Here kitty, kitty, kitty
Well, I think everything is okay. Well at least with dork #2. Dork #1 is now acting like a complete Jack (add a word, there ya go). And I really don't like it. He is being well (read prior entry) a male to its fullest definition. Grrr, I could seriously just beat the crap out of him (but I am a good girl and will not think of such things....much). ;) kidding. Its not that he is even really doing anything to me, its that he is hurting one of my closest friends that I have made in only a short while. I have a connection with her. I am her "Riggles" she is my "Coconut". If he hurts her one more time like he did once before, kitty will come out to play, and trust me, I have NOT been declawed. *Grrrooww*

Hmmm
Christain Counciler, yeah that sounds good. I think I can do that, wait, I know I can do that. Hey, God helps me minister to my buds, so why not help Him get to others? Yeah, I'm all about that!

Selfish- Meaning male
Will I regret hitting the send button? I just did. And no I don't. He needed to hear all of it. Granted, some of it I probably could have said in a nicer way, but I have been trying, he hasn't been listening. He doesn't care. All he cares is that his needs are met for the moment. Never caring about the conciquences of tomorrow. Yeah I know Ray, typical guy. I just wish that there were more of them that weren't. Why are they so selfish? Why don't they care? They act like they do, then turn and do something that they never would if they did care. Selfish, my new definition for a man.

The best costume of alll time!!!!
You guys missed it! I had the best costume for Holloween! I was a PUNK! And you may be asking yourself, what is so great about a stupid punk? Well, let me tell ya! I wasn't just any punk I was a CHRISTIAN PUNK!!! It was soo tight! You see, my bud Brent is a punk (non-Christian :( ) and he told me that I wasn't a punk when I had said that I wanted to be one. So I asked what a punk was, and he said that it was someone who rebelled against something. And I was like "Hello! Idea!" *ping of lightbulb lighting up above my head* to be a Christian you have to be rebellous! Christians have to rebel against the rules that society has placed on people, especially teens. Christians rebel against the thought of having sex before marrage, drinkng under-age, or doing drugs, that's what a true Christian is all about. When every other teen is rebelling against there parents like society says they should, I am obeying my parents and honoring them! So in the words of my punkish bud Brent "BOYA!" I AM A PUNKI!!!

The Base of Faith
The base of true faith in God is optimism. There is no way to have a strong faith and be pesimistic, even if it is just about your own life. Think about this; everything that has ever been accomplished in the bible was accomplished by optimistic people. Adam and Eve didn't have faith in God when they were in the Garden. They were naieve children that were believing in only what they knew. After falling for the temptation and getting kicked out of the garden was when they showed true faith. Why? Because they still believed in God, they didn't say "screw everything. We were just kicked out of the Garden, our own personal paradise and now Eve is gonna have trouble with childbirth and Adam is gonna have to work the land." No they accepted what had happened and was thankful to God that he even gave them another chance. Optimism. and look at Jesus Christ himself. He had to be optimistic when carring out a mission such as he did. He could have been like "What's the point? I'm just going to die? And for what? I mean come on, people are just going to follow this Antichrist character years after anyway". But instead he looked at all the people that he would save through all of this, through the sacrafic that he had to endure, and it made it all worth while. That was some true optimism there. So next time you feel like being a downer and asking yourself "what's the point?" think of all that you can accomplish, all that you could do if you just poit your mind to it. Be thankful for what you have, not upset over what you don't. That is how to strengthen your faith.

Again, What is with the opposite sex?
Oh grrrr, (don't worry this won't be as harsh as the last) I went to a wedding last night and it was great. Besides the fact that i had to shoot down a guy like a hunter shoots down a duck in broad daylight during the middle of hunting season. And don't get me wrong, he seemed very nice and all, but I didn't even know the guy. I had said maybe twenty words to him the entire night. But I guess since he thought I was cute that was enough to base a realationship on. WHY? I mean, why is it that the large magority of males (and I'm saying that so all you other dorks don't get all offended and all) think that looks are everything? I don't get it. My uncle tells me that a realationship is based on three things: physcial apperance, emotional appearance, and spiritual appearance. Do you realize that if a person only bases a realationship on the physical appearance then 2/3 of the realationship are already shot? So why in all of all that is holy in little monkey town would a person go out with someone just because they liked how they looked? I mean, of course that is part of it, but asking me out just because he thought I was cute? I don't think I could be more insulted. But then, I am not an average female (as most of you have figured out) so probably most girls would not have a problem with it. Oh well.

Its Howdy Doody Time!
Hey ya'll! I'm at school and incredably bored. I was attempting to figure out something to do, but it isn't working. My brain has flopped. My life is over. (Wait....my brain flopped a long time ago, so I guess that means that my life isn't over, or else it is and I just never realized it.) But anyway, hello to all my buds! (and the the people who just hit that "random journal" button and are trying to figure out if I am crazy or insane; there is a difference!) I know, I've been both. Well, purple spotted giraffes just stole my underpants so I will see you all later!

Hmmm...
Odd, I have suddenly felt like I have re-assumed my role as "advice girl!" Not that I mind. I like racking my brain with ways to comfort my friends. While some problems are still slightly overwhelming then others, I will have answers for them (soon I hope) for I am like Joseph was with dreams. Through him God gave him wisdom to interpret dreams, perhaps God has given me the wisdom to bring words of comfort? (That would be SOOOO nifty!)

My monkeys
I have come the realization that not all of you have met my monkeys. I have five. Geebo, Daisy, Wally, George, and Mr. Jolly Jinkins (Mr. Jolly for short). Now my monkeys are very unique. First off, Wally and George are a smidge on the crazy side. (Okay so a lot on the crazy side). They have their own padded room and strait jacket. Now the other three are much better in the fact that they are sane. But they are still very funny. So I just wanted to give you all the big heads up just in case we are iming sometime and all of the sudden a monkey starts talking to you. :P

Live, love, then get a monkey.

Man what a turn around
Funny, Nick told me that I had used him for a door mat. Let's examine this small phrase. Even when I had done nothing to him, he used me as an emotional punching bag. Wouldn't that be him using me? I guess so, cus I've just realized that its starting to become a phase of some sort. I guess a lot of people only see me as someone they can use when they need me, then when the role is reversed they don't care. What fun. I am confused on the point of that I know I am not suppose to strike back at someone when they strike me, but am I just suppose to sit here and let people take advantage of me like they do? Oh well, one good thing is, at least I am getting to see who my real friends are and aren't.

Dobedobedo
Hey wow! I am bored. I just spent over an hour doodling a little picture. (It looks pretty nice.) But now I am bored. I am also talking to Brent. He is funny. He licked Crystal the other day. Hey ya'll, today at skills I was told that if I were to be a villian typer person, I would be Harley from the "Batman" cartoons, do you think so?

What a bummer!
Awwww, none of my friends are seeming to have a good day (or many days for that matter.) I wish I could share my happiness with them. But I guess that all I can do is be hear for them, giving them a shoulder to cry on and a back to lean against. I hope you all have better days! With much more love imaginable,
Kate

Heehee! I'm still Dangerous! :P
Well, "Anonymous" once again you have shown your wisdom in my situation with me saying very little. :P Well, first off, I am not just hearing these "rumors" from only my little Kandy. It seems that there are quiet a few people that wanted to hurt him cus they didn't know that he and I were over. But then, I guess that if everything my closest friends have told me is an absolute and complete lie, I have done nothing worse then what he has (if that). And also, I was not the one that called anyone a (well you know) that was all Kandy. That was all her. It was not my fault that when I cried fifth hour she came to my side and helped my up and got upset with seeing that. You must understand "Anonymous" that that was the second time that she has ever seen me cry in a realationship that has been three years long. Also, I believe that by the time I got done with a conversation Wensday that we were all good, though I will admit that I still am not sure what I should do with him, I will stay loyal and work this out. Again, my apologies for not addressing this issue sooner.

Again to anyone who does not know to whom I speak, it is "Anonymous" from my last entries, "Thoughts".

Kit_Katt's back! (look out ya'll!)
Well that's it. I have had it. I am not going to let this screw my life! So what if he won't even look at me? Good for him. :P I am now gonna be myslelf in full bloom! (Kandy knows how dangerous this can be :D) If he don't like it then he can pout! (oh wait, he's already doing that! {Heehee, okay sorry, didn't mean it} but I'm in a goofy mood, I can't help myself!) heehee. So ya'll I'm back and ready for action! I'm serving God one day at a time and loving every minute!

I am sorry to say that I still feel nothing. My emotions are still numb, my heart is still not there, and I have no idea how to fix it. But in all honesty, I am not sure that I wish to. If I went back to the way things were that would mean that my heart was in his hands once agian, that there would be trust agian. If that were the truth then I would end up even worse then I am now. He doesn't even realize what he is doing. Already he is toying with another girl. She will give him her heart before he realizes what is going on, and that he doesn't want it, it will be difficult to give it back won't it? He will at least now how it was for me. Perhaps then he will stop holding it against me.