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2006 21 February :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: sick
I feel like shit. My lungs feel like they are going to..I don't know, fall out or something if I cough anymore. It's sucky. I hate being sick. Why can't I just be healthy for at least a month straight?
I said I wasn't going to go out tonight because I just stated that I'm sick but I don't want to cancel my plans at the last minute. I'll just go, have a good time, and not complain.
Haha what an akward day for Elyse and I. We never should have told that boy those things. Now he thinks we love him just as much as he loves us. We were only kidding. It was all just for a joke. So now I have to avoid him and when I do run into him, I just have to look the other way.
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2006 20 February :: 7.12pm
and when you finally regret it....blame yourself.
I'm only doing this because I have to.
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2006 20 February :: 1.08pm
i should get around and take a shower. i stayed at keegans last night.. now hes at work. he stayed at my house friday. basically this has just been an us weekend.. which is noneless than wonderful.
yesterday was another rampage game. no need to update about what an incredible amazing FANTASTIC boyfriend i have... i think everyone knows that. (really.. though, mines the best.... :)
we got lucky at my house, we only lost power for like 3 hours on thursday or whenever the storm hit, and then saturday morning we lost it for about 4 hours... but other than that... i've been warm, toasty, and using electronics over here.... hate me if you must. *smiles*
my moms boyfriend/friend/whatever he is is leaving today to fly back to conneticut... (thats where he lives) im sad hes leaving... but a little releived. why.. im not sure. probably because he's been over at our house like every day.
i dont think my hair is brown enough now. perhaps i'll get it dyed next time instead of putting alot of lowlights in. or perhaps i'll go back to being blonde. ehh... who knows.
the whole house is clean... and i made french toast when i got home today. how keegan can not like french toast is beyond me. loser.
its so nice not having to tan anymore. i hate tanning.. its so incredibly bad for your skin. the only time i EVER want to tan is for dances and my wedding.. lol. and seems how i only plan on getting married once and only have prom left.... my skin will stay youthfull and magnificant. so HA all you crispy skinned tan-o-holics.
i really dont have a single other thing to say now.
wooo school tomorrow. wooo 2 impossible deadlines to meet on friday.
this week WILL suck hardcore.
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2006 19 February :: 1.12am
ahhhhhhhh, I love Jake so much it's overwhelming!!!!! I LOVE HIM!!!!!
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2006 17 February :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: Tired And Excited
Definitly Not An Ordinary Day Lol.
So you want to talk about an exciting couple of days... i got it! Yeah, so yesterday was the lovely ice storm of the century. And of course, we lost power along with like 17,000 other people. My dad, my mom, and I all had a candle-light spaghetti dinner last night. I went to bed at, get this, 8:00. I read my book "Phantoms" for about 30 minutes then i just crashed. Their was absalutly nothing to do but have like a stairing contest with my dogs or something lol. Then my dad work me up at like 7:30 and asked me if i wanted to go with him to get our generator from up north. So of course i did because i knew he would buy me breakfast from BK and plus, what else was their for me to do. Oh and about the power cutting out on Thursday- it would cut out on Thursday, the BEST night for my shows! Their was a new Surviver, Without A Trace, AND the best... CSI! Since we have Tivo it normally records things for us, but yeah no recording went on Thrsday night... rar! Anyways so back to this morning, after we got home i started my car cuz like everything was frozen and i didnt want my car to like freeze. Well i had it on for like 30 minutes just warming up, and i still couldnt scrap all the ice completley off of it. It was ridiculous. Then i like called everyone and their brother to see who had electricity and who didnt so that i could take a shower somewhere. Then finally ashley called me and she was going to her dads so of course im going with her lol! On the way there me and Ash were talking about how like everything like the trees and well just everything was frozen and the sun was shining on everything so it seemed like we were living in a glass world. We were talking about how like... its like in the movie "The Day After Tomorrow" and like the whole world is just froze over haha. So yeah when we got here, i took a shower and ooo boy, that shower was the greatest lol. Then me, Ashley, and Brina went to Alpine to go shopping. First we went to Khols and got Brina like 2 outfits, then we went to Target and get her 3 more! She is such a bad kid lol, we were walking in Target like up and down the rows and in her sweet little 3 year old voice she goes... "bbbiitccchh" haha, its so disturbing lol. We picked out some new shoes for her too! There so adorable. So yeah... OMG! Ok so at Target, we were leaving and we were going to the driving exit and Ashley goes "What is that! And why is their windows fogged!? OMG KELLI! LOOK! THEIR HAVING SEX!" I like freaked out. Who has sex in a Target parking lot in the middle of the fucking day! So i told her to turn back and like park right next to them, so she was driving up like next to them and they were like putting their shirts back on hahahahahaha! What an expirence. Once in a life time lol. So yeah after that lovely time, when we got back here (*to Ashleys dads*) he took us all out to dinner. We went to Sams Joint in Rockford, and of coures i got shrimp cuz im obsessed lol. Ashley knew what i was gunna order even before i ordered lol. Then after that Ashley convinced him to bring us to Cold Stone.... YAY! I love Cold Stone:). I had ice cream with M&M's in it... I love how they make it like right in front of you. Brina didnt want anything but sprinkles... lol, no ice cream no nothing, just plain sprinkles lol. I love Ashleys dad. He's like, bomb haha. On Sunday im going over to Brittany Hansons and were going to Chic (Sheekk) to get our hair died with some highlights or lowlights idk yet! Im excited but i dont really know what im getting yet so if anyone has any ideas... comment on if you think i should go darker or lighter... cuz i have no idea!
Anyways i think this journal was long enough and i know the only one whos actually gunna read this whole thing is Ashley so yeah bye lol!
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2006 17 February :: 10.21pm
I'm at my dads right now with Kelli and Brina. Kelli is downstairs in my room on my computer right now and i'm upstairs in my kitchen on my laptop. My dad hasn't gotten us wireless internet here yet for our house so I figured I wouldn't get any signal but I picked up signal from one of our neighbors so now we don't have to pay for it lol. It's pretty exciting. Brina is downstairs annoying everyone while i'm up here in the piece and quiet! Thank god.
Today Kelli and I went shopping for Brina and we got her the cutest outfits. I got her the cutest shoes too! I had to get her some pink ballet flats, of course :) and then we got her pink cowgirl boots. They're so cute. She's stylin' now.
Ohhh yeah. We can't forget this story. We were at Target today too and we got into my car and we were on our way out of the parking lot and I seen this car that was basically parked out in the middle of no where and the windows were foggy but I could still see in it and I seen this guy and girl having sex and I was like "OMG KELLI THEY'RE HAVING SEX!" and she's like "WHAT?!" so she wanted me to turn around and we pulled up right next to them and they started putting their clothes back on. I'm not even kidding about any of this. I was disgusted. Who has sex in a parking lot? I never would have sex where random people could see me. That's a little, umm GROSS!?!
I went out to dinner and to Cold Stone tonight! I love that place. If you haven't been there you probably should go.
I guess we aren't supposed to get our power back until Sunday at midnight which is too long so that's why I wont be returning there anytime soon.
I'm getting a little freaked out. I feel like i'm being watched up here. We have a huge windows in my kitchen and I just heard a loud noise in the garage so I ran downstairs.
crazything2132 (10:39:21 PM): why r u coming downstairs
crazything2132 (10:39:26 PM): is that you?
crazything2132 (10:40:42 PM): omg
crazything2132 (10:40:46 PM): what was the loud noice
crazything2132 (10:40:50 PM): are u dead?
Born2bOnStage x3 (10:41:38 PM): you heard that loud noise?
Yeah..what a nice friend haha.
I just want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so.
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2006 16 February :: 9.40pm
Well we don't have power here either. I'm on my laptop though. I seriously am greatful that I have one because otherwise I probably would be going nuts right now like I was a few minutes ago before I realized I could get on the internet from my laptop. My three year old cousin Brina is here and I'm watching her until Sunday and anyways she wanted to find her lip gloss that I gave her and it was upstairs in my room and she kept telling me to go get it for her because it was "too dark" upstairs so we gave her a flashlight and we told her to go get it herself and she was up there for like 5 minutes until we realized we didn't hear her anymore so then we started calling her name and she wouldn't respond and then randomly she goes "I lost my flashlight!" it was so funny. She was just sitting up there in the dark looking for it. I was cracking up when she said that. I love her so much.
He confuses me so much. Why does he keep asking. I haven't figured it out yet. Well I have one idea but who knows if that's even possiable.
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2006 16 February :: 12.54pm
I don't want you to know where I am because then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it. See that line, well I never should have crossed it. Stop right there. Well I never should have said that, it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to try and never become that way again, cause who I am hates who i've been.
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2006 15 February :: 9.36pm
Aww tonight was fun *smiles*.
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2006 15 February :: 8.56am
Swirl was wonderful.... except for the whole music part. pshh.. who needs music right? I'm sorry, but if you go to a dance, expect to hear hip hop music, because you really cant dance to much else. a few here in there is fine... but when the majority of the dance is comprised of rock songs, it kind of ruins it. we were really dissapointed when we left. the decorating was sensational though. it was absolutely gorgeous!
before swirl i suprised keegan... finally i SUPRISED the man. (man... hmmm sounds so.. weird...) i told him we were going out for dinner, but i actually had my room all set up with candles and roses and chocolate covered strawberries. i set up a table in the middle of my room with a red table cloth and confetti and "sparkling grapejuice" and wine glasses (because we're cute and LEGAL like that) and i had the note book playing with no sound on my computer just for an added affect. it turned out wonderful. it was the best dinner we've ever had together as far as "romantic" goes. after the dance we came back to my house and fell asleep.... we had to get up early for the rampage game.
then on sunday keegan brought me to bobbys around like 10 (he had to be to the arena WAY early) where i went back to sleep (what a gentleman.... sleeping on the floor so i could have the bed) BUT i couldnt fall asleep because i was to "awake" by that point.. but bobby wouldnt wake up.. so i had a lot of down time. which was nice.
the game was awesome. we had really good seats (free seats i might add) the routine was even BETTER this week. and once again... i have the coolest boyfriend in the entire world. not to mention like a zillion other adjectives that would HARDLY even do him justice.
now... Valentines Day.
first of all, Stacy.... I could just DIE im so happy right now. I just want to squeeze you and hug you and be all giddy and jump up and down and rent laguna. but i'll refrain.
last night was so wonderful. i went home and took a shower, then keegan came over and whisked me away. (giggles... OH and while i was at school i walked into my senate office second hour and there was a flower arrangement with tulips and roses... my favorites.... from the flower pace and chocolates... i was so suprised. i didnt think we were getting eachother anything for valentines day.. then he goes and does that. how sweeet. i was shocked when i walked in there.. it took me a minute for it to click that he had brought me flowers.) we went to this restaurant in Grandville called Kobe, its an Ichibon restaurant where they cook your food right at your table.
when we got there we had to wait like 20 minutes so we ordered sushi.. and OMG it was the best sushi i've ever had. we've had the same kind (philadelphia roll... which has samon, avacodo, creme cheese.. and then of course in a hand roll, rolled in rice... for all you "eewww raw fish" people out there) at terriyaki and sushi.. and this stuff just blew it away! so then we get seated, and you sit around a grill with nine people and he comes out and cooks all your meals RIGHT there. its so cool. he lit the grill on fire to make it hot and it just exploded up into the air.. he cracked the eggs in the coolest way (which sounds nerdy.. but for real), he made a volcano with a pile of onions.. it was just incredible. and holllly cow i've never had food that tasted better in my LIFE. i like fried rice more than white rice.. the guy takes white rice and makes it INTO fried rice right in front of you. it was awesome. you REALLY have to go there and see for yourself. i warn you however, its really expensive... but WELL worth it.
so that was our valentines day.. we were gonna go to Cold Stone.. but they had already closed. nothing big, nothing spectacular.. just us being us.
*smiles... i am by far the luckiest girl in the world. i have keegan.... and nobody else can say that except for me. sure we argue and sure there are times we drive eachother crazy.. but there has NEVER been a time that we even considered breaking up. we're stronger than that. we bring out the absolute best in eachother.
:) you're the greatest.
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2006 14 February :: 11.30pm
I can't sleep.
I don't even know what to say. I really think you lied to me. It doesn't even make a difference though. You'll get what you wanted. I wont. End of story.
Well I've heard it all before and i'm tired of all the lies.
You definitely dissapoint me. So much.
I guess now I know how you feel.
Sorry.
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2006 14 February :: 4.44pm
The things I thought you'd never know about me were the things I guess you always understood.
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2006 14 February :: 10.35am
Is it really totally pathetic if I am completely unmotivated, and can't seem to force myself to do anything that I should do? and yet, I'm totally willing to do everthing that I shouldn't? I think it's pathetic, and I'm sick of it. And yet, for the life of me, I can't make myself change it! So I guess I'm just going to have to continue being a bum and not get anything accomplished that I should, and continue not caring. It's so easy.
Happy Valentines Day Everyone! I'm having a really really good day!!! even though I have over two hours till my next class........grrrr!! after spring break this will be better! I have to go to Meijer's today. I've been saying that for a week now, and I still haven't gone. SEE!! totally unmotivated!!! I don't know what's wrong with me!!! I just don't care! Maybe I'm finally sick of spending money, but that's doubtful, I think I am just sick of going to school. It gets in my way of doing stuff that I wanna do. Oh, and I'm sick of being told what to do. I wish so bad that I was more independent. Seriously, it's completely unfair the things that I still have to do. Maybe I just think so because I'm the one who has to do them, but it seems to me that once everyone on this planet is in college, and have a job, and pay for their own stuff, have a little bit more freedom than I have. I don't know, maybe it's just me.
But anyways, I got the best Valentines Day present this morning when Jake picked me up. It was the most thoughful present I have ever gotten. It means more when it's completely done to make you happy, and you know that every piece of it is honest and true. Ahhh, I am the luckiest person on this planet. I know that's what everyone says when they find someone to love, but honest to God, I am, we are the most perfect couple I have ever seen. I don't know, I can't stress enough how much he means to me, we've tried so hard to find the words that make what we feel for each other seem enough, but the words don't exist. We feel and mean more to each other that no words would ever be big enough, or have enough meaning to make it seem as big and important as it is. I LOVE JAKE MELLEMA, and that doesn't do it any justice.
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2006 13 February :: 10.59pm
well i did a sparrow tattoo on my left leg and im pretty happy to say besides acouple bad lines it turned out pretty good. im happy. tommorrow is valentines day and i have no money to get erica anything. good thing she doesnet care that much. well i just wanted to say i did a good tattoo and hopefully ill get a picture on here soon.
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2006 11 February :: 2.17pm
I feel like such a bitch.
I'm sorry.
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2006 10 February :: 5.28pm
So I kind of have a differen't Spring Break plan. Lisa and I were going to go to Atlantis in the Bahamas this year but my dad decided that he want's us to go next year and it will be our graduation present so that's next year and he said he'll probably let us go by ourselves if we wait until next year so that's even better. He promised that we can go next year so i'm really excited for that. This year he wants us to stay in the U.S. haha so we are going to Florida. I'm pretty excited for that too. We can't decide which day we want to leave to go there. We have to leave Florida by April 7th because my grandma is going to go to where my family is from (Italy) so yeah she's pretty lucky she's going there.
So I guess that's really all. Spring Break isn't all that far away. I can't wait!!
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2006 10 February :: 12.04am
the end
i'm not gonna use this woohu anymore.
i'm gonna use my old one.
thanks.
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2006 9 February :: 11.31am
Our Conversation at the Jail-Support for Yesterday's Entry
NOTE: Both parties have permagrin the whole time.
Me: " So what are you doing on Valentines Day? "
Him: " Umm...I'm supposed to go to a movie with Nikki...why?"
Me: " I was just wondering...I didn't have any plans."
Him: " Well, I don't really want to go with her. How about we go to a movie instead?"
Me: "Sounds great. I'd love to."
Him: "I'd rather be with you anyways! You're the only one I want...that (she) was such a mistake."
*shakes head and looks down in shame
Later....
Him: "I missed you."
Me: " I missed you, too. How much did ya miss me?"
Him: "More that anything in the whole world."
Me: "Hehe...I love you honey."
Him: "I love you too beb."
Me: "How much?"
Him: " More than anything in the entire world."
Me: " Awww!"
Yeah. Thats what I thought. :)
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2006 8 February :: 10.19pm
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay
It's okay
It's okay
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2006 8 February :: 7.51pm
chads opening a shop in grant and he wants me to work there. i think this is gona be good for me i think. gona go to colledge, take some art
classes, gona work a real tattoo shop. yea its all falling into the big picture
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2006 8 February :: 5.03pm
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2006 8 February :: 1.44pm
well mom is doing alittle better it seems she didnt have to get a spinal tap she just got her bonemarrow takein from her hip.
so ive decided that im going to go to grcc for some classes, id like to take some art classes and some business classes, now im not sure if im going to get a degree or anything but i think it would be best if i did take some classes.
any one want to let me practice tattooing on them?...well it was worth a shot.
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2006 8 February :: 10.44am
Touche to things that make ya go "hmm"
It's funny...it really makes me ponder...
How someone could be such a low-life to weasel their way inbetween our relationship after they hint the slightest disturbance. You were supposed to be my friend.
And to think all the time on New Year's you were just pretending to be my friend. I knew I should have stayed suspicious of your phone call. You know the first major clue? The fact that you had sex with some random guy for and hour and a half after only just meeting him 45 minutes before. Touche to things that make ya go hmm.
It's ok. Because I know what you are to him. He's told me about everything. And even though we may be going through a rough spot in our relationship, I know who he loves. I know who he has feelings for.
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2006 7 February :: 10.44pm
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The Play
Mishy's comment:
Re:, 02-07-06 10:21pm
You did too, I'm very proud of you.
You're on your way.
Remember me when you're famous, and remember the knives stabbing your back if your turn it to the audience hahah :)
Mishy would always tell me that to prevent me from turning my back to the audience and it would always work, so thank you.
I'm sad the play is over just because it was fun while it lasted but i'm also glad it's over because I really am exhausted with the practices and everything. I'm tired. We all did it, it's over and done with. It was awesome tonight. The talent in our class is great. I think everyone did a good job.
I was a lot more scared tonight than last night. I knew a lot of people there so it made me nervous. I seen a lot of people who I haven't seen in a long time so that made me really happy.
There's nothing like that.
I just wanted to let you know that i'm really dissapointed in you.
I have to go to bed. I'm falling asleep here.
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