[ S w e e T L a d i i ' ]

:: 2004 20 May :: 11.04pm

we are beautiful together.
<3.

:: 2004 20 May :: 6.10pm

i hate everything about y0u, why d0 i love you
hey hey..
im at the library with bailey and meghan.. g0d i l0ve her.. l0l. baileys 0n the c0mputer right beside me d0in some kinda rep0rt.
ne wayz.. t0daii was a blast. 0ur team went 0n a b0wling trip thingy. kayla, rachel, chris, lacey and me were 0n 0ne team.. and i w0n the first game and chris w0n the sec0nd. we came back, g0t free lunch and then watched m0vies and signed yearb0oks.. [[and no calli, me an chris didnt d0 anything.. and y0u can g0 hed and read his yearb0ok and what i wr0te in it.. ill sh0w y0u what he wr0te me t0o.. i have n0thing t0 hide.
i g0t b0ut a million signatures.
6 dayz 0f sch0ol!!!!
hey kayla we 0n f0r t0m0r0? call me and tell me whatz up iight?
ne wayz..
dude,
i cant wait til eight grade,, dam itll be fun. im unpluggin mah cell if i d0nt wanna talk t0 that pers0n.. i need mah al0ne time s0 d0nt think i just hate y0u. l0l.
devin ian and j0e are s0o0o funni.. devin had his hair like elvis t0day, ian had his part in the middle and j0e had his part t0 the side.. talk ab0ut an abercr0mbie m0del "w0ot w0ot" l0l. 0key d0key well.. "thats all i g0t t0 say ab0ut that" -- f0rest gump
l0l
muah
~~x0x~~

Rina	:: 2004 19 May :: 10.38pm :: Mood: extremely sad "i will cut out their eyes and turn them just enough so they can see their mutilated faces" ... go team. i cried. it is silly, i know, but i still did. 3 dr0p everything \| start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 18 May :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: blech
:: Music: seether

you reek of frustration; it curls off of you like smoke.
weekend = ridiculously cool.
me = sunburnt.

and my birthday is in 2 DAYS! WHAT!

it happens to coincide with graduation, but that will not take my happiness away. woo.

start it all 0ver...

6 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 16 May :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: nuFfin

Everything is 0kay, n0w that y0ur here
Heyy..
0kay s0o
tuezday
wuz muh first day on crutchez..l0l funn.. fell al0t..went tannin after skewl w/ kaela..
wednesday.. -me * muh babiiz 2 month -
went 2 skewl..came h0me..picked up kaela n markus n went to nickz h0use.. g0t there n the guyz played basketball n me,kaela,kayla,n mia talked n tryed to spray paint my cruchtes l0l..then Nickz m0m t0ok Me - Mark - Markus - Kaela - Kayla - Nick - n Mia 2 Baiileyz s0ftball gamme .. the guyz playyed baskterball again n i was h0pin round cuz every`1 but me had muh crutchez..l0ol..mia n kayla gave me a tat0o! .. then thez guyz threw basket ballz @ me n mia s0o markus n mark went n kiked their buttz l0l =] then we me n muh babii went n playyed in the sand * nick didnt feel g0od =[ .. then i hung 0ut w/ kayla [ b0yd ] n mia fer a while.. kan i tellll u sumthin l0l ::licks ear:: .. l0l .. me n muh mia bear bitch g0t sum guyz f0ne numberz! l0l w0op w0op x0x * n than Nickz daddy dr0ve me n kaela h0me - thursday
me n kaela went tannin.. that was pretty much it muh m0m made me c0me h0me n stuDy fer math cuhz i have a D in algebra =[
Friday
me n kaela g0t readii fer the m0viez, piked up jamie n lindsey..went .. met up w/ nick.. saw the lazt half 0f new y0rk minute.. than the firzt half l0l.. saw r0o mary n stevie =]i waz playin w/ kaelas hair n drawin 0n her bak n she fell asleep 0n me =] l0l l0ve y0u babii * <3 ..then she spent the nite n we watched nine livez but fell asleep..
saturday
Me n kaela sat round the h0use all day ..drunk pina c0l0daz..n ate ice cream.. then went to the ~~bl0ck party~~ brittanys n nickz party-fair.. l0l .. d0nt azk.. n we met up w/ muh f0xy felicia..cassandra..lizzie..michael..sami..ethan n sum 0ther ppl .. g0t m0re kiddz #z..went 2 wendyz - playyed lazer tag - n w0n fire ballz.. l0l.. g0od timez.. i w0n 5 d0larrz =] cuhz me n nick made a bet t0 C wh0 c0uld n0t whine the l0ngest n i w0n but then i ended up given him the m0ney cuhz hiz p0or lil aSs waz thirsty =P "im c0ld, im tired, i wanna sit d0wn, my back hurtz"..l0l jk mwa !then went h0me r0und 11
sunday - MUH DADZ BDAY N MU HMIA BEAR BITCHEZ BDAY!! <33*
went t0 sunsplash early.. g0t there n it started p0urin rain.. left n it g0t sunny .. l0l.. kame h0me watched texas chain saw masacre, where the heart is, and american wedding.. then kaela went h0me r0und 11 @ nite...

thaz b0ut it...
I MISS U C0URT!

NiCh0LaS a BoyD -- i l0ve y0u s0 much Babii * y0u have n0 idea -- i w0uldnt chanGe anythin b0ut y0u .. y0u r s0 perfect fer Me.. i l0ve y0u m0re Than AnyThin ElSe.. MWAAA!
2 m0nthz 4 Daiiz n still c0untin

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 16 May :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: drummin on the computer desk
:: Music: muse - time is running out

church bells
i heard the church bells ring
yonder over the hill to the south

the eerie clang of the rusting bells
travelled over the dreary dusty land

infiltrating through the open windows of your car as i stared bleakly out at the moon

the sudden noise broke through the silence
and went out through the other window

i just wanted to open the door and run away
for you werent speaking and it was killing me

my eyebrows furrowed and spelled disappointment
while my eyes went icy blue under the pale moonlight

i tried making conversation but much to my disappointment the only response was the wind and the echoes of the empty land

how long will we go like this?
before i start screaming from my heart

with a sudden halt, the silence hit the dashboard
as you briskly stopped infront of my house

slowly i got out and bent down to say goodbye through the window
halfway you sped off in to the distance

leaving me in a cloud of dust at my lonely front gate
listenin to the faint, far away church bells

andie*

3 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

11 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 13 May :: 11.00pm

:: 2004 13 May :: 9.28pm
:: Music: aaliyah-- miss y0u

sick 0f ppl writing shyt n n0t leaving therrr name.. wtf?? i guess their t0 scared im g0nna kick thier ass.. thatz c0ol w/e
im listening t0 aaliyah.. shes dead. w0w.
what if i died t0m0r0? w0uld y0u regret ne thing? w0uld y0u remember me f0rever? w0uld y0u break d0wn? c0me t0 mah funeral? talk ab0ut me? feel me beside y0u?use mah name in vein? beleive in heaven?talk t0 me al0ne in y0ur r0om? l0ok at things and find that everything has s0mething t0 d0 with me? feel guilty ab0ut ne thing y0uve ever sed? think and tear ab0ut the g0od times we always had? w0uld y0u feel mah presence just n0t in the physical? w0uld y0u miss me? would i live in y0ur meme0ries f0rever? w0uld you remember my death? 0r celebrate my life?
im y0ur angel

Rina	:: 2004 13 May :: 7.30pm arg. my background is being such a fucker. start it all 0ver...

4 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 13 May :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: sacrifice

"beyond flesh. beyond perfection."
so. assessments were tuesday. i forgot my sketchbook. but i am not probed!!!! very good.

wednesday. is my favorite day! dont ask why. nothing special really happened.. except for james!!!
"crash bandicoot?"
"it is some sort of task.. you must collect the crystals. and fruit."
you know what im talking about.

OH! yes, i have a new look for the journal. best viewed in 1024 x 768. i could switch it to 800 x 600, but the majority of people dont use that screen resolution, so.. hm.

girls' weekend this weekend. i wont be back till sunday! what!

we are doing pastels in art. yayness. i heart pastels.

:: 2004 10 May :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: NaGgin`*

Ill neva f0rget the l0ok in yer eyez *
i havnt wr0te in here in a while..
s0 thursday courtney called me and told me she was moving, and friday was her last day. words cant describe how much i am gonna miss her, she is my best friend and she was my first friend when i moved here, seriously .. i dont know how im gonna make it without her.. i love you courtney ! .. anyway s0 yea friday i gave c0urt this necklace n bracelet 4 a g0in away prez..n she gave me this heart necklace that is silver n blu..n than at 2 was the talent sh0w s0 i sat by c0urt n we wre m0stly jus cryin thr0ugh it.. n than there waz lyk a gr0up 0f lyk 40 ppl surR0undin her cryin n huggin her.. it was really sad =/ .. than i jus tried to keep my mind of it and have a ok weekend.. went with kaela to get her dress fitted and than we went to the movies n met our boitoiz .. saw mean gurlz for the 3rd time .. thn went to man on fire.. left round 11.. came homee slept.. than lindsey came n pickd me up at lyk 1 saturday n we went to jeremys party..that waz really fun . . than i went bak 2 linds h0use n we g0t ready 4 teen night.. wanted 2 d0 s0mthin w/ nick but he waz tired..s0 we piked up steven n went.. had s0o much funn there.. hung 0ut w/ linds steven carissa dezi marissa randy jeremy .. that was aws0me.. then went h0me..sunday waznt s0o g0od =/ ugh.. i hurt my knee really badd and in lyk 10 minutes im g0in n gettin crutchez.. l0l..

<33 i l0ove NiCh0lAs! <33

4 c0urty...
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart,
For times when my life seems so low.
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring,
When today doesn't really know.

I want you to come back and carry me home,
Away from these longlonely nights.
I'm reaching for you

And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy wayit gets harder each day.

4 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

4 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 9 May :: 11.00pm
:: Mood: quiet
:: Music: the rasmus

it was hot like a mother today. but i made a huge picture with my shiny new pastels. they are the good chalk kind.

i had colors all over myself. you should have seen my face. there was a large black streak across my forehead and some green on my jawline. and, my hands were completely covered.

i officially hate the css coding for iframes. it is a bitch. why cant they have little site-builders with an iframes option? i mean honestly. i used to like designing crap in html, but this is hell on wheels. not literally. but it would be fun to see if you think about it.

which, oh my god, brings me to something going on in my head. when someone says 'hell froze over' i used to think of a large ice-skating rink. so naturally, i thought of ice skating or hot cocoa. oooohh dear how things change.

i now think of a large ice skating rink filled with millions of ms. freis'. so, (here is the hilarity bit) the term 'hell freezing over' could be thought of as 'hell freising over'.

get it? freis, freeze..

yes, i know its lame but you have to admit.. when youre tired and you dont want to think of anything, its pretty damn funny. especially if you know what she looks like.

want to completely baffle me? try and explain the linear progression of time, and how any unravelled part of it can cause objects to become unparadox. or impossible, if you wish.

i feel like a blank book sometimes. you could call me a canvas.

color me curious.

3 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 9 May :: 7.06pm

have y0u ever been 20 feet away fr0m blink 182?? i have haha.
friday:: bailey and i went to the m0vies where we met up wit rach, kris, and kayla. bailey and i walked h0me. and went to sleep.

saturdaii:: w0ke up @ 6.3o.. went t0 walmart at like 7.oo. g0t a camera.. ya kn0w. went t0 baileys t0 get her stuff [[and her m0m]] l0l. we were 0n 0ur way. uh.. we g0t t0 0rland0 and went directly t0 sea w0rld. i g0t t0 pet d0lphins, and sting rayz.. i had t0 practically sh0ve baileys hand d0wn to0 t0uch the sting rays lol. we uh went t0 the h0tel and then went sh0pping.. at abercr0mbie and f0rever 21. [[0h ya, we saw shamu and samoo.. l0l. we went t0 the c0ncert,, fun fun fun... the 0pening bands were taking back sunday and cypress hill. then it was blink 182.. omg.. it was s0 fun.. i g0t a t0ur shirt and a hat,, w0w!!! l0l. we went t0 f0sters at like 1.oo in the m0rning.. lma0.. um,, we w0ke up and went sh0pping,, then came back h0me.. and whatdya kn0w.. chris is madd at me?!?! l0l.. [[whatz new]]
0oh ya..
happy m0thers day

Rina	:: 2004 6 May :: 7.46pm :: Mood: HYPER. :: Music: yellowcard wee. i feel like i want to be pushed down a hill in a shopping cart. really really fast. that would be so much fun. weee. i feel unnaturally hyper. and slighty drunk, im not sure. 1 dr0p everything \| start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 6 May :: 6.58pm

i think every0ne will be crying. as 0f thursday nights 8.oo 0n nbc. i have n0 life. my agenda f0r that night will be s0mething like will and grace. n0thing that adds up t0 j0eys funniness. ross smart ass facts, chandlers stupidity, rachels sluttiness, monicas cuteness, and phoebe's horrible songs [[smelly cat smelly cat, what are they feeding y0u??]] l0l. i highly d0ubt the replacment will adD up.
farewell t0 friends...

start it all 0ver...

Rina	:: 2004 6 May :: 2.45pm :: Mood: amused :: Music: the living end the first lesson is always the hardest ohmygod. your tie is so hot. cnlakivohabanm;sliyhehg. i want you. start it all 0ver...

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 4 May :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: happy//wondering
:: Music: incubus - aqueous transmission

the onlooker
the moon is back to its sneaky ways again
as it hides behind the clouds
and pops out every now and then

it glances down
as its glow is seeping
old knowledge to the earth

he looks upon us
as a grandfather would look
at his grandchildren

that old man has seen many days
but still reigns in the sky
once the sun has made its departure

but dont be tricked by his age
as he slyly smiles and the earth beneath
glitters in a magical golden hue

for he sees the magic that goes on
beneath the stars and trees
for his mystic light creates it

andie*

6 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 3 May :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: spitting games - snow patrol

guilt is the ash at the back of your throat

i love homemade chocolate chip cookies.

i know boredom very well. we are friends now. but luckily, when he becomes unbearable i find ways to amuse myself. so today i made a squirrel. out of gum wrappers. it was so ridiculously awesome you will not believe.

i should write a book. To Boredom and Back: Ways to Amuse Yourself Along the Way. I would be famous. and i could show little picture-diagrams on how to make things out of gum wrappers.

you would buy it.