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:: 2004 16 June :: 6.48 pm
:: Mood: high
:: Music: Angelina-Forever

Hello Summer...



Last Final tomorrow..




.....yesss






Court on July 26th for Me Emily & Meg..
thats gay, 5 days after my birthday

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:: 2004 13 June :: 8.18 pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Angelina-Forever

Fucking Finals



this is our last week......

its kinda sad, I'm gonna miss everyone :-(
but I can't stand work and teachers anymore so I'm glad its summer... I need a break. hopefully this summer's good.. :-\ :-) and hopefully I will see the people I wanna see alot....

last summer was so good......
it was boring up until august, I dont even remember wat I did every day or if I just sat at home... all I remember is August- probly one of the best months I'll ever have... but I didn't realize how great it was while it lasted.
I want so bad for this summer to turn out like like summer did..



I miss him :'(

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:: 2004 10 June :: 6.01 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Juvenile-Slow Motion

welcome back :-)



I got my Baby back today <3 aw I missed it
I'm never letting it out of my site again.. I will guard it with my life haha

R.I.P. Marilyn,Marley & Cici

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:: 2004 8 June :: 9.13 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: KRS-ONE -how bad do you want it

ITS SO WARM!!



wow it's like 90 degrees out. it's rediculously hott... I need some yummy ice pops!

well today I came home right after school cause my fajah is a fagget and made my mom pick me up. and he stole my cellphone saturday night cause of what happened..
thats gay, but I don't really care cuz I get it back Friday neway..

[inTOXICation is MajkL]


how bad do you want it
how bad do you see it
how bad do you hear it
how bad do you believe you can be it
if you doubt then your out
if you believe you can achieve
KRS-ONE

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:: 2004 6 June :: 10.40 pm
:: Mood: guilty
:: Music: Juvenile-Slow Motion

5 days....



this week is the last week of actual classes...
and our first Final is Friday.
kind of excited but also worried about what this summer is going to turn out to be..

lots of fights between friends lately... I dunno how they started. But there dumb and need to end.. or else this summer will suck-with noone to blame but ourselves.

It's obvious our friendships weren't meant to end now.. not today, not tomorrow. We need to think and realize some things first.

The Semi... probably our last formal dance between now and Prom.. is this Friday. I'm not going to it just to spend the night ignoring one of my best friends.. whether she likes it or not. I made you buy your ticket-- and me, you and kate are going to go and have fun.

Sorry. A word seldom heard from a stubborn fuck


I love you Emily.. probly only another month or so until court. In some twisted way I can't wait... I miss you.

Well Roseanne is on in 10 minutes, I'm out. <3

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:: 2004 6 June :: 12.59 pm
:: Music: Smooth Criminal



EmmyD89: kelsey i love you so much...i cant believe this all happend last nite.. but im not allowed to see you and meaghan anymore


:'(what the hell am I gonna do

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:: 2004 5 June :: 10.21 pm
:: Mood: booked
:: Music: Jadakiss ft.Anthony Hamilton-Why

I am a fuck up



I just got back from the Security Office of Filene's....
I've never fucked up so bad in my life....
everything I've ever done I've gotten away with somehow and finally tonight some people gave me what I deserve.. a nice record of shoplifting and posession of stolen material or w/e the fuck they call it.

Not only did I fuck up my own situation but I got my friends booked too... and their gonna have it 2x as bad with their parents then I am.. and thats even worse.

so please don't ruin your life by making dumb mistakes like I did, that will stay with you FOREVER.... a permanent record stays with u ur whole life..

if ur gonna do drugs... be my guest but dont fucking get caught
if ur gonna steal... dont be a dumbass about it and dont think JUST cause you get away with it once that you NEVER will, cause thats not the case



Auto response from x we4k inside:
From now on im gunna try to do better. No more drugs, no more lying, no more stealing, no more being depressed over nothing..im gunna fix my life...i dont wanna be known as a fuck up.

I second that


So now I'm desperately waiting to here from Emily.... thats probly my biggest concern right now :-\ I can't imagine losing one of the best friends I've ever had because of one of the stupidest mistakes I've ever made..

and meg.. when I think about it you are the only one who has stood by me through everything.. and never walked away when I needed you most. Thank you so much for just simply being there... I know I can always count on you to be by my side

I love you guys, always



laughh it up and leave a comment >>>

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:: 2004 5 June :: 1.05 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Brandy ft. Kanye West-Talk about our love

LOOK ITS MEG!!!






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:: 2004 2 June :: 4.39 pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Ja Rule-Caught Up

Summerr is right around the corner!



the four day week is half over... then only 5 more days of actual school.. & finals the next week, then we're out!

I dont know if I should be excited or not...
I love the summer but I also hate leaving everyone at the end of the year..

and I know this summer won't be the same as last summer, no doubt about it.
Last June around this time, I probably found myself in the same position as I'm in now. Thinking to myself, what the hell am I gonna do this summer without them? well... by the time August of last summer came - the them's were replaced by a new group of people.. who I became very close with in that one month and changed with a WHOLE lot. I wouldn't be what I am right now if I hadn't met them... Everyone knows how I was in 8th grade, and should see the difference between now and then... and if you were wondering how it happened-its all because of them.

And the one person who started it all doesn't even talk to me anymore..
When I met her last summer and became really close with her I left alot of my old friends out of my life for a while.. and thats exactly what she did to me and Lizzy and Amanda sometime at the begining of the year.. and I'm not writing this to make her feel bad or guilty in any way.. because I know growing and changing and meeting new people is all a part of high school.. I just hope she knows how much her friends cared about her and missed her.

This summer is going to be real hard for me at first... and I think I can speak for my friends as well when I say that. We will make something good out of it though-we always have. It's just going to be a whole lot different.

As long as we don't spend our vacation reminiscing in the past.. we should be able to make new memories with new people. Although it may be hard to look into a new future when you are desperately trying to hold onto the past... people DO come and go, just hold onto the ones who are with you now-they are all you will need to make it through. And remember there is always a reason why some people dont make it to your future.

- SuMmEr '04 -

I love you Elizabeth Amanda & Meaghan
MajkL* & everyone else.

HappY 15tH BirthdaY KateliN!!

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:: 2004 31 May :: 3.31 pm
:: Mood: fat
:: Music: Fuel-Falls on Me



I wanted to go back..
Back to the way I was before.
But the truth is, you've changed me
I'm not the same anymore..
x o x o

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