What Am I Doing Here Again?

What Am I Doing Here Again?

:: 2004 9 January :: 3.48pm
:: Mood: quixotic
:: Music: Waiting For Tonight

this week was rough. I don't know. It was really very difficult for me to come back. On Monday night I was up for four hours just crying. It's not a good feeling...and it wasn't just because of school. I was just feeling--depressed.

But as the week dragged by I started to feel better I guess.

i'm waiting for *tomorrow* i can't wait...i really can't. i have a feeling it's going to mark such a moment in my life--i think. and i hope it works out just as i have it in my mind.

I always listen to my conscience. it's just who i am. my heart def. doesnt get enough playing time ;) hopefully i'll finally be able to listen to something that never gets a chance to be heard.

And I figured that I was right about something. I don't think I wanted it any other way. Like I always say: trust your first instinct. And I think i totally changed my mind back and i love it yet hate it.

Peace & Love

"trust yourself. your heart won't lead you somewhere you don't want to be."~dml :)

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briggs17

:: 2004 8 January :: 10.47pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: rod stewart

hey i never really have strong emotions when im writing these things it's weird everytime i go to chose my mood im like..blah or blank..or calm or something....annywayz

a lot has gone on with basketball..there has been confusin and ive spoken to coach tracy and he's been tellin me alot and im just thinkin about alot of things right now and the more i think about it i realize how much of a 180 degree turn i made from last year to this yr..last yr i despised the sport of basketball..i couldnt stand it for a second..but now this yr with my teamates and coach especially..ive started to truly enjoy playing..which rox!!...if you want n e details on n e thing just let me know i dont feel like writing everything out here...

today we played eastchester and beat them by like 3...it was like 36 to 33 or something..it was fun..LMAO lauren kocaj I LOVE YOU SO MUCH omg...i was holding on to that ball with my dear life..lmao..ur the best!!

Kk weeks almost over! cnt wait for weekend!!..wait, i have a basketball game saturday morning..crap! no sleeping in :(

anywayz-- i guess this was a basketball entry-sorry if i bore you but i guess this is whats on my mind right now..u dont hafta read this if u dont want to...

let's see what else..ah yes my new yrs resolution to lose....38 lbs was it? ehh ur ganna have to check with danielle on that my numbers may be a little off...hahaha...hello danielle my name is briggette what is your name!! lol

all your base are belong to us,
Briggy<3

goobs827

:: 2004 7 January :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: creative

Should I or shouldn't I?
Do I listen to my heart or my conscience?

~Pease post telling me which one~

I'd really appreciate it
xoxo

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goobs827

:: 2004 5 January :: 5.58pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: vh1

D-Day
omg its been like 5 days without woohu im like dying.

D-day wasn't so bad i suppose...i mean...it definitly could have been a lot worse.

Nothing went wrong but i'm just like holy crap 2 weeks ago i was like the happiest person alive and now im back in this dump where i'm going to turn into an automatic robot in about 2 days with 900 other robots...wake up...go to school...talk to friends...do work...come home...do whatever i have to do...homework...dinner...bed...i hate it

and i hate winter..people talk about how they ski ugh...i never plan on skiing in my entire life...cold snowy grosss ewww. sorry but i'd much rather be on the beach.

im watching this britney vs. christina thing..xtina totally wins! (at least she's talented!) and brit gets married? wtf?

i cant believe i forgot to mention earlier that i made up w/ my cousin...she called on xmas eve and talked to the whole fam but me and then she hung up so i was pissed but she called back and was like "omg my dad hung up on me i was like i h ave to talk to my cousin!!" i was like awww...and of course i couldnt confront her because thats just who i am...i would never be able to do that..im too polite. (or u could say im a wimp) :)

wow i thought i had a lot more to say..but i really don't if i think of anything i'll come back..................

<3

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briggs17

:: 2004 4 January :: 8.17pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: some oldie

its all over.....no more sleeping in, no more plans to go to the mall tomoro at 12...thats it..school......and i am not in the last bit excited..i dont care about seeing anyone cuz ive seen mostly the impt. people..sry if I didnt c u, not like i matter to n e 1...so im sure you'll get over it...n e wayz..im usually a little tiny bit glad to go to school after Christmas break, but hell no..not at all whatsoever

the days after christmas break r my gloomiest unhappy days-- it sucks..so just excuse the mild depression when u see me...altho mayb not..theres always basketball or any sport for that matter that seem to cheer me up..its really weird how much of a positive affect sports have on me, i dunno wat i'd do without them..i thihk about them during school and look forward to the 3 o clock bell so i can run to the locker room and get dressed! i dont kno wat i'd do without sports...i really dont :)

until next time,
Briggs<3

goobs827

:: 2004 1 January :: 4.22pm
:: Mood: complacent

6 hours of Sex & The City...it started at 11 and we switched to watch the ball drop for what...15 seconds? it wasnt very new yearsy, but fun.

i don't really have a new years resolution...if i had to choose one, i suppose it would be to have a more positive and care-free perspective about life. my aunt is my inspiration :)

im a little depressed about not being in miami...its crazy how fast it went. absolutely insane.

the only thing that im really happy about is i have all my new toys and such to play with :)

so its been year since i created this account...i was looking back at all my past entries...so much fun! i think that ive grown a lot, but still not really a different person.

Wishing everyone a happy and healthy 2004!

Peace&Love~Mrs. Depp :)

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briggs17

:: 2004 1 January :: 1.38am
:: Mood: crazy

TiPsYy!!
HapPpYy NeWww YEarRr!!!!! HOLLLLLLLLLLLLERRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GoD BlEsS!

goobs827

:: 2003 30 December :: 5.01pm
:: Mood: grumpy

ahhh im leaving tomorrow--holy crap where did the time go??? this has been the fastest Christmas season and Miami trip EVER! eww.

omg i dont think im going to be able to handle going back home to the cold. the weather here has been absolutely perfect i am going to roll up into a ball and cry.

my aunt is the coolest person EVER. shes the person i hate leaving most. she is so different from my mom i LOVE the change.

so ever since i got this No Doubt Greatest Hits CD..i have been obsessed! its all of their best (derf) and i luv her and their music...remember the song spiderwebs? (yes i can listen to it cos its so good despite my spider disease)...well i never knew what she was saying but i figured it out just by listening to it carefully and its totally not what i thought the song was about:

Sorry I'm not home right now I'm walking into spiderwebs leave a message and ill call you back
a likely story but leave a message and ill call u back
and its all your fault i screen my phone calls
no matter who calls i gotta screen my phone calls...

hehehehehe

Happy New Year!

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briggs17

:: 2003 30 December :: 11.31am
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: the day that i die

ouchhh my mouth is soo sore right now....this blows.....

yesterday...the oral surgeon came in and was like..."alright so we're gonna have to put you to sleep intravaneously (aka i.v.)" and i got so scared hah i was xcited a lil too....ok so it was really weird..he put the needle in me and than he told mah momma to wait outside and before i knew it i woke up dizzy and the ladies there were practically carrying me to this room where i could lay down..it was the strangest feeling...but about 15 min later i was basicallly fine..my mom said i handle drugs very well..lol (: why thank you mother

yah so i completely missed basketball yesterday...i couldnt have any streneous activity for 24 hrs b/c it would cause more bleeding so of course i didnt go..and today im going to go but just sit and watch i cant participate the LAST thing i want is for my already bad tooth to get infected now..well the area of course...cuz tha tooth is gone!!

alrighty..im still real xcited for new yrs...im wearing this outfit that santa brought me for new yrs its soo cute..tube top black skirt and adorable purse..i love it!

thats all folks!
----->briggs<3 HoLLeR At TupAc!

briggs17

:: 2003 29 December :: 12.44pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: powerless

hey im bout to get my tooth pulled...yes its my fault and yes im scared that it'll hurt...i have a choice of being injected novacaine or amnesia and falling asleeep my moms scared of amnesia i think so imma beg for it but its most likely novacaine..n e wayz i have my orthodontist appt. at 1..and basketball starts at 2..hmm yah im ganna be late...this vaca is goin slower than i expected and i love it..its not compltely zipping by..i got cutee stufff for Christmas which is cool..and i cnnnt waiit for the new years party its ganna be the shit!!

i havent seen a lot of people except like my basketball girls...i chilled at emilys yesterday..that girl is a chocoholic..lol she gives it a new meaning...;-) gabs is still in FL., she is due to come back on wednesday..i really want to see her...

alrighty must get ready :( wish me luck please!!

<3 Briggs <---

goobs827

:: 2003 28 December :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: No Doubt~Sunday Morning

Christmas went by so fast...it's so sad how over it is :(

but it was fun...Santa treated me very well, as did my family. i get a lot of gifts on christmas, but thats my reward for being an only child and bored out of my mind on these vacations (sometimes)

but the only gift i'll talk about is my autographed "merry christmas gabrielle" mariano rivera photo--omg i was sobbing!

remember that ricky martin christina aguilera duet? what song was that? it was so pretty...i just thought of it cos they filmed the video at our hotel.

the new britney cd SUCKS..theres only 2 songs i can listen to without wanting to barf.

i always have a different perspective of things down here...and i always strive to have it when i get back to ny..but i never do...but this time im really gonna try harder.
its a very good way of looking at things

hope everyone had a merry christmas

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briggs17

:: 2003 25 December :: 12.25pm

Merry Christmas!!!

<3
Briggs

dmlxoxo

:: 2003 25 December :: 12.21pm
:: Mood: pissed off

sick of it and all of u bitches who have no lives
this is it. im not taking n e more shit from anybody. i cannot stand the people who come here and post bitch comments on mt journal bc no ones asking u to read my stuff. u dont like me, well thats just too damn bad. i know who 2 of u r so lemme just tell u to watch it bc as soon as i talk to u its not gunna b pretty. this journal is now only open to those who i know i can trust to read it and thos who rnt stupid fuckers who have no lives. thanks for ruining such a great thing, get lives. thanks to all of the people who are mature enough to read this and not act like 5 year olds.

if ur listed as one of my friends and wanna read my stuff log in and ull be able to see it.

for the last time...
all my rockstar lovin-
danielle morgan

ps. i hate u too.

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goobs827

:: 2003 24 December :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: The Little Drummer Boy

Joy the world...the lord is come
lol my last post was a little dramatic--but true still...

so im here having nochebuena with the cubans...i hate to say i miss my cousin...im mad that i miss her..but still its fine

omg i LOVE this song..its def. the best religious christmas song.

i am a poor boy too
parapumpumpum
i have no gift to bring
parupumpumpum
to lay before the king
parupumpumpum
rapumpumpum
on my drum

ahh this holiday is the shit!

*glory to the newborn king*
merry christmas

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goobs827

:: 2003 22 December :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: indescribable

I guess there's a first time for everything..
I have never been afraid to fly...ever in my entire life have i ever EVER had the tiniest fear of flying.

Even flying 2 months after September 11, I didn't have one worry.

But today, I am truly scared.

my dad tells me that i shouldn't get scared because then the terrorists win, and even if they dont do anything, us being terrorized is them winning. and i know that is true because thats what ive been telling people afraid of flying for the past 2 years...

but today i can't seem to convince myself.

And then I get really mad because it's out of anyone's control and those guys are such evil mother fuckers and i want to scream and I get so angry that they want to do this to us.

...but then i get a sudden peace of mind.
it's like i know i'm going to die, but for some reason it's okay, and i don't know why, but i feel so at ease.

and as crazy as it sounds...i suddenly don't care.

so when i land tonight because i know i will, i'll look back at this and see how much of a retard i sounded, but if for some reason i don't land...you know i was okay.

Peace

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