hey hey yall,,, been plannin away for this freakin wedding.. life is good i guess certain people of the male gender are being dumb as usual. but of course all men are really dumb anyway right.
so tonights update involves weird dreams, sitting on my butt, and bowling.
there has been a battle in my head about various things in life, and afterlife, questioning my beliefs and such. I'm not sure what I believe right now, Almost like I'm scared to believe. weird isn't it?
Anyways, Tonight I sat around and pretty much did nothing, I talked to Erin and noc online and now i'm laying in bed, fuck i forgot my pushups and crunches, so i'll be doing those right after this entry.
I bowled tonight, Nothing great, a 144 was my high game :( we got raped tonight, everyone on the other team was bowling much much better than we we're. oh well, shit happens.
Erin's coming soon, I'm excited for that. Really really excited.
I need to find a new job soon, I want alot of stuff and I can't afford it driving pizza. Its just not worth my time to do it anymore :(
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2008 22 February :: 12.45am
:: Music: temple of the dog
i shot ten minutes of b-roll, and twenty minutes of interview today. so, nobody can say i'm slacking off. i have a com midterm tomorrow at two. filming some more b-roll from 3 to 5. not sure what's happening after that. possibly another interview.
saturday morning i have the studio from 8 to 10, so stewart can come in and lay down some phat bass grooves. midday might do some more interview action. and in the evening, kevin requested my company doing god-knows-what.
sunday i planned on doing church, lifting, maybe a movie, and then making up a bunch of shit for that scriptwriting assignment i wrote about last time. i also have an article due monday by two, so that might happen sunday night as well.
it looks pretty when i say it like that. very neat and orderly. everything fits.
however, reality is very very different. reality includes all the stuff i know about but didn't add to the schedule. it also includes all of the unfortunate (and sometimes fortunate) random shit that i'll never see coming, no matter how hard i try.
i don't know which i'd prefer, the reality as it is now, or the reality as it would be if it followed the paper exactly. the paper would be boring, but i feel like i'd be much more productive and much less stressed out. and i wouldn't feel as guilty about forgetting people (since it wouldn't happen) and i would never have to deal with the trauma of "picking favorites" (regardless of whether they're actually favorites, or just necessary damage control).
meh. life treats me well though. far better than i deserve. i just hope to god there's a light at the end of the tunnel. because, it feels like there is, but that it's never going to come. as we all know, light moves faster than i do, so i have zero chance to ever catch up with that shit. none whatsoever.
but i guess i'm supposed to be okay with that.
thanks once again, mr. j. for letting me bitch into you, and for having you not judge me. or even notice me at all, really. i appreciate that sometimes.
I went to pay my ticket and the envelope said it was $70 and 3 points, I get there and the lady tell me its going to be $80 because they raised the prices.
Then i show up late to work because i was at the court house longer, Bill was opening today, for those of you that don't work at hungry howies, bill is the district manager, He wasn' t pissed thank god.
I had to close with him tonight though, we had the entire place ready to close at 8:30, I was impressed with how he did stuff.
I get home, played some Q3 with the rabid-duck crew.
Now my arms and abs are sore from the pushups and crunches i just did.
It feels good.
i'm completely overwhelmed by this assignment. i think it's really cruel to make us go right into writing a full-on script. i have NO ideas. none! i like documentaries, because you can just find something to observe, and then manipulate what you see into something artistic. i like working with small groups of people, where you collaborate and build on each other's ideas. not like this. i'm so small and alone and insignificant and inexperienced. i suck at writing scripts, because - while i am good at writing, at least in certain ways - all of those qualities are things that don't make a damn bit of difference in scriptwriting. i have NEVER done theater, whether writing or performance. my short stories have all been bad - with some good parts in there - but as a whole, bad. and i understand that the point of the class is to get better at it. but i don't see how you're going to get better when you're bogged down and stressed out and completely nonplussed. i mean, i can look at a script, once it's written, and probably pick out some of the things that are good and some of the things that are bad. but in the process of writing it, i'm so lost in the formatting and the coming up with any ideas - anything at all - that i have no attention span left for critical analysis.
i'm just pissed.
calm down chris. you're okay. you're going to the studio tomorrow night, and it will be beautiful. you're done for the day, you only have one class tomorrow. it'll all be just fine. quit being a fucktard, and just enjoy it.
the one time i forget to copy my text before i submit, is always the time the whole entry gets deleted.
anyway, kevin:
dad's getting a band together. i want you to come try out. i will get you more information as soon as it's available. even if it's only for the summer, it'd still be fun.
also, i'm going to try applying for my passport this week. wish me luck.
"Altos we can’t hear you. We need more sound from the altos. Altos you were flat. Altos count right.....altos, altos, altos."
wtf dude? There are three other voice parts you can be picking on in Opera rehearsal, not just us. I don’t even sing alto, only for this opera, and I'm still singing louder then the three other alto girls.
I don’t know, maybe its hard to hear the altos because there are twice as many sopranos?? Or maybe, just maybe its because the low register does not carry like the high one? Could it be that the sopranos high B's are going to cover up and altos middle C?? And lastly, could it be that alto is the only part you have ever sung, and that you don’t know how to properly critique the sopranos?
Uhh. Frustration. I have never been yelled at so much for singing in my life.
So I just received this very awkward and creepy message on myspace that I thought I would share with you!
I'm Joel, 5'11', very fit with exceptional blue eyes. I own a law firm and enjoy helping the public. From your profile it is obvious that you have an electric personality, that you have a big heart and that you are intelligent. I love traveling, shopping, cooking, music, movies, working out and the outdoors. What do you do for fun? Where would you most like to visit? Do you agree with me that any relationship is based on friendship, communication and honesty? Australia is one of my favorite destinations. You look amazing and I look forward to hearing from you. Nothing ventured nothing gained. I don't have a photo posted because my firm advertises on TV. I'm 5'11' and work out daily. When you tire of meeting losers at the bar give me a ring. I have never been married and have no children. I'm 36 and reside in lansing and Bloomfield Hills. Chivalry is my middle name and I am moving to your area very soon. I have a villa in Palm Beach so if you love the sun let me know. You can reach me at 517-449-5723.
There was no friend request, just a message..
And when I viewed his profile, there's nothing on it. No friends other than Tom, no pictures, or info.