It feels very validating to get an award after that summit. It's not often that I feel like I'm doing well enough and my anxiety hits hard these days; but to have the C-suite looking at me and have my new role generate so much attention is definitely going to mean I have to be on my game this year.

Jovie is living up to her jovial namesake and really doing the heavy lifting of keeping a smile on my face since Rose. My friends that haven't up and left like Mitch recently have kept my spirits up too, despite the difficulties they're all dealing with. Cancer fucking sucks and so do people who say they'll be there and they love you when they bounce. Not to mention fascist regimes who owe foreign dictators after they bailed them out for losing all their daddy's money. Say goodbye to life as we know it and get ready to lose your retirement, social security, health care, and any semblance of normalcy you've got left.

I feel like alot is going to change this year and I'm going to have to be the catalyst in my own life and make it what I want it to be. The panic is building, but the courage also.

try again