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2006 17 April :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: my mp3 player
Meet Virginia
The highlight of my day: going into work and talking to Ken for about 10 or 15 minutes. True story! How is it that he's 23? Seriously... is that even fair? He's perfect. I can talk to him about anything and everything. He's such a sweetheart, and it makes me happy just to see him. Man, remind me to die when he goes back on active duty. Because I swear if that man dies in Iraq I will cry my eyes out. He and I are actually really close. Closer than most people realize, I think. Maybe Beth sees it... but she would. She's like that, always knows. I think it's the mom in her. Anyway, I just thought I'd share.
Yea, we got mercyed... again. And I didn't play... again. This is the first year ever, and I mean EVER, that I haven't been a starter. There was one game last year when I didn't start, and that was because I missed practice for a week while in California and couldn't play. Yea, see, this is stupid. I swear it makes me worse not to play. It really really does. I dislike softball lately... it's an ego killer.
Yea, I don't know what to do. I'm so stressed lately, and it's making me really short tempered. NOT good. Honestly though, I like having JD around again. Yesterday was basically terrible, until I went to work and she didn't need me. After that I got to go to J's house and chill. He cleaned out his car and I just layed in the backseat. It was nice to just talk to him. He was one person that I needed. Plus when we were done outside we went in and watched Malibu's Most Wanted. It was funny, and it was nice to cuddle with him. I think I might just like his friendship now. I don't need to kiss him or anything, I just want him there. It's nice when he holds me and the world's suddenly all better. I'm glad that my best friend is my prom date... it's gonna' be perfect. Because he's perfect... even his faults. This is what I held on for, I'm glad I waited for him. I truly do love him.
Wow, I'm so moody today. I just went from heated to extatic in like 12 seconds. So not kidding. Wierdo. (and yes, I am talking to myself now).
Anyway, I'll check ya' later. Chao.
XOXO,
Jaq
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jacqui-chan
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2006 16 April :: 11.47am
:: Mood: tired, sore, bored, blessed, and crazy
You know I'll always love you, but right now I just don't like you.
Okay new rule, if you update your journal, any journal, more than twice a day, you need to get a life. I kid you not.
So, JD and I saw Scary Movie 4 last night. Don't waste your money, there are like 2 funny parts and the rest is just stupid. But before that we went to Coldstone, his first time, it was BOMB!! He loved it too, which is good because I may have died of a heart attack if he didn't... that place is AMAZING!! Oh, and we saw Katie and Curtis at Circuit City. That was fun. I was so excited that I jumped out of the car with my shoes off to run over and hug Katie. It was funny. Then we laughed at this guy who thought he was cool in a big ol' SUV with like 20 inch rims on it. He was blasting his stereo with the windows down, all leaned back in his seat. It was pathetic. But funny.
Yea, church was WAY boring. Why is it that all ministers feel the need to tell the story of Resurection every single Easter. NEWSFLASH! Everyone already knows!! DUH, that's why we're celebrating it. Hello. Anyway, JD's family didn't come because his dad's sick and his mom said she had "too much to do before Easter lunch". So it was just Grandma, Barb and I again. As usual.
Yea, did I mention that JD and I are going to prom together. Cuz we are. And we're going to an AQ day next Friday together. And we're totally dating. Which is nice because I love him... and he's like 20 thousand times better than he was before. I love it.
So yea, I need a prom dress... but I have ZERO time to go get one, so we'll see how that works out. Hmm... whatever.
I'll see ya'll later. Happy Easter, even though Easter was originally a Saturday and this is just to satisfy all the people who love changing the Bible. Chao loves.
-Jay-
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jacqui-chan
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2006 14 April :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: my mp3 player
Play it loud...
So, JD asked me to prom. Totally official. Ariana and Caleb are going together too. So it'll be all of us in a group, probably in my car, which by the was is totally almost done! Anywho, I enjoy that I'm going with three of my best friends in the world all together. It's kinda' nice. I wish I could understand J though. He's such a psycho. Like, lets ask Jacqui to prom, tell her I love her every ten seconds, go on dates with her, kiss her, and NOT ask her out! COOL! Not. What a dummy, seriously, who does that? I don't know. All I know is that I like him a LOT so he gets a chance to be good. But this time I'm not gonna' be the doormat. This time if he breaths wrong he's out. I can't stand the bullshit anymore. I'm stressed as hell with everything else right now without having to think about his crap. So that's that. For those of you who were freakin' out about it, I'm not pulling a last time gig here. I'll fricken jam a spoon in his eye if he pulls anything as stupid as he did before... that was bull.
Yep, that's my glorious life, have a good one peeps. Love ya'. Oh, and Happy Easter if I don't talk to any of you before that. Chao loves.
XOXO,
Jacquelyn
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2006 12 April :: 8.11pm
looks like I get to leave the country again... yay!!!
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2006 11 April :: 10.56am
CRUCIAL EDIT: it appears as though I was horribly misinformed, or just horribly misunderstood. Chavez has not been relected YET. However, the year 2021 is the year he will remain in office if he is re-elected. Jumped the gun on that one guys, I apologize. The rest of the information, barring that, is in fact, correct.
also... He has now formally made friends with Iran. so I officially declare liking him makes you crazy. Because, you know, it makes lots of sense to like someone who is friends with someone who has nuclear missles and wouldn't mind using them against the U.S., well anyone for that matter...
News flash, "presidente" Hugo Chavez de la Republica de Venezuela has been re-elected. Based on his re-election, Chavez has come to the conclusion that he belongs extendedly in the office of "el presidente" as part of his further missions to institute socialism into the venezuelan government. He will now, as of being "re-elected" , stay in office until the election of the year 2021.
a few facts about chavez, heres a good list for ya:
1. In the early 90's, 92 I believe, chavez attempted a military coup of the venezuelan government. which he was arrested for.
my opinion: This is your first , pretty obvious hint of bullshit, most militarily ran governments don't work out so well, I.E. cuba, former military argentina (which is now known as being the cause of Los Disemparencidos* in the 70's and 80's, a group of people who vanished without a trace, most of which were never found again, the rest permanantly scarred physically due to torture or emotionally scarred.), most third world african countries such as liberia, rwanda, sudan...
2. Hugo was displayed in a prison in public. He had a little cage.
my opinion: A mistake on the part of the government. This only made them look bad and his cause look good. Hugo, if it was your idea... good work asshole, because it helped your political future.
3. Chavez was pardoned by the next elected president for all crimes against the government
my opinion: fucking bullshit
4.Chavez changed the term of president to 6 years, extending his term
my opinion: Hugo justifies this with a referendum that allows voters to to vote on his presidency, and whether or not he should still be in office. This happens every two years. Now this is a brilliant idea, good for it. The only problem I see with it is that it may just be another ploy ( much like the public display of imprisonment ) to justify his cause.
5.Chavez has declared his presidency until 2021
my opinion: all these things put together just seems to be adding up to something... although he hasn't really don't anything that jepordizes the democracy and well being of the people at this point, other than some economic reform laws that hurt business owners.
In all honesty, I don't think he's really done anything at this point, good or bad, except change things to better his politcal future, and make himself look good. It is noted that he's done a little for medical and education reform, which venezuela needs badly.( all schools are private, and most people can't afford to send their kid to a school, let alone a university or college, which have no credibility anyway except for possibly the univeristy of caracas) The poor are still poor and getting poorer, the rich are still getting rich, it's as simple as that. And while I'm far from socialist at all, the obvious goal for any economy or government is economic fairness. Everyone should have equal oppurtunity to earn their money. But it's not like that. The poor sell second hand goods and food on the corner, an average wage that I grasped from people was about four dollars an hour, and the infastructure in metropolitan and rural areas is horrible. This can be partly blamed on chavez, for contuining the building of Ranchos in caracas and metropolitan areas. Ranchos make up just about 60% of the city of caracas. I know this, because I've seen it. The projects of new york or compton or any "ghetto" have nothing on this. They're everywhere... The garbage system is poorly handled as well. Good luck seeing a clean street.
Hugo Chavez has spent more time on creating enemies with the United States and other countries, and creating allies that are about as valuable as 1 unit of the venezuelan currency (2150 per dollar, you do the math) then he has spent trying to better venezuelas economic situation. He has so much power with his oil. Instead of telling us to fuck off, he could be making more money by negotiating instead of rasing prices just to piss us off. He's been in office for 8 years now, and will be for another 15, and I doubt he will do anything good for the economy. I can't really know that for sure, but I just don't see him doing anythign but cause trouble...
Liberal media loves chavez, but that's an automatic, given his bad relationship with Bush. Chavez constantly talks about going to war with us. I heard himself say it on these little public announcments he does everyday, he says it atleast once a week... I don't know about you guys, but I tend to not be friends with the guys who want to shoot me. And the truth is, a big part of the downfall is the oil, but that he should deal with because he "cares for the people" so much.
The venezuelan government is now far more militaristic then it used to be... according to everyone I talked to. I never heard differently.
Basically, my main issue with chavez, is he's setting himself with the ability to be a dictator, not coming through on his promises, and yet the media loves him when they shouldn't... there is nothing really that spectacular about him that a revolutionary hasn't done better in the past, other than he called an american president an Asshole.. I can name LOTS of people who've done that...
In Conclusion:
He's done nothing good , nor bad. I dont' trust him at all... you can't tell me that a leader of a country just saying that he's going to stay until 2021 , even with a new vote every 2 years to see if he should stay, isn't pretty suspicious of him trying to grab some more power. I'm convinced.
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Jacqui-Chan
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2006 10 April :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: tired
Tied up in ancient history...
I am so lost. I hate it when he does that. He wants to go to prom with me, he wants to go with me only if his friends are going so he's not just stuck with mine. We barely see our friends at dances, we're focused on eachother. Plus even if they don't go I'm having a bonfire afterword that they're more than welcome to attend. He's such an idiot. I want to know where I stand, but that seems impossible anymore. Ugh, he said he hasn't yet figured out what I am to him. We kiss and hug and hold hands... even in public... yet we're not "together". The igit.
I hate hate hate this crap. I wish I was over him, because then telling him to take a hike would be WAY easier!
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jacqui-chan
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2006 6 April :: 2.13pm
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: KISS
So cool
Ya' know, I'm really glad to be me. Seriously. I don't want to sound all conceaded or anything, but I feel bad for other people sometimes. I shouldn't whine about my life... it's great! I have parents who truly love and care about me. A sister who would give her life to see me smile and keep me safe. And I have the greatest friends imaginable. No, it's not always perfect... but it's close. People actually tell me they'd kill to have my confidence sometimes, and they think my hair is beautiful. But I never saw any of it. To me I'm shy, my hair is crappy and hard to work with, my looks are just not up to par, and my parents are too strict. It's all a lie though, and I never saw it. How could I have forgotten? I must seem like the biggest witch ever, not appreciating what I have. Well that ends now. From now on I'm loving my life, becuase it could be a LOT worse.
To my friends: I love you guys, thanks for making me happy all the time. You're all my heros.
Love,
Jay
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Jacqui-Chan
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2006 6 April :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Kiss XM
I'm so confused...
So, I'm completely lost. JD calls me a lot from Florida, and that makes me way happy. But I don't know what to think about it. Sometimes he says he loves me, but he never says he misses me or anything. He says he misses everyone. He only admitted to missing just me once, and that was just because he doesn't want me to hang out with Tim and some people from his church on Sunday. JD is a crazy person! He actually told me he was trying to hook up with some girls, but then ten seconds later he was like "I love you, I want to come home". Bull shit! Ugh... you cannot try to go make out with random girls that you meet in Florida and then tell your ex-girlfriend how much you love her! That does NOT work out. Stupid kid.
Okay, and on top of the JD situation there's Cory. See, I have a small crush on him... and I have for a while. But I'm afraid. I don't want to lead him on, because I still like JD a lot... and if things are gonna' work out with him than I want to stay. But Cory likes me... he's told me that and that he'd ask me out if he knew I'd say yes. And for a while I might've said yes... but when JD was informed about the situation he was really angry and sad. He said he'd been thinking about wanting to date me again and stuff. So then we dated... and I ended it, because I didn't know where he was with liking another girl. I should just end the whole thing... but I have some sort of weird force holding me here. Keeping me in the JD zone... I HATE it. This is totally not even healthy. I think I'll give him one more chance when he gets home... but if it doesn't work out maybe I'll see what's up with my other options. Because this kid needs to work stuff out for himself before he can be in a relationship with anyone at all.
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2006 6 April :: 11.33am
I think I honestly have a fucking placenta for an english teacher... or atleast a teacher that does as much planning as an broken placenta... ok, so maybe a little graphic on the imagery , but I'm right. Are you ready for a list? well... you're getting one...
1) She never tells us what she wants. Like, I don't mean she gives a title for the project, and then dilly dallys around the details. I mean she doesn't fucking tell us what she wants. If she wants a summary paper, she'll slightly mention a summary paper being due sometime in the paradox of time, and then , BAM, it's due. I have no problem doing any of the work, that's what school is. But you know... it'd be nice to know that I have fucking work to do, so I could atleast make some feeble attempt at doing it. That's like kidnapping me in the middle of the night, throwing me out of a plane, and then claiming it's my fault I didn't have a parachute. " Well, it's somewhere in small print on the syllabus you didn't ever get to see, you should have known.
2) She's old, and senile. If she could give you a stare other than " Oh fuck I think I just shit my pants, maybe if I don't move they won't notice", then she would. But unfortunately, she's at the point where she's no longer in control of her oraphices(sp).
3) She's knows alot about literature, and can quote it, but that's completely irrelevant in a english 150 class. It's fucking great that you've studied english for 87 years, and have met Thoreau in person, now stopping babbling on and teach me something.
4)Her stupid explanations of a definition essay. She remembers useless things... like the definition of chair and responsibility... but seems to have forgotten the definition of the verb " to teach".
5)She likes to talk about how bad at her quizzes we are... when we have no idea what the hell she wants. She is a huge fan of confusing random questions. For example... abbreviation, a simple subject. Nothing too complicated in abbreviation... until this "professor" (and note that i put professor in quotes) got a hold of it. two questions I thought were specifically hilarious *this is directly from the quiz*:
A) ... and then you must take the F.A.S.F.A. test... I recieved -4 points on this question because I didn't know what FASFA stood for, even though I mentioned that it doesn't need the periods... also note that no where in the section of abbreviations does it mention that I have to write out the whole thing. which is bullshit... I argued with her and her jowls jiggled so hard with spite that she gave into the pain, and eventually gave me my points back because it was a ridiculous response.
B) Am. and the Prof. went out.....
This one was beautiful because ... well... fucking Am. could be a numerous, if not infinite, number of things. So as an answer I put "amber? in hopes that it would be right. Well ofcourse not... it was supposed to stand for " ambassador". First of all, in the sentence it doesn't make any fucking sense. Unless the guys name actually is Ambassador. There's no goddamn artical to support it being Ambassador. Who the fuck would name their kid Ambassador? this as well was argued out. But she was trying to take points off, hoping that maybe she could slip it by me.
In her old, decrepit stage of life, she needs to find a way to make her self feel worth while, so she makes sure nobody can pass her class. This means her class is challenging, and is thereby teaching lots of material. When really she teaches nothing at all. She might even have a radar for passing students:
Radar: Warning, a student is passing your class
Her: Shit... alright, jeeves, throw in the Am. question on the next test, that'll get 'em.
I can't wait for a new teacher... I'm honestly convinced that my english 250 class will infact be easier to follow than my 150. Fuck that teacher.
as a wise man once said : " The thing about pourcuipine balls is.... they're small and they don't give a shit..."
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tuwang
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2006 4 April :: 12.47am
As long as I don't fall asleep... I won't wake up... which means I don't have to go to school all day... and I won't have to come home... and then not work or make money... so I can't go to japan... fuck me sideways... I use alot of elipses...
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Jacqui-Chan
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2006 31 March :: 8.49pm
Every long lost dream, led me to where you are...
I miss him like crazy... and it's only been a day.
Spring break sucks... it always has... why did I think this year would be any different.
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2006 30 March :: 9.30pm
A word of advice: Don't say anything to JD about the talent show, he'll rip your fricken head off. No doubt about it.
Yea, J's gone. He left for Florida today with Caleb. I didn't really get to say good-bye... and he was in such a rush when he called me... it kinda' sucked. I don't know why I care so much. I shouldn't. I shouldn't still like him... but I can't help it. He told me to move on, then the next day was all over me (literally). I just have no clue what to do. I give up on guys all together.
So yea, the most odd part of the day had to be going back to my locker after school with Heather. Caleb kissed me on the cheek, and when I went to kiss his cheek he turned his head and we kissed on the lips. It was weird. But he just played it off like nothing and said that he'd miss me. I love that kid, but that was definetly a one time occurance... FREAKY! lol.
Anyway, hope everyone has a good spring break, I'm bored already... but that'll hopefully change. I love you guys. XOXO.
-Jaq-
P.S.
Allie and Brie, we should definetly all get together and kick his butt someday. I'll let ya' know the when and where, okay? Okay! ;) Later
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2006 28 March :: 7.35pm
This is the funniest thing that's ever happened to me...
So I get out of my enlgish class today, and usually I head to the library and I just sit on a computer for a couple of hours.
most of you on my MSN list know of the guy who stole my e-mail because he could. well he's been saying some pretty bad things to everyone...
So I pull up to a random computer and login. THe ferris login system is novell but it has no password and programs are saved, but when it goes to screen saver it goes back to the login screen. Well someone had left their MSN logged in... I was just about to go logoff when... oh my god. In the place of the Online list and the Offline list... theres... Tuwang, and not Tuwang. Now I dont' know if you've ever heard the name used before , but I haven't, so I was intrigued, who would use this in such an obscure place... so I check the e-mail : john6751@hotmail.com... nothing rings a bell at first because I'm not in the mindset... but then I look at the name... it's "Hey, I'm dumb and leave my MSN on at the library!!!" I think for a second... thinking little by little... and then I put it together... It's John, the guy who stole my hotmail account. I'm elated. I have ultimate revenge capabilities in my hang. But this is too coincidental... or this guy is just cocky... so what is my first move, I think to myself. Then BAM, a friend of his talks to me and asks me who it is. we talk for alittle bit and eventually he finds out he's not me. I ask him, is there a guy with the e-mail Tuwang128@hotmail.com on your list? And he says, "yep , that's the guy who's e-mail he stole, he went on and on about it for like a week." This guy thinks like me and thinks it would infact be hilarious if I were to show up at his doorstep. He gives me his phone number... and then his address... and then says " Have fun kickin his ass, he'll shit his pants..."
ofcourse This is a brilliant idea. But I have to add fuel to the fire... SO I send an e-mail out to everyone on his list confessing that Jon is gay, and here's how it goes.:
well, I think the time has come...
I've been trying to think of a good time to say this, but I never have been able to find it until now...
I know what ur probably going to think about me after this... but I can't hold it any longer...
I'm gay... and I just want you all to know...
sincerely,
jon
that was sent out immediately. Come tonight I get back on his address just to see if there's any early bird retorts, and low and behold I get hit with..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
you really gay?
and so then the conversation was on...
Smokey McFaggston says:
... you don't hate me now do ya?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
why in the hell would i hate you for being gay?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
isnt that kinda steryotipical, you tihnk id hate you? i aint that k inda person darlin
Smokey says:
well... thanks...
Smokey says:
that makes me feel better
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
no problem
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
perhaps u should check ur mail
Smokey says:
oh, thanks
Smokey says:
and it was me
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha aight
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
well good for you man. I knew you were
Smokey says:
hang on...
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
to what
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
jk
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
aight
Smokey says:
man, i don't know what to do now
Smokey says:
big day
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha, so what made you come outta the closet?
Smokey says:
I was just tired of hiding it
Smokey says:
itll kill ya somtimes ya know?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
yeah..good for you... so ya got anyone in mind?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
so have you fooled around with a man before? tis why you always said you were a virgin casue ya never had sex with a woman? (just curious)
Smokey says:
yeah... haha
Smokey says:
never sex though....
Smokey says:
just like kissin and stuff
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
ahh i see, that's cool..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
glad to hear ya family crawled outta your shelll
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
musta takin ALOT of courage
Smokey says:
you have no idea
Smokey says:
2 years since the first time
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
ohhh, i have an idea, not in the gay category, but there is shit i have had to admit that took all the courage in the world..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
since what first time?
Smokey says:
haha, ya know
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
yeah
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
well hey i gotta go, gettin ready to make some dinner n shite, i ll proly be on later
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
so ya have a good night, take er easy (not hard)
Smokey says:
haha thanks
Smokey says:
lata
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
no problemo
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
ta ta.....
Smokey says:
thanks for talkin to me
Smokey says:
really
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
oh no problem man, any freakin time....but im gettin rid of the net, so youll have to email me, or visa versa, ill be keepin in toucch with everyone..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
you have a good one jon
Smokey says:
thanks
Smokey says:
just stop by my place anytime if you want
Smokey says:
we can talk some more
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
no prob
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha, yeah sure, ill be there in bout 2 months
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
peace out
I think I did a damn good job of pretending to be coming out of the closet. SO much , infact, that I considered it... Until I realized how large of a boner shakira gives me... I only like the cafe ole! you know...
so, now I get to organize a party together, of men. We're going up there with bats... gonna give him a little scare... anybody interested?
here's his number...
796-1824
everyone give him a good hassle...
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2006 28 March :: 6.53pm
I want to do to you what you've done to me. Only not figuratively... literally. You are a lying, cheating, confused son of a bitch... and that's all you'll ever be. You'll amount to a pile of shit if you keep up your life this way... so go ahead, I don't care. Just know that I'm not going along for the ride. Fuck you. If you want to be the person I know you can be, then you've got my number. Until then, you can shove every flirty, whiny, pathetic word you've said to me right up your hairy ass.
Love you. *kiss*,
Jacquelyn Jean DeFouw
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