What Am I Doing Here Again?

:: 2003 18 June :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: relieved

phew
I really feel like an idiot...I sound like such a bitch in my last post and I am so sorry for it...I shouldnt have used this dumb thing as an outlet to get back at someone and it was really stupid of me...So no one feel sorry for me or look more poorly on someone else on my account...everythings cool now and im so glad it worked out ... I <3 You!!!

Today I went to Brigs and watched the Hot Chick...it was really funny, and then we went online and hung out--it was lotsa fun..too bad no swimming......lyl BS

Tonight I went to Elise's for like an hour .. it was fun as usual even though short.

So summer is back to fun in the (non-existent) sun ... Im so happy this worked out and that i decided to make that call to fix it...it was like a pit in my stomach til we talked it out..and now im happy but so sad that we all hav to part next week * sniff sniff...........Hopefully ill see a bunch of ppl friday night at aarons bye bye party to say our final good-byes before camp and summer fun...More later!

Goodnight Dolls...Peace and Love Forever*GMA

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:: 2003 18 June :: 7.53pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: intuition: jewel

well, well, well, its been a few days since ive updated so i figure i would do it now....
on tuesday i woke up really late and just hung around the house. nothing really happened during the day. then my mom came home from work, and we went over to the matthews' house to drop off some magazines and wordsearch books that we bought for taylor. it was great to be able to go see all of them. taylor was up and out of bed, talking and acting totally normal. it was great to see her looking so well. my mom and i talked to sue for a while and they both started crying. i heard them from upstairs, i was getting ryan. they were hysterical....its so awful, the whole thing. that 10 year old girl didnt deserve what she has. that whole family is sooo strong and i cant even express what heroes they are. then after that sad visit, i went to the mall with hilary and abra as a last hang out before abra moves. it was really fun. i got this shirt at abercrombie (although i hate to admit it lol) and its sooo pretty. im gunna wear it to aarons thing on friday. i also got some sandals at j.crew which r the most comfortable things ever!!! they re-opened ranch1 at the mall, which was soooo exciting bc i love that place. so then i went home and slept late the next morning (what a surprise...) i woke up at like 12:30 and i went over to steffis house where we just lounged and did summer stuff. we ended up going with her and her mom and ivy barr to pick out some glasses for her. ive gone with her for every pair shes ever picked out, its a tradition lol. anyway, so she picked out these pair which look really good and it should b cool when she gets them so she can finally wear them.....not lol. i might get new glasses, im kinda sick of my old ones. we'll see. so then as always, i slept over there. in the middle of the night i was awakened by mr. fluffy walking on me and meowing, he made me pet him...uggh i was soo tired but i felt bad so i didnt kick him off. eventually he went away and then he came back later for more. at that point i refused to pet him again so i threw him on the pillow next to the bed....poor fluffy needs to learn that people actually enojoy sleeping at night and he shoudnt do that! we were awakened by jill this morning at like 11, which was too early (what can i say, i like to sleep in) we went to the mall so she could return some stuff, and we ate ranch1 (yay!!) i just got home from their house bc jane had her dare graduation so i had to leave and now im waiting for my dinner to get here...pizza, yummy!! tomorrow is my doctors appointment and i cannot even tell u how freaked out i am. ive been having nightmares about it all week. i cannot take this n e more. god! y cant they make shots in pill form?!?!? they can prick my finger as many times as they want, but as soon as they whip out that needle, im ready to climb out the window to safety.....and dinners here. ill write tomorrow if im still alive......
all my rockstar luvvin,
danielle

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:: 2003 18 June :: 12.03pm
:: Mood: discontent

UGH...I hate this. 1 minute i can be in the best spot with my friends...I love them all and we're having so much fun... ... A few hours later they become insensitve and even obnoxious. Thats what happened to me yesterday. I got into a mini online fight/argument with a good friend (and she just happened to be with 2 of my other good friends so im sure right now theyre talking shit about me which is great) and she really really upset me. I was in tears. It was just the fact that she was being a big hypocrite and seemed like she was making up excuses not to want to hang out with me (us)...Which is pretty funny considering in previous days everyone including herself is like "We have to hang out every day til camp." UGH it was so frustrating cos I feel like such an idiot writing all that "my friends are amazing and they make me high" shit in my last post and now having this to deal with.

This also helped me realize a few things. Finally seeing this person in a bad light helped me to recognize some better traits in my other friends. It was sort of a reality check. I know we'll settle this, at least i really hope we do, cos i wanna see her before camp...but honestly i dont know if she even gives 2 craps...and if that is the case, then i guess that helps me realize not just a little but A LOT. But if she does care, which i really hope she does cos I do <3 her, then I guess its okay. But this still revealed a lot to me about her, and for that matter about the other 2 friends that were there with her, since they obviously were helping her and pushing her along...but im still not sure if 1 of the girls was there yet. Oh well, last night i was really messed up and crying, because I guess it came as a total shock, but today I'm ok. And if she wants to fix this then I know how Im gonna react.

More on these developments later...
Its such a crappy day I dont even feel like changing ughhhhhhhhh i guess this day goes along with my mood....hopefully tomorrow will be a little more sunny...

~Forever&Always~
gabi

:: 2003 17 June :: 7.19pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Dream On-Aerosmith

What a wonderful day...
OMG today was sooo much fun...It felt so amazingly good to be free from school and parents and everything. So heres what I did:

Me and my 4 (KP,EG,SZ,JB) went to the city together. (by ourselves thank God) We went to Time Square, The Wax Museum, and we walked around and went shopping, and then we got into a fight with some bitchy girls with ugly fingers lol...It was awesome. I was so happy that it wasn't a Saturday or Sunday and we had to worry about school...We were free and it was a blast. We had so much fun we're probably gonna do something tonight. I can't describe how much I love them. When they drive me crazy, sometimes I want to hurt them, but when we have our good times its so unbelievable and uplifting...I know i sound like im talking about getting high...but its true they are like a natural high, the same goes for ALL of my friends...Friends are the best medicine and I love you all madly and would die without each one of you and your different personalities. So thank you for being you...You totally rock my sox off my feet.

Yesterday was really another example. Briggys house swimming with a bunch of people was so much fun!

So thank you to my friends...I love you all this post is dedicated to you.

I will write more later..Im just so happy right now.......HAPPY SUMMER EVERYONE!!! WERE FREEEEEE!
Forever and Always *ACI

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:: 2003 16 June :: 10.28am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Christina Aguilera

IT'S OVER!!!
AHHHH!!!! OMGOMGOMG...I am sooo excited right now, im sure everyone is...SCHOOL IS TOTALLY COMPLETELY FINISHED...Last final was today (spanish easy) and im free...no more waking up early, no more teachers, no more schoolwork, no more obnoxious people, no more cold weather, no more no more no more (at least for 3 months) I cannot wait for my summer to kick off...But Im gonna spend the next week or 2 chillin at home with all my gurlies who are leaving for camp :( im gunna miss them so much...and i cant wait to spend some time with my non campers yayaya!

This is my summer in a nutshell: July : 4 day tennis camp, working at church, and a few city trips and stuff like that. Plus hanging out with the non campers....August is my real vacation: Saratoga, and Miami for my 14th! And there's a lot of little things going on between then. Theres some great movies coming out so im sure I'll see a lot of those! I am so excited, the only thing im not looking forward to is summer reading. BLAGH!

OK before I go on...Did anyone elses power go out on Friday? I know my whole streets did...It was not fun I was in the shower at midnight and it went out...VERY SCARY!

Everyone is doing an end of the year reflections so I might as well just go along with it...I can't decide if this year was good or bad. I cant decide if it was long or short. But I think parts of it were good. And parts were bad...Friendships were generally really good... Some people and I drifted somewhat but I think i still managed to hold on to them...I guess it just happened. A lot of my friendships got better, and i made a lot of new friends which hopefully can get stronger next year. Now here I go:
To my 5 (well 4 i guess) u guys are so awesome...I never feel the slightest bit of awkward around you and you always make me laugh, whether its directly or watching 2 of u fight like crazy. We're so honest with each other and even if we get mad and sick of each other, its hard to not be together. I never thought we would get so close but it did, and this year def. would not have been as fun without that change. We have so many memories. Briggy-what a great 2 years..u are sooo mcuh fun my original AI buddy...SOUTH BEACH was so awesome...You are an amazing friend and you make me laugh like no one else...I know we had some bumps toward the end but i know it doesnt matter cos we'll be bff..ill miss u so much over the summer (NOT!! I promise to come swim lol) EK&LK u guys are sooo sweet ILYSM and all the times we spent together were awesome and hilarious...DL&HD&SG Im so happy we are friends...You guys are so great!...my original greenvillian pals u all are so cool in ure different ways..lotsa fun this year!ily!! Emily, Ryan, Bibi- im glad we became bettr friends this year ilusm! Michelle-what a year! What can I say? You crack me up...You're the best i luv u! Meri-2much2say..always friends! i promise to come save u! Everyone else u kno who u r...I luv u all so much and i will miss you madly...stay sweet.

WHOA...That was a lot for me...Im gonna go take a breakkkkk!! hahaha nothing to study for and no hw this feels so good...Weather please prevail, please be nice...i really really really have been trying to be patient but im getting a little angry now hehe well tata for now Love forever and always*aci

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:: 2003 16 June :: 10.36am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: are you happy now: michelle branch

I'M DONE!!! GOODBYE TESTS, TEACHERS, SCHOOL, EARLY MORNINGS...HELLO SUMMER!!!!
im done!!! yay!!!! i just got home from the spanish final, the very last final of my junior high school career!! it was kinda sad though, knowing that i wont be seeing some of those people for quite a while and those who are moving, maybe not ever again. its sad, but the sadness is almost all washed away by the trance that summer has put me in. i cant wait until the end of july when im in california and las vegas. especially vegas. its sooooo much fun there. i think we're staying in the luxor which is the egyptian theme hotel, its amazing. all the hotels all have specific themes and theyre all sooo beautiful. im really excited for that. tomorrow i think i may be going to the country club with stephanie and eating dinner there. as for what the rest of the week holds in store, im not quite sure. all i know is that on thursday im goin for my physical, which should be anything but a picnic. if im recalling correctly, im due for a tetnus booster this year. ::whimpers:: save me from that big sharp needle...i dont know if i can handle this......

for my chiquitas who helped me eek by in some sticky situations...
Stephanie: ever since the very first day of kindergarten u have always been my best bud. you are my other half and no one knows how to make me smile like u do. thank you for coming into my life and taking the role of someone i need in my family. as an only child, all i had ever wanted was a sister, and i found one in u. love ya.

Kira, Gabi, Sarah: im so glad that we've grown so close this year. i know i can count on u guys for n e thing. thank u for always being by my side when i needed u. TEAMO SUPREMO, IHH and PINK FLAMINGOS FOREVER!!!

Hilary, Ellen, Meredith: u guys r the best!! i know i can talk to u about anything (HD), laugh as hard as possible with u (EB), and take wonderful trips to LI to hang out with our number one hottie crush!! (MR) haha.

Lizzy!!: my number one woohu buddy! this summer will not be the same without u. u r the best for advice and i know i can come to u for anything. u r the greatest.
**yall r my back bone. thank u for being a friend, travel down this road and back again, ur heart is true, ur a pal and a confidant...THANK U FOR BEING A FRIEND. u guys r my number one rockstar chiquitas, never change...i love u guys.**
lots and lots of rockstar luvvin...
xoxo-danielle-xoxo

:: 2003 15 June :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Just Missed the Train--Kelly C

Stuff
Hey! Sorry its been a couple days...I was out in Westhampton at my Grandpas house. It was me mom dad aunt uncle uncle uncles friends and gramps. It was really fun. I went kayacking and swimming and boating and played tennis. And i got my first sunburn of the season yayaya!
It was really nice to be there since my Grandpa is really sick. We wanna spend as much time with him as possible. So you would think how unsettling it was when i woke up this morning to the police. I was so scared, Thank God he ( my grandpa ) only dislocated his shoulder and then they were going into the car to the hospital and it popped right back in so he stayed home!

Anyway, Final tomorrow ugh suck not studying...So excited for end of school...you have no idea.

So this woohu thing is going nuts...so many ppl have one now its really cool...and that stupid anonymous person leaving random mean posts needs to die lol danielle and everyone else who got one.

I am so unbelievably tired u have no idea...the police woke us up at like 7......muy muy muy muy temprano para el weekend (ha im trying to practice for spanish) ill prolly go take a shower and go to bed! Ill write more in-depth tomorrow
Love*Forever and Always*
Aci

:: 2003 13 June :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: contemplative

just a thought...
i was just watching some tv and a pinesol commercial came on and it dawned on me: if its called PINEsol, then y does it smell like lemons?? should it not smell like pine??
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Oh. What a shock. Ive never been told that before....right. ONLY LIKE EVERY DAY. lol

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:: 2003 13 June :: 2.18pm
:: Mood: nieve
:: Music: in this diary: the ataris

sometimes i dont understand. why do people do things that they do? why do people see things like they see them? why do people only hear what they want to hear? some people say it gives them this unbelieveable feeling of control, but having true control is being able to see what youre doing and stopping yourself. i just feel like taking the blindfolds off their eyes and taking the cotton balls out of their ears and showing them what it the world really looks like, or what complete thoughts really sound like.

today was the math final, which was not entirely awful, but i sat there with this one problem until the bitter end just waiting for the thought to come into my head of how i could possibly go about finding joyce and selma's ages. well that attempt to figure it out was never fullfilled. oh well, i think i did okay aside from that problem. the stupid sevies outside the gym...uggh, i just wanted to go out there and scream at them!!! they wouldnt shut up! and of course none of the teachers wanted to do n e thing about that for some reason so they just let them stand there. while i was taking the test, ms. egan and ms.cardillino found a "cheat sheet" in the row next to me. i wonder whos it was. they didnt know who was sitting there so they werent sure. should be interesting to see what happens.

i've made so many new woohu friends!! theyre all from florida but thats okay, i love making new friends...new people to meet, new journals to read!! lol i love woohu

xoxo-ur number one rockstar-xoxo
XOXO--DANIELLE--XOXO

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:: 2003 12 June :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: nervous

a couple things ive learned today...
1) i hate solid geometry. i mean comon, why do we need to learn how to find the lateral area of a cylinder anyway? its not like its going to help me out later in life anyway right? if you know the answer to why we need to know this, please, im dying to know, tell me!!

2) accept what you have. face it, you are more fortunate than most people in the world, so stop complaining and be grateful for what you have. I can thank miss aci for that one. that entry u posted really got me thinkin about that whole topic. We all know that we have more, and we all know that we are more fortunate. we all need to start focusing on the stuff we have, not what we 'want' or 'need'.

3) I hate math. Okay, well maybe hate is too strong of a word. im just a little stressed about tomorrows final.....TTr2 x H= the area of a cylinder.......TTr2 x H= the area of a cylinder...

4) I dont like maraschino cherries.

5) Contradictory to what many people think i think, summer is not made of all good. Yes summer is almost here, and along with the arrival of something great, leaves something greater...friends. Although it will be very nice to take a break from edgemont and all of its elements (including the people) i am going to miss everyone so much. I'm going to bid steffi a proper farewell at the bus and i dont know how im going to handle that. we're practically attached at the hip and when the bus drives away with half of me on it...OUCH is that going to hurt. we're making eachother boxes full of all sorts of fun stuff, memories, games, pictures, and one rather long letter. im just trying to keep 'bon voyages' off the mind and try and keep myself occupied with the wonders of summer. im really excited for las vegas, california, and of course....fire island (miss ya liz!)

6) Dropping a can of corn on your foot really REALLY hurts.

7) I hate math. did i mention this already???

If you ask me thats a lot of stuff to learn in one day. "a day without learning is a day wasted."

~~--~~Miss Rockstar~~--~~

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:: 2003 12 June :: 5.54pm
:: Mood: grateful

So Final # 3 today...English, it was soooo easy, and pointless, but then again it was kind of relieving at the same time.

So then afterward I saw Bruce Almighty with some ppl and then they came over and we played sardines. Im so tired from running around!

I cant believe in just a couple weeks everyone will be gone for camp :( but then again Im also kind of excited about that cos im getting a little sick of some people (some im not though, so its really sad)

I have so freakin much to look forward too...SUMMER!!! But something is preventing me from being 100% happy..I dont know what it is...im going through everything and trying to figure it out...Its like this little hole inside of me and it wont tell me what it is or how to fix it...I just have to think about it
and when I do i feel so happy cos i realize how much i have that other people dont (not just ppl in our grade but all over the world, I know its a cliche but seriously come on)

so thats why my mood is grateful, I have so much to be happy about right now im just gonna take that and accept it..I cant stand when people in this school complain about life so much and all their "problems" shut up alreay... some even talk about killing themselves and crap like that...I just wanna shake them and be like "Shut the hell up u attention needers..u have so fccin much and your so greedy and ungrateful" thats seriously how it is here..no ones happy with what they got and theyre so blind to see that they have stuff people dream about and will never have in their lifetime. People are really selfish and I hate that

Ok i just really needed to get that out...Im gonna go take a shower and eat dinner <--(something else i should be grateful for) Im really tired so ill prolly just end up watchng some TV and goin to bed..i also have study blah ................................... Peace and Love *GMA

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:: 2003 11 June :: 5.58pm
:: Mood: groggy

Braces
So guess what I found out today? I might need to get braces whoopy! Ive set my life on the fact that I was one of lucky ones who never needed braces. That is not the case anymore. Its not really crucial or extremely important, its just that i have an overbite (which i never noticed before) and a weird bite or something like that. I was really disturbed when I found out, so my mom was like "u know its really not worth it if its gonna make you this miserable. i wouldnt bother with it if you really dont want it. you can always get it later in life, its really not urgent" so that made me feel better..ill keep u updated on the brace-front...right now im definitly leaning toward NO WAY JOSE...but i might really have a breakthrough or start to think differently...who knows......x's and o's *aci*

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:: 2003 11 June :: 5.48pm
:: Music: the rising: bruce springsteen

ahh crap! the sky is falling!
i have never seen raindrops so huge in my entire state of being. it has been raining on and off (mostly on) for about 3 weeks now and i cant take it anymore. why is it that the clouds have chosen new york to rain on? the spring has been rainy the whole time, and it only got warm this week. the warmest its been in 80, which im not complaining about, but hey, spring weather is usually hotter...no? why is it that weather has such an affect on people's moods? when its rainy and gross out im always in a tired "missy pissy" mood, and when its sunny and warm im all energetic and happy. its not only like this with me, but with a lot of people too. especially with finals around, this rainy weather is not helping the situation. tensions have been forming between people and it seems to me like more and more people are practically jumping out of their skin to get out of this sleepy boring town we all call home. not that i dont wanna go on summer break (because trust me, i have never been more ready!) as i was saying, im just asking for a week of sun is all. its not too much to ask is it? one day is just a tease, yesterday was absolutely perfect and they just had to go and take it away today didnt they? (sigh) that is just waaay less than satisfactory lol.

today was the science test. it was just a state test so it didnt count, but i cant even explain how pointless it was. out of the 60 questions that were on the test, maybe 3 of them were on the 8th grade curriculium. uggh, i just dont understand how they expect us to do well on these tests if they dont teach u whats on them! all of the stuff was either from 5th, 6th or 7th grade science and no one remembers any of that. some of the stuff they asked we never ever learned at all. whatever though, it doesnt count so i really dont care if i did badly on it. after the test everyone was talking about how stupid it was. we all finished with an hour to spare so everyone was outta there by 10. tomorrow is english which will be totally fine just beacause its barely what one would call a final. 8th grade is a waste of time...blughhh. theres no work and you could take the finals in your sleep. another thing i dont quite have the best comprehension of, but what can ya do. im up for the shock of 9th grade when the time comes.

i cant wait until monday when i have nothing to worry about and im totally carefree. i wanna be able to enjoy the beginning of summer with the people i love before we all leave for summer vacations. it really doesnt feel like its the end of school. i dont know what it is, but it just doesnt. i think my dad and i are gunna go with steffi and her family to six flags before she leaves for camp and before we leave for vegas. hopefully before we leave ill be able to have a quick visit with liz who is coming up from florida to go to fire island. too bad shes gunna be there when im not and shes flying home the day before we come back...(sigh) se la vie i guess. we must get a visiting day in before i leave though. im just not used to not spending my 3 weeks a year with liz! so along with those things im going to do before i leave, im gunna have a lot of sleepovers with my chiquitas and im gunna go to aarons good-bye party...(sigh once again).

okay danielle, all we have left is english, math, and spanish....UR ALMOST THERE....U CAN DO IT!!
ur favorite favorite favorite rockstar- danielle xoxo ;)
ps...and as i complete this the sun eeks through the clouds...yay!