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jennapie

:: 2005 8 November :: 10.11pm

I talked to my mom about everything, and yea, I'm not going to school tomorrow, which is fine with me, but I'm kinda sad cuz I won't get to see Kyle.......

Words Of Hope?


kellilynn21

:: 2005 8 November :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: shocked

Sometimes... Life Just Sucks.
I Just Got A Phone Call That I Really Didnt Want.




Sometimes I Wonder Why Things Happen For A Reason... Especially When You Dont Know What The Reason Is.

Why Does God Punish The People Who Least Deserve It? And Why Is It With Something So Life Changing!?

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jennapie

:: 2005 8 November :: 4.29pm

well....I thought it was me, but I don't remember doing anything, so obviously it wasn't me. I just wish I didn't feel like I did something, or else I wish I didn't feel helpless, like there's nothing I can do to help. I hate feeling helpless. I am too much of a helper.

I'm a fricken pushover, don't ask me for anything.

Words Of Hope?


swimfan14

:: 2005 7 November :: 9.05pm

Today was pretty boring at school. I realized that I'm at school for a long time. 7:30am to anywhere from 6-9pm. It totally sucks spending so much time at school. Play practice was horriable today. If she messes up/skips lines one more time I'm going to flip out. She misses her lines, which causes me to miss mine. Anyways before our scene April and I were backstage talking and this sophomore kept yelling at us because we were talking and she's like "shhh we're backstage, stop talking" and we got really mad at her because she didn't even ask us nicely so we started talking louder and she walked over to us and said it right at our faces and we kept on talking just to piss her off and we would mock her really loudly and start laughing. I was suprised she didn't come over and punch us but she was being a bitch so we decided to do anything and everything to piss her off. It would have been a differen't story if she would have asked us nicely but she didn't so too bad for her then.

My dad got a new laptop today! I'm on it right now. I can't wait until Christmas because I'm getting one. I used to have one when I was like eight but my cousin Haileigh spilt grape pop all over the keyboard so it doesn't work anymore lol.

Anyways I have to go get in the shower so I don't miss Laguna Beach @ 10!!

<3 ashley

P.S.-CALL ______ NOW!!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!

4 Chances | Words Of Hope?


breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 7 November :: 5.45pm
:: Mood: cranky

Hmm...

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whispers

:: 2005 7 November :: 5.06pm
:: Music: staind - please

what.. what?!
Me and Matt got ghetto whated lmao. Last night, we were on our way to my old house, and these chicks were crossing the street. We had a green light, but Matt let them go, and the one in black was all cool about it and waved thanks, and me and Matt both waved back to say you're welcome, ha.. WELL, obviously the bald chick didn't think much of that little wave. She was all ghetto and was like "what, what?! wanna go?!" Me and Matt just kinda looked at eachother like "what did you do?" lmao it was amazing.

Fall Out Boy, December first, and I'm excited. I really really hope I can get that money. I need to win the lottery, or just.. stop playing lmao. Should do that one, but that's dumb. 5 bucks at a time, and i usually win it back so whatever. I've only lost 5 bucks out of the 20 I've spent. Matt, on the other hand, only won 4 out of his 20. Good job.

My mom's making suckers. That's fun.

Carrie's baby shower is on the 20th. Fuck. I have to find money. Buy her a gift card for Target or something.

I'm so poor. I need a third job. This school thing is draining all my money. I'm spending 300 dollars a month for school. That's rediculous. Oh well, I'll find something to do.

Alright, I think I'm just gonna stay in tonight. I've gone out every single night for the past month. I haven't gone to bed before 5am, and I should just stay in tonight. I kinda wanna go to the Y, so I might do that. But, then again, I really kinda don't. We'll see how it goes.

1 Chance | Words Of Hope?


jennapie

:: 2005 7 November :: 2.12pm

How am I supposed to deal with you? When I don't even know what's real, I don't trust myself.

Words Of Hope?


jennapie

:: 2005 6 November :: 8.35pm


This is Dani and I today sittin in my car at Meijer's, just wasting film. I bought a whole bunch of new clothes at the mall today, I really needed to go shopping. Other than that, my life is the same as it always is.
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swimfan14

:: 2005 6 November :: 4.17pm

Okay so my birthday party was awesome this weekend. I have to post these pictures because Kourtney is getting really impatient waiting.

Click on the read more thing (thats for dumme's like you Kourt, haha kidding)

Read more..

Okay thats all I feel like posting.

Yesterday was pretty fun. I went to Kourtneys Mary Kay party. Then we all went to the amway grand for my b-day party. We went and ate at the hotel and then we went swimming and went in the sauna haha..I don't even remember what else we did. We watched The 40 Year Old Virgin and we went wandering around the hotel since it's so big and we found this room where a convention was just over so we went in there to get a piece of candy because nobody was in there and everyone grabbed like two pieces and I took like the whole bowl and dumped it into my purse! Everyone was like "ASHLEY OMG!!!" It was pretty damn funny and then it was like 1am and Megan, Brittany, Emily, Elyse, and I wanted to go somewhere so we got into the elevator and there was this girl who was probably about 23 and the guy was about 30 and we got in and this was our convo:
I think the girls name was Nina
Nina:(looks at Elyse's basketball shirt)Are you guys here for basketball?
Elyse:Umm no we were here for a birthday party
Nina:(looks at brittanys track shirt) I used to run track, I did hurtles!!
We all look at each other thinking shes nuts!
Nina:I'm supposed to be professional but im wasted!
Me:Oh I can tell
Nina:So whos birthday is it?
Everyone points at me
Nina freaks out and starts like hugging me and then she asks me all these questions.
The elevator door opens and then Megan,Elyse,Emily,and Britt get out.
I didn't know they got out because I was shaking the guys hand cuz he said happy b-day to me and then all of the sudden they called my name and it was too late and the doors shut so now I'm here stuck in an elevator with a drunk girl and a drunk guy, alone. I thought she was going to like try to makeout with me, she was so drunk and I thought the guy was like going to rape me.
Guy:She wont kiss me
Nina: (mocking him) she wont kiss me
Me: Hmm that sucks for you two
Nina: Omg how old are you?
Me: 15
Nina: You too young to be wearing those clothes. Your a hottie though..
Me: Umm thanks..
By now I was scared and I had no idea what floor I was suposed to be on and they didn't even know what floor they were supposed to be on so we just sat there.
And then nina kept saying how I was so cute and how I should play hard to get and be the girl everyone wants but cant get..so I was like okay w/e lady thats nice and so finally I pressed like every button and finally I found what floor they were on so they were all waiting for me outside of the elevator and they were screaming my name cuz they were scared lol..and I got out and I was like thank god and then nina was yelling at us before the doors were closed about how we should play hard to get and then the elevator doors started closing and she was like "PLAY HARD TO GET PLAY HARD TO GET" were like omg shoot us. I was so scared and my dad told them that we all have to stick together and then they lost me. It was hilarious though. Then we decided we wanted to walk downtown so we started to and it was freezing so we started walking in the circle doors and a lady on the michrophone was like "please step forward and do not block the door" and then she was like "please step forward and do not block the door!!!" and emily screamed out "we would if you fucking move it" and then she moved the door for us. It was so funny we kept making fun of her.Then yesterday on the way there in the car emily was talking to my dad and she goes "do you have a summer car?" and im like "oh my gosh I can't believe shes asking him this" and then we were talking about dinner and he goes "ash you can just put it on the card" and then someone was like "that sounds so like you two are on laguna beach" and im like "um do you mean me pay for my food on the card?" and he goes "no you can pay for everyone" im like "holy cow" so he did. He's so nice!!! He was like "I dont care what you buy or what you do just don't get kicked out" so then later on that night at like 2am we were hungry so we orderd room service..then in the morning we ordered more room service..I had like a 5 course meal when I woke up. We went to chek out and my dad seen our bills and he goes "gp sports bar, room service, in room movies, room service, starbucks, etc" it was funny..When the guy that brought our room service to us she was like "just charge it to our room" lol..shes so funny. She slept on the floor under the certains cuz she was talking on the phone there and she fell asleep. We had this huge bed in our room and in kourt,megan,britt,and brittanys room they had two beds. It was weird and today we found this trapt door thing behind a mirror, well actually kourtney did but it was really awesome. Then yesterday we were in the elevator and emily was holding the door open cuz we were waiting for elyse or something and then all of the sudden the alarms started going off and so we just started running lol. Then today at starbucks the guy gave us a free frap. cuz he thought we were hot..not because he made an extra one lol..Anyways I g2g. Peace.

<3 ashley

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swimfan14

:: 2005 6 November :: 3.09pm

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I knew this would happen.

I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you.

And for you I'm pretty sure I'm starting to hate you.

Words Of Hope?


kellilynn21

:: 2005 5 November :: 2.56pm
:: Mood: giddy

Who's Driving On The Road?! ME!
Im Finally SIXTEEEEEEEEEN!



Yes... I Am Driving, So Stay Away


Bitches.












:)

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swimfan14

:: 2005 5 November :: 12.13pm

My phone has rang eight times in the last hour and i'm getting really annoyed. I think I should just turn it off. Haha kidding.

I'm so excited for today/tonight! It's going to be soo much fun.

Jess and I are going to buy each other balloons for our b-day and were also going to move to California together!! Lol.

9 days until my wonderful birthday!!!!

Anyways I g2g.

<3 ash

5 Chances | Words Of Hope?


whispers

:: 2005 5 November :: 3.24am
:: Music: 3 doors down - live for today

fan-fucking-tastic day
Horoscope: Luckily you're not a risk-taker by nature. Avoid gambling -- it won't pay off.

Hm.. yeah, too bad I just won my 5 bucks back about a half hour ago lol. Matt, on the other hand, did not win anything. But, we took our 18 year old advantage and put it to use for the first time together.

We are no longer virgins to scratch offs.

Matt Whetzel is by far the coolest scratcher in the world. Remember that forever. It was a lot of fun.

Dennis is hot, and I need a scanner, right now. You need to see these pictures lol. Everybody does. Wait.. let me go see if Zach left his here.. Oh my god he did. Alright, totally if you want to see the pictures, then do it. They are amazing and I love them all lol.

Ahh, I love my friends. I told Matt that earlier tonight. I don't know if he heard me, but I did say it. I think I told Ross on the phone when I was at BK too, but I don't remember. Maybe we were talking about the color green.. lol. ;)

Pictures ---- Read more..

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jennapie

:: 2005 4 November :: 11.13pm

well, I have bad news.

My sister just called and told us that Timmy Brown was killed in Iraq. Pray for his family.

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jennapie

:: 2005 4 November :: 10.18pm

because of you, I can't think of anyone else, because of you it's all your fault!

I think I'm falling for you, more and more everyday.
..........and Jon, don't ask me who either.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 4 November :: 7.36pm

Aww Mishy you are so sweet. I can't believe some of the things you said. They are too sweet and you know me better then you think.

I'll post it just so everyone can read it:

1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
Actually, I would just call you Ashley. I think that you've had enough of nicknames, and "Little One" makes you sound like a little kid, and you arent.
2. Am I loveable?
Very.
3. How long have you known me?
Let's see. Around two and a half years, but we've become much much closer this year.
4. When and how did we first meet?
October 03, drama class.
5. What was your first impression?
"She has a really pretty nose and her laugh is cute. She seems sweet."
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
Yes, only my opinion is better, because I know you now.
7. What do you think my weakness is?
Him.
8. Do you think I'll get married?
Definitely.
9. What makes me happy?
California, The O.C., Modeling, acting, music, Him.
10. What makes me sad?
Being confused about Him, living in Cedar.
11. What reminds you of me?
The O.C., california, Gold digger, "Why?", gossip girl, "Goodbye to You"...more
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
A redhot acting career and a huge mansion in LA, along with of course, happiness with Him.
13. How well do you know me?
Well, I do not know your favorite food, or color, or your birthday, things like that. However, I do think we're close, and you know why :) I will learn those other things in time.
14. When's the last time you saw me?
Today, during Anatomy.
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Absolutely not, the exact opposite actually.
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
Never.
17. Describe me in one word.
Star.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
Stronger.
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
Yes. yes. yes.
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
YOU would play you. :) No one else could do it better.
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
Hmm.. Christina Ricci.
22. Who is my hero?
Hmm.. I really don't know. Dad perhaps?

Your definately right about everything and nobody will know why were so close, ever.

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Paradox

:: 2005 4 November :: 7.14pm

Things are fantastic. Quick overview I suppose.

1 Year for Erika and I is in 20 Days. it's approaching fast. And the time we've spent together passed even faster.

We've got a number of show's coming up in december. 61Syx TeKnique baby!

I'm starting to write again. I'll post up poetry here sometime for anyone who may want to view any of my writing abilities.

I still work at logans. People should come see me sometime!

-K. Loye

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wierdo

:: 2005 4 November :: 5.05pm
:: Music: Soul Survivor

Don't you hate being stuck at work with nothing to do, when you're not even supposed to be here in the first place? Yeah, well thats whats up with me right now, and i hate it. I started today at 7:30 and i'm not getting out of work until 6 now. I was supposed to get out at 4:30 because my parents were golfing and they were gonna come back when they were done at 4:30. I just knew it was gonna happen. My mom or dad would call me and tell me to stay until 6. And thats exactly what happened. That will be 10 1/2 hours i have worked today. It sucks. So that deffinately sets back my plans for the night. But what ever. So yeah, sorry for rambling on and on about work. I"m sure you all are too.

Kevin

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whispers

:: 2005 4 November :: 1.10am
:: Music: all the things that i've done

whatever
fuck you, shannon

addition @ 1:34am
there needs to be a denny's or something open 24/7 closer to cedar.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 3 November :: 6.31pm

I got this from Brie!

I just found this quiz so please take it!
1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
22. Who is my hero?

<3 ash

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 3 November :: 10.45am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Glory Of Love

Journal
The OC is on tonight bitches!!

I just changed my entire journal.
Tell me what you think.

I love Dan.

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jennapie

:: 2005 2 November :: 11.11pm

I love this song.
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Words Of Hope?


swimfan14

:: 2005 2 November :: 10.44pm

It's no big deal. Break her heart. Let her down. Make her cry. You "love" her right? Everything is fine. Hold her hand. Lead her on. It's no big deal, she's just a girl.



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swimfan14

:: 2005 2 November :: 9.21pm
:: Music: California-Phantom Planet

The O.C. DUHH!!!
I know Brie said this BUT--22 Hours, 32 Minutes, and 40 Seconds until The O.C. is on. I already have the scripts for tomorrow's episode but I'm not reading it beacause I don't want to ruin what I've waited weeks for. It's called The Perfect Storm!! Sorry Brie I decided not to read them and tell you what happens. We'll just have to watch and see!!

I've heard from alot of people that after this season they aren't going to continue making The O.C. but if that seriously happens my life will be over............and, i'll cry, alot.

I watch this show religiously...

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 2 November :: 9.17pm

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Born2bOnStage x3: 22 hrs 41 mins and 14 seconds til the oc

Gotta love my cake!!!!!!!!!!!
<3

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