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2005 19 July :: 12.44am
:: Mood: depressed
death?
So every since my mom passed away people told me things will get better... that everything will fall into place with time.. It wont hurt as bad... after time... well the more and more that time passes.. the worse and worse i feel.. the more sad i get... is that wrong... am i messed up or something? I know nobody reads this.. but.. can someone please help me.. cuase everyday that i wake up.. i just wish it was all a bad dream...
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shinigami
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2005 17 June :: 8.25pm
Of course there is no one at my house tonight and I'm sick so I can't have a party. Damn.
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angel_bob
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2005 17 June :: 5.42pm
Why don't people tell me these things?
I'm proud of the fact that I don't know anything about the people in the bands I listen to. I like that I don't know where they were born or what their favorite color is.
But I'd really like to know that they're alive, at least.
And apparently Elliott Smith is not. And has not been for a year and a half.
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alastar
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2005 17 June :: 3.15pm
Annihiliation
I can't wait for it to end. You will all be amazed at how pretty everything is in the silence. It's like black and white, but forever. It's not a lens, it's real.
It's coming, it's coming, it's coming...
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KTHPKC
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2005 17 June :: 12.23pm
Just a reminder for you all.
My open house is tomorrow from 4 until 10 or later. Apparently my friend Pete (he works with my dad) is going to be doing something stupendous that I'll never forget. So be here around 7 if you want to witness that. The only thoughts that came to mind when dad informed me that Pete was going to do something were car stunt, karate stuff, violin performance, lapdance?
In other news, the race is on between my Tomato and dad's Xiao "Albert" Chang. Tomato will most likely come first because he/she is coming from Tennessee while Xiao "Albert" Chang is coming from China. w000000.
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angel_bob
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2005 17 June :: 2.39am
I made oodles of friends in WoW today.
OODLES.
I love it when people don't believe that you're a chick.
What? Girls playing a video/computer game? INCONCEIVABLE!
Except there's more drooling and stuttering.
Ha.
I love you all.
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Angel_Bob
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2005 16 June :: 8.15pm
I love optical illusions
You have got to see this. Ignore that technical jazz on the side and just look at the plus sign in the middle. There's this empty patch that rotates to each purple dot and makes them disappear. After awhile, that patch will turn to a green dot as your eyes do some cool stuff.
THEN THE COOLEST PART HAPPENS!
The purple dots disappear and the green dot is the only thing left.
Seriously, it's smurfing sweet.
I love you all.
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shinigami
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2005 16 June :: 12.05pm
I feel like shit. I couldn't even sleep last night. Make it go away!
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kthpkc
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2005 15 June :: 3.19pm
:: Mood: blah
My back hurts like a fecking mother today. Attempting to roll out of bed today was priceless, I'm glad you all weren't there to see. You would've peed your pants laughing.
Today is ultra "clean my room" day because tomorrow I babysit and Friday the person staying in my room is coming.
I'm going to a spa party thing at Missy's (also known as Mel) house. Yay, I think. Hey, I get free food and the chance to see friends. Mmm...tacos.
Andy has informed me that soon there will be something beautiful right by the speakers in my room. I'm apprehensive because this is the kid that wants to take over my room when I'm gone at WMU. At least he's getting more of an interest in Rammstein now. Muwahahahahaha! I will spoil him rotten with Rammstein.
Speaking of Rammstein, they're already planning on releasing another album in September. They'll be putting songs left over from Reise Reise on it, as well as some new songs that they started recording yesterday. There is no confirmed title for the new album, but Benzin (gasoline/petrol) and Reise weiter (journey on) are a couple of possibilities.
Needless to say, this Rammstein fan is geeked ~_^ I know what I'll be buying in the fall ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
Anybody want to go to Berlin with me? Rammstein is playing at Wuhlheide from the 23rd to the 26th there.
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shinigami
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2005 15 June :: 3.08pm
Ok, this sucks. I'm offically sick. Fever, congestion, and my throat is killing me. And today just had to be the day I work a double. Dammit.
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2005 15 June :: 2.27am
Oh, my French class?
It's from 8-8:50.
My momma told me not to get an eight o'clock class. I don't know why, it's not like that wasn't the time my French class was at this year or anything.
She says because then I can't stay out too late because I have to be to school at eight. Meh. She said I'd learn and it's just a semester.
I do wish I'd squeezed my classes together though. I have an hour between some of them, which is going to suck in the winter when I can't just lie in the grass and read a book.
I love you all.
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kthpkc
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2005 14 June :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: tired/excited
I had orientation for WMU today. It was fun. My student guide/leader was awesome and hyper.
My Schedule
Monday
*Modern Western World 10:00-10:50
*Excursions in Mathematics 2:00-2:50
(This was the easiest math class I could get into. And, Gott sei dank, it'll be the only math class I"ll hafta take)
Tuesday
*German Conversation 11:00-12:15
(It's a class for Juniors, but I was able to test in)
*German Composition 2:00-3:15
(Also a class for Juniors)
*Thought and Writing 4:00-5:50
Wednesday
Same as Monday
Thursday
Same as Tuesday
Friday
*Modern Western World 10:00-10:50
*Excursions in Mathematics lab 1:00-1:50
W00! I find out my roommate and which residence hall I'm in in July.
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Shinigami
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2005 14 June :: 4.37am
Its nights like tonight that make you realize morality. Simple little incidents as they may be, they make you see how much one little difference in a situation can make the bigger picture change dramatically for the worst. And that you realize how much you would miss a person who you never thought could make a big impact in your life. The cause? Joe had a cabinet fall on his head. The cabinet that hides the fuses to the house. It is quite heavy, don'tcha know. But as I was getting ready for bed I heard a loud crashing noise, at first I thought it was thunder, then went and checked outside for...something. Seeing nothing I head downstairs and see Joe walk out of his room. I ask him if he's alright, and then I actually get a look at him. As he tilts his head toward the light I see streams of blood running down face. His only words are "get dad." So with adrenalin pumping I run up the stairs and wake my father up and tell him that the cabinet fell on Joe. He groggily asks what and I tell him to get downstairs. As I go to the downstairs bathroom I see in the mirror the blood on his face and coming from the wound. The blood is literally dripping strait from the wound into the sink that he's leaning into. I grab some tissues and attempt to clean up some of the blood from the side of his face. I ask him if he wants aspirin and he say later. Much to this point I try and give him a little space even as my motherly instincts kick in because he looks to the point of crying. But that's when I actually get a look at the cabinet that fell on him. The half that was on the front of his body was hanging by the cords stuck in the wall to stubborn to come out. Let's just say that it was not a good thing to see. So my dad looks at him and whatnot and gets my mom. She gets a look and the first thing she says is "shit." Never good. We call the emergency place closest to us that are 24 hours just to make sure they didn't loose power or anything. (LOL) It takes us a bit but we finally get out on the road (Joe, my mom and I) and finally get to the emergency room. Joe goes in for about a half hour and comes out later with some kind of glue on his forehead. No stitches. We drive back here and right as we're leaving the parking lot, I remember what Joe had said before. "Well at least I woke up. At least it didn't knock me out." I didn't really think about it like that. What if I had been the only one awake and heard it and didn't do anything about it? What if the cords had broken and the whole thing had landed on him? I would have been in his room yelling at Jarod to wake up (he never heard a thing and is still asleep right now mind you) and help me get this cabinet off our brother. Would I have been able to keep a clear head and get him out without injuring him further? What would have happened to him if the whole things had landed on him? Would he have tried to call for help? Could he get out himself? Fortunately that wasn't the case, and I know this is nothing compared to loosing someone I love forever, but it still makes me wonder.
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2005 13 June :: 9.25pm
:: Music: Finch
I am your father, your mother is this pen
Heavy eyes push uncontrollable looks
Release the pressure with needles and hooks
Pushing past all the instincts in nerves
With knives and glass, cut crescent curves
Replacing veins with tubes and wire
Like water in oceans and flames in fire
Which way should you move?
Trapped on the lines of this schism
Cut too deep and got caught on a groove
Hesitation gives way to paroxysm
Parallel to indecision
A mark on your cornea marks the depth of your vision
Near-sighted, frightened, and mortified
A tattoo on your chest says “[W]hor[e]rified”
And through all of this I realized
You’re just a part of a poem, a couple of lines
I’ve been holding you captive inside my thoughts like a tomb
Gestating ideas inside my mind like a womb
And finally, giving birth onto paper, you’re spilling out of my pen
You’re a creative process, and I don’t see an end
You’re a font with underlines
I can italicize
And bold you to make you seem like more than just a word
You're nothing more than twisting design, doesn't that hurt?
You are nothing more than spiraling inspiration
Conceived in my mind, you are my creation
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2005 13 June :: 1.35pm
I talked to Tina today. She has tons of exams this week. Poor her.
She was telling me about how next week she and her classmates will be celebrating their freedom by going to a pub. She will have vacation until the first or second week in September.
She says hi to everyone and can't wait to see you all again in August. ^_^
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