I'm still suprised at how much university students expect instructors to do everything for them. I would think that, if you've made it to this level, you have build up some amount of independence, and are able to get by in a class without everything being handed to you. However, we are talking about an introductory class with some first-year students, so maybe I should cut them some slack. Still, it's frustrating... if you don't learn how to survive on your own now, then you are going to be screwed when you are actually out there all by yourself down the road.

In other news, I need everyone's support as I make a conscious effort to improve my automobile deficiencies. If you are in a car with me, and you notice me doing something risky or stupid, please tell me immediately, and don't just mention it in passing; admonish me for it. Punishment is the best way to rid the behavior. I'm attacking on several fronts: first, I am trying to reduce my speed to a reasonable amount. I don't think I'm a speed demon, but I could stand to take a few MPH off in the city. Second, decrease risk-tasking, including reducing unnecessary lane changes and jutting out in the middle of traffic. Finally, and this is the biggie: Focus my attention squarely on the road and eliminate all other distractions as much as humanly possible. I need to leave a couple extra minutes before each trip, so I can eliminate distractions such as changing CDs, eating any food, and just generally getting in an attentive mood before I pull out of my parking space. If you see me take my eyes off the windshield for any other reason other than to check traffic, pedestrians, etc. beside or behind me, smack me upside the head... on second thought, don't, that might be more distracting. Of course, it's impossible not to take in the world around you in a car, but my biggest problem is that I dwell, and in the scant couple of seconds I dwell too long on the couple walking their dog down the street, the traffic has already stopped short in front of me, and I'm slamming on my brakes and tempting fate again. Most importantly, if you see me depressed, aloof, like my mind is someplace else, grill me before you let me get behind the wheel. Seriously, I'm more dangerous behind the wheel when I'm not all there than I am when I'm slightly drunk or high.

Anyway, that's kind of the mission statement I've set for myself to reel this problem in, and it's going to take awhile (I have a pretty set repetriore when it comes to my driving), but please be patient, but firm, and I promise to you all that I will do my best to make sure you don't have to visit me in the hospital a few months down the road. I've ran out of chances, and I realize I'm lucky to still be in the position that I am, and I am grateful for that. I won't let you all down.

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