[ S w e e T L a d i i ' ]

:: 2004 17 April :: 10.46am
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: sarah n kaela`*

i c0uld never leavve y0u n0w . *
Heyy guyz- muh week waz prettie b0ring . . yesterday~* sarrah came 0ver n than we walked 2 kaela..nick called me and was biitchin at me and he t0ld me he wuznt g0in t0 the m0viez s0 im lyk 0kayy fine n he lyk said i waz bein a bitch n hung up 0n me-but yea than kaela came bak w/ us we g0t readii n went t0 the m0vviez.. g0t there n nick was there =] but he was ign0rin me =/ `nd he t0ld me he waznt g0nna hang 0ut w/ me cuz i was being a bitch `nd he wanted t0 hang 0ut w/ j0sh n markus didnt c0me s0 me n kaela were sadd l0l n than chris, sarah, kaela,lee, & matt hadda walk round 4 lyk 2 hourz cuz they w0uldnt let us in to a m0vie till 9 n than we went into sc0oby d0oby d0o 2. . . `nd me n nick made up =D but he hadda hang out w/ j0sh s0 i didnt see him the wh0le time but dats 0kay
*i l0ve j0shua !`* n than we all left 1nd kaela n sarah spent the night n we watched a scary m0vie but fell asleep l0l
t0day im g0in t0 a parteey i think *
x0x i l0ove kaela n sarah !! x0x

bugga3

:: 2004 16 April :: 9.47pm

WOW this really sucks this weekend is going to be the worst ever wait let me tell you aboutt eh worst day of my life first!! Well it was Thursday yesterday ... First i got a little amount of time to get ready fro school.. Then in first period i found outthat kristi l was mad at me.. Then i went to teh orthadontist and my dad was ion a very mad mood. He took me back to school and i ran the mile and the fucking lady didnt stop the clock till like 20 secounds after i was done and said i got 6:35.. I WAS MAD THEN I WENT INSIDE TO PLAY VOLLEYBALL WE BEET bryans team but i played like shit... Then the next period i had a test and i failed it.. And i got yelled at for laying my head down... Then at lunch i sat by myself andf robert screamed across the lunch room I hate your mom. Then we got back and had a big isignment that we had to finish in the shortest amount of time.. Then in eighth period it was supposed to be the hightlight of my day.. But tyler wasnt there and will was mad.. So then some kid got into trouble and she moved him next to me right were tyler sat before.. So i was pissed. Then i got into trouble and mia was mad at me becaus ei forgot to bring kaylins belt for her... Then the bus ride home i sat by myself and almost fell asleep. then we got home and my mom called and bitched me out.. Kayla did my hair and a little of mias.. There is one splotch of blond but i will get it fixed i guess.. Then i had to chnage in the car at my game my coach put me in center field, i did horibel at batting and my cousin was there it was so imbarresing.. Then My parents wanted to go out to dinner and i didnt.My cousin got pissed off at me .oo well worst day ever.. If io had a penny for every thing that went wrong that day i would be a millionare
luv ya B@iley

:: 2004 15 April :: 11.33pm

i keep changing my journal. i think im done for a while. i like it. thanks lizzi for the icon n codes =]

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 15 April :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: HAPPY!! :D
:: Music: hem of your garment - cake

im baaaaaaaaack!
ok i wrote this a coupla nights ago
i was EXTREMELY bored

april 13, 2004
time: 9:06
music: way away - yellowcard...love this cd!

hmm. computer is broken. oh joy
we took it to best buy today
hopefully (cross your fingers!) it will be up and working tomorrow

anywho

went to my little cousin ryan's baseball game tonight

if you live in southwest florida as i do, you know of the terrific, wonderful weather we have been having lately

it drizzled the whole time at the game

i'm sure the little kiddies playin loved it. "no, ma, i'm just all muddy cause i HAD to slide in to home."

the whole entire time when ryan was on the field he had like a.d.d
not paying attention to the game what-so-ever

he was tilting his head back trying to catch raindrops on his tongue, blowing bubbles with his gum, trying to stand on one foot, and many more things that have NOTHING to do with baseball

both little teams line up, high five, then run a-muck on the wet, muddy field

-game over-

so we were walking out
still drizzling

i was looking down at the puddles as i walked

"andie! andie! come and jump!" those devilish puddles yelled out to me

the "no fun" part of me was like, "no, you are 15! no way are you going to jump in the puddles and look 3!"

halfway between that arguement

my feet were in a puddle

the legs of my jeans soaked

but i could hear my little hot pink toes thanking me

so i grinned

and splashed through more puddles

fifteen shmifteen

a puddle is a puddle and i'm jumping in.

:)

andie*

:: 2004 14 April :: 7.57pm

f__ckin drama queen..
itz the following traits that make a best friend.. lying, stealing, hitting.. good friends always do that right?? its all about popularity, boys, and friends... right?
yea.. ok. for the person who this is about.. you know.
and th world does NOT revolve around you

9 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 13 April :: 10.41pm
:: Music: twenty3-- yellowcard

i was at mias today.. watching maria break down. her tears are running down here cheeks making puddles of sorrow.. i cant satnd seeing ppl cry.. but itz the cycle of life. her best friend's husband died today. and they were madly in love.. 2 kidzz. he was dry walling a house, and fell off the edge. 2 stories up. the doctors told her that he wasnt gonna make it. and the kidz had no idea until they came home from school.
imagine
~~be strong, beleive~~

start it all 0ver...

Rina

:: 2004 13 April :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: in the shadows - the rasmus

cobwebs of silence echo through my ears
so here is my easter, and the joys of easter-ness. feel the burn, santa.

i got a gift certificate for a cd and chocolate. i also now share the brother bear dvd with my sister and brother.

went over to aunt sue's house. sue is cool. we talked. i ate food, and my grandmother gave me one of those big bags of m&m's. yum. it couldve gone better, i know. but hey. at least my cousin wasnt stoned.

as most of southwest florida knows: angry rain sucks.

i had no power this morning. well, i did. but you see, it flickered on and off like a hyperactive six-year-old with a lightswitch obsession. and you know that can never end well. so my power went completely out and had to do almost everything in candle light. oh. joy.

my computer is fried. im updating on my mom's. but, im pretty sure i cant fill you in on much more because she is having a fit that i take too long online.

anyways, here is a poem i wrote. feel free to point your fingers and laugh.

"Alone with myself"
Soft jasmine fills the night air
the ivory scent a sweet pleasure
as i walk into the drizzling horizon
the tiptoes of cold dancing on my face
alone with the stars as they wink and fade;
alone with myself

Dew-covered grasses cold from the night
the feel of emerald between my toes
i make my way through deepening rain
the embrace of chill skies a rose in my cheeks
alone with flowers soaking in life;
alone with myself

Small whispers and secrets seep into thoughts
a smooth flow of music given by clouds
stepping in the symphony of ebony and pearl
the caress of sounds soothing rogue dreams
alone with the wishes of thunder and fog;
alone with myself.

:: 2004 13 April :: 10.11am

I Dont Know How

You look at me,
As i bow my head in shame.
You and I both know that,
Things could never be the same.

I remember when we were,
The best of friends.
But now things seem so different,
Im not sure if my heart will ever mend.

We've said some hurtful words,
And done some stupid stuff.
No matter how close we got,
It never seemed like enough.

I dont know who is at fault,
And i dont know what to do,
Our friendship is no more,
But i just dont know,
How to let go of you.

Written by: Jillane Dahms
November 25th 2002

I luv you and miss you britty ='(

:: 2004 12 April :: 5.39pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Dont tell me..

0ne m0nth babii <3.

Heyy..well thursday i went to cassandras.. we g0t off at a diff. bus st0p s0 we could buy junk f0od n hair dye 4 matt . . n than we walked 2 cassandra's - l0ng walk l0l.. than matt came 0ver & we decided n0t t0 die his hair cuhz his mom wuld gr0und him.. than we went t0 the m0viez.. saw muh babii =] than dr0pped cassandra 0ff . . piked up sarah n went h0me . . we watched a m0vie n than fell asleep . . friday me & sarah did n0thin all day as usual n jus sat round than went to markus's parrty.. that waz perdi funn l0l ;] kinda krazii.. ALOT of ppl were there . . but i jus m0stly hung out w/ nick.. we went h0me round 11 .. sarah n kaela spent the night.. kaela left earlii sat. m0rnin .. n me n sarah made a new rec0rd- stayin in bed f0r 21 hourz!! l0l wOop wOop we watched 80's m0viez n sat around in our pj's all day long . . it was fun =] C THESE EYES? I C U W/ THESE EYES!! lma0 -* d0nt ask !! n than she left round 8.. than i watched a m0vie w/ my mommy =] n sunday=easter .. went 0ut 2 dinner w/ my family .. we were s0p0sed 2 met amanda,ashley, & mckenna n their fam but n0o .. they culdnt come s0o it was BORING jill called me but we only talked for like 5 minutes than me n sarah talked on the f0ne till lyk midnight . . l0l n watched a reallie intresting show.. ;] tehe...& t0day i was s0p0sed 2 g0 to the m0viez n than g0 2 nicks but my m0m was being gayy & w0uldnt take me s0o oh well . .
I LOVE LEIGH-ANNE !!
she is sucha sweetie =]
shes the onlie une who cared i was havin a bad day t0day !

bLu eyed fLoosie: ..... britt whats wrogggg

at least someone cares

5 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

Rina

:: 2004 11 April :: 12.08am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: spitting games - snow patrol

run through the constellations in a breeze of loneliness
i thought i should update. so here am i, look at me update.

happy easter, everyone :)

i went to old navy with sydney yesterday. we got the most awesome bags. they say 'rock & london roll.' how sweet is that??

erg. i dont want to be here. i hate doing nothing. and then knowing that i should be doing something.

one of these days, i will write a long entry. it will have poems and stories and jokes and you will enjoy it very much. i kid you not.

:: 2004 10 April :: 12.51pm
:: Music: hoobastank-- the reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

:: 2004 10 April :: 12.48pm
:: Music: hoobastank-- the reason

im not a perfect person

why is life so hard.. why cant everything be easy.. wouldnt that be good for everyone? if god loves us why does he make pain, suffering, guilt, and hate? why are ppl always upset? unhappy?

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 9 April :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: okay//silly sore throat!
:: Music: get what you need - jet

how NOT to scare people...
once upon a time..

ok no just kidding

anyways

when i was younger

i was at my aunts house

something clicked in my noggin

and i came up with the idea

hey i should go hide

and pop out

and scare people as they walk past

so i checked out potential hiding spots

no not the hall closet

or under the bed with the dust bunnies

or under the cabinets with that spider

eureka!

i can hide in the hamper

in the guest room that was built in the garage!

so i jetted off to the room

quietly, wriggled myself into the about 4 ft(h)X 2.5 ft(w)x2.5(l) white hamper

so i smiled to myself

thinking of how i would scare the unknowing passerbys

and i waited

and waited

and bein about 7/8...you have very little patience and you dont like to wait on things

so i figured out that no one was comin

i decided to not try and scare anyone

i started gettin out of the hamper

only to realize that i was stuck

i started to panic

i yelled out for help

the only part of my body out of the hamper was my head

i was crying

they didnt know how to get me out

then i started wondering if they would have to call the fire department to get me out

that thought made me cry even harder

finally my uncle came in with a knife

and cut a big slit into the wicker hamper

and i crawled out

my face all red from crying

and from that day on i promised myself that i would never hide in a hamper again

hmm i wonder how many calls the fire department recieves to free little girls from hampers

andie*

8 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 9 April :: 9.10pm
:: Mood: _hAPPY_
:: Music: 99x

last night was ok.. i had a softball game that kayla went to. "wow, she had straight teeth" lol. we (unfortunatley) lost 3 to 7.. i made a run.. then afterwards we went to kayla's where we watched swimfan.. [[good movie]] ate matzo and left the cream cheese out. stayed up til 2.3o talkin. woke up at 11 ate yogurt, talked, discussed our plans [[what plans?!]] lol around 2 chris came over looked thru the yearbook. lol. we walked around blind and chased the ice cream man, and butterflies. we hung out at kaylas til like 6. went to the mall. had s0 much fun.. chris got hit on by some scary gothic chic. lol. we went and got pictures taken lol. got 20 cent lollipops, window shopped and left lucky pennies behind. the trip to the mall was followed by my dad interrogating chris.. lol. "im a skateboarder dude" lol. chris searched for his house.. him and kayla had some arguments about where he lived.. and you know what?? we still cant find that dam beanie!!! lol..
iight ne wayz, now im back at kaylas spending the night AGAIN lol.. tomorro i hav to wake up at like 9.3o b/c i hav to go home, and get ready for the play.. chicago. afterwards is roberts party,, should be alright.. we'll see.. lol.. ne wayz today was AWESOME!!!! and i love chris and kayla this much more> ... lol.. we gotta go!! muah!!
~~love~~
LaLa

start it all 0ver...

Rina

:: 2004 8 April :: 11.15pm
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: this is who you are - beautiful mistake

when you wake in a world of darkness and mystery, remember me along the way
oh man. hey you know that math test that i christmas-tree'd? 55% BABY! all guess, and i almost passed. how much does that fucking rock!

ana, you are too cool.

me and sydney are british geeks!! dont hate. we are going to be the coolest children in london!

my dad's friend tim came down from pennsylvania. he brought his wife and two daughters. (alliy and beverly). we went to the bistro 41. then we went to brookstones. then we went to black hawk cafe and i got a mocha. mmmm boy. i didnt talk that much. it was kinda boring, really. alliy is sixteen and beverly is in college i think.

i think im still a bit wired from that coffee.

Bugga3

:: 2004 8 April :: 9.55pm

~LifE~
ToDaY wElL LeTs JuSt SaY iT wAsNt ThE bEsT!
I HaTe KeEpInG SeCrEtS! OnLy AbOuT MySeLf AnYwAy.. Im BoReD LiFe SuCkS So BaD mOsT oF tHe TiMe! ~LoL
ThIs WeEkEnD WiLl Be FuN.. Me AnD KrIsTi ArE GoInG tO wEsT PaLm BeAcH.... To SeE hEr ReLaTiVeS iN a 2.5 MiLlIoN DoLlAr HoMe WiTh 7 BeDrOoms..~loL My LiFe SuCkS iTs AlL SeCrEaTs & LiEs.. I cAnT sTaNd It AnYmOrE! WelL I nEeD a MaN BuT tHeRe LiKe IsNt OnE fOr Me ThEy ArE eThEr AlL oVeR mE wItCh I lIkE SoMeTiMeS bUt Not AlL The Time!! Or ThEy ArE JuSt PlAin JeRkS!! I GuEsS I WiLl JuSt HaVe To WaIt FoR ThAt RiGht PeRsOn!! I Will fall in love like all my friends aventually i hope so anyway!!
WeLl At LeAsT i HaVe SoMe FrIeNdS tO lIvE fOr.. WeLl SoMeTiMeS I sEcOuNd GueSs ThAt.. But then again i think i was only put here for softball but then i secound guess myself becaus ei love the sport but i suck at it!

hey g2g luv you all well evenr toughti am talking to myself becaus e noone ever ready my journal becaus noone cares and yes most of the time i believe that!
B@ILEY BUGGA

3 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

:: 2004 8 April :: 3.45pm

If y0u g0 `nd leave me here 0n mii 0wn..
Heyy guyzz .. im in l.a. rite now . doin my research, borredd... my week has ben buzy s0 farr.. m0nday sarah came 0ver `nd we w0rked 0n 0ur n0te kardz [ well n0t reallie l0l ] we m0ztly juz watched t.v.-liztened 2 muzik n hung 0ut- than kaela kame 0ver 2.. than we dr0ve em b0th h0me.. tuezday went to jayz..erik kame 0ver & we went 2 dinner. . than i went h0me.. wednesday me & sarah left sk0ol earlii- g0t muh hair dun =] i <333 itt!! `nd than we went sh0ppin- got lotza pink l0l . . t0day im g0in t0 cassandras n were g0nna die mattz hair & than sarah is c 0min 2 my h0use =] `nd i mite g0 t0 the m0viez & C muh babiii =]

jay is being MEAN.

than ill wait f0r y0u

1 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 7 April :: 5.25pm
:: Mood: happy//sore throat
:: Music: real good man - tim mcgraw

take me out to the ball game...
last night i went to my little cousin ryan's baseball game..

balls were whizzing through the crisp air,

the lights shone hope on the emerald green fields,

and the wind blew the smell of sweat and grass and the many dreams of homeruns and wins.

after yelling and banging my fists on the old picnic table, cheering the team on, i glanced over at the stands.

in the mini-stands sat a black woman, a spanish family, and white people

now i know that we are a little past the civil war but you would be surprised at the racism that i hear today

the next whack of the bat, instead of hollering with the crowd...i listened.

i heard three different kinds of people all
cheering on the team and i stopped and smiled

behold, baseball the melting pot

i'm sure martin luther king jr. was grinning from ear to ear as he looked down from heaven

fixed his baseball cap

and cheered for the home team

andie*