sudden fascination with Freddie Mercury is today, but I was looking up photos, and came across this site here.
Good god, I just want to punch people like that in the face. What makes them think they are able to judge anyone?
EDIT: Damn, link isn't working for some reason. I'll just post the article here and cut it.
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kate
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2007 21 October :: 4.35am
:: Mood: Sleepy
:: Music: Bright Eyes
4am Forever
Bright Eyes concert follow up:
AMMMAAAAAAZING!!
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eddy
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2007 20 October :: 4.35pm
Prepare to laugh. XD
Captain Planet
Kick ass.
EDIT:
Bloopers
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kate
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2007 19 October :: 8.57pm
:: Music: Portishead - Glory Box
Gah.
I miss everyone I've ever known.
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joslyn_julia
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2007 18 October :: 9.12am
:: Music: Skunk Anasie- Secretly
i feel sick,
i have had at most 3 hours of sleep, but here is the best of it, i could have fucking sstayed in kalamazoo longer because i had class cancelled until my 3 o'clock.
it sucks, fucking hauling it out of bed, feeling like shit and trying to sleep on the fucking 6:37 train all to show up by 8 am and find out no class.
On the ups, it gives me time to work on all i need to do. on the downs, i feel sick and i only have 2 ciggs.
i hate commuting. I want to go home, forever. i am sick of school.
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and bonus!!!! not only do i have to remake a 10 page project that didn't save, I don't have my third class either.
god, today was a waste.
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eddy
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2007 15 October :: 9.18pm
Who dreams about Napoleon Bonaparte wanting to get with them?
Me, apparently.
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2007 12 October :: 10.14pm
I find myself sitting here writing this hoping that at some point tonight I will have an internet connection to steal from one of our neighbors so I can share this all with you.
This is the Marriage Eve. Tomorrow I will be married. As much as some people talk about how scary marriage is, I have not felt any of that. Yet. Right now takes me back. I am sitting in our apartment all by myself. You know, the bride and groom are not supposed to see one another, it is bad luck. It takes me back to all those years I spent at home, alone by myself on a Friday night. My parents would be up at the lake and so would my sister and I would have the whole house to myself. That is just the kind of dork that I am that I spent many nights, at home by myself when other people my age were out partying, meeting new people, or just generally indulging in whatever kind of behavior our generation uses to escape. Knowing this fact it is pretty amazing that I found anyone to marry me at all.
I mulled over my options for tonight. On the way home I thought about stopping at B-Dubs, sitting at the bar drinking soda in pure obscurity while watching playoff baseball. I thought about going to see a movie all by myself (the only other time I did that was when I was utterly depressed and had a teenage girl tell me how horrible her life was because she had to change positions for softball). I thought about coming home, calling Keith and seeing if he wanted to stay with me for a few hours. But after thinking all those options through in my head I decided that me here by myself was the best course of action. Why? Well this is what I came up with.
When I would spend all that time alone I would do nothing most of the time. However, there were times when a creative force would just take hold of me and I would be compelled to write something, pick up a guitar and play until my fingers hurt, or just merely wax philosophically until I had so many good ideas in a row that I could not write them down fast enough. I thought tonight had that kind of potential. Besides this, what you are reading now, I think nothing else is going to happen.
For me, those nights of philosophical thought seemed to happen sitting in my room. While it was nice when my parents were gone and I could do anything I want, but did nothing, it was always better when I could be locked away in my room late at night. The nights I liked to be the most creative were the nights that were supposed to mean something. I would stay up really late on Christmas Eve in those years. Locked away in my room, watching TV, all those Christmas commercials on, everything decked out in green and red. I would lie under my blankets in my sweats, the heater turned on and the sweet smell of hot metal because it had run for too long. I would wonder about this Christmas, or what the year had been like and how next year could be better (or I would just swear off commercialism as the downfall of American civil society and go out the next day and buy stuff). It was a mixture of optimism and hope that got me going, for a long time that was all I had to cling to. That is what tonight feels like.
I have all the optimism and hope in the world tonight. It feels like Christmas Eve, but 10.000x bigger. I am getting the best present in the whole wide world. God has sent me the world’s biggest Tootsie Pop. For two years I have slowly been trying to get to the delicious center and tomorrow is the day it finally happens. Tomorrow I get a wife, and that is the best present a man could ever get.
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2007 11 October :: 11.59am
so, i am waiting for my photography class to start. I am really lonely, so i wish that i had money to venture up to carthage this weekend, but then again... well, i won't go there.
I am not looking forward to my next class. I am supposed to do a presentation, but the sidewalk is closed off to get to the class, s maybe i won't have class?!?!!
Now, i need to pull together the energy tonight and tomorrow and the next day to work out, even if i do pull 12 hour days tuesday, thursday and saturday.
Someone should visit me. I have captain morgan... hah. j/k that's mikes.
but yeah.
class.
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2007 10 October :: 1.25am
Okay, so I know I haven't updated in ?????? 9 months?
Sorry about that.
Life gets busy.
First of all I would never recommend Davenport University to anyway. Perhaps more details to follow in another 9 months.
I have a puppy. Should I say we have a puppy. And right now she is sick. Apparently she has a virus that is highly contagious and is deadly if not treated. We caught it early, so hopefully she is going to be okay. She seems fine right now, we just have to make sure she keeps eating and drinking.
I was watching the parade on Saturday. It brought back to me memories of being in a band. I don't know why. It just struck me that one of the coolest things I had ever done was play in a parade. The opportunities that God gives you are truly amazing.
Oh yeah, and for those of you who haven't realized yet, I'm getting married on Saturday. Peace.
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joslyn_julia
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2007 9 October :: 11.53am
one would think that i could sleep in my own apartment without a bed mate... nope, not happening, it took three attempts at sleep in the living room before i pulled myself up and over to my bed, where i half slept until my alarm went off. I really miss mike. perhaps it's just the comfort of sleeping next to someone, but i suppose it is mostly just a good thing that he is working...
to class. bah
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2007 9 October :: 12.32pm
Well, I'm not pregnant anymore... and I kind of miss it.
so, I hold her 24/7 to make up for it.
She was born September 26th at 12:15 pm and weighed a whole 8 lbs. 9 oz and was 21 inches long.
I have no idea how she fit inside me.
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eddy
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2007 1 October :: 8.24pm
Woo!
Once again I plan on going to a HIM concert. This time it seems that it will actually go through okay. But there are only two of us, and we both agree that it will be much more fun with more people, so please, if you'd like to go, let me know! It's in Chicago, on the 25th of this month. It's not expensive as it's only HIM. Tickets are $27.50 and of course there will be a couple other small expenses that will need to be taken care of, but we haven't calculated them yet, if you want to go, I'll let you know those when we find out.
Please, someone come with us! lol. =]
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2007 30 September :: 8.40pm
The MonkeySpehere
Hehe, this was very entertaining, and also very eye opening. I suggest that everyone go read it.
MonkeySphere: Click Me!
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eddy
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2007 28 September :: 10.21am
Haha, that's great. I do a survey last night, and get up this morning to my friends lists containing no less than 5 more XD
Gotta love woohu!
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eddy
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2007 27 September :: 9.25pm
:: Music: Jewel
Ah, What the hell?
So your guy's friend lists are a bit shorter.... =]
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2007 26 September :: 3.16pm
ALLY HAD HER BABY TODAY!!
Name: Autumn Irene O'Connor
Weight: 8lbs 9oz
Length: 21 inches
Time: 12:15 PM
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2007 26 September :: 11.11am
HIM was on the radio last night.....that's.....wierd.....
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2007 21 September :: 9.26pm
Interesting things have happened lately.
I was in shock for atleast a 24 hour time period.
Wednesday night around 10:15 we heard a knock at our door. So Mike told whoeverit was to come in because we were doing one of his Criminal Justice Quizzes online.. But whoever it was just kept knocking. So he got up and answered the door. Much to his and my surprise, there stands a man saturated in blood. From head to toe. Covered. Mike jumped back about 2 feet, and my eyes grew as big as they could possibly get. Mike asked the guy if he wanted us to call 911. But he just kept repeating 'i crashed my bike, please don't call the cops.. please man, don't.. i'll go to jail.. im drunk" So we got the guy a wet towel, so he could put it on the gaping hole he had in his head. Mike followed the guy out to the pavement when the guy realized he was at the wrong apartment. He took him down to his nephews apartment and the cops showed up. When Mike was talking to the cop, and the guys nephew one of them asked the guy if he got beat up. And the guy, who entirely intoxicated, said "yeah I did. that guy punched me in the face" (pointing at Mike) and Mike was like "dude, you just showed up on my door step, I don't know who you are". I went outside after swallowing my stomach, and there was a massive blood trail. Blood all over my door, bottom of the door frame, side of the door frame, our door mat, steps. In the mean time we're trying to find out where this guy came from, and what happened.. And we notice that his BICYCLE was leaning against one of the garages out back, and the door as well as his bike was covered with blood as well. So then we followed the trail back the other way, and found the spot where he crashed. He either hit a parked truck on his bike, or just simply fell over. There was an extreme puddle of blood on the ground and then smears on the front of the truck.
I haven't ever witnessed ANYTHING like that in my life.
When I went to try to go to sleep that night, I had knots in my stomach so bad that I thought I was going to puke and everytime I'd close my eyes, I'd picture that guy. When I did fall asleep, I'd start sweating so bad that I'd wake up, or Mike would wake me up.
I had nightmares.
Now Im just paranoid of everything and anything that could possibly be in the dark.
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2007 18 September :: 11.37am
:: Music: HIM
Venus Doom
Just for Tonight,
We'll keep on dancing, and the city won't tell a soul.
Just for tonight the lights are shining, and our secret stays untold.....
Venus Doom is out today!! YAY!
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