battle



ok just got back from the battle of the bands nd it was awesome! but u guys can just check out my former profile 2 c wut it was. o nad red was hot


ok anyway i have a thing called love stuck in my head cuz me nd jenna were sining it and finally the song came one..but i got home nd the video came on..so its just all up in my head now.

yeah well anyways i just wanted to update. dude! we take mcas on tuesday..not cool! nd its one of those icky essay ones..well wutever i'm gonna go eat nd stuff

BYE

i'm sick..and it sucks...



ok..so i'm bored and Jenna told me to update this..cause i haven't for a while...oh yeah..she also said....to wish her a happy birthday tomorrow..so i'm gonna do that...


HAPPY B-DAY!

ok..so its sucks cuz i'm sick...i've got the flu..grr..

well anyways its cool cuz i didn't have to do my science wxhibition thingy..but i will tomorrow..proably first...that sucks...but neways..i'm watching the food channel and its cool!

ok..bye

.....



lol this song owns

but whatever today was so funny in english
damn JJ imitated me nd henri and made fun of how we always put ours sleeves in front of our faces lol. well i can't help it. IT'S ALL HENRI'S FAULT! i never did that before i met her. lol
oh..and we judged the guys with the longest eyelashes contast ..and the winners were...

1. Liam
2. JJ
3. Trey
dude they all have mad long eyelashes.

ooo and we found out that liam uts way too many bumpy things on his m's so it spells
L-I-A-M-M-M-M ..etc.
but w,e

yea..well ig2g...not rlly i'm just lazy
BYE

yea i can't remember the name of the less than jake song...whatever.

woooa hyperness

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *waves hands frantically* OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ok i'm done now.

different moods.


ok i'm gonna put lyrics in this to be like henri..cuz i feel like it.

hello there,
the angels from my nightmares
the shadow
in the backround of the morgue (?)
the unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley
we can live like jack and sally
if we want
where you can always find me
and we'll have halloween on christmas
and in the night we'll wish
this never ends
don't waster your time on me
you're already the voice inside my head
(i miss you miss you)
where are you
and i'm so sorry
i cannot sleep i cannot dream tonight
i need somebody as always
this sick strange feeling
comes creeping on so haunting
everytime
and as i started
i counted webs from all
the spiders
catching things
and eating their insides
loke indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home
and stop this pain tonight?
don't waste your time one me
you're already the voice
inside my head
(i miss you miss you)



anyways

i wont tell you all about the week i had with being grounded and all..cause that would bore you to death. but i will put in a few highlights. as in i got totally in trouble with the skiping thing. detention is stupid and all you do is sit and laugh if someone is there.
and i say school of rock last night with the sexy kevin clark and there was even like a little extra bonus stuff and he was hot like you would not believe.

but i get the internet back. which is happy

but somethin not so happy

see. i was up till the crack o' dawn last night or this morning you chose which one you prefer. and well i was in one of those..conteplative moods. i was thinking how nice it would be to just close your eyes and die. let me put it simply

nothing to live for..and heres why

4 reasons i'm fighting

FRIENDS-yes they rock, but sometimes..well you just get plain pissed at them. they sometimes never have the right thing to say. and i know no ones perfect and its unfair for me to say that makes me mad..but it's true. its not their fault anyways.

CRUSHES-to put it simply. zero chance of them ever liking me back. ever. there was this one guy who i thought mighta liked me back..but still...no. so yea over done with that topic

MUSIC-i love it. absolutely and whole-heartedly. but still whenver i see like great performances by these people. i realise i madly want to play guitar like them. soooo bad. but its just not gonna happen. i know it. i'd like to say it was my parents. and it might be but i don't know if thats an excuse or not. but the fact is that i hate them being proud of me. i want them to know i do stuff for me and not them i guess is waht i'm gedtting at. whenever they are all happy with me it pisses me the fuck off. and i really don't know why.

and the there's

HOPE-as in i think maybe somethings gonna happen thats good. i know life's not all bad. but it just seems to hard to see if its all bad. and if it is. damn that would suck.


and i know this sounds crazy...but i seriously wanna see alex again. just recently he kinda popped back into my head and it was like woah...

yeah he made me feel good about myself.

but whatever this was MAD long. i think you've probably fallen asleep reading it.

peace

uhh


yea henri slept over last night..we made pancakes and shrinky dinks. lol. then yeah today we went to the movies with trey and nia...and we saw 50 first dates.


monday...which is tomorrow. it's gonna be qlc....that kinda sucks a lot. lol. i'm gonna be so dead if my parents find out.

ok if after tomorrow...or sometime soon...i just stop going online..yeah its probably cause i've been grounded.


i have no idea what my parents are gonna do to me but i'm very sure it'll suck balls.


peace

dude....


ok first off....i have a cold...

fuck


lol


neways...i figured oout i say dude and bitch WAY 2 much...dude BITCHFUCK lol



i got grounded 4 a day 4 slamming my door....apparently i have an attitude problem..my parents r so lame..

just wait till they find out i skipped on fri...lmao...i';ll b dead

o and a heads up i'll b on 4 an hour a day..7-8..my parents new rule...grr....wait till they c i get b's nd c's..my dads all

i hate b's....cuz they get cose 2 a b-..which is close 2 c..cough still above average...i'm gonna get like straight b's...


except for gym in which i'll fail

ttu bitches later...DUDE

been a while...movie


OK for me, its been a while since i've updated...I guess recently i was too lazy to do anything. Yea so probably for my birthday sorta some people are gonna go to the movies either later tonight or tomorrow...it'll be cool..but i might not be able to get a ride...my dad's being a bitch...thats my new favorite word...bitch

bitch
biotch
bizziotch
bizznatch
bitch

such a cool word...i think i'll uise it more often now....haha nia and nicky are like rarndomly downstairs playing pool...and writing "Crumpets deserves molestment"...and don't ask me who curmpets is....


but anyways back to my dad being a bitch. Hehe. Yea...he's just lazy..he's like Yea I don't feel like driving you even thought its your fucking birthday today..i'd rather lay on my lazy ass and watch TV....he sucks


Whatever..i'll talk to you peeps later...

SOO...FUCKING SCARED!!!
...ok i'm at henri's house now..and its really scary cause i swear they know. And they're just like waiting for us to fess up..cause they were all tlaking and mad at henri for like.."not getting her report card" but..yea

anyways..today was awesome. We went to the library and threw stuffed animals at eachother...and went to barts and just chilled for a while. so fun..but its really scary cause we're gnna get caught..and if we don't...that's awesome..and...yea


ok henri's dad sounds like really and..but yeah.

gotta go...dam this is so scary..but worth in none the less....


hey i think we should do this every friday the 13...it'll b like a lil tradition...me henri trey...and if nikki comes next time...ya it'll be the four of us..mucho fun and paranoia...

lil freaked emmy

really stupid things i did...
haha today and yesterday i had rlly stupid moments
w/henri in english...
we were going throught the big pile of books on her desk..trying 2 find both of mine...
i guessed which one was mine first and it was right
5 minutes later i walked over to her and told her that i was going through a pile of books and found mine...
yea and that was stupid because she was with me...



and then 2day..trey was absent so i asked him if he was gonna b in school 2morro and he said yea...
like 20 mins later i asked him the same exact question....



then i had a rlly delayed reaction when talking 2 my bro's friend...



damn i want 2 go 2 the OBAB concert...yea its bothering me..but friday will rock anyway...

AND tomorrow is a late start so that means extra sleep..thats a very good thing...

AND that also means i don't have gym..that isa very very good thing...gym sucks...even though its funny


ok interesting volley ball moments

Zack hit it like 3 centimeters into the air...

JJ tried to hit it..and failed miserably...

*ZAndy about to do thing where server calls score and then he throws them the ball and they serve*
i'm the server...
Me-no..see i can't serve like that
Zack-you must have faith
zandy-come on.just try
*hit ball into net*
Zack-ok nevermind...BAD FAITH BAD


yea thos r uninteresting and i'm tired so i might sleep...

...damn
so annoyed..i'm mad tired and I have mad homework. And it sucks cause i can't go to the concert cuz i have to look at colleges 4 my bro...that's rly sucky.

But on the bright side i'm really looking forward to friday...even though i'll miss a party in french. it'll be so fun.


today me nd nia both bought pink carnations. lol trey put it behind his ear.

yea i gotta go get started on my tons of homework....i have like tons of math, but yea..more'll come cuz i get bored easily

can't wait till vacation! sleep nd no homework..finaaly.

Emmy

i hope things are worth it.
Yea so today i was reading Jenna's journal thing...and she was talkibg with her friend about how everyone's journal is all depressed and that it sucked when its depressed. Well i'm kinda sorry to let people down. Life's shit. i'd put it on the human race's forehead in permanent marker if i could.


I don't know if life is hard. I don't know how so many people make it through without even thinking of death. Sometimes i wonder if my life is harder than other people's, or if its jusr normal and i'm just someone who can't take it. People fight...people make it...but i'm not so sure i'm strong enough to fight..its not like the battles unfair..i just can't do it. Simple. Too hard


And please don't think i'm saying this stuff cause i'm proud of it. Cause i'm proud that i'm acting like i have the image of real depressed kids. Cause i would give anything to be happy. I'm saying these things to make people think. To make people say "maybe i'm someone lucky" To let people know i'm suffering so that maybe they;d give a shit and bring it up. And some people do. But no one's ever been someone who would actually hlep me.

Hope your living the good life.
i'll "be back when i'm bleeding"