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2004 10 April :: 7.14 pm
:: Music: Darkness-Love is Only a Feeling
I lyk this song...
The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway
The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I...
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Yeah so today was...blah we cleaned all morning, before my grandparents came over my mom woke me up early. I was so tired from spending yet another night up late talking with ppl while on a major sugar high. This made me quite irritable.
I hate my mom and I being on the same pms schedule...my grandparents got a lil caught in our crossfire throughout the day I tried to spend most of it hibernating in my room away from the people...catching up on sleep.
umm went out to dinner...chinese food why is it that in nail salons and chinese food resturants the asian people always seem to be gossiping about you. Makes me uncomfortable...maybe i'll take korean and chinese in college just for this purpose.
we went to publix after....i hate it there.....the bag boy broke the mayonase jar...sum creepy guy in the checkout line (had to be lyk 28-30) was leering at me I wanted to get out.
rented cheaper by the dozen...guess were watching it later. My mom got offended that I wouldnt go to the mall with her when we got home. I think we have had enough of each other for the day I needed some more alone time...sorry mom.
I love mom language around my grandparents...when I was came out dressed for dinner this is what she said "What are you all dressed up for?" translated that really means "why are your tits so exposed in that shirt?"...it amuses me to upset her sometimes.
lol conversations with danielle go to odd places let me just say that...we are the wicker ninjas...just take me to mexico to see my jose and it'll all be alright.
talkin to my little sister Jenn (eagle ette lil sis that is) lol idk why i'm so mean to her. I also should probably listen to her lol
Playbb13 (7:49:15 PM): jess!
Playbb13 (7:49:22 PM): didnt we have a talk about those ex-ROTC boys!
ehh...what can I say they are my vice
I'm going now happy fuckin easter everyone.
~Jess~
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2004 9 April :: 11.13 pm
I'm bored...
today had eagle ette practice from 8-10 am then had to learn my duet with Brittney from 10-12 ...yeah I have to have it down by next week's tech rehersal on wednesday...lovely last minute choreography as if I don't have enough stress....ugh this was all on 3 hr sleep too did I mention? oh yeah and did I also mention the fact that we had NO AIR CONDITIONING!!
lol it was worth it though I was up late talking to some of my favorite people in the world Jimmy Danielle and Evan what more does a girl need from midnight to 2am?
THENNN...I took a much needed shower cleaned the goddamn house for all the goddamn people comming over on sunday.
Didn't go to the beach with jimmy...sounds like they never even made it there so no big loss.
didn't go to briana neil and jb's lil "get together" where ever that ended up taking place...wasn't in the partying mood really. And I woulda felt too weird goin to Alex's house.
ummmm got my eagle ette schedual for teh next 2 months its insane!! I'm going to die btw that and school AP exams finals.....arghghhgsdlgkjs
I'll prbly have to do captain auditions we find out who got nominated nxt week. If so I have to choreograph a dance which is hard to do under pressure.
I dont want a house full of jews on easter...I like Easter I like my chocolate bunnies and my peeps and my jelly beans i just want some fucking jelly beans and a big ham fuck passover and jewish traditions. Messin up my easter...psh Jimmy is going to come dressed as Hitler on a skate board and park every1's cars and danielle is going to come dressed as the easter bunny and serve my ham and other non kosher things...
Amanda is Big Mama and I am Roxy...don't fuck with my Pimpess...she's gunna bring me a chocolate bunny so I shut up : )
I like making heather laugh...
Jessica can slice dice and knit your sweaters all in one easy motion....don't ask buy the Jessica today
oh yes for those of u who have friends taking dance and wanna see them the dance show is friday and saturday next week I think 7:00?? not sure tickets are $10 you can just ask NE1 in teh dance dept. to get em for u but I think they sell @ the door too. w/e just fyi
lalalalala boreddd john thinks i'm high...midnight really is a high...I love midnight mmm danielle heather and john...more of my favoritist people must go converse...
~c'mon get happyyy!~
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2004 8 April :: 11.27 pm
:: Music: 3 doors down-Away from the sun
candy bars and fast food are no way to be on a diet...I have the self control of a dog in heat
speaking of dogs in heat lol...
Can I just say that I love so many things...I love movies, I even love shitty movies, I love boys omg do I love boys, and I love how their arms feel around your waist and I love kissing...they should make it an official hobby
Nothing feels more right and safe than being held and kissed and happy you have no idea.
right so...went to see Starsky and Hutch with Evan the movie was ok I guess I wasn't really paying attention. ; )
We chilled outside until my dad came...which is retarded cuz he coulda just taken me home but w/e Jimmy called while we were sitting there I shouldnt have answered I forgot that Jimmy is a sore subject with Evan.
Got McDonalds on the way home after trying pollo tropical and the mcdonalds drive thru we had to go inside cuz ppl are very slow at 10:30 @ nite...lol sat eating a quarter pounder and a bigass cafinated coke @ 11 when I have to get up @ 7 2morrow...called Jimmy back all wired had a nice long conversation with him until he got too tired to take it....why can't anybody stay up when I need them? lol
I have practice at 8 2morrow morning and i'm so awake and my bed has clothes all over it so thers no sleeping until I get motivated to clean it. I still havn't taken my makeup off im so AWAKE!!! aresjkdfnaenfjk
tomorrow's gunna be a happy day just cause I have tonights memories to get me thru the shittiness...idk evan will most likely do something to confuse me as to where we stand lyk...2morrow or sometime soon just cuz that's what we do...but I can be happy for now.
*sigh* @ least danielle is up I need human contact right now...I COULD wake up John but he'd probably cry in the morning.
trips down memory lane are fun...
midnight can be a high in itself...
I love everyone
~Jess~
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2004 7 April :: 9.34 pm
hahaha i broke them down! Jessica has a date tomorrow night. I'm happy happy happy. My dad still thinks Evan is going to rape me tho so he wont let him drive...o well he'll get over it soon enough. Even my mom thinks hes being ridiculous. His truck is way to small for anyone to have sex in in it anyway...
umm wat else...tryin gto get a job at american eagle this summer my dad knows the district manager. $$$
I convinced myself I had mono...then I convinced danielle she had it...lol even jimmy said i had him wondering...my paranoia is contagious
took my makeup chem quiz since I failled the last one....we'll see chemistry is the bane of my existence.
im sooooooo soooooo sry danielle and heather I can't go out on friday my mom is starting to obsess over the briss and all the ppl comming she needs me to help clean and get the house ready. u guys go out and have crazy wild fun i'll be there next time.
danielle u do not have mono and u r healthy as an ox if u r not at school I will come over and poison your chicken soup...
im happy...nobody talk to me you will probably just mess it up
~I Love Everything~
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2004 7 April :: 6.35 pm
Who is keeping their journal? I could always move it format and all to livelog with my private one I guess but I lyk woohu. Idk I think Briana has a pretty good idea if every1 else stays i will cuz its really not worth it if all my friends arent on the same page. Half teh fun of these is keeping up with everyone elses buisness.
Speaking of friends....had an interesting convo with logan. Explained the difference between a friend and an aquaintence and what category he falls under...think I offended him a bit...im crying on the inside...really.
I HATE MY PARENTS! they make things so complicated it's ridiculous. I can't go out thursday nite cuz my mom didnt wanna pick me up late when shes gotta work in the morning. ok so I find a way around that u drop me off at the movies Evan will drive me home problem solved. But noo she has to sit up and wait for me to come home so it still wont work. wtf Im not 4 i'd prbly be home by 10:30 how early do u need to go to sleep?!
So i guess we're trying for friday but we both already kinda have plans on friday we need to work around....why does god not want me to see him? Why does my mother make my life so difficult. She bitxhes when i stay home that I need to get out of her face and find friends to hang out with....when I try and go out I end up having to change every1's plans lyk 40 times and having this fuckin complicated strategy. It's almost not worth the effort to have a social life. This shouldnt e so hard when I have friends willing to drive me everywhere idk how she manages. ugh! im just venting sorry jesus christ do I need a car.
well I have more to say but ill say it later
~Jess~
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2004 6 April :: 5.40 pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Big Shot-Billy Joel
hmm hmm news news nothing to say Danielle wasn't at school today missed my chub mucho.
I saw a fox in the annex today just chillen behin da bush. It was so cool...wanted to take it home and name it foxy...
Slept thru english, (I love how I bring nothing to class and sleep as soon as she starts talking and I'm the only one who doesnt get yelled at for it)...marked all my dances in 2nd hour because I was too tired and pissy to cooperate and do them full out.
Slept thru spanish (I don;t even think mrs. french can blame me for that) got a 48/50 on a spanish quiz got a 91% on my stats test yesterday I was happy cuz I did it all on my own. Chemistry was a lost cause played with janyll's calculator turned in another quiz practically blank (I have to retake the last one I failed tomorrow)
I just couldnt pay attention I had too much on my mind. Planned Parenthood (seems worth consdiering), school, dance show, captain auditions, choreography, officer interviews, friends, guys, dieting
Jessica is back on a diet...i'm running conditioning for Eagle-Ettes this summer no matter what position I get just because no one else will. But yeah I think my depression is becoming linked to the scale or how tight my favorite jeans get everyday. Then when i'm depressed I eat and it's a whole vicious cycle...we're going to fix this starting now.
I'm supposedly geting out of health tomorrow to learn some extra choreography with britney. Dicillo said she needed some strong jumpers to do a duet/backup thing in the Billy Joel medly with Dorianna's solo. That means just a lot of leaping, and that's what we live for lol. My mom'll be happy she likes seeing me on stage as much as possible. After 12 years of paying for studio and costumes and competition and trips she's earned w/e makes her happy I guess.
yeah so came home...refrained from eating, went online, updated livelog, picked a fight with Evan (god knows why), checked maddox's page called my mom, now I'm here updating woohu.
oh yeah my mom got in a car accident yesterday...sum guy hit her at a red light. She's ok though. Just a little whiplash I think. The guy's car was way more fucked up than ours we barely got a dent.
Dane Cook has a whole buncha jokes about accidents...i'll have to play them for her later.
what an incredibly boring entry...you all have no clue what I'm talking about
eh if your dissapointed....
no I really don't care don't read
~2 more days~
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2004 3 April :: 5.53 pm
:: Mood: happy
today made up for last night so much. lol danielel and i were stitting at home online discussing r pathetic lives then john came on and told me about his equally shitty night. So i had him call me cuz i was hyper and needed human contact. lol ended up keeping him on the fone till 2am and he does not enjoy staying up late.
So I promised him we'd spend the day together it was....interesting
lol started off going to the mall to buy him clothes I want to be a personal shopper I have so much fun dressing up guys. lol he wasn't ready for the ribbed polo shirt but it did look good. I need to stop watching TLC all i wanna do now is redecorate every1s house and give the world a makeover. John also picked out sum clothes for me...he wouldnt do well as a personal shopper.
From there we headed over to Barnes and Noble becuz john was absolutely amazed at the fact that I read....ya not getting in2 the insulting nature of that comment, but it was really nice we wandered around and got coffee. Then we headed over to the pet store to look @ all the doggies.
lol on the way back john was again amazed that there were 3 publixes in a row practically by my house so we HAD to visit one of them. lol so odd. then we ended up back in my neighborhood just chillen by the park. wat a random day...
*Sigh* i just added more to this entry but i guess i shall add it again....
ok so after i got home my mom and i went out to dinner at olive garden where r waiter was gorgeous (tho i couldnt understand a word he said) we talked and bonded etc.. then we went to target cuz i we needed a few things and i finally spent my $15 gift certificate from fcat on a cd.
ok...i am going to have 20 jews in my house on easter fricken sunday. lol my aunt had her baby last nite...Brett Tyler Rosenburg 7ibs 12 ounces. hes the first relative that ive met that i was there when he was born. i dont have any first cousins on the side of the family that we still speak to (yes i know lots of bad blood and dysfunction there). but uhh yeah my aunts husband just happens to be a superjew my moms family is barely jewish at all and my dad is fricken catholic...but we r having the kids briss at r house on easter sunday. For those of u who dont know a briss is a ceremony for a circumcision. I think its sick if u ask me...only the jews would have a fricken party for such a morbid event (no offense 2 NE1)
yeahh so if u havnt noticed or cared im back on woohu lol its been...a few days? but yeah i made another journal for all the dark/private stuff adn all this everyday boring crap can be saved for woohu. Thank you tho to the people who helped me get through that low point it's good to know that I still have people there for me like that. And I also have foundout some things about my friends that just makes me want to reach out to them like crazy. We are ALL having issues and hardships at home with ourselves etc and just no that you are as far as possible from being alone. We all have are highs and lows and we all need somebody to talk to. So don't hold it inside. I know I don't seem like it but if anyone ever needs to talk im here to listen and give advice if needed (lol ask heather bout my psychotherapy). So remember we're all gunna make it through so don't give up on love life or happiness and don't listen to the negative. Just smile
~Have a beautiful weekend~
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2004 31 March :: 7.08 pm
im in a bad bad place right now...i havnt been this depressed in a very long time and no it is not because of anyone or any specific thing it is simply because i hate myself so intensely that i can't stand to exist within my own skin. I want to just crawl out of myself and get as far away from me as possible. Each time i open my eyes I hate sight and senses and i want to hide in the dark where I don't have to look at everything...I don't want to see all the colors.
I wanted to cry today when I heard my mom talking about my aunts unborn baby because no child deserves to be brought into this world. I wouldnt wish life on anyone right now. My dads store is closing and it doesnt sound like he got the transfer job he wanted. He has been looking at job postings in virginia and other states but my mom shut that down as soon as he mentioned it. now im not so sure tho could i even move...really what is keeping me here? nothing nobody.everything my mother says to me these days is negative...how i fucked everything up how i need to stop eating how terrible i look....and to think even before all this happened I laid under the covers for hours when I got home just wanting to die and no not figureatively I wanted somebody to come over a stab me until all the life bled out....im not over it i spend every second further realizing that i have nowhere to run but straight into the ground.
im sorry i know that nobody needs to hear this nobody cares nor have they in the past nor should they...so i made a new journal on a different site for all of this you all wont have to hear from me again until i have regained my faith and my sanity until i have found somebody i trust because i dont i trust nothing...ill be back when i want to live again...
I won't be back for a while
Jess
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2004 30 March :: 10.38 pm
:: Mood: fine
alrite every1 i'm not explaining what happened today....it's idk beneath me and all of us (or it should be anyway) so here you go this should explain everything...
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:44:13 PM): jessica...
MisScarlet219 (9:44:49 PM): yeah
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:45:53 PM): i'm sry. i just told them the val's party story. and wutever they got out of it... idk
MisScarlet219 (9:46:33 PM): alrite
MisScarlet219 (9:47:04 PM): all i find amazing is that it makes me such a slut and ally is an angel
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:47:12 PM): no, it's not alright, will u like bitch at me or somethin?
MisScarlet219 (9:47:17 PM): ok
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:47:24 PM): they know shit about ally...
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:47:54 PM): how she isn't exactly innocent.
MisScarlet219 (9:48:26 PM): yeah well everyone who was there....
MisScarlet219 (9:48:39 PM): avi hasnt gotten NEthing since allison which means never
MisScarlet219 (9:48:48 PM): jb hasnt had a gf since danielle in middle school
MisScarlet219 (9:49:05 PM): steven is so pathetic he has to make up hookups with grl who are too good for him
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:49:17 PM): lma o thats wut i found out
MisScarlet219 (9:49:27 PM): anand is the one who tried to kiss my ass by telling me
MisScarlet219 (9:49:35 PM): hes also not gotten any in a long time if ever
MisScarlet219 (9:49:38 PM): and u and i
MisScarlet219 (9:49:41 PM): were never close
MisScarlet219 (9:49:46 PM): so it didnt bother me too much
MisScarlet219 (9:49:58 PM): but u apolgized and that means something so ill accept it
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:51:38 PM): well the thing is i've always wanted to hang with u, danielle, and ashley.. that click, but i never had classes with u and wut not, and then u and ashley wound up in that big fight that i was told about...
MisScarlet219 (9:54:57 PM): another reason i really didnt need that today but thats besides the point
MisScarlet219 (9:55:45 PM): i never thought u were interested in being friends with me im not sure how this is gunna change it but idk im not upset or NEthing so u dont have to feel guilty NEmore...
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so that is that...and yes everything about all of those guys is true therefore their opinions are not only meaningless but pretty goddamn funny...and it's good to know that some people are mature enough to own up to thier mistakes. lol I thought one fight at a time was enough did somebody bring back 6th grade without telling me?....it is amazing that people came up and confided this to me though most time people get trashed like that i dont think they hear about it. lol idk if i really needed to know or NEthing cuz it really doesnt affect my life whatsoever (though avi CAN write his own english paper w/out myhelp from now on) its just interesting...
god knows what the next 2 months will hold but hopefully the waters stay calm I know we are all dealing with enough personal shit to add this kinda drama to the mix.
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2004 30 March :: 4.36 pm
:: Mood: amused
wow you people never cease to amaze me with the shit you talk. Each day I find yet another person who is not worthy of existence. And no this one isnt a big deal it is for the most part people whose shallow and hypocritical characters I have been aware of from the beginning but still...i am amused
before you talk shit I think it is a good idea to A. get ur facts str8 B. notice who is around and C. take a look at your self and think long and hard about what you are about to say
as much as talking about shit that is none of ur buisness raises ur confidence it doesnt change the essentials... such as how pathetic you truely are though you may feel otherwise
oh and just a reality slap to some people...not everybody loves you
and to that miniscule group of people who I care about unconditionally and who are true to me im sorry because I have a tendancy to abuse the ones I love...im working on it
other than that....people arent worth my time
~have a good day~
Jess
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2004 26 March :: 9.08 pm
:: Mood: great just fucking great
There is something so pathetically debilitating about depression I can't stand the feeling. It's like im a baby again and im crying in frustration because I don't know what the hell I want and I can't communicate. Only Im all grown up and I have no tears to waste for such pettyness but anger....now anger is a great feeling It gives you this adreneline surge and boosts you to the point where you could not only face the world but kick its ass. I love being angry it's like sum crazy high where I can shoot fire from my eyes. If you think you have ever seen me angry you don't know you wouldnt even get it.
But whatever i'm laughing im happy i'm crazy life is good I needed this to stop feeling sorry for myself. depressed jessica is a pathetic I think right now i'm somewhere around frightening, like the mental patient who smiles too much and never blinks.
moving on tonight what did I do....NOTHING we ordered italian and I ate a calzone that was not only disgusting but could have eaisly fed a small country of starving children. I feel gross but the gr8 thing about eating too much is that its nothing that can't be solved by a finger down your throat with the shower roaring in the backround to mask the sound. If only all mistakes could be purged so eaisly.
~Have a beautiful evening~
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2004 26 March :: 2.59 pm
:: Music: maroon 5
no one sees me cry...I save my tears for darker places
I feel like a disease like I should be quarentined. Im good for nothing and no one. Im a walking contradiction I'm a liar and a cheater and a hypocrite what right do I have to convince myself otherwise. No degree of guilty conscience or denial can blind me to this truth.
Stay away from me I don't want to infect you
I build shields of pain around my heart. This hardening of emotion has made me invincible and untouchable im a walking suit of armor with nothing inside... just walk away. Im not worth the effort I require. Im crazy and i'll drag you down with me
~don't bother~
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2004 25 March :: 12.03 am
:: Mood: grrrr
:: Music: nada
ahh this is going to be a long entry
Just got home from the movies and my mom had to be so goddamn annoying I swear if i dont print out a detailed itinerary of where Im going and what im doign at specific times she freaks. I was home by 11:18 sue me.
well didnt do NEthing special went to the delray movies w/john and uhhh nick warren? w/e he was just kinda there he left us alone for the most part. We also had to pick up johns brother's extreamly annoying friends lol his brother hates me tho so I guess it's even. We ended up seeing Dawn of the Dead which I seemed to find hilarious while john was cowering in fear. then we just went to wendys and got rid of nick and chilled in his car until we had to leave. The weirdest thing was running in2 amanda and then her callin me to tell me armando was there too. lol I had manda call my mom and tell her i wasnt doing NEthing illegal cuz I could tell she was pissed we didnt come straight home.
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ok well the cruise...kinda sucked idk i need to go back without school I could have gotten anything i wanted it was ridiculous but i was a good little officer and set an example lmao. yeah so the show went pretty bad overall but it was alrite considering barely NE1 was there. We couldnt dock at cocoa cay cuz of the weather so we ended up only docking @ nassau. I went to the beach and shopping and Inna and I rented a wave runner which was pretty cool...id never driven one before. I decided I wanted one even if I had to sumhow use it on dry land lol. A lot of ppl got motion sickness on the boat tho which sucked brittney ended up having to go to the clinic and get hooked up on an IV it was crazy.
lol I only ended up talking to one guy with liz's help lol his name was larry and hes from miami and he runs track and hes 17 (as am i *wink*) lol Liz helped me chase him down and stalk him for a while and got a convo started lol so I have her to thank. The conversation started going nowhere tho and liz tried to leave and he ended up going off to find his cousin (or so he said) so o well. he was pretty hott tho lyk spanish looking dark hair pretty eyes tall and nice enough I never have the courage to talk to random guys so I was happy with my accomplishment.
lol the funniest thing that happened i think was when they closed the hottub on us we had the brilliant plan to use the tub in jeana's parents state room since it had jets. Now her parents had THE biggest room on the ship but their bathtub was a pretty average sized bathtub lol yes we still managed to jam 4 of us in there in the oddest position and we stayed there until her parents came home and walked in and just laughed @ us...lol ill have pictures of that soon enough.
ok well I think thats enough for now hope everyone's spring break is awesome
~much luv~
Jess
**oh one more tidbit ash called me from tallahassee last nite it seems they already found a house. I guess shes really moving**
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2004 19 March :: 9.03 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: smile empty soul
lalalala I want to go already!!
bleh i overestimated how much time i needed this morning so Im awake and waiting to leave for school so i can wait for the bus to come so it can take us to miami so we can get on r cruise so we can go to the BAHAMAS!!
actually im not as excited as i was to go to NY but im hoping to relax and not worry abotu NEthing. The show is kind of a stressor but after that is over im jus chillen Im not gunna get pissed @ NE1 or make a big deal about NEthing just go w/the flow.....lol and hopefully get sum semblance of a tan. maybe? please?
well ill be home on monday so call me and wel shall chill. my mom said im working off my expensive spa manicure/pedicure and my new clothes when i get back and I have so much fuckin english hw its ridiculous but shhh no we r not thinking of that rite now.
god i hope i didnt forget NEthing lol im so overpacked i'm going to have to change 10 times a day to justify bringing all those clothes.
hope danielle and christina r havin an awesome time in cali and danielle better not 4get to bring ryan home to me!!! lol <3
ash is goin to tallahasse to look @ houses but shes lyk leaving rite as i get back : (
Jimmy is in canada cuz he is a little bitch lol I wanna know how he gets every1 to take him on cool vacations
haha stats was so funny yesterday w/JB and dr baum having their fight @ the end of class
she took id hat and threw it out the window and shariff ran downstairs to get it b4 he did then dr baum locked him out. lol im gunna miss her nxt yr.
well not really much else to say I shall see you all when i return...
~Me Recuerda~
Jess
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2004 12 March :: 7.10 pm
:: Mood: pissed...ish
:: Music: Eve Six
and here I am again...
Could be @ Scott's 2nite w/every1 else but...nope of course not cuz jessica has hw and jessica is already goin out on saturday and jessica is so untrustworthy she will prbly just drink and smoke and have sex and get pregnant and go to jail all cuz she wanted to chill w/her friends....ok well that last part isnt entirely untrue but my parents still definately suck!!
yeah well hope every1 has fun I miss r old group from last year sumtimes when we used to hang out @ the "tree" remember those days? *sigh*
ok well last nite was NHS induction lol it was the proudest moment of my life lemmie tell u. lol thank god i was in between john and daniellle the whole night it made things so much more interesting. omg it was so boring lol john and i spent the whole time making sarcastic comments about everything especially the speaker...it was sum shrink guy who looked lyk abe lincoln on crack lol we decided that if my parents ended up sending me to a shrink lyk that id turn out even more fucked up than i already am...lol turns out my mom has ot only known the guy for years but was seriously thinking of sending me to him. lmao
~Highlights~
*while lighting the candles*
"don't waste the lighter fluid lets just smoke a bowl instead this will be a lot more fun that way"
"maybe the smoke will set off the fire alarm and then the sprinklers will go off then we can all go streaking up on stage!!!"
every1 lookin so preeeetttyyyy!!!
lol robbie callin out in the middle of the auditorium...i feel so bad 4 that kid sumtimes
me tripping as I went to walk up on stage....lol as jimmy put it 'a typical jessica moment'
my mom commenting on how rude I was talking through the whole ceremony and how shamelessly I flirt
my dad commenting on my flirting technique?!
whoa crazy nights in nerdland i'm officially a part of their clut...got sworn in and everything
thats all for now
~much luv~
Jess
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ok idk how well it fits but it is pretty damn ironic...
You are SUMMER'S BOOBS.
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