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2004 4 August :: 12.54 am
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-New American Classic
you'll never be what I need
:-[ I dont know
I love him but I'm scared to give in to something thats just gonna crash down in weeks and leave me alone & hurt..
some say it's easy to believe someone when they are telling you exactly what you wanna hear.. well that only works the first time around. when you hear the same thing everytime.. it gets hard to believe its true.. and in 5 days it will be one year....
one year of trying too hard and holding onto something that was never there...
he was never there when I needed him... he only came when he wanted and left when things got bad
but he always came back to me.. and that's what made me hold on for so long. and everytime he returned it seemed he was more and more convinced he loved me.. now its been a year and I don't know what to do.. some say if you love with him then its worth any time you are able to be with him even if it does hurt.. and some say dont bother even for that short period of happyness..
I'm one of the people who believes you should take every chance at happyness you get.. because you only live ones and it's the times you were happy that you will always remember...
..and whether I go with him or not I'm gonna be hurting either way.. but for some reason I still can't do it. I told myself I would wait this time until I actually believed him.. but I don't know what to believe anymore because words just don't get through to me.. and I dunno what will.
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2004 3 August :: 10.03 pm
:: Mood: contemplating..
:: Music: Yellowcard-Only One
I Love You <3
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
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2004 30 July :: 8.57 pm
:: Mood: bummed
:: Music: Led Zeppelin-Black Dog
Home from Maine...
it was fun. I hate vacation but I love Wells and I've been there almost every year I've been alive.. and it was good to get away from here for a few days and spend time with my family..
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2004 26 July :: 3.44 pm
6 MONTH PROBATION
nooo community service
--girls we got off easy...
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2004 25 July :: 8.43 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: shyne-more or less
plans for this week..
tomorrow I have court with meg and emily at 2.. I'm scared.
then Tuesday morning I leave for Maine...
it will probly be nice to get away from here.. but boring too. and something bad always happens wen I leave town... I noticed that.
I'll be back Friday probly mid-afternoon I dunno..
but call/txt/IM my phone anytime..
with my new plan I have free nationwide and no long distance so knock your socks off
617-957-6377
kissme6377
adios:]
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2004 22 July :: 9.59 pm
:: Mood: high as a kite
:: Music: b2k-everything
x3 I love you x3
wait for the boy who will make any ordinary
moment seem magical, the kinda boy who
brings out the best in you & makes you wanna be
a better person, wait for the one who will be your
best friend, who will drop anything to be with you
at anytime, wait for the boy who makes you smile
like no one else and when he smiles you know
he needs you, wait for the boy who wants to show
you off to the world when you are in your sweats
and have no make-up on but appreciates it when
you get all dolled up for him and most of all wait
for the boy who will put you in the center of his
universe-cause that's where you belong <33
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2004 21 July :: 11.35 pm
:: Mood: happy/exhausted burnt out
:: Music: Mobb Deep-Bounce
July 21
Happy Birthday to Me Tori & Korrie!!
today was fun..Amanda & the girls planned a lil"suprise" party for mee it was fantabulous ;-)
I got a new cell!! I have the same # n shit.. new plan so tonnnss of mins call me up!!
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2004 20 July :: 12.54 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Mobb Deep-Get Away
you'll know hes the right one
when your bad days
..suddenly turn good
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2004 18 July :: 1.09 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Twiztid-Your the Reazon
Hell yeah Summer'04
last night (early this morning) kicked ass. It's been so fuckin long since I've gone out durin the night n had that much fun... night swimming n goin to McDonald's at like 3am in the back of a pick-up truck watchin the stars.. it was so awesome I hadn't done nething like that in so long... it was good to do something diff. for a change
the past few days actually have been pretty good..... we took bong rips at karltons cousins house friday.. haven't done that in a long time either. n I also saw Matty I haven't seen him since.... probly before school ended.
well its been a fun weekend.. but I do miss robbie & jimmy :-( I thought I would be hanging out with them the past few days but they never called.. n then tonite Jimmy asked me to go meet him n his nephew so I saw him for a lil
there were plans for tonite.. I thought.. but I'm wicked burnt out n I need to gain back some sleep that I've lost.. so I think I'll do that instead
Bday- 3 days
Court- 7/26
Maine- 7/27 through 7/30
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2004 17 July :: 6.03 pm
This is to a boy
who got inside
my head..
with all the
Amazing
things he did..
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