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rayray

:: 2006 28 April :: 1.51pm

I woke up today and Mike wasn't next to me.
I started freaking out because he was there when I went to sleep.
Next thing I know, my phone is ringing and its him.
It was like he knew that I had just woke up and wondered where he was and that i hadn't gotten out of bed yet.
And then he told me to go look at my computer screen.
There was a note that said "Hey beautiful, I didn't want to wake you. I went to go get the part for my truck so I can fix it. I will be back later. I miss you"
He makes me so happy.
And I love him more everyday.

Tell me...


rayray

:: 2006 28 April :: 2.46am

After taking my contacts out for the first time in like a week, my eyes burn.
There is a red ring around the colored part of my eye.
And they are slightly blood shot.
Not like anyone can notice, because it hurts soooo much to open my eyes.

I rented Match Point and Fun with Dick and Jane tonight.
Match Point: I watched like 7 and a half minutes of it, and was bored.
Fun with Dick and Jane: Made me laugh. Like actually burst out in laughter. Too bad, I was alone in the laughing process because my dearly beloved fell asleep and was like dead to the world. I understand though, he worked last night and was up all day.

I can't stop sneezing.
I complain a lot.
But if you don't like it, you can suck on someones junk.
I really like this song and I've only heard 13 seconds of it..
Confidence (For you I will) - Teddy Geiger

Tonight my mom and I went to dinner at Smyrna (big surprise there) and as we were sitting there talking, in walks JIMMY "TIGHT PANTS" MILLER! I totally freaked out. He works at Clarion (where i was previously employed) on first shift, as a die setter. I would stop everything I was doing, just to look at him. His work pants are so tight around his butt. And he has huge biceps/triceps. Blonde hair. Blue eyes. And he's 6'4". A total dream boy. He's 24. Anyway, he walked right by us to the bathroom, and when he was walking back by us, he goes "HOLY SHIT! I didn't think I'd ever see you again". And stopped to talk to us for like 20 minutes before he went and sat with the guys he came in with. and then he went over, ordered his food played a 4 minute game of pool and LOST.. And then came back over to talk to my mom and I for like 45 minutes. And we discussed how I can't be in there after 9 because i'm only 18. He was really shocked.. Or acted shocked.. So me being the unshy person that I am, wrote my number on a napkin and when I left I went over to his table and gave it to him and told him that if he wanted to hang out sometime to give me a call..

My mom and I are sitting there taking a break from moving furniture and he calls me. So of course our 10 minute break ended up being like 40 minutes long because I was on the phone. I was really surprised that he called me. He told me to call him back, but I didn't because I went to Mike's and then we came back here. Perhaps tomorrow..

Oh, and I still love Mike more than anything so don't be thinking that just because my dream boy is talking to me, and called me, that I am going to leave Mike. Sorry kids.

I totally fucking hate my phone.. It sucks so much ass. It's broke. And I have to wait until next week to get it fixed. Bastards. I might as well just get a new one.

I hate it when people have their phones on them, and they don't answer them. they just let it ring like 8 thousand times. Pisses me right the fuck off..

My knee hurts. I feel like bitching. Which is the pain purpose of this entry. Because it is 2:59 in the A.M. I am very tired. My head/eyes hurt. I have no plans. Can't sleep. And I keep sneezing.

Alright, Im going back to my bed to cuddle with the bed hog, who whines in his sleep and when he snores, sounds like a kitten. It's adorable.. For like 2 minutes...

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 April :: 9.19pm
:: Music: I will survive - Cake

I dont know if I'm going to go to school tomorrow or not and if I do, how long I might go. My sister, Janis said she would do my hair for me cause she's awesome. Hmm...who knows? I dont know. I know that no matter what I am skipping Anatomy because I dont want to fail that fucking test...ergg...! welp, yes, tomorrow better be fun or else I'll kill someone and we dont want that to happen. And better news, my daddy came home a day early so I'll have money! YAY! and I can go buy cameras! YIPPIE!! I love Mindy! =) yay!

I'll catch you homies on the flip side in my sweet dress! =)

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 April :: 3.47pm

Gosh! The day that I finally feel better, well better than the other days, my mother finds a way to ruin it for me...


She's sucha bitch sometimes and it drives me mad!

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rayray

:: 2006 25 April :: 5.00pm

Do you ever have moments where you just start crying for no fucking reason. And you can't stop no matter how hard you try.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 25 April :: 4.15pm

I love you guys...

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rayray

:: 2006 25 April :: 1.27pm

Cocoa puff flavored milk makes me happy.

I'm flat broke.
Unemployed.
And in love.

Things are going well right now. Too well infact.
I feel like there should be something wrong.
I think I'm so used to things being shitty, that I am looking to find someone wrong. And not enjoying the fact that things are great.

Stupid life.

I'm scared. Not sure I should be, but I am.
I'm scared that I may not be able to have kids in the future. When I'm ready to have them.
Things keep happening and pointing to the possibility that I may not be able to.
And I don't think I will be able to handle it, if I can't have kids.
It would break my heart completely.
I'm too young to even have to think about this stuff..

Welp, it's time to go finish getting ready, so I can take Mike to Jodan's (Nora's baby) funeral.

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iron-cipher

:: 2006 25 April :: 8.52am

So yep it is actually me updating once in a while. I am sitting here at 9 o'clock on tuesday because I finally have a day off. It has been a long week. For those of you who don't know I started a job at Frito-Lay last week monday. It's a good job, but it is alot of physical work. Wery hard work. I walk about 12 miles a day, and lift over 6 thousand pounds by the time the night is over. Every muscle in my body is sore at the end of the night. The pay is good and I can't wait to see my first pay check, though of course it is all going toward rent. Anyway I am sad. I haven't seen rachel all week and from the sounds of it I may not see her until next week either. I work the weekends and she has been sick, her car is also kinda crapped out. I miss her alot. It's funny sometimes, you would think that it is the way that you feel when you are with somebody that would tell you that you love them, but if you see them all the time you don't notice it as much. Well I realized how much being apart and feeling like crap because the one you love is no where in sight can have the same effect. Everytime I want to share a moment with her or just wraps my arms around her and relinqish all my grief and anxiety to fate, and relax in the melodic rythm of her heart beating against my side, she is no there :( I love rachel so much and right now I miss her.

On another note I need some socail interaction please!!!!!!! I have two days off from work and I really want to get out of the house or see some old faces. *Cry for help* :P Peace all,

We Win!

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rayray

:: 2006 24 April :: 11.57pm

Mike and I combined our movie collections.
Dear lord is it huge.. the movie collection that is.
He has me do his laundry now.
So that he doesn't have to go home to get clothes.
His time spent in sheridan, is spent with his daughter.
Our relationship grows more and more each day.

We saw Brian and his girlfriend at Taco Bell tonight
I caused an awkward moment.
I guess saying "you're out late on a school night" to Tiffany was the wrong thing to say.
Either that or it was "My Brian, your daughter is growing up so fast".
Because I got a couple of dirty looks and they didn't talk to us anymore.

Im a bitch. But it's fun.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 24 April :: 8.56pm

Have you ever asked yourself; "What's the point in even trying?"

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eddy

:: 2006 24 April :: 8.22pm

The best story in the world people. And it's not finished Yet. Oh yes, there will be much more to come. XD

Stacy's Date #1

Stacy's Date #2

Stacy's Date #3

This isn't part of the series. This is a song Sydney made for Stacy's Australian "lover" =D haha
Sydney's Song for Christian

We had another video too, but me and sydney are in our underwear (nothing dirty you pervs!) And so she made me make it private. So even if I gave you the link, you couldn't watch it! =D

Enjoy Kids!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 24 April :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Secrets dont make friends - From First To Last

Things just keep getting better and better dont they...?
So, I've come to realize that you really cant trust anyone. There are a limited number of people that I desided that I can trust with most things. I just think I have to be more considerate towards myself when choosing friends and other people who want to have some kind of realationship with me. I'm sick of thinking I know someone and then turns out they've been lying to me or talking behind my back. Drama, drama, drama...I tell ya...I cannot wait until summer. Then I choose who I want to see each day. I'm sick of dealing with fucking backstabbing bitches who complain about their lives and then try to fuck up someone else's. Seriously, how can you be so two-faced?! ugh! I really hate people.


Fuck...!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 23 April :: 7.41pm
:: Music: Dutch Treat - Jaja Swab

"You know you're dating an emo kid when he has more razors than you"
Well, Battle of the Bands on Friday...Pretty awesome. I was a Judge. It was cool. Jaja Swab won! My boys!!! yay! Mike's band was there. *gags* God do I hate him. You know I was beginning to deside, I didn't hate him, I hated the situation...then I found something out. Okay, Friday Lauren golfed with a girl from Fremont whom claimed to be friends with a girl that dated a kid named Mike Todd at the BEGINNING of the school year...how ironic eh? I dated a kid named Mike Todd at the beginning of the school year as well...as soon as I heard that, my mind changed again...I hate him. With everything I have in me do I hate him. But what I hate the most is the fact that the more I hate him, the more I miss him...but I'll never, in a million years go back to that...I'm better and stronger than that.


Anyways, Saturday rolled around...had to work. Then Mindy and I went to the movies. We saw Benchwarmers. It was my second time seeing it and it didn't get old. Funny shit...I love that movie. Then I spend the night at Mindy's and had to be to work at 8 in the morning which blew but I got out at 1 so that's ok. We had our gay Spring Concert for band today. It was so fucking retarded. Oh well though I suppose. That shit is almost over with anyways.

Prom is this week which is pretty fucktastic! I cant wait! I'm going to look so hot. You're all going to want to do me but...I probably wont let you...ok I might but it's only because I dont want you guys to die cause I know if I was someone else who wanted to do me and I wouldn't let me, I'd die and that wouldn't be too cool. lol..yeah I'm pretty full of myself I know..

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rayray

:: 2006 22 April :: 4.00pm

If I hadn't already paid for my dress. I'd tell them to fuck off.

This has been a very good week. Things are going so great between Mike and I. We are very happy. AND I have hung out with FRIENDS! Imagine that. My car got fixed as well. Mike and I went out in public together in GRAND RAPIDS. We also went to my moms the other day. And he took me to meet his grandma, and a couple more aunts and uncles.

Yesterday we went to hospital to see his cousin Nora, because she lost her baby. She was 5 months along and the baby died. However, they think the doctor killed it. I feel so bad for her. We took her flowers and a card.

We went to the Secretary of State yesterday and there was this guy sitting behind us, and the lady that was walking around asking the people what they were there for and what not, asked him if he wanted his title today or mailed to him in which he'd recieve it in 5-7 days. Without hesitation he goes "Whats faster?". Mike and I laughed for about 5 mintues.

When we were on our way to grand rapids we were behind this van that stopped at a GREEN light. Mike and his road rage that is like 10 times worse than mine, goes "People need to learn how to read". I was like "hey, uhm, I hate to break it to you, but stop LIGHTS don't have words on them".

Last night I hung out with Rachel Waringa. It was nice to see her again. I miss her.

Anyway.. Im bored.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 20 April :: 8.07pm

Went to the mall with Mindy, Jessica, Eddy, and Holly. We had loads of fun. Was going to hang out with Gravid but he cancelled on me! ugh...ahole! kidding...Yeah I got a sweet Marilyn Monroe tank top. I love it. and yeah...Eddy, Jessica, and I went to Wendy's for some chow and we left and got down 17 mile a little ways and Eddy realized that Jessica threw away her retainer. haha! It was hillarious. lol.


But battle of the Bands is tomorrow! yay!!! woohu! fun!

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joslyn_julia

:: 2006 19 April :: 10.57pm

well, hmm... what to say. nothing i guess. i hate it here, i want to be working... i should probably stop drinking.
hmmm.... i thought i would write to clear my head, but idk. I managed to probably get myself a black eye, through a tackle that backfired. i don't care tho.
tomorrow... i am debating on going to class. since 1. i hate the class, and 2. it is a waste of time. we will see how i feel in the morning, since class doesn't start until 10.

but for lack of better things to do... here is a fucking awesome poem.
Have a nice life:
i received one kiss for the duration of the trip and it was loveless as if made by lifeless lips. Thes lips are sealed you bitch, so keep that one locked up because it's all that you'll get. Your life (in my eyes) isn't worth my time on the five-hour flight. Have a nice life and thank you so mcuh for ruining mine. I hope you and Daniel are living it up, and i hope you don't miss me and don't give a fuck. Because I'm sure with my luck this will happen again and someone will replase the distaste created by the sound of your name. This could be the last chand i have to elaborate and display the choices i made and the patiently waiting i did for the day when you'd say that "my feelings for you are quickly receding, almost as fast as your heart is beating". When it stops they will stop, when you drop then I'm off to get on with my life and leave yours with the ghost of the past.

-Kenny Vasoli
The starting line

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 19 April :: 9.02pm
:: Music: A Crazy Little Thing Called Love - Queen

So tomorrow...I'm pretty much skipping golf to go shopping with Mindy, Eddy, Jessica, and Holly. It should be fun. I have more stuff to get for prom and I need new Khakis for golf so yeah. That all needs to be done. I have an all day turnament on friday, hoping that goes well. But I dont know. Depending on what time we get back from the mall I might go to the course and do a little bit of practicing by my lonesome. Yup...that's pretty much the plan. And then Friday night is the Battle Of The Bands! I'm soo excited! I might get to be a judge! That would be awesome. So yeah, if you're not doing anything Friday night at 7, head over to Tri County and check it out. It's only 3 bucks and there are like 6 or 7 bands playing, It's going to be awesome. And Mike's band is playing, so yeah, we're pretty much throwing bags or shit at him so dont miss it! lol!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 19 April :: 4.36pm

ATTENTION EDDY AND JESSICA!!!
This is pretty much just a letter to Eddy and Jessica...

I NEED your prom money this week! prefferably this week. Monday is the very last day. I hate to be blunt, but if you dont get me your money then I guess you're not going. I dont have the money to pay for you so please get it to me this week. It's only 20 bucks, I already got Kelly and Mindy's money so you two just need to let me know what's going on. ok? OK!

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joslyn_julia

:: 2006 19 April :: 12.58pm

Well, i am 19 and none of you bitches wished me a happy birthday... which makes me glad that i don't talk to almost any of you anymore.

Being home last weekend was nice. it was really good to see dani and lisa and matty. not so great to see other people. it's funny how actions really do speak louder than words. maybe people should try and synchronize what they say with what they do, so then it doesn't seem so hypocritical.

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rayray

:: 2006 19 April :: 12.18pm

Me: If she had half a fucking brain, it'd kill her.

Jason says: as aposed to the 1/64th brain she has now?

Me: More like .00001/Infinity

Jason says: that was the smallest easy fraction I could think of.

Me: Im not good with fractions as you can tell.. haha

Jason says: considering you used a decimal in one.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 18 April :: 9.45pm
:: Music: Roll over DJ - Jet

Soyer Reed is the baby's name. Like Tom Soyer from Tom and Huck. At first it reminded me of Forest Gump but then I was like "No,no, no...Mark Twain..." lol. yup, he's the cutest thing sense sliced bread...aww...



At first I was confused, then I was hopefull, then I was hurt, then I was pissed with a passion, and now...I really dont feel anything...it's like nothing really matters anymore. It's kinda a weird feeling that nothing is...I dont know. All these emotions came in about a week and a halfs worth of time too. I think I like the feeling of nothing better than all the other ones. I'm just going to go with the flow for now on. And yes, I know I've said this before time and time again, but this time I'm more than serious. I'm just not going to try ever again. If anyone wants anything to happen, they're doing all the work because I could really careless now. This was kinda my breaking point I guess. And you'd really think Mike would have been the breaking point, but then I just let things go too far with people and I'm left alone in the end and I really don't like that feeling of lonelyness...it really sucks way too much. But yes...in conclusion:: Realationships are too much to deal with for me lately. I'm not going to try. I'm sick of all the stress and hurt I get in the end from it all. If there is someone out there that is actually interested in ME...like my personality and thinks I'm cool, and wants to hang out with me more than they want to do me...you know, that's awesome. We'll talk I guess...I'm not promising anything because I'm not even going to try, like I said before, I'm done with doing everything I can to make things work, I want someone to break their back for me for once...


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rayray

:: 2006 18 April :: 3.32pm
:: Mood: *confused*
:: Music: *tears and rain - james blunt*

*with beautiful weather comes new beginnings*
The past few days have been the best.
Today especially.
The weather is nice.
And Mike and I have been having so much fun together.
He has smiled so much.
It feels so great inside to see him smile.
We've both learned so much about each other today too.
And I'm falling in love with him all over again.
Which makes it all the harder.
He is truly the love of my life.
I don't want it to end.

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box

:: 2006 18 April :: 7.04am

http://video.feber.se/2006/03/chuck_norris_ls.html


One of the greatest cover-ups of the last century was the fact that Hitler
did not commit suicide in his bunker, but was in fact tea-bagged to death by
Chuck Norris.

each hair on chuck norris' beard has it's own beard.

Chuck Norris owns the greatest poker face of all-time. It helped him win the 1983 World Series of Poker despite him holding just a joker, a get out of jail free Monopoly card, a 2 of clubs, 7 of spades and a green #4 card from the game Uno.

Chuck Norris is the reason Cap'n Crunch's eyebrows are on his hat.

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rayray

:: 2006 16 April :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: *pissy*
:: Music: *nobody said it was easy - coldplay*

*pictures from my surgery*

Yeah, I know this is just what you wanted to see for Easter.

I'm still in a pissy mood.
But it's okay.
I passed up my chance to hang out with the most gorgeous guy ever.
Yes, I'm fucking retarted.
And in love with a complete ass hole.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 16 April :: 11.52am

YAY!!!
So once again, I am Aunt Chelsea. My new nephew was born this morning at 9:49 am!! yay! I had to go to my sister's house last night at like 2 in the morning because they had to go to the hospital. I'm so happy. Me and my neice Madison had a very nice Easter together. She's hillarious, very quotable...

Me: "We'll get you dressed in your Easter Sunday Best..."
Madison: "I don't think I have any 'Best'...?"

Madison: "Is my mom at the hospital?"
Me: "Yup, she's going to have the baby"
Madison: "Good! She's been dying to get that out of her.."

*Madison gets off the phone with her dad*
Me: "Well, what'd he say?"
Madison: "Well the baby is on the outside now..."

I love kids. I'm so glad there is one more to add to my little 'Collection'. lol.

My parents called the hospital this morning to get directions and my sister was on the phone with them, telling them how to get there...while she was pushing the baby out...=| just as calm as could be too. lol. Pretty insane if you ask me. She must have gotten all the drugs she asked for I guess. I think she only has babies because she's addicted to the drugs they give her there. lol. What a weirdo...

I wish I didn't have to work today so I could go see my new nephew...=( oh well I suppose. I'll do see him tomorrow after golf practice which I really must to go to because I have to play in the match on tuesday cause I'm just that good or something.

I'm on the phone with Ash. My parents are home. They said my nephew is extreme handsome...yay =)

I work from 2-10...damn! Ash is going to tape Desperate Housewives for me. Yippie!


bye...

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