Die-ary

:: 2004 1 December :: 8.52pm

They're dating....Betty and Ryan are dating....I hate him..god do I hate him. He told me he wasn't ready for a girlfriend and he's dating her.

-Chasmin-

:: 2004 25 November :: 10.20am
:: Mood: Cold
:: Music: Barbershop music

Don't be an Ecko-namik girly man!
Sooo I'm here in Atlanta at mah pa's house. Frannies staring at me....sorta scary. It was such a long drive last night we didn't come in till about 3. The car we have was comfy but not. I got the sniffles from trying to sleep in there it was frustrating. But the couch I slept on in the motor home was comfy I was happy. I want a wolf hybrid or a coyote...I think they are really cute and yah. Happy turkey day by the way everyone. And if you don't eat turkey and you doing what I'm doing then happy pizza day. Yes that's right. We are having pizza for thanksgiving tomorrow. Yes I know thanksgiving is today but today we celebrate it with my ma tomorrow we celebrate it with my pa. I need to get ready and take a shower so tata!

-Chasmin-

1 more shard | break my being

4 more shards | break my being

:: 2004 20 November :: 4.29pm

a toast to the fuck faces. may their lives be long and full of shit.

2 more shards | break my being

:: 2004 14 November :: 10.00pm

Fuck you. Fuck you all. Im so sick of bull shit. Im so sick of meaning less words. and empty promisses. Im so sick of everyone. Im sick of cassandra always saying she will come see me and then never doing it. Im sick of joey saying he will do something and then not do it. Im sick of people who always have to fuck with me. wow. your so wonderful. Make me sad, boo hoo. Im sick of people saying that I can call any time when i need to talk. and then I call...and they dont want to talk...wtf.. Fuck all of you. I dont need your shit. I dont need anything from you.

:: 2004 13 November :: 10.38pm

Theres a fine, fine, line.
There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

-Chasmin-

1 more shard | break my being

:: 2004 13 November :: 10.06pm
:: Mood: Bouncy, happy, awesome!
:: Music: Avenue Q soundtrack....thank you broadway.

Grab your dicks and double click! Porn, porn, porn!
Wow I had an awesome weekend. On Friday I spent the night at Ambers. We went to this girls house in Lake Worth (where I happened to know her brother) But we went to the Lake Worth bon fire, it was so fun. I made new friends. We danced and just did good stuff. I played GTA San Andres, good game. We attempted to watch Monty Python and the Holy Grail, but we were really tired. Ambers brother Aerin came in at around 11:30 after we semi-fell asleep 15 mins earlier and was evil flickering the light on and off. He had a friend with him and they were going to go drink..how fun. Today we went to Bullards Halo 2 party....so awesome. It's such a great game. We had 3 consoles hooked up and we were all fighting each other. I killed one person! and he was one of the gods of Halo. I got killed so many times it made me laugh. Around 7 we went outside and played football in the street and the cops came cause we got a complaint for being to loud which was crap. But I had an awesome time. It's what I've been needing a good time to go out with friends. I didn't think about Ryan all weekend, I think I am now really getting over him, not just thinking it. I know the Betty thing will still bug me...but I'm doing ok now. I'm happy. Kevin is so cute. (the spitznagel) He's such a dork but it's ok. We were having a burpingish contest. I know how lady like right? It was pointless fun. Alright I'm gonna get ready for bed.

-Chasmin-

:: 2004 13 November :: 5.26pm

i hate love, but i hate loneliness more.
=(
-Felicia

:: 2004 12 November :: 8.14pm

=( refer back to last post.

:: 2004 11 November :: 11.20pm

i want joey. =(

3 more shards | break my being

:: 2004 11 November :: 9.05pm

Well if I'm not a doofus beyond dufuses. I forgot to put a journal in here for my birthday on monday. I turned 16 w00t! I had dinner at Luna Rosa with Lorelei, Devin, Amber, Fran, mum, Linda and Michael. It was an awesome birthday. I didn't think I would of had fun, but I did. I got good presents. I got an iPOD, detachable shower head (get your mind out of the gutter), pretty picture from Amber of her uberly cute brother, sexy man blanket (Brandon Lee from the crow), a big snoopy doll, some eyeliner, and good stuff. Well now that I have done this I can sleep peacefully.

-Chasmin-

7 more shards | break my being

:: 2004 11 November :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: Cheerfull now
:: Music: Avenue Q soundtrack....thank you broadway.

The internet is for Porn
Any 6 - no matter how personal, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly.

In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal // OR // you have to answer the questions that are asked to you.

Ask away, even if you don't have a journal.. leave an anonymous note.

-Chasmin-

:: 2004 11 November :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: Undecided
:: Music: Boy from Oz still

For once in my life, I want someone who needs me..doo doo
I'm not keeping this lil' journal thing with me, so whenever I get sad, or happy or something like that I can write it down. It does help. I saw Ryan and Betty together today, I have no idea whats going on but it's really starting to bug me. Anyways. What else happened today...stuff stuff and more stuff. I have acting lessons later. I'm gonna go play furcadia and listen to my music as usual.

-Chasmin-

4 more shards | break my being

:: 2004 11 November :: 6.26am

-from tims away message
once you knew a girl and you named her lover

and danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer

but autumn came, she disappeared
you cant't remember where she said she was going to

but you know that she is gone because she left you a song

that you don't want to sing

we're singing i believe that lovers should be chained together, and thrown into a fire with their songs and letters,and left there to burn in their arrogance

yea! so burn in hell you stupid fucks. =( me and joey broke up last night for good. not attempting to be just friends or anything. i feel like im going to die. bye.

:: 2004 10 November :: 8.42pm

this poem is sad =( i found it
Little Boy Blue
the little toy dog is covered with dust, but sturdy and stanch he stands; and the little toy soldier is red with rust, and his musket moulds in his hands. Time was when the little toy dog was new and the soldier passing fair, and that was the time when our little boy blue kissed them and put them there. "Now dont you move until I come, and dont you make any noise!" So toddleing back to his tundel bed he drempt of the pretty toys. and as he was dreaming, an angel song awakend our little boy blue- oh, the years are many, and the years are long, but the little toy friends are true! Ay, faithful to little boy blue they stand, each in the same old place, awaiting the touch of a little hand, the smile of a little face, and they wonder awaiting these long years through, in the dust of that little chair. What has become of our little boy blue since he kissed them and put them there. -Eugene Field