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2005 22 June :: 1.07am
my truck is broken!!!! and i am not happy about it, walk out of work this lovely evening to find out that it has a huge flat tire, so i have to leave my truck at work, i dont like that thought at all, josh says it will be fine but for some reason i dont have that same feeling, i think something else is going to happen to it, i just want my truck back
i guess it seems like i have voiced my opinion out too much and that im sorry that i run to others to talk to instead of the ones i really should, but in the end i just have always had this bad part of talking the probelm out, its almost like when its face to face i just dont care or basically dont know what to say, so im sorry for everyone tihat i have brought into this situation or put u in a weird spot. im just clustered fucked, i have myself more problems then i know what to do with.
well i have th e next two days off !!! what am i going to do with my time, go to the lake, or lay by the pool... ummm so many choices, josh goes back to work tomorrow, so he wont be around my sister and ella are coming down on thursday so im excited to see them its been since christmas since i have seen them last, thats a long time she has to begetting big now, but im off to bed since there isnt anything else to do
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2005 21 June :: 11.21am
is living together tearing you two apart?
2 nights on the couch, now, is something wrong, i think i lost the part of me that enjoys cuddling and what not, i would rather just be left alone, then be smothered i think its time for a vacation, but where should i go~
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2005 19 June :: 10.18pm
i just cant stand it anymore~~~
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2005 18 June :: 11.49am
i found myself back into wondering, is this really the life that i want, am i really ready to have just one relationship. something lately just has been holding me back i dont know if its just the thought of someone else, or if its the fact that things are good, but over all everything is standing out to me, the fact i cant do anything by myself, always getting called, seems as if there is no trust, work keeps gettin less and less each week, it just really starting to seem like i find more and more things that i dont like each week. and then when i do tell him im mad at him or upset, he just seems to buy his way out of it, by getting me what ever i want or taking me out to eat.
supposed to go grocery shoppin today and mitch's open house, but for some reason it looks like i have to go by myself since josh and kyle went to silver lake today, ummm hes sick to go to work today but its alright for him to go to silver lake and spend money, money that is supposed to be saved for the 4th,
i truely think im just starting to pick out every little detail that i just cant stand anymore, but im goin to go shopping i guess i have nothing better to do than just hang out here and thats really not any fun
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2005 14 June :: 3.27pm
so we ran up to silver lake on sunday since tom and angie and the boys and everyone was up there, we left at 6 am what were we thinking i have no clue especially since i got out at work at 2:30,. so yeah sunday was a very long day. we helped pack camp up and everything and headed out to the dunes it was fun being able just to hang out with everyone, it was really over cast and windy so it made it somewhat cold but not to bad, everyone that wanted to was still able to get in the water and what not. we had to call the trip short because we had a quad run into ted's truck and do aot of damage to it, and i think it totalled the quad, hopefully the rider was alright :) are prays out to him...
That just a quick little note but i have to head to work,
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2005 8 June :: 10.13pm
Say hello to the girl that I am!
You're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make misstakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected
There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do
God, I need some answers
I don't need nobody's
Tellin me just what I wanna
What I what what what I'm gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody's telling me just what I wanna do, do
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me
Good Ole Britney Spears
Gotta love her
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2005 6 June :: 11.50pm
it seems now a days that i cant enjoy a night off of work, to hang out with my girls, some how it always manages to work out that he has taken the day off, or like today he feel ill, but it was st ill alright to go out and hang out with nick and all of them, tom and angie, you know the usuals, i dont think he has worked a full week since we moved into this apartment, where is my time alone to be away from people,
~ its almost like a lost puppy dog~
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