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2005 5 July :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: :D
Dedicated to: good times
Okay everybody.
It's offical.
The 13th I leave fo' KOREA.
And I'm going to Beijing. How?dope.is that. How dope.
I've always wanted to go to China. Even though chinese people have the tendency to freak the living shit out of me. China has always intrigued me. I'm kind of nervous because i think its going to be really intense. too bad MSK and ACP will be in shanghai, and not beijing. and china's not like korea, so each city isn't like, a minute (more like, an hour) away.
it really bothers me when people don't close their parentheses. and you could imagine, how much more hot and bothered i get when I don't close my parentheses. if you ever see that i've left an unclosed parenthese, please, do yourself a favor, and let me know. it'll only do the body good.
Here's a short list of some of my fears:
1. KHK's ferrets
2. THEY'RE DEADLY
3. getting my hair stuck in a fan.
4. things with many legs that can crawl on you without you knowing until you feel something tingly, and then you basically pass out.
5. driving by myself late at night
6. (oh my god i can't believe i'm going to beijing)
7. getting my limbs cut off
8. going blind
9. abandoned insane asylums
10. insane asylums
11. chinese people
12. (hahahahaha. just kidding.) (well. sometimes)
13. awkward moments
14. wigs. sometimes.
15. ghosts
16. the dark
17. people when they're really close to my face without me knowing
18. my attic
19. your attic
20. any attic of some sort.
21. well maybe not LHB's because her attic is nicely furnished.
22. yo' momma
I can't believe i said bye to RAB today. it was such a quick bye. i'm not going to see her for a while. i'll be in korea when she returns. and i won't be there by her bedside when she'll need me. i guess in a way its a good prep for what the next year of our lives is gonna be like.
when we need someone, that one person you know is the only one who could make you happy at that point, and they're not there. they're miles and miles away. and a phone call just won't do. yea it's going to suck when we're all scattered, but it happens to everyone, and it has to happen for us to actually grow up.
who's the first goodbye? is it you LHB. tell me when you leave so i can try and come back from korea before then.
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i have come to edit.
i've been having some bad experiences with suzette's lately. yesterday, my gothic salad was so below sub par, it was in sub par's basement. storage room. basement storage room. and my copacabana! ugh. it was gross. worst copacabana experience ever. and today. my oatmeal was drenched in honey. i hate honey. it grosses me out. so i didn't really eat it. and. it was gross.
maybe, this is symbolic. because now that i'm out of high school, suzettes is really bad. and when i was in high school, suzettes was awesome. so its like, you're not in high school anymore. we're shutting down on you. cutting you off. - love suzettes.
dear suzettes,
i know that i'm going off to college soon (but not soon enough). but that doesn't mean i'll stop loving you. but i will stop loving you if you keep conjuring up disgusting meals. i don't like honey. nor do i like bad tasting smoothies. also, your cashier, is really scary and bipolar, if you didn't know. although. tell her congratulations on her baby. god bless it. i promise i won't forget about you, even when i'm tempted by breakfast burritos and the yummy candy shop next to it.
stop tasting bad.
love, me.
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2005 3 July :: 11.46pm
:: Mood: i'm a little hot right now
Dedicated to: fire flies
In a week.
I leave for Korea.
Hell yes.
My mom told me that we're staying at the Clown Hotel. And then I got really scared and thought. The. Clown. Hotel. ?!?!?!?!. And just to make sure it was the Clown Hotel i said, Clown Hotel? Clowns? Like in the circus? And she said, yea, Clown.
So i came home and googled The Clown Hotel + Korea. And all that came up was clown pornography. Which is just really wierd and useless, really.
So today I told KHK that i was staying at the Clown Hotel. She looked at me and said, you mean the Crown Hotel?? And i looked at her and said, yea. that's probably it. the Crown Hotel.
So I came home and googled The Crown Hotel + Korea. And yea. It was it.
NOT CLOWN STUPID. CROWN!!
So i was like. Mom, its the Crown Hotel, not the Clown Hotel. and she said, yea. the Crown Hotel. (??????????????????)
Anyway. I'm staying at the Clown Hotel. I mean, the Crown Hotel. haha. hahahaha. I could've deleted that and fixed it without you knowing but I think its funny that i keep calling it the clown hotel. how fucken scary would that be.
A clown standing at the door saying, Hello. Welcome to the Clown Hotel.
And then you walk under a yellow tent and there's a giganto elephant waiting to take you to your room.
No thanks. I prefer elevators. I'll take the Crown Hotel.
I'm so very excited. I wish I could go sooner. If my mom told me to pack my bags now, I would.
I cleaned my room today. Yep. It was one of those days. I went an extra mile and cleaned it a little more than I usually do. I like to have a clean room to come back to after I go somewhere or just after I'm not in my room for a while. Like before prom week i tidied it up so I could come back to a fresh room to pass out in. So today I cleaned it up very nicely so it would be very very fresh for when i come back from Korea.
Oh yea. about that. I don't know when I'm coming back. I can come back whenever i want to. So I would come back late August if it was completely up to me. But it's not. Because it's up to my sister too. :( Boo. whores. she's such a party pooper and will want to come back on the earlier side. :(
I'm planning on meeting KHK in korea :). Well KHK and OJO. And then he'll leave and then it'll be me and KHK. And i'm going to meet up with some of my friends from art too :D! I'm very excited!
But i am NOT excited for the fourth of july. I think it's a stupid day. I don't like it at all. Never have. It's just dumb. And it's not because I'm korean and i don't care about america's independence! Because I am american. probably more than i am korean. I really just don't care for fireworks and going to the high school when we don't have to be there. boo.
i'm listening to britney spears stronger right now. how random. it was a cool video actually.
shalom.
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2005 30 June :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: poo poo
Dedicated to: summa 05?
Here I am.
And here is another one of my lists.
1: all i want to do is go north. north north north. to providence rhode island
2: sometimes i wish i had more energy than i usually do.
3: i get bored of things way too easily
4: i fall for people even more easily
5: i wish i wouldn't
6: i'm scared to go to college
7: i'm excited more than i have ever been in my life to go to college
8: my prom dress is still draped over this chair i'm sitting in
9: if i could, i would take back time and relive prom/graduation week all. over. again.
10: but i wouldn't do anything differently. it was the best week ever.
11: i love looking at the sky when it's crazy colors
12: i only feel safe in few people's cars
13: i choose FedEx over UPS
14: one summer, i only wore my hair up in a messy bun on top of my head for that whollllle summer.
15: i loathe close minded people
16: i can't wait to forget some of the people i've met here
17: i'm afraid i'm going to forget about people that i love
18: i love it when my cell phone rings
19: and i love to hear the sound of text messages
20: watermelons taste good
21: it's wierd when tall fat guys have small furry dogs
22: i am NOT a fan of fireworks
23: i miss going to my art classes
24: you can hide weed in stuffed animals
25: i think blackouts are AWESOME. yet, i've never really experienced one
26: ice cream is my downfall
27: i don't have any guilty pleasures. i don't feel guilty about any of my pleasures.
28: i don't admit half the things i actually feel
29: if i were stuck on a deserted island, that would be pretty fucken cool
30: for the first 2 days...
31: if i had to choose to be deaf or blind. i'd choose to be deaf.
32: because i couldn't go on living without being able to see the nasty looks people give me and then not be able to shoot even nastier looks back
33: my eyes are my weapons
34: for both good and bad
35: LHB <3s her arm pits. i love my hair.
36: if you gave me 300 million dollars, i still wouldn't shave my head.
37: i want to get married at the ripe age of 25
38: i hate wearing the color red
39: sometimes, i'm too bossy
40: i'm queen of bottling up emotions
41: sand can easily piss me off
42: if i could, i would marry ross gellar. he's just so fucken funny.
43: i hate it when people don't believe me
44: i feel bad for worms when i see them laying on the concrete after it's rained
45: this green marker on my desk has run out of ink.
46: it sucks
47: my feet are still recovering from prom week
48: CAF trusts me to cut her hair. but i don't trust myself.
49: the sun's not really yellow.
50: but if you drew a red or orange sun in a drawing, people would hate you and point and call you names like, butt head
51: beavis and butt head gross me out
52: i wish i was alive in the 60's and 70's
53: i wish i could feel compassion for old people
54: i wonder when the next time i'm going to clean my room is
55: i watched top gun for the first time two days ago
56: fiji water. yummmm
57: bobby pins can be evil
58: the word bobby looks like booby
59: are you a booby
60: i like my eggs with ketchup
61: and of course. pepper
62: i like to put pepper on a lot of things.
63: is that wierd?
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2005 19 June :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: pippy
Dedicated to: BAZAAAAAAAAAR
Hello.
I have become a facebook whore.
It's almost on the brink of being plain old ridiculous.
I can't stay away.
It's just so........invigorating.
On another note.
Prom is in two days. Two days anyone? Two days? Yea. Two days. But i feel like it already happened, seeing that it has consumed our lives for about six months now. i can't believe within five days it'll all be over.
Good. God.
I gave JSB a ride home today and she was talking to me and KHK how she wants her eye makeup to be "dark, kind of like the slutty look." and that's about when me and KHK started to call her a whore and decided that she was a closet slut. Another reason to look forward to prom- JSB looking like a slut. excellent!
On another note. Real World Austin premieres on tues. yyyyyyyyyyyaay. I fear the day when Bunim decides to stop the show.
I should make another one of my lists soon... if you look at my facebook profile i have a mini list. it really gives off my woohu journal essence. so take it in. breathe it in. love it. smell it. touch it. eat it.
i have to go. see ya
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2005 15 June :: 11.03am
:: Mood: YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Dedicated to: high school
I. am. done! Completo. Finisho. Donzo.
It's wierd how i can remember almost every detail of the first day of my freshman year in that hot hot hot cafeteria and it seems like it was so recent yet so far away. I was talking to KHK about that morning and how we were at opposite ends of the lunch table and saw each other, as strangers. She remembered what she was wearing... and then freakishly remembered what i was wearing... and also freakishly remembered that we sat on the same side of the long cafeteria bench when listening to ms pitts talk. It's wierd how we were total complete strangers then, and now we're anything but that. It's wierd how four years of insanity has already gone by. four years. that is a long time. think about it. we (possibly) graduate college in four years. think of how much things and people have changed within four years. that just shows how long four years is.
i can't believe i'm never going to walk into millburn high school as a student. i'm never going to try and cram into a parking space. or cram at midnight for a test either. i'm never going to walk those halls as a student. as somebody who belongs there. millburn high school as we know it has just become a memory.
well maybe not yet. because we still have PROM and GRADUATION. GRRRRRRRRRRRADUATION. what insanity. WHAT insanity!!! After 3 am on June 24th morning, we can say for sure, that Millburn High School is now just a memory.
Our video yearbook asks, what will you miss most?
I'll miss the feeling of security that I have here most. I've known the people here for... ever... and they've become a security blanket. I know that they're always around and always there for me. It's kind of scary that now I'm slowly taking that blanket off, and already, I feel so naked and vulernable. I only hope that I can find another security blanket just as tight knitted and perfect... but that might be impossible.
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