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LaLa91

:: 2003 17 December :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: sad

baby i'm lonely
though your right in front of me
you controlled me
that was the girl i used to be
gave up myself
but that's over now

tell me who should i be to make you love me?
tell me what does it mean to be alone?
cant you see me standing staring out from a distance,
hear my cry if you'd only listen
out of focus into me and you
why can't some one like me be with some one like you?
im am aware that all in love is fair
but that's no reason to make me feel this way
and it hurts me so much to deny it
but these feelings are out of control
do you know what it's like to want something so bad
and then having to let it go?
and it hurts me to know that this time in our lives
will so soon be in the past
and instead of pretending and playing it cool
never knowing what we could have had
you got me wonderin if i'm good enough, pretty enough, giving enough, special enough

he wants her she wants him to
broken message coming through
same story for different fools
she sees him
he stares right through
nasty rumors so untrue
theres nothing that they can do

start it all 0ver...


LaLa91

:: 2003 17 December :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: accomplished

i feel accomplished!!! i finally got into woohu! yay! lol
today was ok... early dismissal was the best part. we got out at like 2 n we had to take the f cat crap math!! lmao
n then there was lilia, i "stole" her shirt. actually i had it first but she just thought it was really sexi n bought it the day after i wore it.
ne wayz. bailey came home with me today n we were ballin with my bro n josh (well i was) josh sux! lol
after that i went to mia's house n we hung out for awhile, that is, until she got a phone call from gabi <3 (and yes, he's a guy) and now i'm on the computer talkin to chris,heather, calli, kristi,mona, ethan, danielle, and a few friendz from ky
yep, awesome ppl!! lol
well i still got another entry so smell ya later u bunion!!
lol
luv lala

start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2003 16 December :: 11.04pm

<3!
Rockergurl217: either way, i love you
So Cal 1449: no u dont
So Cal 1449: cuz im using up all the love in the world to love u

=] <333333333333333

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thoughtskill

:: 2003 15 December :: 11.09pm

im sick...blah.

theres nothing to say.

today=one month.
i love you jay..
<333. im sorry ..i wish i could make things better.

love ya daniel, dont worry bout this thing. it'll be okay..

i love you kevin =]



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thoughtskill

:: 2003 14 December :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: hands down..

and at any moment i could loose it all..
Everything right now is so great.. I have JILLANE ELIZABETH DAHMS..who i love so freeeakin mucho much! Who i am seeing in *6* days for the first time in so-long .. and i have my *jay* who i love oh-so MUCH! and at any moment i could loose it all.. ive lost soo many things before. i really need to hold on to these two. jill cuts herself more and more now. she did last night. and jay talked bout killin himself again tonight..god dang i swear to god if either one of them or both kill themselves im fukin killing myself, they are my everything. its jus so fuckin scary though. please, dont leave me you guys.

<3.

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thoughtskill

:: 2003 14 December :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: green eyes

for jay..
I LOVE JAY SO MUCH!! HES SO SWEET N GOD HE JUS MAKES ME FEEL SO GOOD BOUT EVERYTHING!! when im talking to him or around him i jus feel like everything is okay. everything is more then okay, everything is perfect i love him so much. hes so funny.
1 month tomarrow!!!
<3333333333333333333333333333333*
i love you jay. i really doo.

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LaLa91

:: 2003 13 December :: 11.37pm
:: Mood: sick

hey hey this be lala. of course! uhhhhhh im so sick n sooo tired. at kayl's party lilia kristi kayla n i all got only 4 hours of sleep, im so delirious i'll like walk around and forget where i am. i went shoppin with mama today. got a wallet a ae shirt n ae blanket (they r all christmas presents) and i finished up all of mah friend's presents. dont get all offended if i didnt get u ne thing because i was only able to buy for like mah closest friends ya know??!?bailey came over tonite to spend the night but she was so sick that she had to go home, i think that was a smart choice because we both rn't feelin good n mah brother has a cold... SICK PEOPLE EVERYWHERE!!! ahhh that's right they are comin after u! lol
im talkin to mah hom! mia rite now, shez in a bit of a dilema. gotta help her out! i cant wait till christmas!!! santa!!! we go way back, he was mah pen pal back in ummmm 1445. we had some good times. ne wayz ima go to bed now because i am TIRED!! o yeah and if u all want to u can go to mah vball game on monday. itz $1 @ gulf n we play diplomat! sure to win!! (but keep ur fingers crossed ne wayz)
(¨`·.·´¨)(¨`·.·´¨)
`·.(¨`·.·´¨)¸.·´
`·.¸.·´ I LoVe YoU
¸.·`* ¸.·*¨¨)
(_¸.·* ¸.·* Love always, LaLa~

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thoughtskill

:: 2003 13 December :: 12.33pm

courtney is here =] i love her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!! <333... last night evan piked up me n court n sarah n we went to the moviez.. it was really fun. my hubby was there =]. Ryan, Shane, Matt, Jon, Danielle, Amanda, n some other people were there..! It was really fun =] i squeezed jay'z guts out just like i said i would ..hehe. -n- i met this kidd named matt. hes in my laungage arts class and hes really nice. jay spilled water all over my shirt and matt was drenching me in popcorn.. it was awsome <3*.. jay switched seats wit matt cuz he was mad ='[ I LOVE JAY THO HES SOOO AWSOME N SEXYFUL!!!

i love courtney g. stephenson!! <3*
i love jay m. gamester!!!!!! <3*

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Rina

:: 2003 10 December :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Brand New.. Ana, im seriously burning you this cd

Aye, Avast!
haha. today was superfantastic great. totally spifforific. :D i was extremely joyful first and second period. In first period me, carolyn and carrie talked. well not carolyn.. she lost her voice. me and carrie were crackin on her lmao!! anyways.. carrie made these hats out of a dollar bill. since they looked like pirate hats, we decided to put happy faces on our fingers. Carrie ended up having Jack Sparrow on her finger, the bandana and all. it was really funny. i had will turner on mine. he had hair and a ridiculously huge smile. If anyone asked me a question, i would say 'Aye, Avast!' Carrie just said random quotes like 'no one. he's no one. a distant cousin of my aunt's nephew twice removed. lovely singing voice though. eunuch.' and 'and really bad eggs.. drink up me 'arties, yo ho'. it was extremely hilarious, but i was a bit drunk on happiness. we also put spanish moss in this one girl's purse who we really dislike. she's super tacky.. even ana hates her. hahaha. i dont think she found it though..
second period was quite funny. Me and ana tried to make more tiles. it was really funny because this huge ass piece of canvas was covering the whole back of the room. we had to go under the clay thing to make a slab. hahaha. fuun. anyways.. we were listening to beyonce (no, it wasnt our choice.. i wanted to throw the computer across the room) :D and there were some comments made and i said 'i'd rather be with my finger' (since, of course, it was totally rockin with it's hat) and *cough* she took it the wrong way. it was spifforific. :D :D :D
it was raining when we were walking from the center, so we left a minute early. me and carrie went the way carolyn usually goes and i kept saying aye, avast! to everything she said. it was funny because mark came out and i was like 'will tuuuurnerrrr' and looked at me like i was crazy. i really hope that kid dies someday. not like how im plotting keifers death. this is different. ill explain someday when i have more time. maybe a little later tonight.
third period was lame. blaaaaah. we got a new piece of music.
fourth period.. a christman miracle happened. i was in math, and was like ' whoa, this is majorly boring' and i had the worst thought in the world. i started thinking 'i wish i was in 5th period'
DO YOU KNOW WHAT FIFTH PERIOD IS?! ITS BIOLOGY! IM FUCKING CRAZY!!
but, it just so happens that fifth period wasn't that bad. no quiz :D i got to take lame notes.
at lunch, i found out that lindsay got Pirates of the Caribbean. I am going to go to her house when she is at soccer and steal it hahahaha. ;D just kidding.. i'll just head over to her place when i feel like drooling over an inanimate object (the tv dipshit). sixth period we had a sub ( YAY!!!!) and we worked on the dialogue thing again. i was laughing almost the whole time.. at lisa lmao. she didnt know what 'procrastinate' meant. holy shit she is the most hilarious person i know. and its not just her 'large' vocabulary usage either. its just the stuff that happens to come out of her mouth at exactly the right time to make it funny. :D
in seventh period i was talking to melissa again! :D we talked about.. i dunno, it was a complete variety of stuff actually.. about eli, guitars, some kid, and... other stuff. it was really funny though. we took a typing test. we were allowed one error and had to type over 35 words a minute. hahaha. i passed. neener neener neeeeneerrrrrr....
SECTIONALS!
sectionals were today. i thought they would be boring but they were so fucking hilarious. isnt that right kelly? yea, well... we were with mr. bennett today so that's half the reason right there. on the new song we got, kelly forgot to number the music (we were sharing a stand) and mr. bennett was like 'lets start at measure [insert random number here]' she numbered it really fast and when he said to start at measure 39, we didnt play because everyone was playing something different. the situation was ever so funny already and we were talking about it and i was so confused. i pointed like 'were supposed to start up here' and mr. bennett was like 'whats so interesting? are you guys watching the superbowl or something?' i laughed so hard. kelly numbered an eight measure rest as on measure. there were other incidents that i dont have time to explain, but believe me.. it was funny.
maybe only some form of band person could understand that, but i thought it was a real kneeslapper. :D
after that i had to go 5 million places with my mom and i got home at.. what? 5:30? who knows... but i got burger king, so that kicked.
bio awaits me
*Rina

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Thoughtskill

:: 2003 9 December :: 11.09pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: semi-charmed life

yay!
I can`t wait for tomarrow!! im making myself go to school even tho im sick..for 2 reasons tho..1) jay is gonna be in muh readin class!! yay!! and 2) i get to get muh picature taken with mah mark!! i love that kidd! we look dorable 2gether...! soo yea nothing really is going on lately..kimmy is happy again =] yay! i love kimmy so mucho much! so called me today!! i am oh-so special. well i think im gonna call daniel n go to bed..xOxOxO.. brittany

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Rina

:: 2003 9 December :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Christman Carols hahaha

woohoo!
I am the shit.. you wish you were like me!
You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.


Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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kiss my ass2
congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud


which happy bunny are you?
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Your perfect for Jack; he likes you because you're adventurous,
down to earth, loyal, and above all,
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*grins*

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LaLa91

:: 2003 9 December :: 7.30pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: linkin park numb

out of my mind
hey lala herrr...
vball was so tiring we played scrimage and then sum drillz. im worn! lol sorry that i havnt been updating much, havnt had much time.
mah mom piked me up from vball n i went and got my hair cut. trimmed pretty much but mah cutterz r shorter. yep u'll probably see me tho lol!! kayla u really shoulda done it!! (cough calli journal cough) lol we coulda screwedher life pretty badd! she deserves it furr callin me a whore.. EVIL! lol maybe one day i'll forgive her (not) i know that i may end up failing to but i know that u were just like me with sum1 dissapointed in u... mah favorite part. mmm mah hair smells good lmao!! u can smell it tomorro! lol
chris is a hard person to understand. he hates calli, but he lovez her soooo much. make up ur mind! oh kayla how do u make ur name with a line thru it??? ur gonna hav to tell me @ skool. o yeah n we need to learn how to make icons!! ima go try rite now!g2b hollA
(¨`·.·´¨)(¨`·.·´¨)
`·.(¨`·.·´¨)¸.·´
`·.¸.·´ I LoVe YoU
¸.·`* ¸.·*¨¨)
(_¸.·* ¸.·* Love always, LaLa~

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Rina

:: 2003 9 December :: 6.31pm
:: Mood: giddy? nah.. just happier than usual
:: Music: I will play my game beneath the spin light - Brand New

*insert catchy phrase*
blah blah first period blah.
boring. i found out that the project that we're doing is due on thursday. im not even half way done. how lame is that? Turns out that i totally forgot that i had band pictures. i forgot my concert dress. lisa called home and mom dropped it off.
second period.. me and ana were left again. thats ok though. We didn't any farther anyways. Ana had her assessment today. ;D i heard ms. roeder say "that's an excellent piece. so is that" i screamed 'woo! go ana!' in my head. im not retarded enough to yell it to nobody in particular. wait.. nevermind. im leaving that statement alone.
third period was band pictures. The other day, mr. daniels was talkin to mr. bennett and he was like 'can this band get any better? i think it'll get worse' i was like 'thats horseshit. we dont listen because you're a dumbass' i personally think that we are falling into a downward spiral and we will gradually get respect for being the worst band.
whoa buddy! math was easy!! yea.. keifer had sugar... i think thats all i should say about that. seriously. hes not allowed to have sugar. i was about to smack him too. i swear to god he can be pretty damn annoying. of course, i did it with a smile on my face. he knows im plotting his death ;) no hard feelings, buddy :)
fifth period. i did not finish my homework- no big suprise. i haven't even looked at it since i came home. urrgh. i hate biology.
haha nola.. they're such fons! and sobs!! hahahaha. fun times. escahpay!
sixth period i turned in my journal. me, sabrina, lisa, and jackie are in a group to change 'the gift of the magi' into a dialogue-play thing. god.. i dont understand how ms greene can even come up with this crap. *sigh* in seventh period me and melissa talked more :D we should totally learn bass from tom and eli!!!!!!! ahhhh!! that would totally rock!! that thing would be huge for me though... ;D
hmm... i did a bunch of work. my head hurts now :( im not eating dinner though. im not hungry. which isnt that strange for me anymore.
and just for one moment id like to say:
EXAMS ARE UPON US! AHH! KILL ME NOW! I AM GOING TO DIE!
sorry. i had to let it out.
anyways.. i think im going to buy a little sketchbook thing for lyrics and stuff. i hate my big ass one.. its too.. big. blah.
i must leave you.
*Rina

... we are in the second day of christman. schedule your events accordingly.
and, if you ask me what im doing, i will most likely reply 'waiting for life to shower me with happiness and meaning' so to spare me this phrase, just.. dont ask. :)

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Rina

:: 2003 8 December :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Brand New

another day passes by while i sit and watch the clock stand still..
today was ok.
first period was dumb.
in second period, james, jesenia, and tiffany left me and ana to do the tiles. fuckers. i hate it when that happens. but we made some gargantuous slabs didnt we? hell yea. we are going to beat the shit out of james haha. nothing happened third period. nothing. Me and Darbie wrote notes because Mr. Bennett was working on the brass section and stuff. we were trying really hard not to laugh. i told her that we should just throw a bomb, put on gas masks, and make a mad dash toward the door. hahaha.
In fourth period we learned some new stuff that i didnt get at first because i was reading my book. which is very good by the way. i understood it as soon as i looked at the book. when i was home. listening to really loud music... anyways..
in bio, i have a lot of homework that im not even close to finishing. i swear to god ms. freis thinks we have no other classes that gives us homework. what word can i describe this with? fucker. blah to you and your damn assignments.
sixth period i wrote lyrics. because it was pretty boring. but i laughed like hell the first 10 minutes. i have no idea why, but i was seriously really slap happy. strange.. in seventh period i finished early again (big suprise) and could not bring myself to look at my homework. i ended up talking to melissa, and it turns out that her brother gives Eli bass lessons.
Yes, Eli is learning to play bass..
i can not picture him (because he is tall and lanky) holding a bass let alone playing it. i laughed. it was funny. I told melissa to tell him that i said hi.
urrrrggghh. i have a huge ass headache. not fair :(
well, i guess thats my day. i cant believe i have to babysit this weekend. 4 hours with connor and like 6 with these 2 kids i dont even know. fuuun. at least ill have money for christmas shopping. god knows i need it.
shut up. i procrastinate...

well, i'll leave you with this to strain your eyes upon. Amazing what you can find in other people's journals.

current clothing:jeans and sweater
current mood:depressed
current taste:I'm dying for some chinese..
current hair:in a ponytail? its my natural color dumbass
current annoyance:commercials with their own 'jingle' i am severly damaged by the McDonald's song
current smell:vanilla
current thing you ought to be doing:Biology and math.. english too.. damn
current jewelry:watch
current book:The Other Boleyn Girl
current refreshment:water
current worry:exams
current crush:no one yet
current favorite celebrity:Johnny Depp?
current longing:to scream
current music:The boy who blocked his own shot - Brand New
current wish:To pass exams
current lyric in your head:If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand, i hope you find out what you want, i already know what i am
current makeup (if you're a girl!):mascara
current undergarments:hmm.. i wonder..
current regret:not taking the time to get happy
current desktop picture:Pierre from Simple Plan
current plans for tonight/weekend:tonight? homework. this weekend? studying.. and babysitting grr
current cuss word du jour:fuck.
current disappointment:biology
current amusement:my photo album
current IM/person you're talking to:Andrea
current love:the computer... and being with friends
current obsession:hahaha.. i think andrea can pick that for me lmao
current avoidance:myself
current thing or things on your wall:pictures of friends, calendar, framed pictures, ben mckenzie, adam brody
current favorite book:Calvin & Hobbes? who knows... it changes all the time
current favorite movie:Pirates of the Caribbean

This is the survey thing. enjoy.... bring me tylenol. my head still hurts. brought to you by BZOINK!

fuck. hahahahahahahahahaha.
*cough*
nevermind.
*Rina


-update- it is 10:16 and i would just like to wish everyone a Happy Christman. since it was Christman eve yesterday i hope everyone played candyland, ate cherries, and drank hot cocoa with LOTS of marshmallows.
*Dont forget to sing Brand New christman carols!*

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Rina

:: 2003 8 December :: 4.52pm
:: Mood: really fucking pissed off
:: Music: Brand New!! they kicks ass..

*screams*
ahhhhhhhh do not mess with me.. i am really angry. *points to mood*
the cause? none other than my lovely sister. yum. i think she might've broken my door too... *sigh* ya know the quiz thing? well, she filled it out and had some of my answers.. the same ones!! aaahh! i was really angry. its not my fault that she had a failure of imagination. grrrrrrr we yelled, like normal people do, and now my throat hurts.
and i have to do homework. o fucking joy. i just cant wait for my head to explode.
yarrrr
*continues screaming*
ok, i think im good now, but i hate to be pissed off all the time. grr. i really want to read my book too. i think all my teachers should go to hell.
*i am hell's librarian! dont you forget it either!!

I will update after homework.

start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2003 8 December :: 11.05am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Out of control..

home sick..
`heyy..im home sick today.. =/ I have a cold i think, ick. my head hurts really bad.

wanna see some picatures? of corse you dew!

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Rina

:: 2003 7 December :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: amused

lookie there...

-- Name: Carina
-- NickName: o god.. um.. rina, pyro, moose, weirdo, canadian moose, house, i think i've been called mouse by someone, pineapple head, and madam pineapple head. o yea - I'm psychic too.
-- Birth date: 5-20
-- Birth Place: Florida
-- Current Location: i wonder..
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hiar Color: blondish brown
-- Height: 5'2"??
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty, yo
-- Zodiac Sign: Taurus.. more of a gemini

LAYER TWO

-- Your heritage: Swedish and American yayaa
-- The shoes you wore today: flip-flops
-- Your weakness: guys with accents
-- Your fears: not waking up
-- Your perfect pizza: lots of cheese?
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: find myself

LAYER THREE

-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lmao
-- Your thoughts first waking up: no
-- Your best physical feature: eyes? you tell me..
-- Your bedtime: depends what day it is
-- ur most missed memory: sweden

LAYER FOUR

- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
--Mcdonalds or burger king: Mickie D's
--Single or group dates: either..
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate!
-- Cappuccino or coffee: either really..

LAYER FIVE

-- Cuss: trying to stop
-- Sing: haha you wish
-- Take a shower everyday: lets hope so
-- Have a crush: not at the moment
-- Do you think you've been in love: dont think so
-- Want to go to college: yep
-- Like high school: pretty much. dont ask me about bio
-- Want to get married: yea
-- Believe in yourself: uh, is that retorical?
-- Get motion sickness: reading in a car *makes motion of gagging*
-- Think you're attractive: um.. hey guys, what do you think?
-- Thik you're a health freak: if chocolate is a vegetable, then yes, very much so
-- Get along with your parents: yea..
-- Like thunderstorms: who doesnt?
-- Play an instrument: flute. dont even think about the lame 'one time at band camp'

LAYER SIX: In the past 2 months...


-- Drank alcohol: sadly no
-- Done a drug: nope
-- Made Out: nah
-- Gone on a date: uh, not really
-- Gone to the mall?: of course
--Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I'd collapse at the half-way mark. dont get me started on what the creme really is...
--Eaten sushi: nope
--Been on stage: plenty. wait... not in the last two months
-- Gone skating: yea man
-- Made homemade cookies: yea
-- Gone skinny dipping: um.. how can i say this? no.
-- Dyed your hair: in the near future...
-- Stolen anything: a crayon in second grade

LAYER SEVEN: Ever..

-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
-- If so, was it mixed company: yea of course *rolls eyes*
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated : no
-- Been caught : haha yea right
-- Been called a tease: nope
-- Gotten beaten up: lets say.. no
-- Shoplifted : nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: hahahahahahahahaha. you wish

LAYER EIGHT

-- Age you hope to be married: 20s
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 maybe 3? guys: Xander, Cole, Blake, or Brodi
girls: Anne, um...
-- Describe your dream wedding: not there yet
-- How do you want to die : happy
-- Where you want to go to college: who knows? im not exactly choosing in this moment of time...
-- What do you want to be when you grow up : something with web design/art
-- What country would you most like to visit: Ireland!

LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl..

-- Best eye color? : Icy blue
-- Best hair color? : black
-- Short or long hair: if it looks good, then hey..
-- Height: taller than me :)
-- Best weight: eh?
-- Best articles of clothing: I'm fine if its not a kilt...
-- Best first date location: dont really know
-- Best first kiss location: in the rain

LAYER TEN

-- Number of drugs taken illegally: zero
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 1? 2? you tell me..
-- Number of CDs that I own: too many
-- Number of piercings: Ears
--Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspapper: 2?
-- Number of scars on my body: 1? not sure other than my hand..
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: stealing that damn crayon..

*sigh* I need sleep.

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thoughtskill

:: 2003 7 December :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: lonely

Everything is always my fault..
kimmy is all feeling left out cuz of me and daniel.. i hate it when people feel left out. i hate being left out. and ive had my fair share of that, trust me. But yea..i reallllly love kimmy! n i hope eveerything turns out good =]

i wanna hang out wit daniel again though, soon. he is by far the coolest person ive ever met. i love you daniel =]

everything is not okay with me and jill. yeah, i lied.

im so fuckin ugly. i feel fuckin fat around most mah f'n friends...i just really dont wanna feel that way anymore. i eat. but like not as much as i should..ick. somedays i eat abunch, lyk yesterday n some days i dont eat barly at all. maybe one meal cuz my mom makes me...i cant fuckin control it god.

and jill is doin that one thing ..alot . so who gives a fuck right?




how can i trust anyone..if i dont even fuckin trust myself??

< / 3.

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Rina

:: 2003 7 December :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: thoughtful

dumb lyrics
A prisoner of mind
Waiting for the end of a perfect nightmare
Plagued with darkness
No way of breaking free
It is no fantasy
No perfect life
It borders insanity
And the things it feeds on
You cant run away
From shadows of dreams
Filling your mind and
Breaking your thoughts
Still bound to invisible chains
You are left empty
Nothing can hold it back from
Taking you over completly

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Rina

:: 2003 7 December :: 11.48am
:: Mood: suprised
:: Music: The Starting Line

strange...
Your Name: Carina
Your Mom: Julia Roberts
Your Dad: Joel Madden

that would be pretty freaky.
wanna see who your celebrity parents are? go to :
http://memegen.deskslave.org/viewmeme.pl?un=opp_girl_4_tp&meme=1066803486
enjoy.
*Rina

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