(So Many Assume) <marquee>...So Little Know...</marquee>

:: 2005 22 July :: 2.24am

idiot

:: 2005 20 July :: 10.18pm

I'm so sick of everyone complaining about how freaking busy they are! You ALL have it SO Good, you don't even know! Try living my life for a day.....you would hate it! I can't even tell you everything I HAVE to do, it would take to long to explain how I make it work! So suck it UP! It's not that bad!

:: 2005 19 July :: 6.28pm

Im in NY right now Kelli! Im having soooo much fun but I just thought I should say that. Im on the laptop right now. Rachel says hi. "Do you have a nickel cuz we have five pennies and we really want a nickel?" lol. We have to go. We just wanted to check our email and now we have to go.

Much Love,
Ashley******

Paradox

:: 2005 19 July :: 9.06am

First day of training at logan's... Yay for me!

whispers

:: 2005 18 July :: 4.11pm
:: Music: crossfade - cold

hm.. i might do that
so i was thinkin about going over to talk to jill's mom. i miss her. she's such a sweetheart, and because i don't talk to jill anymore, i don't see her mom. i should jus.. go over there one day and talk to her. but she's usually real busy. i might do it though. when i'm not working. which.. today is my only day off all week, but it's not like she lives far away. but.. i might go talk to her. i'll probably start crying again, but oh well.

heh.. i remember last time i went over there to give jill her card, i was talkin to sandy, and i started cryin cause she made me tell her something. and it was.. bad. i almost said everything, but i only told her one thing. but.. whatever. i'm not getting into it. i just had this urge to talk to her. i still do. so i might go over and talk to her a little bit today. depends.

when i told her that.. thing.. she told me jill wouldn't let somethin happen between us but obviously she did so.. i'll just go over there sometime and tell sandy i tried, but jill's not doing her part so i'm done trying. only way i'm gonna talk to jill about anything anymore is if.. i'm dead, and i go into her dreams and tell her. other than that.. she ruined it. it's alright though. she'll do anything for a guy and that's fine. she can do what she wants.

anyway, i'm done. i'll go talk to jill's mom later about things and then.. probably not write in here what happened cause.. people dont need to know.

kellilynn21

:: 2005 18 July :: 1.32am
:: Music: Kelly Clarkson- Hear Me

...Oh Boy....
I�m so happy. I�ve been hanging out with everyone I missed like a lot lol.

Jordan came and picked me up on� Friday I think� and Friday we went and spent the night at Kevin�s. It was me, Kevin, Jordan, Joey, Lee, Rachael (sp) was there for awhile, Chris and I think that�s it, until we all just went to bed at like 4-5 in the morning lol. Then the next day me and Jordan left and went to great day to get some gosh dang food lol, then went back over to Kevin�s lol. Then went back the next day again to wake them up because it was 2:00 in the afternoon and they were sleeping. So pretty much to make a long story short I�ve been hanging out with Jordan, Joey, Kevin and Lee and here and there other people a lot the past 4 days lol. We all went to the beach today� Amy�s birthday party� but by the time we got there it wasn�t really a party anymore lol, so we all (me, Jordan, Kevin, Joey, Amy Mercer, Josh Gates, Amy�s cousin Danielle, Dan Krieter (sp), and Lee) all went over to Grand Haven cuz we were at Muskegon, but then we� left lol. And then got back at about exactly 12:00 lol.

I�m glad I�m hanging out with all my friends now again. I was kind of just sitting there at my house feeling sorry for myself for awhile lol, but hey its all good now. So yeah now me and Jordan are just� not tired at all so were up� like losers lol. So yeah that�s all I really got�

So yeah� bye lol.

:: 2005 17 July :: 10.54pm

hmmm.... babysitting, Jenny's, the farm this Tuesday......and Cinncinatti all in the next two weeks!! = WAYYY Tooo MUCH!! aAAHHHHHHHH!!!

:: 2005 17 July :: 6.49pm

Yesterday when it was raining I went swimming in my pool and it's soo much fun swimming in the rain. Today Emily came over and then Dan did too and we went to the mall and then we went to eat somewhere. It was funny thougt because Emily and I just randomly laugh at things but nobody knows what we are talking about and Dan kept getting mad because we just laugh and talk about people we don't like and he's like "what are you guys laughing about". We couldn't help it, we just kept laughing. I felt like a moron.

Like 10 minutes ago I needed the phone to call someone so I ran upstairs and my sister had it and she was pinning things on her wall with tacks and the tacks were on the ground in a little box thing and I stepped on the box and they all flew out and then I stepped on them and I got them stuck in my foot so I ran downstairs and my mom had to pull them out and when she did blood started pouring out it was so sick and now I have band-aids on!

And then yesterday at like midnight my sister was on the phone upstairs and that phone has a cord and the cord was going into her room and I ran up the stairs and didn't see the cord and it hit me right across the neck and I fell backwards and she laughed at me for a long time and then I went and got water and came back up and I tripped on the stairs and spilt my water everywhere. haha im a klutz.

I'm going to Michigan Adventures tomorrow and then tomorrow night were leaving and going to New York!! I'm sooo excited but I haven't started packing yet soo..maybe I should.

I realized that it's not worth it. It's my business what happens and I don't feel the need to have to tell you every guy that I hang out with or what I do or anything at all.

I know this is selfish but it makes me happy knowing you never will be and I know that sounds really bad but after everything you've done to me, I think I'm taking it rather well. I could say alot more things that would actually hurt your feelings but Im not that mean.

I'm going to pack. Today was fun. Enough said.

NY=TOMORROW! <3 ASHLEY*

:: 2005 16 July :: 10.46pm

yesterday was.............interesting, to say the least.
I didn't do anything all day long except lay out on my deck and it was WAY WAY tooo hot to be doing such a thing anyways, so I had to keep spraying myself with the hose, because even tho we have a pool, my dad refuses to let us put it up, but anyways. so then Dan Calls me and says that he has something for me. and I'm way curious so I go to his house and it's a cd that he made for me. and I love it!! and then we sat in my car and talked for like and hour or something. but then after that, I went to the ice cream shop to drop off something to Kourtney, and then Stacey pulls in behind me, so Kourt has to stay there but my mom calls and says that my dad and her were going out to dinner, so of course Stacey and I go too....just to Kelly's but whatever. but we were all done eating and Roger Weeks was talking to us and someone taps me on the shoulder....and who is it!! but Dan again. ahha. and he tells me some disturbing news and we decide to hang out. so after we left the restaurant, I go home and he calls and asks me to come over and we ended up going to the Harvard Bar, and listening to Jake and his dad's band play, but only for like 45 minutes, cuz Dan didn't eat dinner, so we went cruising to Greenville, and he gives me the GRAND tour!! haha and he eats and everything, and then we went to his house and it was so cute, first we played Golf and then we played Go Fish! I haven't played that in forever! Leave it to Dan though! but then I am house sitting for a lady that I work for and I had to go to her house, cuz it was getting kinda late. But anyways, I just found it interesting that after not really talking to the kid for 6 months, we can hang out like we never missed a beat! ahha It's nice knowing that no matter how much time passes you can always be friends with certain people again. It wasn't awkward or anything. It was just fun. AND I'm happy to announce, that we are totally and completely friends, and that is all..for any of you who might think differently...we're friends , that's all. but isn't that kind of cool, that we still are ok after everything? I thought that it was.

:: 2005 16 July :: 10.52pm

I just watched Armageddon for the first time in my life ever, sad I know and it was soooo sad. I started bawling and I'm like "I'm going to have a break down and I'm going to hyperventilate." I will never watch that movie again. It's just too sad.

:: 2005 16 July :: 5.53pm

yuck...my arms smell like chocolate ice cream and dirty ice cream water. Yuck!! I gotta go take a shower!!!

oh yea!!! happy birthday Dad!!! I love you!!!

:: 2005 16 July :: 3.31pm

Oh my gosh. I can't believe I talked to him, seriously. How long has it been? Two months at the least. I miss him so much and that meant the world to me.

It's gona be love, it's gonna be great, it's gonna be more than I can take, it's gonna be free it's gonna be real, it's gonna change everything I feel.

That was your chance. You failed to notice.

TWO DAYS=NEW YORK!

tonyp.

:: 2005 16 July :: 11.31am

its my birthday!!! YAY im 18

6 Chances | Words Of Hope?

paradox

:: 2005 16 July :: 1.37pm

brokenmentality (profile) wrote,
on 11-17-2004 at 1:33pm

perfection. is what im experiencing.

It's amazing, that even 9 months later, it's still there...

:: 2005 15 July :: 7.27pm

trouble in paradise? not even close.

its so nice being able to handle our arguments as adults... there is NOTHING we cant work through, because thats just how we are. i fight with him like he's my brother... most of the time its only because i care so much about the decisions he makes, and he guards and protects me like a little sister... and from time to time gives me a little tough love so i can figure out on my own what exactly it is that i want... but more than that we're best friends.. which keeps everything running soooo smoothly. only THEN can i say we're dating... because everything else comes first. hes my best friend before anything... and thats such an amazing thing.

central air is a beautiful thing.

4 Chances | Words Of Hope?

paradox

:: 2005 15 July :: 4.18pm

We've been arguing alot. It's not a pleasant thing to experience. But it's so magical when everything finally gets laid on the table and we handle the situations in the manner that we're supposed to.

I've been really busy lately, hopefully it won't stay like that for too much longer, but it's hard to tell. I need to start becoming more responsible in the things I do...

-K. Loye

:: 2005 15 July :: 1.50pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: Need to be Next to You~Sara Evans

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	nine =)
your best quality is	youre nice to everyone
your worst quality is	youre too sweet
this is because	you were born this way

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whispers

:: 2005 15 July :: 1.14am

from good to bad
seriously.. my week has gone from being fucking fabulous to being a shipwreck. it's such a sad.. thought. anyway.

so let's see.. i wanted to go out so bad with someone tonight. i called seriously everybody i could think of. except.. like.. two people. but anyway. within those phone calls i've realized that rumors is more important than me, my friend katie is.. in the hospital, and i have no friends. so.. then i figured when all else fails, my mom will be there for me. so i call her and be like "mom, will you come out to dinner with me? i'll pay." she goes "no, i'm gonna be helping lee move furniture." k great, and the award for the worst mother of all time goes to karen squires cause she's a cunt bag whore.

so.. yeah. my mom would much rather spend time with lee than me, which is.. fine. but after i went out to eat by myself, i went to my aunts house. i sat and talked to her for.. 3 hours. it was nice. i love my aunt kris. she's so much like me. and i told her that mom picked lee over me to be with tonight and she just kinda rolled her eyes and said my mom is going through something and it's retarded, but if i ever want to go do something with someone, i could call her and she'll go with me. so that's.. nice. but it's just.. my mom, who i've known for 18 years, ditched me for someone shes known for.. 5 months. if that. it's just.. sad. and it makes me sad. but anyway.

i have to work tomorrow. which is really fucking stupid. i wasn't supposed to, but because conda got sick, and i cant say no to people, i'm going in to work. since i got hired there i've had to work every weekend. i'm getting so tired of it. and i hate hate HATE how everybody there gossips. it's annoying, and i seriously just.. wont say anything to anybody anymore. kendal and tori are the only ones that i havent heard someone say "kendal said this" or "tori said that." and everytime someone says i said something, they make it seem more dramatic than what it was. seriously.. everybody there gossips too much. and i know a lot of them read this, and i just don't care anymore. i'm not saying i hate anybody there. i love them all, i just hate how you can't say anything without someone sayin it to somebody else.

anyway, i got a feeling i'm gonna be in a real bad mood at work.. today. like a real bad mood. i'm kinda hoping we're not busy at all.. and i can just go home. but it won't happen. cause it's hot, and friday, and god hates me.

i'm gonna go talk to j and then i'm going to bed. so.. yeah, goodnight.

3 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 14 July :: 10.38pm

So guess what? Next week I'm going to New York! I'm really excited. I'm leaving on Monday and I will be back next Sunday or Monday. I'm so psyched. Out of all the places I've went, it's never been New York so finally!

I just bought a pink i-Pod but it wont come until Monday and that really doesn't help me since I'll be going to New York.

I don't even know what just happened but what I do know is that it makes me sad. Sometimes it's easier to say I don't care than to explain why I really do.

I guess I just got tired of being the last thing on your mind.

I cant think about this anymore. The more I think about it, the more I realize it's never going to happen.

Here we go again with the mixed emotions and second thoughts.

Yeah I wish too.

:: 2005 13 July :: 9.20pm

Sometimes I forget that it's okay to smile.

tonyp.

:: 2005 13 July :: 11.27am

well its official i have all my stuff in and im in bussiness, i will pierce anything you want for five bucks if its my first time doing it. after the first its ten bucks and that is really good compared to alot of places. my number if you want to get ahold of me is 696-9784 and my cell is 520-1993 so give me a call and ill come to you. please i need the bussiness.

11 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 13 July :: 11.56am

i'm meeting some more of my family on saturday... what an odd thing to say..... seems to me its been an overdue meeting.. but whatever, ya gotta start somewhere.

alyssas comming over after work tonight... we're gonna be all girly and figure out what i should where for my senior pictures... she was a model last for the photography place that i'm gonna be modeling for.. i go in saturday morning to get all the information... alyssa said she saved hundreds on her senior pictures, so im really excited.

i cant go to blues cuz i have to work, and theres no way im gonna drive down there and get lost downtown and then walk by myself to where they break dance..... but next wednesday....

i really need to concentrate on losing some of the roundness of my face, and belly, and legs.... .blahhhh... now isnt the time for a self-meltdown. ahh well... people always tell me how cute my cheeks are.. maybe i should start believing them... riiight.

it kindof sucks to know that she left me in the dark about this... i dont understand her. things used to be..... well hmmm, i shouldnt get into it.. because obviously things will never be the same, we will never be us again, and sometime in our far future, occasional cards at christmas will recap some of the memories that we'll neglect to recall otherwise.

i got my hair highlighted... nobody ever takes my advice.. but seriously go to Colleen at Xscape salon in rockford, she's the only person i'll go to for my hair and its SUPER affordable. i get two colors done in my hair all throughout.. not just on top and it only costs me about 45-50 dollars... and my hair is almost as long as my back... GO THERE!

yay for keegan getting a job at logans! im so excited for him.. now he works at our restaurant! woohu!

paradox

:: 2005 13 July :: 1.44am

Lemme make this quick.

Got a job at Logans Restaraunt, I go in on saturday for a "rules and regulations meeting"

Come visit me in the following weeks/weekends!

Got a laptop from Best Buy, thanks to Zach Murray! WHOOP

Got the most amazing girlfriend in the entire universe. -Seriously.

Blues on the mall tomorrow and every wednsday for the rest of the summer.

Thats it.

-K. Loye

:: 2005 12 July :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Heaven~Warrant

Ever wish things were like they used to be?

I'm talking like last year, or when we were in kindergarten and we could go "play" with all of our little friends, and we had absolutley no worries what-so-ever? I do all the time. I wish that I had nothing to worry about except how devestating it would be if my 5 year old friends told Mitch Cargill that I had a crush on him. Oh, it was wonderful being in kindergarten. Don't you miss show and tell where you got to brag about the cool toy you just got, or you got to bring in your new puppy? Ummm...I think I'm having some kind of going to college crisis!! Help! lol

:: 2005 12 July :: 2.32am

me and keegan had a bonfire tonight... just the two of us.

we ran into town and got stuff to make smores, and it was dark so we had the whole "camping" experience goin on.... it was wonderfull.

i do believe that im becomming obsessed with pigs in a blanket.. keegans mom makes them all the time *for me...te he he* and im gonna become the name of the little piggys... or perhaps just that.. a little piggy. *giggles and wrinkles nose up all cute-like