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:: 2016 13 December :: 10.18pm

kinda disappointed in myself that only one person got a hand made gift this year!

just bought a bunch of things on the interwebs..

having the hardest time figuring out what to get him. i found this great t shirt. want to get him some band or guitar stuff.. but worried it won't do.

maybe ill make a pick jar.

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 13 December :: 2.08pm

you'll pretend that i can see you
and i'll pretend that you're the one

because that's what we want.

but no one ever can really see you. it's not your face they see in the mirror.

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 8 December :: 11.56pm

i made the cutest "ugly sweater" for work tomorrow.

im so jazzed to wear it i could pop!

i also made lemon bars. they turned out alright.

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 6 December :: 9.23am

winter sucks la la laaaaa

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 30 November :: 12.15pm

dear jamie, there are some things i'd like to set in pen. i would have used a pencil but lead's just not permanent.

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 22 November :: 6.06pm

it's kinda funny my favorite pipe is a lefty.

i was listening to let's go crazy today. it made me wonder what if this is heaven? and where ever we came from before was much worse? we just don't know the difference.

tried to bleach some chunks into my hair, but the developer i used wasn't a strong enough level, so it barely did anything. ill redo it in a few days, but i'm upset i damaged it for what is virtually nothing.

all i know is that this four day weekend will taste even better than my bacon dinner. so so so ready to not be at work for a while. it seems like i never get enough time away.

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 19 November :: 4.18am

fuck u

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 18 November :: 6.53am

it's good to be in love

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 15 November :: 7.06pm

why do my friends keep turning into abusive toxic people.

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 15 November :: 5.31pm
:: Music: modest mouse - gravity rides everything

Early, early in the morning
It pulls all on down my sore feet
I want to go back to sleep
In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place
When we die some sink and some lay
But at least I don't see you float away
And on split milk, sex and weight
It all will fall, fall right into place

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 12 November :: 10.41am

puked everywhere
can't stop this stupid fucking coughing
food hates me
ran out of aleve, birth control, clean undies and clothing all on the same day out of town
i just want to roll over and give up

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 10 November :: 10.04pm

i just can't shake this anxious feeling

in my arms in my neck in my belly

i can feel the air around me decaying

i can see the rot in all living things

the entropy of the universe permeating the porous surfaces and breaking apart the sentinel stones

i can feel
what little of me
that was left
falling into dismal fear
and evaporating as the wind sweeps past

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 9 November :: 1.16am

here's to living the next four years stoned off
my ass

as to not remember the end of the world.

2 Feelings I can't fight. | Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 2 November :: 6.55am

6 days until we can watch actual news again

Where does my heart lie?

godessalthena

:: 2016 28 October :: 7.35pm

feels good to get some shit off my plate.

here's to hoping it helps!

Where does my heart lie?