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2005 20 April :: 7.49pm
:: Mood: poooooop
Dedicated to: spring. is it true? it's here?
People.
by that i mean, ALB and LHB because they're the only ones who actually read this.
school is over in 64 days. what is that. two months? eight weeks?
pheeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeee.
i know that my updates have been about school ending and school ending and college and new friends and school ending. but that's basically what life is all about right now. so take it allllllllllllll in because its over in. well you should know if you read carefully.
and plus. there's not really anything else going on in my life. i'm not working anymore because my manager was a psycho freak who talked to herself. and also i was gaining 32 pounds by the minute. i have no more shows. only like, 2 ..ish... that i watch these days. and i never have school work.
so now i just watch o.c. and..... watch. o.c. and when i'm not watching o.c.... i'm usually thinking about the o.c. and about marissa's clothes. and. the like.
i still don't know where i'm going to college. how fucked up is that.
and really really really really really really really annoying.
AND I KNOW THE DEADLINE IS MAY 1ST. I. KNOW.
ok i'm dirty! shower time. see ya butt head
~~> edit <~~
i apologize. my beloved LAB reads it too.
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2005 17 April :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: ew
Dedicated to: away messages
Isn't it wierd how away messages have become the new bulletin information board of every aim lover's life?
Away messages were invented for people to put up a message that simply says they're not available to talk at the moment. But OH what they have evolved into...
Away messages have become a way to brag to others about who you're hanging out with and/or what you're doing. They tell people that you're out partying on a weekend. or on a weekday. for that matter.
They remind you that you should be studying because other people are studying for the same test you have tomorrow and have been so kind to display their feelings of disgust towards studying on their away messages.
They hint to you that you should call up a person because they're bored or chillin or doing nothing... accorrding to their away message.
They motivate you to go eat something because they're hungry. or eating. or out for lunch.
They make you laugh.
They make you envious because they may have an im excerpt from someone who you wish you talked to.
They intrigue you because you never realized that person talked to the person on their away message.
They keep you up to date on your friends when you have forgotten that they're going away... or aren't home... or are upset...
They let you show the world... or your buddy list... the type of music you're interested in.
They allow you to tell a special someone what you're doing because you can't tell them straight up because you're too shy.
They are helpful when you make a new screen name and want the whole world to know.
They push you along on the gossip train because sometimes they hint break ups, hook ups, the like.
Sometimes they help the break ups, hook ups, the like.
Let's just say. Away messages have become a lot more than just an away. message.
It's a guilty pleasure.
That's why I think. Aim should invent "Bulletin Board". And so you can post up what you're doing at that moment, besides iming people. Because you can't talk to people when you're away message is up without it coming down (unless you're on a MAC). And sometimes you want to keep talking to people and study for math at the same time... and you want people to know that you're studying for math... for some reason... so you can post it up on your "Bulletin Board". and when you have a message on your bulletin board, there will be a blue notepad next to your screen name instead of a yellow post it. and people can check your information, and your bulletin message will come up.
i think it's brilliant.
and if you've followed anything i've said, then kudos and agree with me.
Bye. x o.
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2005 10 April :: 9.39am
:: Mood: i don't want to be up
Dedicated to: it's a secret what this is dedicated to
OKAY.
Yesterday I went to the city with some of my artsy fartsy's (and to make it clear I am not an artsy fartsy ... yet.) and it was very fun. But then it made me realize...
I'm/we're never going to have the same relationships that we have here, ever again. Of course we'll have friends and we'll love them dearly like we love each other, maybe we'll even love them more, but it won't be the same.
I love my artsy fartsy's and had fun with them yesterday, but it made me realize that things are going to be so different in a few months. so much more different than i think we're all expecting. and it made me sad and scared to think that i won't have the same type of certain bonds with people. how could you have the same relationships with people who you didn't grow up with and grow through your awkward years with?
so i realized. that i should savor up the last few weeks of my friends of my roots. even thought i just said that, it doesn't mean i'm going to be all party party social social. but it does mean that i realize the importance of my friends and our unreplaceable friendships. and will keep that in mind until. welllll. hopefully forever.
so yesterday when i was in the city, having fun and prancing around, i realized i was having a different kind of fun. and even prancing around a different way! the conversations went along differently. the topics were different. even our mode of transportation was different! subway over cab. and where we ate was different. what we did. all that jazz. i don't even know if i was the same. maybe i was different too.
so it's not like i don't want new relationships to build. new and different relationships. but i have to say. i have to admit. that i am nervous about leaving the old ones.
yesterday. i hated how i couldn't say certain things or do certain things because they just wouldn't understand. yea they understand me but i think they understand a different me. for a few split seconds here and there i felt .. so .. unprotected .. or something. like i missed spazzing out here and there like i do all the time with RAB. and i know that it was just like... a day without my friends... and so you're probably saying "you missed it ?" but yes. i did. for those split seconds i missed it because it made me realize i may never be able to do it again.
of course i'm excited for college. no f'n doubt. you've got to be insane to think that i've changed my mind. and i most certainly am excited to meet new people and just get a breath of fresh air. and make the awesomest of friends. but stillllllllllllllllllllllllll. don't you understand people !!
everything will be different!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i don't like change!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
although. this change is inevitable. and i'm believing .. and hoping a lot... that this change will be a good change. and the best ever.
i'm sorry this update wasn't funny.
but i don't care because i'm up now because i have to go to work so i can update however i want bc my boss has carpel tunnel (sp?) and i don't want to go to work and serve pastries with 468,599,000 calories to people who are already obese making the statistics of U.S. weight go up.
i'm updating a lot these days. woop woop woop !!! !!! !!!
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2005 8 April :: 10.12pm
:: Mood: chillin
Dedicated to: summer lovin, sweet as can be
La la la la la laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
There are just some people who I will never forget. Most definitely Mr. Oppel. I love him. And Brian, of course. of course and maybe you. if you're just oh so lucky today.
i am so so so so so so so so so soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo jeal of KHK. She's going to school in the city!!! I'm so jeal. And for some reason, more jealous of her than anyone else going to school in the city. I'm not sure why. But it might be because I know that she most certainly will make the best of the fact that she's living in the city. I know she'll gobble up the streets of soho. drink her boba in china town. scout the clubs at night. and maybe become the true new yorker that i've always longed to be. It's almost like she's living out my dream for me... and she'll do everything that I've always wanted to do... so maybe that's why i'm so excited. because if i can't live in the city, the next best thing is for my best to live there... so it's sort of like... i'm living in the city through her. wicked. wicked sweet.
I should get used to the Port Authority now. I'm going to be going through there, visiting her a loooooooooooooooooot. yay new york! yay!
oh. yes. i'm going to new york tomorrow. see some of my artsy fartsy's. one wants to get the bottom of her belly pierced. she already has the top part... which i was there holding her hand for. and another wants to get hers pierced... fo the first time.
i hate how i had to leave the oh so tight social circle that i was once in. now i'm completely off people's lists of people to contact when having a party. i'm even off my friend's lists. which i cannot blame them for. i had to take an elongated absence, and i'm not surprised that i'm forgotten now when it comes to parties. it's sad. not that i'm forgotten, although that is sad, but more sad that things have changed. and if you're a good support of my woohu you will know that I DO NOT LIKE CHANGE.
whisper has been playing for 8 minutes now.
thank god. new song.
it started out with a kiss how did it end up like this
huh????????? how did it!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like ALB frowns upon the killers. :( which makes me sad. i always trust ALB with music. actually. i trust a lot of people with music.
i love when people make me mixes. because the mix is a replica of that person, atleast to me it is. all mixes are so distinctly different, because people are so distinctly different.
do you think you will remember all your memories from millburn in four years?
.......
i hope i do. even the bad ones.
i can't believe i'm resorting to this to spice up this update:
The Survey
Name: eileen (to you missy)
Birthday: feb 24 <3
Birthplace: jersey.
Current Location: jersey.
Eye Color: brizown
Hair Color: brizown
Height: i am short
Right Handed or Left Handed: unfortunately. right.
Your Heritage: KP
The Shoes You Wore Today: j crew flips. and then my beloved reefs
Your Weakness: you mean weaknesses? one is, i fall for people
Your Fears: ask CAF. i'm pretty sure she has a list. one is, getting my hair stuck in a fan. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Your Perfect Pizza: one with a DELICIOUS crust
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: buy a raincoat
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: ! or !!!!
Thoughts First Waking Up: NO.
Your Best Physical Feature: uh. i'm workin on it.
Your Bedtime: depends when my shows end
Your Most Missed Memory: the good days of freshman year when we didn't care as much. about being cool. not school.
Pepsi or Coke: diet coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: mc donalds
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea ...or lipton. depends.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee. but cappuccino when i want to look cool
Do you Smoke: smoke? like what
Do you Swear: this is dumb. yes
Do you Sing: ...maybe...
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: i'm gonna go with. no.
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: are you serious. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you belive in yourself: eh
Do you get Motion Sickness: haha YES
Do you think you are Attractive: if you do
Are you a Health Freak: sometimes. depends which funk i've fallen into
Do you get along with your Parents: yes, usually
Do you like Thunderstorms: yah!!
Do you play an Instrument: uh. no.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: i'm not sure...
In the past month have you Smoked: i'm not sure...
In the past month have you been on Drugs: i don't think so...
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: i work there stupid
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no. i never have. i don't eat oreos much. although it was an answer to the crossword puzzle.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yea
In the past month have you been on Stage: what type of stage... ...it doesn't matter. no.
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: yea today
Ever been Drunk: yea
Ever been Beaten up: HAHA. no.
Ever Shoplifted: yes. today. i just said that.
How do you want to Die: i don't
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: designer
What country would you most like to Visit: korea korea!
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: brown
Favourite Hair Color: if it looks good, i'll take it
Short or Long Hair: shhhhhh.. short. i guess
Height: normal
Weight: normal
Best Clothing Style: look comfortable in the clothes. and your skin
Number of Drugs I have taken: how is this, "in a boy/girl" ?
Number of CDs I own: again! a lot.
Number of Piercings: 5
Number of Tattoos: zero
Number of things in my Past I Regret: are you serious? 8 ... times 16 million
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2005 5 April :: 8.15pm
:: Mood: sticky -ew.
Dedicated to: jitters
Is it true? Can it be spring?
:D :D :D
I had a good entry idea and now i can't think of it anymore.
I have work tomorrow. I close.
Hopefully my manager can get out a complete full sentence before i turn 21.
She just starts to talk. and then stops. and looks at me as if i can read her mind.
i can't. so keep talking lady.
but i would feel really bad if she had some lung problem and needed to take long breaths.
but otherwise. its just annoying dude. COMPLETE YOUR SENTENCES !!
i always go in to work wondering if she'll say a complete sentence within a span of, 3 minutes. at most. i'll give her 3 minutes.
tomorrow is a whole new day. we can make progression if we're lucky. keep your fingers crossed for me. i want to keep this job and if she keeps up this half sentence thing i might have to quit. so keep your fingers crossed.
i'm a pretty lazy piece of shit. i should change that.
i'll change it when my manager finishes her sentences... ... he he he.
i have to shower. love love love .
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