Kandy

Kandy

:: 2006 6 June :: 12.44am
:: Mood: *touched*
:: Music: *Collide - Howie Day*

*its moments like these that make me want to live forever*
We're laying in bed, cuddled together, and he turns my head so im looking at him, as he caresses my cheek, he says to me "Babe, Im really sorry that I can't afford to get you anything for your birthday, I promise I will make it up to you" and then he kissed my forehead. I was speechless, and of course because Im a big sap, I got tears in my eyes. And before they had a chance to fall, he kissed me on the lips and told me that he didnt want me to cry because it would break his heart. And thats when I told him that I don't need gifts, he doesn't have to spend money on me, that all I want is him, all I need is him.

In that moment, we grew closer together.

Thursday, I am spending the day with Michael. It's just going to be us. Thats all I want. I don't want presents. I don't want anything, but to spend the day with him. I know that I spend everyday with him. But this day especially, means a lot. For the first time EVER, I have had a boyfriend for Christmas, Valentines Day, his birthday and now mine. We've been together for 7 months and 6 days. For those of you that don't realize, this is my longest relationship. He's my first true love. I have shared more with him, than with anyone else. And I don't want to share what I have shared with him, with anyone else. He's the love of my life. He's my entire world. And without him, I am not me. He helps me to be a stronger person. I would do anything to make him happy.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 4 June :: 8.59pm

Welp, schools out! yay! bonus! But Brixon is leaving soon=( My birthday is in 13 days! yay! Things are kinda awesome lately. Hanging out with my gangster Mindy, being cool an all that jazz. Working a whole fuck load. I'll be rich soon though. It's a given. Working at Burger King will land you in the big times! lol! Brixon spent the night at my house wednesday! lol! We had a grand ol time. It kinda bugs me how everytime I'm just hanging out with a guy for like an hour or more, everyone asks me if we did "stuff". It makes me question how I come off to people. Like I have "I'ma Slutbag" written on my forehead or something. I think my reputation might need to make a tid bit of a turn around or something really soon. But not too soon. (whoa that makes everything sound a whole hell of a lot worse). I dont know. The last few weekends have been fun. I hope something More comes out of all this fun though sooner or later. I dont know. I mean runny around, playing "games" is fun but it seems like it's going to get old. I dont know. Maybe that just goes along with my how I Need To Grow Up lecture I've been giving myself daily. hmm...eh.

In the words of James Ramero...Fuck It!

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rayray

:: 2006 4 June :: 4.43pm

Trailer Parks are my worst nightmare.
That and getting shot in the ghetto.

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rayray

:: 2006 3 June :: 2.38pm

Another night spent driving around the Ghetto streets of GR, and still no truck.
Because my boyfriend is a genius and can't remember his license plate number, we can't file it as stolen.
And because Mike's mom has the IQ of a rock, she couldn't keep up with him when she was supposedly chasing him. She probably stopped on some side street to turn a trick or do a deal.
R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D is what she is..

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rayray

:: 2006 2 June :: 1.49pm

Mike called into work last night.
We went on a search to GR with Will, Josie, Stanley, Scott, Kay and Glen to find Mike's truck.
No such luck because the guy that has Mikes truck, knows his way around GR better than any of us.
So we went to Mike's brothers house and picked him and Little John up.
Little John is this violent big black guy that is sensitve and caring as well. Quite strange.
And we went on the trailer park search once again.
However this time we didn't camp out all night long.
Will, Stanley, Josie, and Scott called it quit at like 1 because Will wanted to get some from his ex-wife..
And Mike and I stayed but we called it quits at like 3 and left his mom and Glen in GR, so that we could finally have some alone time for the first time all day long.
We also left because Mike didnt want to end up beating the crap out of this skanky bitch that kept trying to fight him.
Came home and went to bed.
Now Mike is going to report his truck stolen. Woo!

My car is all torn apart and being fixed..
And Mike has to work all weekend.. So if anyone wants to hang out with me.. Im sure I'll be free..

I haven't ever seen that many ho's or drug dealers before in my life..
When Mike and I were going up to his brother's apartment I went to grab the railing so i wouldnt fall down the stairs and Mike goes "i wouldn't do that, you don't know whats on there, and we dont want our fingerprints on anything"..
So him and I were side by side the whole time we were there.. He wouldn't let me out of his sight because he didnt want anything to happen to me.. Everytime I'd get scared I'd squeeze his hand, and he'd grab ahold of me.. It was cute..

Time to take a shower.. considering it is 2 in the afternoon..

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rayray

:: 2006 1 June :: 12.16pm

There is so much going through my mind right now. I dont even know where to begin. Its one big cluster-fuck of a mess. I hate her. I hate all people named Courtney. I just want her to leave him alone. Leave me alone. Why can't she let us be happy? Why does she have to be a home-wrecking whore? I refuse to give him up. I refuse to let him go. And I will not let her win. I will fight until the day I die, to be with him. Am I just paranoid that he secretly wants to be with her. That he's just settling for me? Or pretending. Yesterday was 7 months. The longest I've ever been with anyone. Sad, I know. But I love him more than anything. And I don't know what to do.

And i need a water pump for my car! He's paying for it. He's finding someone to fix it. Because there aren't enough hours in the day for him to do it. So he must care.

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rayray

:: 2006 30 May :: 12.28pm

Its well over 90 degress in my apartment..
I got my big tv.
Still no job.
I am sweating so bad.
I want to go swimming.
Duane still hasnt brought Mikes truck back so that Mike can get his tools to fix my car.
Oh yeah, my car is broke again.
But I get to drive the suburban!
Yay for laundry!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 29 May :: 7.27pm

x men 3 is the shit! i loved it! yay!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 29 May :: 10.35am

Whatta night...
So yeah...Mindy and I went to the appartments last night. fun fun fun...! and yeah...I'm going to see x3 today whether I'm with people or not.

I'd much rather be with people though so no one kidnaps me...any takers?!

please...?

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eddy	:: 2006 28 May :: 10.45pm Mmmmmm.......Cold Stone.... 11 No way... \| Tell me...

chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 May :: 4.40pm

One more year...
errg...I swear on everything that is holy, they could not be any more stupid that than already are even if they wanted to be...!

Gah do I hate this place and the peopl e in it with everything I have in me. I cant wait until I leave this all behind.

Oh and you guys probably wont see me tonight seems how my car will be here which is the dumbest thing I could possibly think of...have fun with out me!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 May :: 2.33pm

scratch those plans for today I guess. Brixon is being stupid I guess. I dont know. I'm just moody for some reason. But oh well. Guess I'm going to my sister's all night and then work tomorrow and who knows what's after that. I sure as hell dont.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 May :: 11.39am

plans for today::

Clean
Sister's bday party
Maybe box's bonfire if there's time lol
and Brixon Brixon Brixon...oh corbin too. lol...

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eddy

:: 2006 27 May :: 11.04am

Okay. Maybe a strange choice for a first time club, but it was still excellent. I went to Rumors last night. A few things I enjoyed.....
1.Hott guys
2.Hott, half-naked guys
3.Hott, half-naked guys, making out (It's a gay club)
4.Hott stripper guys dancing

SO....yeah. I've never been in a room with so many gay people before, it was strange. Very entertaining however. Why do I love gay guys so much? I really don't know. =S It was foam night too! Crazy stuff I tell you what. There was foam everywhere. It was actually very annoying because we didnt know it was foam night, and as we had clothes on, compared to most of the people, we weren't enjoying it so much. So ummm...yeah. Other than that, I got Fable the other day and I've been playing it, and I love it! lol.

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box

:: 2006 27 May :: 10.57am

BonFire!!
Having a bonfire at my dads tonight..

Everyone's Invited,

BRING YOUR OWN CHAIRS!!!!

ANd Your own drinks..

Be here at 7:30

If you have any questions just ask or call my house at 616-433-6723

I will make a roster list of people as they get ahold of me.. so far its up to:

______________________________-

Me obviously
Bonnie
Kristin
Aj

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 May :: 12.26am
:: Mood: exhausted but with a smile..
:: Music: silverstein

how glorious...!
Well Brixon is finally back. =) But only for a short time. =( But it will be whicked awesome while it last. I love that kid to pieces. And, with an awesome bonus to life, I DO NOT have to work tomorrow because I will be over hours if I do. Which isn't saying much sense because I am still in school, I'm only allowed 15 hours a week or something like that. So yeah, but that's way awesome. I get the whole Saturday off with lots of things to do. I'm thrilled. But I'm extremely tired. So I much be off to my bed where I will sleep in until late in the morning. yay...that will be splended!

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rayray

:: 2006 26 May :: 2.15pm

Ally is getting married tomorrow.
Holy crap.
Her bachelorette party last night was fun.
Interesting.
Rehersal tonight, which shall be interesting.
I have a cold.
Yay!.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 25 May :: 9.56pm
:: Music: Joyride

So I came to a conclusion today...

I have ADHD

yup...

!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 25 May :: 5.39pm

poop...

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 24 May :: 5.57pm
:: Music: The Adventure - Angels and Airwaves

fuck this shit...!
Well today was a little gay. For no reason really. but yeah, no reason to make it awesome either. I cant wait till school is out. I'm so sick of being tired and exhausted. I have to go to my niece's preschool graduation tonight so that should be adorable because she's the cutest thing on earth. Yeah...well yeah...lol. I dont know what to say. There's nothing really awesome going on in my life right now because I'm super boring and have no life really. I can not wait until X-3!! YAY!!! I'm so fucking pumped! I'm going by monday no matter what. Even if I have to go by myself, I really dont care! Because I will if I have to!

Damn my neck hurts...

Well three day weekend and then 2 days of school and then summer! yay! excited...! woo!

Welp, catch you cats on the flip side I suppose...

Adios!

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rayray

:: 2006 23 May :: 6.32pm

Good news: I do not have cancer.
Bad news: I am in desperate need of new tires for my car.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 23 May :: 3.16pm

Holy Shit...!
I'm so fucking tired. I dont even know why. I wish I had more absences left so I could have just skipped today and slept in, BUT...I dont! I have only 2 detentions to serve this time though because I only have 11 in first hour. so yeah..that's only 2. and then I have 9 in 2nd hour, like 4 in 5th hour and then 3 in 3rd, 4th, and 6th. lol. I really need to stop that. I dont know, I just dread coming to school this year. I really dont know why. It's not like I took any super hard classes or anything. I just dont like it. I think I'm getting lazier and lazier by the day. I could probably go to bed right now and just call it a night but I cant do that because I have to finish my anatomy/phys. project on OCD that is due tomorrow. and I have to present it and everything and I just started looking information up yesterday. I guess I should have started a few weeks ago when I found out about the project but...oh well. It's the end of the year, you cant expect the best out of me right now.

Yeah, 4 more day left. I cant wait. I love summer, I love swimming, and sleeping. And oh! Eating too! Eating if probably my favorite. Cause I love food! I love food a whole hell of a lot. It's the best thing on earth. lol!

25 more days until my birthday. It's my golden birthday! yay! 17 on the 17th! It'll be the best! Hopefully something cool and exciting will happen cause that would rock.

Brixon is coming back for a few weeks. He should be here either Friday or Saturday. I'm so excited! I miss him so much. One of the best friends I will ever have right there and I can not wait for all the fun we'll be having. We're going to go on so many dates and we're going to go to skelletones a few nights and junk. It's just going to be magnificent! He's going to stay with Corbin the whole time here so I'll get to hang out with my Corbinator a bunch too which rocks because I miss him too. Too bad his dumbass got expelled. What a fucking idiot....

So yeah, things should be going pretty awesome here pretty quick!

a year and 4 days left of high school for me. Holy shit...I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. That's terrible. I'm so scared yet so relieved at the same time...

Welp that's enough of me for now...BYE!! =)

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rayray

:: 2006 23 May :: 12.45pm

45 Minutes until I get my biopsy results back.
I'm a little nervous.
But that is expected when you have a biospy.

And I've decided that I want to grow old with Mike, marry him, and have kids with him.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 22 May :: 9.52pm

What a day...

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