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2005 12 February :: 3.31pm
:: Music: Scars - Papa Roach
i tear my heart open
i sew myself shut
my weakness is
that i care too much
and my scars remind me
that the past is real
i tear my heart open
just to feel
drunk and im feeling down
and i just wanna be alone
im pissed 'cause you came around
why dont you just go home
'cause you channeled all your pain
and i cant help you fix yourself
you're making me insane
all i can say is
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
that youre drowning in the water
so i offered you my hand
compassion's in my nature
tonight is our last stand
cause youre drowning in the water
and i tried to grab your hand
i left my heart open
but you didnt understand
you fix yourself!
i cant help you fix yourself
but at least i can say i tried
im sorry but i gotta move on with my own life
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2005 10 February :: 9.28am
:: Music: Predictable - Good Charlotte
Something isn't right,
I can feel it again, feel it again.
This isn't the first time,
That you left me waiting.
Sad excuses and false hopes high,
I saw this coming, still I don't know why,
I let you in.
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong,
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
You're so predictable.
So take your empty words, Your broken promises,
And all the time you stole,
'Cause I am done with it,
I could give it away,
I'm doing everything I should of,
Now I'm making a change,
Living the day,
I'm giving back what you gave me
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong,
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
You're so predictable.
Now everywhere I go,
Everyone I meet,
Every time I try to fall in love,
They all want to know why I'm so broken.
Why I'm so cold, why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared?
What am I afraid of?
I don't even know, this story's never had an end.
I've been waiting,
I've been searching,
I've been hoping,
I've been dreaming you would come back,
But I know the ending of this story.
And you're never coming back,
Never...
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong... (So predictable...)
Everywhere I go for the rest of my life,
Everyone I love, (So predictable...)
Everyone I care about,
They're all gonna want to know what's wrong with me. (So predictable...)
And I know what it is, What it is is right now
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2005 10 February :: 8.21am
Gmail Invites
For those of you who still don't have Gmail accounts, now that Gmail has given many people over 50 invitations, the isnoop.net gmail invite spooler has over 1.5 million invitations to distribute. So everyone should be able to get one.
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2005 9 February :: 9.19am
:: Music: I'm No The One - Sum 41
Bittersweet
I'm not sure what I am feeling right now.
Last night people came to look at my car and this morning they called me and said they will most likely buy it and will call me back today at like 1. The time is finally here, but I really don't want to let my baby go. My car is so sweet and I put lots of time and money into it. Anyway I'm not sure what I want now, back before I bought the Acura, almost two full years ago I wanted a S-10. I still want one, and I have found some for around the $9k range. I will get almost $5k to spend off the sale of my car, and I planned on getting a cheap $3k car/truck/thing and spend the rest on a very old bike, but now I don't really want some old piece to drive around in. So I'm thinking I'm gonna buy like a $8-$9k S-10 or Tacoma, then save for the bike. Hmm... Heres some links to the trucks I'm thinking about...
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=175430187
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=176018492
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=176733262
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=170654479
The last one is less likely because its not extended cab.
or the tacomas for more money...
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=177634503
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=177294970
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=176549722
http://autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=177615458
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2005 8 February :: 10.54am
Man's Bestfriend
He is my bud, he is always happy and cheers me up with just the thought of him, and as you can see he is so cute how could you not be cheered up by the sight or thought of him. His name doesn't really apply to him anymore, because he doesn't act like a drunk anymore. He is more like tigger from winnie the pooh, his name should be Cracky because of how hyper and nuts he is.
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2005 8 February :: 7.47am
:: Music: Rhythms - Sum 41
G's & B's
Well this weekend didn't really have many high points.
Friday I spent the better part of the night talking with this guy that wanted to buy my car. Finally my dad told him to come back tomorrow because he was pretty damn shady. After that I think it was the same ol thing, chillin in Kyle's room with JD and Jon.
Saturday my Aunt and grandma came out to have dinner with us, and Tom and Nicole came too. Tom and I had some beers and I got pretty damn drunk... Well I did once we got home anyway. I don't even remember much that night.
Sunday I went with my parents to the Fenbags house for the Super Bowl. It was fun because it reminded me of old times. I don't think I have gone there since the first time that those damn Fagriots won. Anyway its cool to see Ryan and Rayna again. I know Joe told me not to persue Rayna, so I'm not... But damn she is hot, I invited her and her brother to my party on the 19th.
The party is gonna be so badass (hopefully), I got prices for kegs and found out its like $123 for a keg of Newcastle which will serve about 140 servings of 12oz. That would be like 6 beers for 23 people. Hopefully people tell lots of others about this party because I was going to go buy some more beer and some other shit so people can "PICK THEIR POISON" So yah I hope word of mouth works out.
Last night I found out that its $1 drafts at the bowling alley... I have been going for like 3 months and I just now found this out! I was pissed though because Newcastle was still $4.50 for a small ass glass, but I think next week I'm bringing lots o' money. I keep remembering my dad's stories of drunk bowling, and how he had his best games then. HAHA
Hmm... I guess its time for the G's and B's...
Good: Eagles Lost, Bad: Fagriots Won
Good: I got drunk, Bad: At dinner with family
Good: I have lost like 25 lbs, Bad: I don't see it
Good: I like not being in school right now, Bad: Sometimes I wish I was in school
Good: Weeks go by super fast, Bad: If I don't party on the weekend I feel like i haven't done anything.
Good: I want to be more social, Bad: I'm afraid I am trying to be something I'm not.
Good: Rayna's hot, Bad: I'm not
Good: Joe's new woman, Bad: She is a friends ex
Good: Chapelles Show Season 2 comes out today, Bad: I dont have any money
Good: My birthday is coming, Bad: So is valentines day
Good: I'm finished with this entry, Bad: It's not my LAST entry ever.
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2005 3 February :: 10.13pm
Originally Posted by Joe:
If you take another one away from me, I'm through with you.
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