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2005 23 January :: 8.45pm
hmm...
*yawn* I'm tired. I've managed to sleep approximately five hours in the last five days. I'm still going at the same rate as I normally do my brain is just not registering quite a fast.
Last Night Evan and I ventured to Springfield.. we met up with Chase and Terri. We wen't to Hobby Lobby and messed around for nearly two hours. I've loads of pictures. We also went to Wal*Mart and Terri and I purchased candy that Evan recommended. *shudder* I never want chocolate again. But, I had alot of fun.. more than previous weekends. It's always better when Evan goes with me because we talk about ourselves and it's good time for bonding.. Strawberry Limeades included. Good times...I fear they will end way to soon.
My father is talking about me getting a different vehicle. Things keep happening to it. It's a constant battle to keep it on the road. So, we'll see what comes out of this. Maybe a graduation present? That'd be pretty generous of them.. since they aren't going to help me through college.
Long week ahead, hopefully it wont be too long...
My list of random objects:
...powdered donuts, bite size things, the speed of turn signals, coasters, sewing maching manuals, chain link fence, mesh, kamaaina, logos, ponchos, quarantine, cracks, antiques, refillable containers, sidecars, spackle, Vietnam, Charles William Eliot, hylozoism...
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2005 21 January :: 7.45pm
..you make me cake, I make you cookies..
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2005 19 January :: 8.20pm
Today was.. something else.
This morning the first thing I was hit with when I woke up is my mother insisting I move out. It bothered me all day, I didn't know what to do - not knowing if I still had a home. But, I am now at my house.. only because my father demanded so. I'm not too enthused about being here with my mother present as well. We've yet to speak. Hopefully, -yes..hope- I will somehow be able to work this out so I can continue my stay here until I can finish high school. Not that they will have to worry about me being here any longer.
My parents are currently talking about me in the other room. A few moments ago I overheard my mother saying "she's worthless to have around anyway".. that didn't hit me too well. It's hard to hear those words out of the two people who should care the most about you. But, I suppose I've learned to live with them never being there. Just.. not so completely.. gone. They've always.. *shrug* nevermind.
It's pointless to continue on this topic, I can't help it.. I've already attempted to do so.
I can't wait until this weekend. My weekends are the best part of my week.. I spend them with the man I'm in absolute love with and the best friend I can't get enough of. What more could I ask for?
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2005 10 January :: 8.45pm
You know what? FUCK IT
..i'm tired of explaining my position, maybe someday you'll understand it for yourself..
If anything, I didn't need that from you.. you know I didn't mean it like that. If you seriously believe i'm like that, i'm sorry that i've ever tried to care. If you don't understand where i'm coming from, no one else will. You've sat with me while I was dealing with the shit I used to do.. I just don't want that back. I thought you would understand.
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2005 8 January :: 9.45am
I need something to do..
I just got home from work.. I went in at 4:30 this morning.
My father scared the shit out of me earlier.. he and I were venturing around on this back-road and he fucking started sliding around. Of course, since I was in a wreck two weeks ago, it was much worse than at any other time. Good thing he's a damn good driver. I guess that's why he works for MoDot. But, still.. I couldn't help but analyze the ditch and its contaminants.
I just wish I could be somewhere with someone doing something. I'm sure my 18th will be just as adventurous. I can't ask for everything though, can I?
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2005 6 January :: 6.30pm
Well.. I don't have too much to say.
Even if I did, it wouldn't have an effect.
..bring me a light, make my life worth something more..
..whatever you.. whatever you say..
I... don't know.
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2005 2 January :: 8.45pm
I just missed the most important call of the day...
I was in the emergency room waiting room a week ago tonight.. and a week from today is my birthday. Hoo-ray for anniversary type of things.
This 'Winter Break' thing has been way too short, its too bad it went so quickly. I didn't get enough accomplished.
..thanks for nothing..
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2005 1 January :: 10.20pm
It just freaks the hell out of me when I think about it being 2005. This is the year my life is to begin, I've no clue as to how to get to where I need to be.. and what to do when I get there. I'm going to be the worst new edition to the world.
I've just finished updating myself on what has been going on lately.. it's really too bad, some of the things that happen. I just wish there was some miracle I could whip out to help you guys.
..it's too bad that we had no time to rewind..
This isn't working well..
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2004 26 December :: 9.40pm
Being in a car accident hurts alot..
It hurts all of those body parts you didnt know could hurt..
Which, in the end, is alot worse than any major body part..
I HATE GRAVEL ROADS
Ellen, I wish you'd I had demanded to you stay longer..
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2004 19 December :: 5.45pm
:: Music: Rammstein - Du Riechst So Gut
Ahh.. will it snow, or will it not? We shall find out.
It actually turned out to be a good weekend. Chase and I fell asleep while watching 'The Exorcist' and didn't wake up until 2:30 this morning.. along with Terri, Jon, and Evan.. for a while.
Two and a half days this week, then.. 'Winter Break'. I'm ready to get away from that place for a while. I think everyone is.
Yeah..
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2004 18 December :: 11.45am
We won our game last night.. so we're (6-1) now.. It was an amazing game, I actually got into it..
I miss you...
-and-
I really need something to do..
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2004 15 December :: 9.00pm
"being without you is like eating stale toast... it just sucks"
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2004 13 December :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: content
Mm Hmm...
So, for some reason.. I apparently appeared happy today. Don't know why..
I'm in the middle of making pillows.. so, I'll be hopping off quickly.
Another booked week.. nothing new though. Not until this weekend!
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2004 6 December :: 8.52pm
Well, I had a good weekend. The reasons why shall not be mentioned, however.
I have several basketball games this week: Tuesday, Thursday or Friday (depending upon Tuesday), and Saturday. I also have the ACT on Saturday again.. and I have to work.
Wednesday I have to go get a new cell phone. I'll also get my plan updated with new and improved bullshit and more minutes to waste every month.
I hate the way my parents check in with me before they go to bed. I just hate being required to say anything to the fucking assholes. *clinches fist* I don't suppose it will be required too much longer.
Also, the most important note of this entire thing.. I'm sorry for being a complete bitch today. Appology accepted or not, I can't take it back either way. I doubt it really matters to you anyway, having stupid friends like myself gets you nowhere.
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2004 30 November :: 8.55pm
..Tied to the testing of wills, where my heart breaks and spills..
..Left to the sight of the sky, in your arms i'm defined..
..Thrown to the wolves in the minds of your enemies..
..And i'm stone in the eyes of your foolishness..
..If this is what i'm meant for, no longer interesting..
..Fall forward just to even the score..
..Just a thought of you..
..And i'm nothing more than a line in your book..
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