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2004 7 October :: 7.06am
i just had this really weird dream that i was walking through teh school and it was snowing outside.. and i was talking to ::someone:: about ::something:: and i was like "i just wanna know what the future will be like.." and he says "dont worry everything you lose youll someday get back..everything will be alright"
wow..if only it were that easy...
happy 18th big jimmy little
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2004 5 October :: 10.43pm
half day today helll yesss :-)
ryan molloy cannot go to lockup i wont let him :( i <3 himmmmmmmmm
bahhh life is fucking gay.. and amusing
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2004 5 October :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: ice ice baby lol!
better mood
well things seem to get progessively better as my time in this place continues :-/ i hate adjustments!
ive made new friends...sort of...lol. rite now im just hopin it will all get better from here...
on the brite side i actually sit somewhere at lunch...whoa! rite ahaha. i miss u guys so much...i cant wait till the 23rd! except i have no idea wat to get u nikkie! >:O esp after hearing about some of the other gifts.....maybe dougs?? lol!!
well id appreciate a comment from u assholes ...byebye :0)
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silentcriez
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2004 5 October :: 7.12am
the world is hell...
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silentcriez
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2004 3 October :: 10.53pm
:: Music: all cried out x 112 ft. allure
sooooo i started work at stop n shop yesterday its good with the exception of meaghan fahey working there but hey its work and i must be mature and put aside my shit.. seeing as how the world is much bigger than stupid problems with bizzle slizzles --johnnys cue-- "squidwards"
haha
welll shits been kinda confusing with a certain someone but i guess i cant sweat it.. or shouldnt cuz things will just happen if theyre sposed to..
ppl at stop n shop are nice to me :-) so many random ppl gave me compliments :-D
after work today stephie and goncha and lizzy picked me up :-) and we rented the sweetest thing and got wendys then went back to gonchies and chilled with matty cj tony n el6 :-) lol
i <3 you girls
ill write more later
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2004 2 October :: 11.30pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: white houses
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well i guess i should update. i never know what to say, i mean, im feeling so much, but its nothing new.
i think ive figured out that if i had stayed in natick, i may have been just as unhappy eventually, i guess its just happened quicker. i miss all of you, everyone, everything...but why? you dont give a fuck about me, dont bother telling me otherwise, as if you would.
memories, they aere all i have left, and the only thing i have is what i have to question.
i always wondered how people REALLY felt, i told myself, they told me, that they were real and genuine when i ever questioned it. and i just cant figure out why. why if they were only going to do this in the end.
i tell myself that i am better than that, but am i? maybe i would have done the same. ill try and remember how badly it hurt. use it to be better to people in the future.
what did i do? what is wrong with me to make this happen. it has to be me because i thought you were such good people.
i have to change, or else this wil happen again, and therew ill be no way out.
what did i do to make you hurt me.
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silentcriez
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2004 1 October :: 11.04pm
hahah i saw g-unit boy throw a trashcan top at a moving car..
what an eventful night
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2004 30 September :: 10.52pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Led Zeppelin- "Fool in the Rain"
BOO!
Well there’s a light in your eye that keeps shining
Like a star that can’t wait for the night
I hate to think I’ve been blinded baby
Why can’t I see you tonight?
And the warmth of your smile starts a-burnin’
And the thrill of your touch gives me fright
And I’m shaking so much, really yearning
Why don’t you show up, make it all right?
Yeah, it’s all right.
And if you promised you’d love so completely
And you said you would always be true
You swore that you would never leave me, baby:
What ever happened to you?
And you thought it was only in movies
As you wish all your dreams would come true
It ain’t the first time believe me, baby
I’m standin here feeling blue
Yeah I’m blue
Now I will stand in the rain on the corner
I’ll watch the people go shuffling downtown
Another ten minutes no longer
And then I’m turning around
The clock on the wall’s moving slower
My heart it sinks to the ground
And the storm that I thought would blow over
Clouds the light of the love that I found
Now my body is starting to quiver
And the palms of my hands getting wet
I’ve got no reason to doubt you baby,
It’s all a terrible mess
I’ll run in the rain till I’m breathless
When I’m breathless I’ll run till I drop, hey
The thoughts of a fool’s kind of careless
I’m just a fool waiting on the wrong block, oh yeah
Light of the love that I found...
i love the mounth of october.. its my fav mounth... mostyl cuz i lvoe fall.. but cuz i love halloween.. and this year halloween is gonna b sooo good....10 days till icp, 30 till fright fest... im soo excited!!!
yea thats my borign randomness for the night i need sleep :-P
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silentcriez
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2004 29 September :: 7.32pm
:: Music: still in love x 112
I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to feel like this. To be here...feeling all this.
I just want to dissapeear. This is how i am this is how i feel. You obviously have a problem wiht it.
But you think you know me but u don't. You don't know me at all, how i am... Me.
you gave that up a while ago. I don't understand you or how u can judge me....but it doesn't matter becasue neither of us care enough.
humm well things have been interesting.. i guess im cool with robbie and cozzy they both kinda came to a truce.. i didnt really agree only because i wasnt the one with teh issue in the first place but its ok...
i walked up to johnson today withg lizzy and john morris and there were 2 girls sitting on a table in the basketball court and i couldnt tell who it was and it kinda looked like kelsey and katie but i figured oh theyd wave if it was them and so we sat there for like 10 min and kelsey walks up from the path and goes down there after saying hi to us and it was meg and katie.. and i didnt even recognize them and they didnt say hi.. and i was sitting with john and lizzy and mike and they were all together down in teh basketball court it was like.. wow.. im like really not friends with them anymore well im friends with kelsey and katie but like obviously not as much
yeah so thats part of my day..
then big jimmi little showed up and i <3 him then miss elizabeth had to go and we just all hung out for a few.. and now im home waiting to possibly hang out with dana mike and jimmi.. humm i hope so!
im off to grab some grub mwahhhhh
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2004 28 September :: 7.08pm
Here we are
All alone
You and me,
Privacy
And we can do anything
Your fantasy
I wanna make your dreams come true
Can you hear?
She's calling me
Between your legs
It's Loud and clear
I wanna talk back to her
Make love to her
I wanna hear you scream my name
CHORUS
We can make love in the bedroom
floatin on top of my waterbed
I'm kissin' you
Running my fingers through your hair
In the hallway making our way beside the stairs
We can do it anywhere
I can love you in the shower
Both of our bodies dripping wet
On the patio we can make a night you won't forget
On the kitchen floor
As I softly pull your hair
We can do it anywhere (anywhere)
I love the way
Your body feels
On top of mine
So take your time
We got all night
Girl, you know
I like it slow
And I know you like it too, baby
Please don't stop I feel it now
You feel it too
You're shivering
Ooh, you're pullin me close to you
Just let it flow
There's no other place to go
We can make love in the bedroom
(tell me how you like it baby)
floatin on top of my waterbed
(tell me can i drive you crazy)
I'm kissin' you
Running my fingers through your hair
In the hallway making our way beside the stairs
We can do it anywhere
I can love you in the shower (in the shower)
Both of our bodies dripping wet (in the bedroom)
On the patio we can make a night you won't forget (we'll do it all night long)
On the kitchen floor (tell me how you like it)
As I softly pull your hair
We can do it anywhere (anywhere)
Z too hot to stop
So we goin' from the bedroom to the floor
Let you know whether I'm gonna miss you when I'm on tour
When our tongues touch
Have a playboy sing it much
Roll a Dutch, let me tell you what turns me on
When 112 sing to you
What kinda feeling do it bring to you?
I bump hard till you say I'm being mean to you
I know the ice Roley game to you
A true player's what I seem to you
And if you want it
We can do it in the Black 500
Wit the top down
In overdrive when we ride cuz I'm hot now
You got me goin', I don't think I'ma stop now
Z feenin' like a criminal on lock-down
So let's get a way to get away
You gettin' hot baby, please don't run away
I got a crib on the beach in Palmetto-way
Here's your personal key, so take a left at
112...
We can make love in the bedroom
in the bedroom
floatin on top of my waterbed
on my waterbed
I'm kissin' you
(let me run my fingers through your hair)
Running my fingers through your hair
In the hallway making our way beside the stairs
(tell me how you like it)
We can do it anywhere
I can love you in the shower (in the shower)
Both of our bodies dripping wet (when you touch me)
On the patio we can make a night you won't forget (make me feel so good inside)
On the kitchen floor (let me touch you baby)
As I softly pull your hair (sexy, sexy baby)
We can do it anywhere (anywhere)
We can make love in the bedroom (tell what you want from me)
floatin on top of my waterbed (let me know your fantasy)
I'm kissin' you
Running my fingers through your hair
In the hallway making our way beside the stairs(let me touch you baby)
We can do it anywhere (can i drive you crazy)
I can love you in the shower (we can do anything)
Both of our bodies dripping wet (anywhere)
On the patio we can make a night you won't forget (anyplace)
On the kitchen floor
As I softly pull your hair
We can do it anywhere (we can do it)
let me touch you baby
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