branson just lost to mc
viva old songs! because old songs are getting stuck in my head a lot this week!

well speaking of songs here is what i have to say, in the form of a song due to "popular demand"

on thursday i woke up sad and mad at the same time
you know how it is for me

sad cause of who was in my dream
mad cause they were there

BADGERS!
watch!
http://www.weebls-stuff.com/toons/25/

SPLENDID!
well first of all my old laptop's probability of working when i press the power button has gotten down to like 25%... so im getting a new dell one and it has a greenish cover woohoo! i mean woohu!

but also i won the fishy game!!! yessss!!! u get up to a certain point where u can eat the blue fish and then ya just sit there in the middle of the pond and everything that goes by is eaten by you and you get gigantic and then the screen says "you ate everything and completely destroyed the pond eco-system!" and my score was 85734. im so happy. and im wearing my lucky hat, that must be why i am so happy and why i won which made me happy too.

my nose is running but im not
i am sick grrrrr! and im not getting any exercise as a result of that and other things too. so i feel like poop.

well my life sucks... and im pissed
at least now i have gotten some homework done. i have talked to my english teacher about my essay which he considers sucky. i have gotten over (almost) the death of my favorite fish. now i just have to study for history while listening to my dad being all cheery and happy with my brother downstairs because he has just made himself feel like a better father and overall *man* by yelling at me.

fucking asshole, i say.

i also say i will not stand for this anymore. i know exactly what i will do next time he does this. i will be working on the computer, he will be stomping around in his green plastic pants and yelling HEY AUSTINS ON THE COMPUTER WHAT IS SHE DOING HEY AUSTIN WHAT ARE YOU DOING ARE YOU WORKING YOU SHOULD BE STUDYING YOU HAVE A HISTORY TEST TOMORROW BLABLABLABLABLABLABLA. and i will calmly say get out, leave me alone, you are annoying and should not know when i have tests. and he will say THIS IS MY COMPUTER AND YOU LIVE IN MY HOUSE THEREFORE YOU PUT UP WITH ANNOYINGNESS AND DO EVERYTHING I SAY UNTIL YOU LEAVE. and i say no one else puts up with this and they all live in their parents houses. and their parents dont control when they do their homework or how. and he will repeat himself except this time yelling and sounding "threatening" and maybe put his hand on the back of my neck again so i will be like ok better shut up, he is bigger than me therefore i cant voice my opinion.

except next time i wont because i know exactly what i will say to him.

"IF YOURE TRYING TO INTIMIDATE ME ITS NO USE BECAUSE I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING WRONG, JUST MINDING MY OWN INNOCENT BUSINESS, AND THE HAND-ON-NECK-THING OR YELLING THING IS VERY IMMATURE AND POINTLESS BECAUSE I KNOW YOU ARE LEGALLY NOT ALOWED TO HURT ME SO STOP THINKING I WILL BE AFRAID OF YOU BECAUSE I AM SMALLER THAN YOU. YOU NOT ONLY CAN NOT LEGALLY HURT ME, IF YOU DO I WILL HIT YOU RIGHT BACK AND YOU WILL EITHER STOP BEING SO IMMATURE OR PUT ME INTO THE HOSPITAL WHERE YOU WORK AND YOU WILL BE PUT IN JAIL. NOW SINCE I AM PRETTY SURE YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO THAT, YOU WILL HAVE TO RESORT TO IMPRESSING ME WITH YOUR HIGH INTELIGENCE AND SAYING SOMETHING RATIONAL TO ME INSTEAD OF TRYING TO INTIMIDATE ME INTO LETTING YOU BE AS ANNOYING AS YOU WISH."


but i cant say all that now. i have to wait until he does it again. damnit normally he throws me out of the office and i dont even think of fighting back. he cant get away with this and he wont. so i will just wait. maybe even provoke him. cuz i just want to get it over with now while im in the mood for fighting back.

yesterday i watched a knee surgery. fun stuff. well i didnt think it was THAT gross when they were sawing apart the knee cap but apparently my body disagreed. my stomach was hurting and the smell of burning flesh was getting to me so i went outside and sat down. i felt like i was gonna puke. and then i felt cold and sweaty and when i stood up my vision was getting all black and blurry and i could barely see and then i went and lay down on a couch and drank some orange juice. my heart rate was really slow and supposedly i was green. well i recovered anyway but i think i might not be able to look at dead bodies for a career, seeing as live ones seem to be gross enough. :(

I CANT TELL IF IM A KING PIN OR A PAUPER
you do a little dance and then ya drink a little wa-ta!


afer 4 hours of war with little boys, i have made $25. im talking a bout babysitting.

well congrats julia on el license!!!
happy day, happy day. soph sem aint half bad, i can bring food in so i will not starve on fridays. md is legally retarded but cute and i got to see him a lot today. i guess. and i have money in my pockets... ahh!

oh yeah progress reports, i did well in my really hard advanced classes. i guess i am more the math/science type. i got weird comments

MATH A-"always volunteering answers in class, using time well, also works well with classmates" reality: have not answered ONE question, spend entire period talking about shoes or horrible masturbation accidents.

SCIENCE A- very concerned sounding "if she doesnt understand the concepts she should talk to me or her classmates at least... has never talked in class... did very well on last test" reality: hey i have talked in class, i just dont get into long stupid questions about compltely random things or bring up baseball because i want the class to move forward, and if i did above average on my test and dont ask questions that means i dont understand the concepts? what? i do

ENGLISH B+"adds to the class discussion" reality: have not talked once. well honestly its just 2 girls talking the whole block, asking if we have seen certain movies, getting the class off track, wasting my time, etc while i SLEEP or DRAW

HISTORY "doesnt ever talk: i would challenge her to speak up at least once every class" reality: for allahs sake every time she asks a question about the reading i am the first person to speak up, i definitely do talk! sometimes i think about rasing my hand and then dont because i think i need to give someone else a chance because i answered the last 3 questions.


but yeah. time to take it on the other side.

so i know you're gonna be all "geez you spaz ya didn't have to put the whole song down" but...
Baby, baby, baby, from the day I saw you
I really, really wanted to catch your eye
There's somethin special bout you, I must really
like you
Cause not a lot of guys are really worth my type, oh,
no
Ooh, baby, baby, it's gettin kinda crazy
Cause you are takin over my mind


And it feels like ooh...
But you dont know my name


I swear it feels like ooh...
But you dont know my name
Round and round we go
Will you ever really know


Oh, baby, baby, baby, I see us on a first date
You're doin everything that makes me smile
And when we had our first kiss, it happened on a
Thursday
And ooh, it set my soul on fire
Ooh, baby, baby, baby, I can't wait for the first time
My imagination's runnin wild


It feels like ooh...
But you don't know my name
And I swear it, baby


It feels like I say ooh...
But you don't know my name
Round and round we go
Will you ever really know


I'm sayin
He don't even know what he's doin to me
Got me feelin all crazy inside
I'm feelin like, ooh, ooh...ooh...


Do nothin Ive ever done
For anyone's attention
Take notice of what's in front of you
Cause did I mention you're about to miss a good thing


And you'll never know how good it feels
To have all of my affection
And you'll never get a chance to experience
My lovin- cause my lovin


Feels like ooh...
But you don't know my name, mmm
Round and round we go
Will you ever really know


And I swear it feels like ooh...
But you don't know my name
Round and round we go (Oh)
Will you ever really know


Will you ever know it
No, no, no, no, no, no
No, no
Will you ever know it


Well, I might have to just go ahead and just call this
boy
Hello
Can I speak to, to Michael
Oh, hey, how you doin?
Uh, I feel kinda silly doin' this
But uh, this is the waitress from the coffee house on
39th and Innis
You know the one with the braids, yeah
Well, I see you on Wednesdays all the time
You come in every Wednesday on your lunch break, I
think
And you always order the special with the hot
chocolate
My manager be trippin' and stuff talkin bout we
gotta use the water
But I always use some milk and cream for you cause
I thought it'd be kinda sweet
Anyway you always got on some fly blue suit, mmm
Your cuff links are shinin all bright
So what you do
Oh, word
Yeah, that's interesting
Look, man, I mean I don't wanna waste your time but
I know girls don't usually do this
But I was wondering if maybe we could get together
outside the restaurant one day
You know cause I do look a lot different outside my
work clothes
I mean we could just go across the street to the park
right here
Wait, hold up, my-my cell phone breakin up, hold up
Can you hear me now, yeah
So what day did you say
Oh, Thursday's perfect


And it feels like ooh...
But you dont know my name
Round and round we go (Baby)
Will you ever really know (Baby, I swear)


It's like ooh...
But you don't know my name
Round and round we go (No, no, no)
Will you ever really know


And its feel like ooh...
But you don't know my name
Round and round we go (And I swear on my mother and
father)
Will you ever really know


It feels like ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh,
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
But you dont know my name
Round and round we go, will you ever really know

an enlightening thought

britney may no longer be a virgin but she still doesnt know what a dick looks like













(ha ha)

BAD DAY TODAY...
alright firstly its NOT 1:59. actually, i am just too lazy to imput the time anymore cuz i have to enter it in 24 hour time and that involves math and brainpower... ergh...

well today was a bad day. ended up finishing my essay between classes, and could just barely get it past 3 pages. definitely not 4 pages, but theres only so much bullshit i could put in the paper without completely bullshitizing it and ruining it. so after g block i finish that, "run" off to the english offices to turn it in, then "run" up the hill to get my sport bag. and i say "run" because it was a limpy sort of speed walk, cuz my calf has been hurting like a bitch and throbbing and spazzing all day. i had dropped my backpack off at the bottom of the stairs next to the suburban. so when i look down the hill, holding my sport bag, it turns out the coach has already started driving the suburban away... so i figure my backpack'll be alright there and i dash over to the front of the school cuz honestly, i really did think she would leave me...

and i didnt run because of my calf. but it was fun watching and just being there.

so i get back to the school around 5ish. backpack aint there. so basically i look in every possible place and its nowhere. so its locked in some mysterious janitorial closet.


well on the bright side, the play was FUN and also my math class today was fun. im really starting to appreciate it. the math teacher doesnt really care too much if we just spend the whole time talking... so we discussed possibly some of the grossest stories in the world. so yeah, math can be fun- when ure not actually doing it.


so thats all. that im gonna talk about. oh and i learned that jason reads my journal... hi jason!

adios

lend me some sugar, I AM YOUR NEIGHBOR!!!
shake it- shake, shake, shake it- oh ohhh
shake it- shake, shake, shake it- uhh huh

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!


i am so in love

i love red hot chili peppers
so its 11 now... should be going to bed... but im downloading all this music that is muy importante, and if i go then i have to turn the computer off so my parents dont kill me and the feds dont catch me overnight (which would cause my parents to kill me more severely).

i finally got the italian a capella song to download, and its been like 2 hours now, so i cant just turn my computer off now! ive gotten so far... lol its the one that goes HOO!

i also downloaded mambo italiano! yay! and im making a cd of all the really really really good red hot chili peppers songs. and theres a lot so im not done yet. and supposedly californication is gonna take another 9 hours to download, ppphh. im off as soon as the italian thing is done.

8 MORE MINUTES!!!!

i watched the south park i taped last night. the queer eye for the straight guy one, heeheehee. with the crab people.
"As soon as we have turned everyone metrosexual, the world will be ours!!!"

muahaha

im gonna go brush my teeth.

ps. with the help of lizzie, i decided the 3 things i would need to survive on a remote island far away: red hot chili peppers music, italians, and chocolate (well yeah and food and water duh)

BUON NOTTE!

i have a mental condition
ok im a lazy ass so HERE: my problem

itALiaNkiwi 23: something weird has happened to me and my friend says not enough blood is getting to my brain
itALiaNkiwi 23: cuz i got it yesterday when i was running
blondiebaby730: hahahahahahaha
itALiaNkiwi 23: well ok its like everything i say and do is in a dream
itALiaNkiwi 23: and everything everyone else says and does is also in the dream
itALiaNkiwi 23: and i like slap myself and tell myself i am awake and this is reality but it doesnt sink in
blondiebaby730: ur living in a dream world laaaaaaalaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaa
itALiaNkiwi 23: but its sooo scary
itALiaNkiwi 23: never do drugs lizzie please
itALiaNkiwi 23: it must be like twice as bad as this
blondiebaby730: i wont
itALiaNkiwi 23: im a motivational speaker lol
itALiaNkiwi 23: stay in school!
itALiaNkiwi 23: dont get pregnant!
itALiaNkiwi 23: haha
blondiebaby730: hooooray for austin
itALiaNkiwi 23: but also my visions weird, its like everything is further away
blondiebaby730: inspiring little kids everywhere
itALiaNkiwi 23: yeah!
itALiaNkiwi 23: ok so these are the things that might have to do with it:
blondiebaby730: ok
itALiaNkiwi 23: i have had enough sleep i think, like more than usual, but 2 nights ago i woke up/was in a semi-awake state at like 3 in the morning and i cant remember if i was awake or not but i like couldnt sleep and i was really uncomfortable and didnt know what to do
itALiaNkiwi 23: and then finally i was fully awake and i got up and peed and felt much better
blondiebaby730: that happens to me a lot
itALiaNkiwi 23: lol
blondiebaby730: it might explain the craziness
blondiebaby730: and the stupidity
itALiaNkiwi 23: LOL
itALiaNkiwi 23: wait hold on im gonna try looking in a mirror
blondiebaby730: ok
itALiaNkiwi 23: weird
blondiebaby730: what?
itALiaNkiwi 23: its like im watching someone touch my nose but im not actually doing it
blondiebaby730: hahahahahaha
itALiaNkiwi 23: ok im naming this: passive psychosis
itALiaNkiwi 23: aka television syndrom
itALiaNkiwi 23: its like everything is being done for u and ure just watching it
blondiebaby730: perhaps i have permanent passive psychosis
itALiaNkiwi 23: lol
itALiaNkiwi 23: PPP
blondiebaby730: PPP
itALiaNkiwi 23: haha
blondiebaby730: ehehehehe
itALiaNkiwi 23: its like im on autopilot
blondiebaby730: we think alike, in our identical PPP states
blondiebaby730: hahahahahaa
itALiaNkiwi 23: well mines TPP
itALiaNkiwi 23: weeee autopilot
itALiaNkiwi 23: but its so weird
itALiaNkiwi 23: ok so yeah, about the not enough blood to head
itALiaNkiwi 23: yesterday i got this when i was running
blondiebaby730: uh huh
itALiaNkiwi 23: so if it was cause by yesterday, it oculd have been one of 3 things:
itALiaNkiwi 23: 2 ibuprofen in the morning and one motrin before the run (the ibuprofen would have worn off and the motrin was barely anything but hey maybe)

Auto response from blondiebaby730: austin, im reading everything ur saying but im too lazy to respond

itALiaNkiwi 23: alright
itALiaNkiwi 23: good to know
itALiaNkiwi 23: ok potential stimulus #2 for yesterday
*mushroomdiddy*
itALiaNkiwi 23: and number 3: not enough blood to head
itALiaNkiwi 23: or dehydration or lack of oxygen... some running related thing