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2004 6 October :: 10.37 pm
i want to spend the rest of my life with you. please dont leave me.
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2004 5 October :: 9.34 pm
So yea, i wana fucking die. hooray. Fuck friends. fuck everyone. fuck you.
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2004 3 October :: 10.58 pm
::sobs hysterically::
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2004 30 September :: 11.19 pm
me and sara talking
TrueKillJoy (11:06:59 PM): like a buffalo
Hey look a ninja (11:07:06 PM): Sideways.
TrueKillJoy (11:07:09 PM): floating
Hey look a ninja (11:07:13 PM): to hell
TrueKillJoy (11:07:17 PM): named jim
Hey look a ninja (11:07:22 PM): with a daughter
TrueKillJoy (11:07:28 PM): whos a horse
Hey look a ninja (11:07:37 PM): with a penis
TrueKillJoy (11:07:55 PM): and not ass
Hey look a ninja (11:08:03 PM): but who's in love with an ass
TrueKillJoy (11:08:25 PM): named tom
Hey look a ninja (11:08:37 PM): twice
TrueKillJoy (11:08:45 PM): tom tom
Hey look a ninja (11:09:03 PM): who was having an affair with a squirrel
TrueKillJoy (11:09:10 PM): that was a boy
Hey look a ninja (11:09:15 PM): since he was gay
TrueKillJoy (11:09:37 PM): so jims daughter with a penis got sad
Hey look a ninja (11:09:48 PM): and stabbed herself repeatedly
TrueKillJoy (11:09:56 PM): in the penis
Hey look a ninja (11:10:09 PM): tom tom's penis
TrueKillJoy (11:10:32 PM): making him forever lost to the world of lovemaking
Hey look a ninja (11:11:42 PM): So he had a vagina surgically made on his penis-less body
TrueKillJoy (11:11:56 PM): then he decided he wasnt gay anymore
Hey look a ninja (11:12:06 PM): he was a lesbian
TrueKillJoy (11:12:19 PM): and he got back with jims daughter with the penis
Hey look a ninja (11:12:36 PM): and they made sweet, sweet loving into the early hours of the morning
TrueKillJoy (11:12:44 PM): hi
Hey look a ninja (11:12:51 PM): Hey! what's up.
TrueKillJoy (11:12:52 PM): lol
Hey look a ninja (11:12:54 PM): lmao.
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2004 29 September :: 8.58 pm
what a welcome home party...woohoo...im so happy to be in hot, crappy florida. So, other then the fact that i want to shoot myself at the moment......
i feel so crappy. just like a dog just took the biggest crap of its life and i shoved my head all the way to the bottom of the pile. that shitty. No one can find time for me. I wana see cassandra. I might hang out with alex tomorrow. It was his birthday last weekend and I didnt get him anything on my vacation. or anyone else, or even myself really. no one reads this shitty thing anymore. not even joey. so i guess it doesnt matter what the hell i write in it.
I feel like cutting myself. right now. down my arm. id rather bleed out tears then cry them. Its a lot less painful and humiliating. people are such hipocrites. Im one. your one. Maybe god should do something about this race. wash us all out and start over. Maybe get a new species that doesnt fuck everything up. Maybe he will make man and woman together and not make a forbidden apple to plague decendants century after century over some stupid fruit. right now is about the time when i feel like bitching about my physical appearance.
but to save you all, and save myself, i shall not go any further. in parting words....
fuck you.
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2004 21 September :: 6.00 pm
last night i guess it finally hit me that I will never be in my grandparents house ever again. We wont have parties in the back, see family there. fight with my cusin jay. I cant walk through all the rooms and go through all the neat stuff there. I wont be able to visit miami all the time. Anyways I woke up crying, it made me really sad. =( Im guna miss it.
-Felicia
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2004 18 September :: 2.17 pm
:: Music: weezer
lonely
right now im lonely. very very lonely. no one seems to understand. and i dont blame them because i dont fully understand myself. aside from feeling lonely i feel like this year will never end. My parents leave for Miami tomorrow without me. Maybe I can get brandie or cassandra to stay the night. I've only been trying to do that for a month or two now. Maybe somehow it will work tonight. Last night my nose started bleeding around 2. I have no idea why. I stayed up until about 5 reading a book. Then when i woke up this morning and did the yard, about an hour after i had finished my nose started bleeding again. My parents are gone now, they went to pick up my dads car. around four im spose to go clean my grandpas house. Im more of a slave then a house cleaner. since im related to him i have to clean his boat, and pick up stuff in the yard and move trash cans. I try to tell him that that is not what house cleaners do, and that i should get paid extra for it, but he is too mule headed and an ass hole to listen. My mom tells me that I cant stop cleaning his house...even though i hate it. I can only make so much money without having a real job and it just seems lately im paying for everything. I wanted to save money for when I go to Boston I can get some nice stuff. But I dont have that much money anymore. =( im guna go read a book because I dont really feel like eating....
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2004 16 September :: 10.03 pm
:: Mood: semi happi
:: Music: the beatles-lucy the sky with diamonds
this dumb song has been in my head all day. its pretty.
Picture yourself on a boat on a river. With tangerine trees and marmalade skies. Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly, a girl with kaleidoscope eyes.
Cellophane flowers of yellow and green, towering over your head. Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes, and she's gone.
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Oooooo.
Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain with rocking horse people eat marshmallow pies. Everyone similes as you drift by the flowers that grow so incredibly high. Newspaper taxis appear on the shore, waiting to take you away. Climb in the back with your head in the clouds. And you're gone.....
Lucy in the sky with diamonds.
Oooooo.
Picture yourself on a train in a station With plasticine porters with looking glass ties. Suddenly someone is there at the turnstile, the girl with kaleidoscope eyes.
Lucy in the sky with diamonds.
Oooooo.
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kk im waiting for joey to get home. i should prolly go shower. Someone is letting me read the chobits books. I only got to the 6th one when i read them last year. so im really happy about it. Im so addicted but its almost to an end =( i want the love henia series. i have 14-24 but i dont have the first 14. Me and joey have been playing Bualders gate 2 and plan to buy that tomorrow. Lifes great and I have joey. I leave to go to Boston next friday. Maybe Ill find some neat stores. =) I cant wait. We get interms tomorrow and it feels like I have only been in school weeks, and maybe I have....but things just seem to be going fast. Thank goodness. I dont think I could last that long if it was gruleingly slow. Ive been trying to read all my books before christmas and my birthday when i ask for like a million more. =) So I'm reading again. Well I never stopped, but I slowed down. Nows its like a book a week. Ok, I'll go shower now and await my call from joey when he gets off work. Tah-tah for now. =)
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2004 11 September :: 4.11 pm
HI!! my computer died a while back. so we just got a new one a few days ago. Its bad ass. but im not allowed to get on it that much. as soon as we bring our old computer back to life i get that one in my room. yay. Hurrican after hurricane. is there no end? We are all guna die by the time this next hurricane comes. We still have the depri in front of our hous from the last two hurricanes. I have a feeling that debi is going to go through my window. I wanted Brandie to spend the night tonight but She just called saying she has to baby sit. So I'll be stuck here all night while my parents play cards with their friends. ::sigh:: I tried to be social. I really did. I got my senior pics back and they look like shit. That really sucks. oh well. ok im guna go now tah tah.
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