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jennapie

:: 2006 17 January :: 8.12pm

I had thhhheeee best day. Well, actually, I've been having the best dayssssssss ever. Who knew that I could be this happy? I sure didn't, but I guess I've proved myself wrong. It's a great feeling. I won't complain. Jake Mellema, you are doing this to me!

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jennapie

:: 2006 17 January :: 12.27pm

the way my brain is working......
......Jake................Jake...................Jake........
..........Jake................hehe..............Jake....................Jake.................Jake...........................Jakie.......
..................................tehe...........................Sparky.....................
.........Jake.......and it keeps going and going and going and going.................................................

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 17 January :: 11.40am

damn ice. im greatful school was canceled... but if it would have been snowing i would have checked the weather BEFORE i got ready (well ready as in washed my face and brushed my teeth.... but STILL awake enough to be angry about getting up) this is ridiculous. middle of winter and it rains. psh.

i was watching the news this morning....

"a chocolate new orleans?" are you kidding me! why is it that racism starts at the top of the chain?! pathetic.

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jennapie

:: 2006 16 January :: 3.04pm

Jake Mellema is my man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 16 January :: 2.49pm

Stop doing this. It's getting so annoying. You don't get that.

Everythings about you. It's always about you. You think the world revolves around you. You're selfish and I can't stand it any longer. Maybe you should just listen to yourself. I think we were right.

You just made everything a lot easier for me, so thank you for pretty much proving everything we thought.

My dad and Kelli are coming to see me tonight :)


Aww yesterday I got flowers and then today I got more!!

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 15 January :: 10.20pm

i LOVE every other saturday...... they're always perfect. ALWAYS, and yesterday was no exception. i say everyother saturday because i dont work every other saturday and keegan never works saturdays.. so we get to be together all day long.

we're both semi broke right now.. so for most the day we just lounged around his house. i got teh 8th season of friends, his mom made one of my favorite dinners (tatertot caserole) and it was just nice to be home all day. then we met stacy, dani, dustin, devin, and brandi downtown and saw that pink floyd laser show at the planetarium (sp). which was most deffinately an acid trip... lol. i dont think you get the full effect if you're not stoned.... which heaven knows we werent... laughs* but it was pretty cool. WAY to much stimulation for the eyes though. ouuuch. after that me and keegan went to oasis which was wonderful. we got there around 12 and had the greek room reserved which i've been wanting to see since prom last year. it was amazing. (keegan popped his OTHER shoulder out of joint a few days ago.. so its been pretty sore.. hense us going to oasis and me having an "excuse" to get a new bathing suit.... giggles) but yeah... it was awesome. i thought it was an indoor room, but we walked in and theres murals all over the walls and a fire place and statues.... but no ceiling. it was just beautiful. the perfect end to the perfect night. then we went home and fell asleep and got up this morning to go to a new church. we're looking for a church. we went to Sparta babtist this morning... which was nice, but we wanna try a bunch of different ones.. so if you have an suggestions... comment. we're looking for a contemporary service with contemp. music. and we're not looking to become involved with a youth group... just sundays.

everything just feels so right. not only are we going on 14 strong months.. but we're still so incredibly happy. never have we almost "broke up", because we're mature enough to handle our arguments. i've never felt this way before. EVER. i thought i did once... i though THAT was love... and i couldnt have been more wrong. now, i find myself falling in love with my best friend... and although its a process that may take anywhere from a month to a couple years to fully develop... im looking so forward to that moment that i've been dreaming of my whole life.. where i can look that ONE person in the eyes express that age old 3 letter phrase that people have been saying since the dawn of time.

we're so on track with eachother. and i think its awesome that we're growing spiritually together.




*smiles* i admire you!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 15 January :: 7.40pm

Okay so I'm going to try to make this short because I'm about to fall asleep.

Last night I woke up around 4am and I started crying because I couldn't breathe or swallow any liquids. My mom gave me some kind of medicine to calm me down and it wouldn't help so we went to the hospital. When I got there they told her I was dehydrated and they gave me a breathing mask and they tried putting an IV in my arm, but they couldn't find a good vein so they had to keep trying. I was getting so pissed because it hurt so bad. Finally they found one and they had a huge bag of some kind of liquids connected to my IV. They said it would take over an hour to get it pumped into my IV and into me and then they put Steriods *sp* into my IV to take down the swelling of my glands so I could breathe better and apparently I'm allergic to w/e kind it was and I had a major allergic reaction. I almost passed out and then I got all these weird pains everywhere and it felt like someone was stabbing me with all these tiny needles so I was screaming and crying and I really don't even remember what happend after that because they gave me something and it pretty much knocked me right out. I was so scared though. My machines I was hooked to were beeping and I hated being on a stretcher. I seriously felt like I was going to die. Anyways I don't know if I said it or not, but I do have mono so I probably will be out of school for a while. Who knows what's going to happen. I think when my dad walked into my hospital room it scared the crap out of him. When he seen me he just kept looking at everything I was hooked up to and all the IV's and he was like "God this is awful" and I can tell he felt bad because he isn't going to be here for me since he's leaving for Pittsburg tomorrow morning. Oh well though. My mom has to pretty much force me to eat and drink. I can't even stay awake long enough to eat anything, but the doctors said that I have to because all the medicine I'm on right now will make me sick if I don't. But I'm getting too tired so i'm going to go take a nap.

Thanks Stacy, Dani, and Dustin for coming to visit me today. It was awesome. I <3 you!

ashley

Oh yeah and Stacy I don't know why I was thinking about this, but when you seen me today where did you say I looked like I came from..idk it was some movie or something...haha I don't remember what you said, but it made me laugh at the time when you said it.

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eyesofcrystal

:: 2006 14 January :: 6.09pm

Today was the best day ever! Tony took me to Devos Place to meet Chris Beniot! (a WWE Wrestler) And when I got up there, I went right up to him and shook his hand and introduced myself! I told him that I wanted to be a wrestler and he looked SO happy! He smiled and we started talking about trainers, but the security gaurd wanted me to keep moving so he just said real quick that i should call wwe to have them hook me up with one! Eeek! I love him! he was so sweet!

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paradox

:: 2006 14 January :: 3.46pm

so ive come to the conclusion that i really really really really really really really really really really like oysters....... strange and as weird as they are... i like em







;)

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whispers

:: 2006 13 January :: 6.45pm
:: Music: blaine larsen - how do you get that lonely

wet
Sprayed myself in the leg with a hose. Talk about cold.

Might be getting a job at Mobil. Ugh, but yay. Anything to get out of food and away from shithead. Anything.

I'll fuck you for a dollar if you want. Promise. Unless you're Anne. If you're Anne, it's free.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 13 January :: 3.12pm

I missed school again today. I've been sick for the past few days, but this morning it was really bad. I woke up at around 3:30am and I had a fever, I thought I was going to throw up, I couldn't breathe, etc so I just started bawling and this morning I wanted to go to school, but then my mom seen me and she wouldn't let me go. We went to the doctors and at first they tested me for strep throat and it came back negative and the doctor said there is also a differen't kind that I could possiably have that doesn't show up on tests, but since they weren't sure they wanted to test me for mono and draw my blood and get a blood count. So anyways my mom and I are sitting there in the doctors office and then my mom was talking on her phone and they have a sign saying that you have to turn your phone off and we were waiting for the lady to come in to draw my blood and I thought my doctor said her name was Dino, but her name was really Dina and anyways I was being completely serious at this time because I seriously thought it was her name and i'm like "Mom, put your phone away, Dino will be here soon" and my mom just busted out laughing and she's like "Dino? Dino is a dinosaur! Her name is Dina, not Dino" and so then I was laughing because thats what I thought her name was and then all of the sudden she walked in and my mom hurried and put her phone away and she hung up while she was talking to my sister and I was laughing hysterically because I knew "Dina" was going to walk in and so then my mom goes "oh sure you laugh about it now but wait until the needle goes in" and she was trying to cover up and make it sound like I wasn't laughing at the lady and then I kept laughing still at how dumb my mom sounded and how she was lying lol. So I was pretty pissed off that they had to draw my blood because I'm scared of needles and it wasn't as bad as I thought but they don't know what I have until Monday. It really sucks because I'll fall asleep and when I wake up I always feel worse than I did before I fell asleep and I just start bawling again. It hurts so bad. I hate this. I hope that I don't have mono because I'm pretty sure I wont be at school for a long long time....

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 13 January :: 8.58am

ok, so yesterday i was furious.
but i realize that it wasnt about talent....

and at least becky and i gave a piece of our minds and got to see the large animal turn red in the face and squirm like the pathetic lowly person she is.


AND i schedualed a facial yesterday... and after that, who could be upset?!

my skin feels so rejuvinated. everybody should experience one!

orgasmic... really.

*giggles.... later kids

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whispers

:: 2006 13 January :: 1.29am

shady
Don't laugh at my exsistance.

That only made me feel worse about the situation.

Cheryl is the only one that knows what I'm talking about. And she will be the only one that does. Because I don't feel like talking to anybody about anythig again. And Dennis. I'll talk to him. We have an understanding.

My cat.. is fighting with my sheets. I must watch.

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eyesofcrystal

:: 2006 12 January :: 6.07pm

Jesus this week is going SOOO slow!! I havent gone to school two days this week and i STILL have one more day to go!!

Well....22 days till spring hill. I still have $70 to pay, but im sure i can work something out with Hazel. Im pretty excited, as far as i know, me, ashley, brittani, trisha, pam, janie, dani, kendra, and i think a few others are all rooming together. It should be a damn good time. We might be throwing a party in the cabin for Dani and Trisha cuz of thier birthdays...so yay for that.

Me and Tony go to meet Chris Beniot this Saturay! Im so excited!

And 76 something days till me and taylor and katie go to florida for spring break. Should be a good time.

I guess thats about it.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 12 January :: 10.07am

School. I hate school. I don't want to go. It's lame lame lame.

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whispers

:: 2006 12 January :: 12.30am
:: Music: backstreet boys - quit playing games

yawn
If you don't love the Backstreet Boys, then you're fucking retarded and I never want to talk to you again.

Fall Out Boy is gonna be in concert at the Delta Plex with All-American Rejects. I know I want to go. I love The All-American Rejects. But, I need to save money, and I probably won't go to this Fall Out Boy concert. We'll see.

I changed my hair. Read more..

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jennapie

:: 2006 11 January :: 6.54pm

well, piss on it then.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 11 January :: 5.22pm

God, you're pathetic.

I'm in a really bad mood today again and just about everyone is bugging the shit out of me.

Why can't people just mind their own fucking business?

Please stop asking me. It's rude and it annoys me since it doesn't concern any of the people who have asked me in the last week.

School sucked today. My grade in english is now a 93% which isn't bad but I can do better than that and the only reason that it's lower is because we are reading a dumb book and I sleep all hour so she gives me zero's but I wasn't aware that I'm not allowed to sleep considering that I do the homework that's due anyways, but Ms. Eilola just love's being a pain in my royal ass and that's all there is to it.

I feel like crap once again......

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jennapie

:: 2006 11 January :: 3.32pm

well, I am feeling like crap. I don't know why, I just am. I want to go home, and I'm stressing out about my work schedule, and my school schedule, and I don't know. I need to pay my car payment. And my weekend that I thought I was going to have, doesn't seem like it's going to happen. well shit.

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 10 January :: 9.43pm

i tried out today. i reallly want wendy. sooo incredibly bad. but i guess we'll see what happens.


talk about one hell of a night... and nobody could EVER know what i mean by that.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 10 January :: 7.35pm

"Well he looks like a douche bag, should we write that down?"

Haha I love you Stacy. We are such bitches. When he was barking i'm like "Ugh, that makes me sick!"

I was only being honest!


...five million more years until the weekend....


Alriiight....


This whole thing is just inside jokes that only a select few people understand.

We all took our bitch pills today...


And I definitely don't feel good right now and half of my family is sick so I'm going to go take some Nyquil and go to bed.

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eyesofcrystal

:: 2006 10 January :: 5.32pm

Ugh! Im so bored! There is never anything to do anymore. I just go to school, then come home. thats about it. Its gonna be sad when school is done! Ahh!! But at least i get to TA for Dufty next semester. and everything else is going good!

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jennapie

:: 2006 10 January :: 2.13am

ok, here they are, the very first pictures, even tho, most of you have already seen them, I just had to put them on here, mostly because it just gives me another chance to look at them! ahah!

oh, and sorry about how huge they are! I really am sorry! :)

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and for real, these are our very first pictures together! Before we were even...together! haha! ahh jerky!

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whispers

:: 2006 10 January :: 12.32am
:: Mood: Crazy Happy
:: Music: Jessica Simpson - Final Heartbreak

pictures
I just found my digital camera, and I noticed pictures on there that I never put up. I promised Anne and Allison I'd put this up, and I'm getting around to it NOW. That's great lol.

Read more..

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swimfan14

:: 2006 9 January :: 9.13pm

Yay I'm on the internet on my laptop!! How exciting!! I need to download msn messenger though which is going to take five million years. Oh well I'm happy!

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