labyrinth
|
::
2012 12 December :: 9.50pm
:: Mood: content
For some weird reason. I'm good at begging and pleading. That's something I do when I'm in school. I failed many tests and always convince my teachers that I tried very hard. I didn't understand the subject. Most of them let me pass because they thought I had "the potential to be successful." I never thought I had potential, but I get encouragements from many people. I guess I'm succeeding after all. Having an alone time helped me to think. I turned most of my thoughts into action. One example, losing weight. I succeeded. I lost over 20 lbs. It's all in the mind.
comment?
|
|
labyrinth
|
::
2012 4 November :: 10.47pm
I'm not in this world to live up to your expectations and you're not in this world to live up to mine. - Bruce Lee
Expectations. I used to imagine what I want. Now I just live life with very low expectations. It's definitely easier for me to adapt to others, but I don't expect anyone to do the same. It's always easier for me to reach out and give what I have. The only thing I can do is give and not expect anything in return. I guess I'm content. Not wanting more than a simple life.
comment?
|
|
labyrinth
|
::
2012 18 October :: 4.18pm
Exercise progress
I lost 10 lbs. for cutting out carbs and only eating vegetables, fish, chicken, egg, soymilk, yogurt and water. I try not to make it obvious that I'm not eating any white carbs. I don't want to come off as being too extreme or anything, but it really helps to not eat any rice. My round stomach turned flat. A week ago, I went jogging 7 days a week for 30 minutes each day. I knew it was too much, but I wasn't tired so I pushed myself. Then I realized my tongue was hurting and aching so much, I had to take a break 2 days. I had to reduce the exercising. Today I'm going again so I won't be behind. My tongue hasn't healed completely, but I drank a lot of water so it's better than before.
2 comments |
comment?
|
|
labyrinth
|
::
2012 8 October :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: embarrassed
I never liked exercising, but for some reason now I can stand it. I'm good at pushing myself over the limits because that's how crazy I am. In 3 weeks. I will lose 20 pounds. I will do it fast. I HAVE to lose weight before the resort is open. I feel embarassed being fat. I really do.
comment?
|
|
labyrinth
|
::
2012 6 October :: 12.12am
Changing my bad habits
I had already decided to stop wasting my life on being fat and unfit. The decision is made and is set for good. I start off with a short exercise list already. As much as I dislike exercising, I want to change my bad habits for a change. I've been living this lifestyle since 16 years old. It does no benefits for me, plus I become weaker as I get older. So I decided to try something new and stick with it. I'll give myself time until next year - my birthday. Instead of thinking useless thoughts, I want to do benefits to myself to kill time when I'm bored. I'll use exercising as a cure for depression, sadness and loneliness. Then I won't be so depressed.
comment?
|
|
labyrinth
|
::
2012 4 October :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: okay
A change of lifestyle
I've came to realize that I should stop thinking useless/ridiculous thoughts. I have alot of things to do that needed to be done. 1) Create 20 more menu items. Design the plating. Write work descriptions.
2) Change my diet. I always question myself why I'm a bit overweight/chubby, but I did nothing to solve it.
How I will change:
Lose weight.
Eat healthier, but also eat less.
Cut my meal size to half a portion.
Eat only 2 meals. (2 small meals)
No more eating food after 5:00pm.
Drink lots of water when I feel hungry.
Snack on cucumbers and carrots if I'm hungry.
Stop eating sweets of all kinds (cookies, ice cream, sugary drinks).
Take a little bit time each day to do squats in my room after work.
The list can go on.
Tourism season starts next month. That means I get automatic exercise. Work, work, work. When I work my ass off until my next birthday + change my unhealthy lifestyle. I should be in better shape before my next birthday. This is my real life goal. I counted. Today is day 10. I will keep on going. There's no reason to be fat anymore.
comment?
|
|
labyrinth
|
::
2012 27 September :: 2.28pm
I felt depressed for a couple of days at work because it's low season. It's been raining everyday. I felt lonely and bored. Eversince I came here, I haven't met anyone who I can trust completely. It's hard to meet someone who will understand you. Back in SF, there were people who understood me. So I've figured out what I should do when I'm bored. Brainstorm new ideas like, learn new cooking methods + take notes, listen to music, etc.. Most of the stuff I do will always be in my head. I'm thinking about maybe talking less, do some effective clean up, make sure everything is tidy, and more. Cleaning is always good when you have nothing to do. I want to go on a diet again now. I'm eating 2 small meals everyday. I lost some weight and will continue to lose more.
comment?
|
|