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2004 4 February :: 10.16am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: Incubus - Megalomaniac
Approximately 11 hours and I could have went for a couple more if I had really concentrated... when does the benefit outweight the cost? Not even close to that point yet...
My house is a "mess," and I don't think I'm going to do anything about it...
for a couple days.
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2004 3 February :: 6.38pm
Life can be amazingly simple when you learn to stop worrying.
I just hope my energy returns soon. So tired...
I don't have a strong desire to listen to sad songs anymore, kind of bothersome because a lot of them are really good, but we'll see what happens with that.
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2004 2 February :: 2.21pm
:: Mood: serene
:: Music: David Gray - Dead In The Water
I deem last night's party a great success. Why?
1) We cheered Amanda up a little.
2) More people came that I thought were going to.
3) Fras drove down from GR.
4) The game was REALLY good, save that whole first quarter. GO PATS!
5) I had a lot to drink, and I had no hangover... and I didn't puke! Two parties in a row!
6) Janet Jackson's exposed breast... I'm still confused. Timberlake called a "wardrobe malfunction," I think that's funny as hell. And we thought we weren't going to see any cleavage...
7) No coffee tables or any other property was damaged in the enjoyment of this party.
8) I had A LOT of fun.
Next up, Leeder's visit next weekend. Can't wait, spring break plans will be made and more drinking will ensue. On a more somber note, I just found out Christa's (my ex) grandfather is in the hospital, and the prognosis is not good. Evidently, they didn't get the Mike's memo that no one else is allowed to die. Seriously though, if you know her, and are down with the whole religion game, please include the K-clan in your pairs. The family and I have had some differences in the past, but that's never an easy thing.
Anyway, can't end happy journal entry on a bad note... so(ed) I'm(ed) going(ed) to include(d) some(d) inside(d) jokes(ed) from(ed) last(ed) night(ed). ::grabs Monty Python DVD set:: AH SHIT!
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2004 1 February :: 5.58pm
:: Mood: bien
:: Music: Santa Esmeralda - Don't Let Me Be Understood
A Tale of Two Days
Just goes to show you, you win some and you lose some. Yesterday was a bad day, with all the same ol' issues that had been bothering me last month. Today, after a night of long, restful sleep and no alcohol, I found myself in a much better mood by the time I arrived at work early this morning. I made the best decision for myself last night, and I continued those good choices throughout today. As reinforcing as my dumb decisions are, I'm beginning to find that the smarter ones are just as rewarding, they are just a hell of a lot harder to make. Work was good, the best it's been, in terms of my attitude, in a long time. Had some good conversations with Elena, the customers were decent, and had some fun with a "page-war" with Stef and Shannon. I kinda suck, but hey, I'm the only person in my department who's willing to do 'em, so whatever. In fact the only thing that really sucked today was the music; it was much better yesterday... oh well. I just hope that I am able to get my hours back on track; they've kind of been pissing me off lately by repeatedly calling and telling me I don't have to come in. Yeah, I know it's not their fault, and I've enjoyed the time off, but I'm going to be kicking myself in a couple weeks over it.
I'm really glad January is over. I'm not saying it was the worst month ever, but it was certainly the longest. I've come out of it growing a great deal, learning a ton of stuff the hard way, and I've got a pretty firm grasp on what I want from here on. I feel good, but I know that I'm still not that far away from everything, and that if I don't maintain my focus, I could easily get pulled down by everything again.
Random appropriate music interspliced with journal entry:
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
What it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
- Alanis Morrissette, "Hand In My Pocket"
I'm doing my darnest to have as few qualms about who I am as a person. "Take me or leave me as you please" is my new philosophy. There are still shortcomings about myself that I would like to reconcile with, but I want to work on said things for myself, to allow me to be more comfortable with myself. I will no longer allow a quest to fix every character flaw to swallow me; it's stupid, and unnecessary, and it would take any a lot of things that make me... me. (Holy pronouns Batman!) The only way that I'm truly going to be content with who I am as a person is to accept the whole of my personality, to intergrate, not seperate, what I've considered to be my "good side" and my "bad side."
Super Bowl time.
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2004 30 January :: 8.18pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: SOAD - Bounce
yeah, i know, i'm getting kind of sick of them too...
| -::- name a song for each emotion -::- | | Sad: | Counting Crows - Colorblind | | Happy: | ELO - Mr. Blue Sky | | Angry: | Disturbed - (Anything...) | | Hurt: | Nine Inch Nails - Hurt | | silly: | Karl Zero - Ca Va Ca Va | | Highper [ insider on the spelling people ]: | System of a Down - Bounce | | loved: | Ben Folds - The Luckiest | | dirty: | Garbage - Push It | | -::- Name a song that relates -::- | | Makes you want to dance: | T.A.T.U. - Not Gonna Get Us | | Gives you chills: | Celine Dion - It's All Coming Back To Me Now | | Makes you think: | Enigma - Return To Innocence | | Makes you miss someone special: | Nine Days - I Love You | | Makes you think about your future: | Foo Fighters - Times Like These | | About your past?: | Red Hot Chili Peppers - Californication | | Your life?: | The Verve Pipe - Colorful | | love: | Foo Fighters - Walking After You | | hate: | 19 Wheels - Really Stupid Girl | | - ::- Top five Bands/singers -::- | | first: | Foo Fighters | | second: | Coldplay | | third: | Fiona Apple | | fourth: | Badly Drawn Boy | | fifth: | Incubus | | -::- Top five songs -::- | | First: | U2 - One | | second: | Elton John - Tiny Dancer | | third: | Oasis - Champagne Supernova | | fourth: | Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody | | fifth: | Coldplay - Clocks | | -::- What do you think of these artists -::- | | Good Charlotte: | crappity crap crap | | Brittney Spears: | get used to her, she'll be around for a bit | | Chingy: | who? | | Blink 182: | I've grown out of them, but I still enjoy some of it | | Pearl Jam: | past their prime, but still a great band | | Mest: | W | | Xtina: | H | | Yellowcard: | O? | | Justin Timberlake: | ::laughs:: | | Cauterize: | damnit Jim, I'm not a doctor! | | Simple Plan: | good question | | The Ataris: | I don't like that Don Henley cover, but that's I know of them | | P.O.D: | crap v2.0 | | AFI: | i've heard of them... | | Limp bizkit: | I have nothing to say here that hasn't already been said... | | ACDC: | you've been THUNDERSTRUCK! ::thinks of Fras and Tony, laughs:: | | Linkin Park: | bad bad bad | | Three Days Grace: | clueless again | | -::- What do you think of this music -::- | | orchestra: | good stuff | | blues: | eh, i'll pass | | alternative: | woohoo! | | jazz: | indifferent | | opera: | no thanks | | christian: | hehe | | country: | i like the Dixie Chicks... | | hip hop: | nah | | emo: | it's goooood | | ska: | Mighty Mighty Bosstones... yeah | | rap: | some i like | | rock: | rocks | | punk: | eh | | Pop: | overdone |
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TaoMan1121
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2004 30 January :: 7.52pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Garbage - Sleep Together
| Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... | | Category | Your Score | Average | | Self-Lovin' | 36.7%
When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself | 65% | | Shamelessness | 81%
Has yet to see self in mirror | 79.3% | | Sex Drive | 71.1%
A fool for love, but not always | 77.7% | | Straightness | 12.5%
Knows the other body type like a map | 44.8% | | Gayness | 100%
| 83.5% |
| Fucking Sick | 81.4%
Refreshingly normal | 89.9% |
You are 61.89% pure
Average Score: 72.6%
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2004 30 January :: 4.21pm
:: Mood: impatient
:: Music: Foo Fighters - Tired of You
| Would you rather be an African elephant or an Asian elephant? Why?: | African... sounds more exotic and/or majestic. | | Would you rather freeze to death or burn alive? Why?: | "From what I've tasted of desire/I hold with those who favor fire/but if I had to perish twice/I think I know enough of hate/to say ice is also nice/and would suffice"-Frost | | Name three movies you like: | Vanilla Sky, American Beauty, & Big Lebowski | | Name three books you like: | About A Boy, Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius, & High Fidelity | | Have you ever fallen in love with a fictional character? Which one(s)? Why?: | I epotimize both Ross/Rachel and Marge/Homer as a relationship, but I've never been in love with a fictional character... well, except for Scully, of course j/k | | Republican, Democrat or other? Why?: | I'm liberal, but I don't like to label | | Attendance percentage at high school dances?: | My first one was my senior Homecoming, and the only reason I went to that one was because I was voted onto court. | | What television shows do you watch regularly?: | 24, The Simpsons, and Arrested Development... and Fox's evening syndication | | Abortion is...: | legal, and should stay that way. | | The death penalty is...: | A really stupid idea, but I don't support abolishing it. | | How do you take your coffee?: | I've never drank it... think about it, with my anxiety problems, do you honestly think I need another source of caffiene? | | How do you take your tea?: | In someone else's glass. | | Who's your favorite teacher/professor?: | Ruth and Rich from high school. | | How do you feel about your parents?: | I have no idea what I would do without them... | | What sort of music do you listen to?: | EVERYTHING except for jazz and country... mostly alternative. | | List five or ten bands you listen to.: | Badly Drawn Boy, Foo Fighters, Incubus, Modest Mouse, Fiona Apple, & The Beatles | | Do you use public transportation?: | Not if I can help it. | | Ever told someone you love him/her?: | Jesus... next. | | Morning person, night person or both?: | Night owl, all the way, although I'm getting better in the morning. | | Siblings?: | Two steps. | | What are your friends like?: | This survey had so much promise, and now it's just the same ol' crap. | | Amusement parks are?: | Scary... so very scary. | | Cafeterias are?: | I miss the waffles. :-( | | Dogs are?: | Wet. | | Any phobias, traumas or other weirdnesses?: | Roller coasters, heights, no real traumas (unless you count being repeatedly molested by Mike a trauma), and if you don't know my weirdnesses, why are you reading this? |
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2004 30 January :: 1.09pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Cake - Short Skirt/Long Jacket
I want a girl with a mind like a diamond,
I want a girl who knows what's best,
I want a girl with shoes that cut,
and eyes that burn like cigarettes.
I want a girl with the right allocations,
Who is fast, and thorough, and sharp as a tack.
She's playing with her jewelry,
She's putting up her hair,
She's touring the facility
and picking up slack.
I want a girl with a short skirt and a long jacket.
I want a girl who gets up early, (gets up early!)
I want a girl who stays up late, (stays up late!)
I want a girl with uninterrupted prosperity,(uninterrupted!)
Who uses a machete, to cut through red tape.
With fingernails that shine like justice,
and a voice that is dark like tinted glass,
She is fast, and thorough, and sharp as a tack.
She's touring the facility
and picking up slack.
I want a girl with a short skirt and a long, long jacket.
(na na na na.....)
I want a girl with the smooth liquidation, (smooth liquidation!)
I want a girl with good dividends, (good dividends!)
At Citibank we will meet accidentally, (meet accidentally!)
We start to talk when she borrows my pen.
She wants a car with a cup holder-arm rest,
She wants a car that will get her there.
She's changing her name from Kitty to Karen,
She's trading her MG for a white, Chrysler LaBaron
I want a girl with a short skirt and a long jacket.
(na na na na na.....)
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jedibumblebee
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2004 29 January :: 5.18pm
:: Mood: crazy
I need to break out.
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2004 29 January :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: hungry
| * Music * | | Britney Spears: | Madonna 2.0 | | Evanescence: | suprisingly good | | The Used: | who? | | Disturbed: | suffering from sophomore curse | | Metallica: | so 1990s | | Alkaline Trio: | ??? | | Saves the Day: | saw 'em as an opening band, indifferent | | Aaron Carter: | twat | | The Vines: | dunno | | A.F.I: | ditto | | The Postal Service: | always deliver my mail on time | | Pink Floyd: | one of the best bands ever | | Christina Aguilera: | would be hot w/out the makeup | | Hilary Duft: | metamorph, who? | | Beyonce: | overexposed | | Michael Jackson: | a great case study | | CKY: | i don't do punk? | | Finch: | is a character on Just Shoot Me? | | Kelly Clarkson: | From Justin to Kelly wasn't that bad... | | * Movies * | | The Nightmare Before Christmas: | a classic i just recently saw for the first time | | 28 Days: | all i remember is getting doused with butter at this movie | | Aladdin: | fav. Disney movie as a child | | Chicago: | great movie, great Valentine's Day, horrible theater experience | | Sixth Sense: | never saw it coming... | | Charlies Angels: | the first one was alright i guess | | Christmas Vacation: | another modern classic | | The Ring: | saw it before all y'all | | Scream Trilogy: | first was inventine, others became what they were mocking | | * Politics * | | George W. Bush: | it's not even cool to mock him anymore, that's how much it's done | | The California Recall Election: | AHNULD! | | Peter Camejo: | who? | | Republicans in General: | i don't like to make generalizations | | Democrats in General: | ditto | | The War on Terror: | don't we have anything better to do, like serve our country... | | Saddam Hussien: | and Satan sitting in a tree... | | Arnold Schwarzenegger: | AHNULD! | | Ronald Reagen: | did so many wonderful things for our country ::gag:: | | The Green Party in General: | indifferent... Nader needs to get a clue though | | Bill Clinton: | did the best job in the last 15 years, which isn't saying much | | Osama Bin Ladin: | who? | | This survey in general: | slightly obscure |
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2004 28 January :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Bruce Hornsby & The Range - Spider Fingers
OK folks, let's do a Super Bowl party this Sunday at my apartment.
I work until 4:30, and the game starts, what, like 6:20ish? Let's say around 5:30pm. We'll get some pizzas (NOT from Papa John's!) and some beer, and we'll do some grilling out on the patio... oh wait, we'll have to play that last one by ear. Anyway, even if you don't like football, come anyway... it'll be a grand ol' time.
Night.
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2004 28 January :: 4.12pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Disturbed - Droppin' Plates
| Last Cigarette:: | A year ago maybe | | Last Alcoholic Drink:: | Monday | | Last Car Ride:: | This morning, to school | | Last Kiss:: | Christmas | | Last Good Cry:: | A week and a half ago | | Last Library Book checked out:: | Dorothy Parker - Complete Poems & Stories | | Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: | Mystic River (sooo good...) | | Last Book Read:: | Chuck Palahniuk - Survivor | | Last Movie Rented:: | From Justin To Kelly, Crossroads, & Glitter :-P | | Last Cuss Word Uttered:: | Shit | | Last Beverage Drank:: | Cherry Coke | | Last Food Consumed:: | Fritos | | Last Crush:: | this girl from my psych class | | Last Phone Call:: | Alicia re: I don't remember | | Last TV Show Watched:: | Frasier last night | | Last Time Showered:: | this morning | | Last Shoes Worn:: | my black Airwalks | | Last CD Played:: | Disturbed - The Sickness (right now...) | | Last Item Bought:: | said Fritos and Cherry Coke from Wood's vending machine | | Last Download:: | ??? | | Last Annoyance:: | Boredom | | Last Disappointment:: | My sweatshirt shrunk in the dryer | | Last Soda Drank:: | you should know by now... | | Last Thing Written:: | this... what a stupid question | | Last Key Used:: | like i said... | | Last Word Spoken:: | said... | | Last Sleep:: | last night, and into this morning | | Last IM:: | ??? | | Last Sexual Fantasy:: | today... with your mom | | Last Weird Encounter:: | i hate a date with Ricci, i guess that was kind of unusual | | Last Ice Cream Eaten:: | I had some rainbow sherbert last week, does that count? | | Last Time Amused:: | the office supplies being locked in our CfA office | | Last Time Wanting To Die:: | whenever the last time I cried was | | Last Time In Love:: | last month | | Last Time Hugged:: | last night (Ricci) | | Last Time Scolded:: | last night (Ricci... I put the moves on her :-P) | | Last Time Resentful:: | yesterday? | | Last Chair Sat In:: | this one in the Center for Autism office (it rolls!) | | Last Lipstick Used:: | don't ask... | | Last Underwear Worn:: | I have my Wookie ones on right now (if you don't know, again, don't ask) | | Last Bra Worn:: | yours | | Last Shirt Worn:: | I AM LUIGI! | | Last Webpage Visited:: | www.bzoink.com |
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2004 28 January :: 1.51pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Foo Fighters - Monkey Wrench
I'm so glad I didn't get rid of this Woohu thing.
Jason's New Axiom of the Day: "There are no answers, just hypotheses and opinions."
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2004 27 January :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: busy
If I were a month I would be: May
If I were a day of the week I would be: Tuesday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12:30am
If I were a planet I would be: Mercury
If I were a sea animal I would be: a jellyfish
If I were a direction I would be: southwest
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: the futon/couch thingy that mel and i had in the dorms
If I were a sin I would be: lust
If I were a historical figure I would be: Margaret Sanger
If I were a liquid I would be: bleach
If I were a stone, I would be: a kidney stone....hahaha
If I were a tree, I would be: maple
If I were a bird, I would be: a grey dove
If I were a tool, I would be: a screwdriver
If I were a flower/plant: an amaryllis
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: drizzly...
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: a dragon
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a violin
If I were an animal, I would be: a kitty
If I were a color, I would be: Dark purple
If I were an emotion, I would be: envy
If I were a vegetable, I would be: green beans
If I were a sound, I would be: a jukebox
If I were an element, I would be: nitrous oxide
If I were a song, I would be: Ben Kweller- Cally
If I were a food, I would be: chocolate pudding
If I were a place, I would be: kentucky
If I were a material, I would be: glass
If I were a taste, I would be: peanut butter
If I were a word, I would be: vital
If I were an object, I would be: a camera
If I were a subject in school I would be: sociology
If I were a cartoon character I would be: a girl in an anime porn.
If I were a shape I would be a: hexagon
If I were a number I would be: 26
Congratulations, Stefanie!
Your IQ score is 131
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Word Warrior. This means you have exceptional verbal skills. You can easily make sense of complex issues and take an unusually creative approach to solving problems. Your strengths also make you a visionary. Even without trying you're able to come up with lots of new and creative ideas. And that's just a small part of what we know about you from your test results.
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2004 27 January :: 10.25am
:: Mood: determined
OK, enough thumb-up-my-ass time... two things need to be planned and accomplished. Now. I take the lion's share of the blame for this, but it's time to get it done.
1) Spring Break.
2) Living arrangements next year.
That is all.
Postscript - Krystal's last entry kicked ass, yo, I've decided she's right and I'm going to make a list of all the strengths that I have. Look for that soon.
Postscript, pt. deux - Why the hell does it smell like bacon in the Brown computing lab?!
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