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2003 26 October :: 11.45pm
tori says i don't update enough...
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2003 26 October :: 11.45pm
tori says i don't update enough...
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2003 26 October :: 11.45pm
tori says i don't update enough...
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2003 26 October :: 11.44pm
tori says i don't update enough...
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2003 26 October :: 6.32pm
:: Mood: amused
ok, so tori wanted to see the entry, so here.
"As my ashes fall in her field of paper flowers, maybe..... ah fuck, i don't know, i had a vision today, and it was failry plesent... well, yeah, i think i scare her...(i'm not telling you this part)... so yeah, my mom still isn't over me cutting myself..."
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2003 26 October :: 10.48am
:: Mood: rushed
:: Music: timer music on the FFVII CD alex gave me.
shitty lay out
hey people look, i know it's ugly at the moment but i don't have time to fix it right now, so when i get a chance i will, m'kay???
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2003 26 October :: 10.32am
:: Mood: sad
GIVE ME EMO!!!
it has been a long time since anyone posted a commment...:-(
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2003 26 October :: 12.18am
:: Mood: Crushed
i wish i could be watching those movies with tori........ yeah, a little kid for a moment, wouldn't that be great? yeah, yeah it would........*sighs*..............
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2003 26 October :: 12.15am
:: Music: Mr.bojangles
"Living in the past is like driving and only ever looking in the rear view mirror, you're going to crash"-Madleine Lee Mahugh. well, I know deep inside that this is going to turn out OK, some how, some day this is over. The only thing i won't let end is my love for Tori, i hope she feels the same way...
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2003 26 October :: 12.12am
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Mr. Bojangles
"when the world crumbles and falls away, will you still be there for me?"
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2003 26 October :: 12.09am
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: Whiteflag
I hear tori talk about suicide and it scares the shit out of me because i know that she really is capable of it. i feel like i should be doing something about it, but what can i do? i feel almost like i'm not being good enough for her...... I told her i loved her at the movie, and on the bus, i think i'm creeping her out...
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2003 25 October :: 10.26pm
i saw alex's face in the movie theater, and i almost cried. i feel so wreched, but i think about it and realize i've done nothing wrong, i just feel guilty. i know she loves me, and i know she's really not happy for me and tori. i know it's eating her away, but what can i do? swallow my love for tori and curl up in some corner and die? some times i think that's what she wants...
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2003 25 October :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: calm
I deleted the entries about madeline. Tori and Morgan cried when i told them. they really are the closest friends i have. my mom asked me why i hang out with girls and not guys, and i told her most guys piss me off. they do. i get so sick of them... well, yeah, my dad told me today that i have proved that i am no longer a boy, but a man. i find that strange. what have i done that's so manly? i told madeline she needed to get some one to help her, but what does that prove? why is he so convinced that i've become an adult at heart? hmm... he really is a strange man.
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2003 25 October :: 7.46am
:: Mood: tired, and annoyed
:: Music: silence
i can't sleep. damnit
it's 7:30 in the morning, and i'm wide awake. what the hell? it's the weekend, i should be sleeping in. but nooo.. not me. not jena.
so much stuff has been going on.. actually just to much to write about. but i'll write a little about a couple.
we did go to georges interview on wednesday. the town is called sunbury. the houses are beautiful.. i think beautiful might be to dull of a word. we'll know by the begining of this week if george got the job, and if we will have to move.
jim and i.. lets see. to much to write about. so much going on. and just so much i don't even want to talk about.
the little town parade is today. aww. i'm not going. jim has to work.. i don't like going anywhere without him. so oh well.
andyfest is sunday. [it's like a little benifit concert with all kind of bands, because this little boy got hit by a truck and died.. and every year his family does this.] it's like hard rock, and heavy metal kinda music. it's definitly awsome. so i hope jim can get off work for that.. but if he can't, that's one thing that i'll go to no matter what.
i guess i don't really have anything else to write..
oh, i've been thinking about making my journal a friends only journal. only because i know some people that i don't like read it. =)
..but i'm not sure yet what i'm going to do.
i love you jim.
xx.jena
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2003 25 October :: 2.27am
:: Mood: awake
the hippies are fileing out, so yeah, i will be rid of them soon. but i think i'm getting off the computer for the night, but yeah, feel free to call if you can't sleep or something because i probably won't be asleep until one or so.
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2003 25 October :: 2.25am
for those of you crazy enough to call, go right ahead, and tori i actually need to talk to you about tomorrow and times and our scheduel and stuff so if you could call that's be totally possum, so yeah, thanks.
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2003 25 October :: 1.50am
well that didn't work for the picture anyway, and i'm going to go hang out in my room and listen to music but i'll probably be on later, and my sister currently has the phone, but will be off eventually.
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2003 25 October :: 1.48am
:: Mood: accomplished
ok then, i'm a nazi computer genious.
You're Grant
Congratulations. You're Grant. The Koolplace site nazi, and resident computer genius. Wear this comparison with pride my friend, for Grant is yet to do something really stupid. Watch your temper though, because you're probably prone to random mood swings. Now go get me a ripped copy of Photoshop 6.0!
Some interesting facts
Out of the 25492 people who have taken this test
43% are grant
7% are ed
41% are mike
6% are bob saget
I'm Grant, who are you?
Take the test :: koolplace.com
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2003 25 October :: 1.36am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: hell's national anthem, me.
oh yes, i am satan, i feel so proud, and i would like to thank all the people that made this possible. *whips away tear* ... i love you america! NOW EAT MY NUKES, FUCKERS!!! *large mushroom clouds in backround, starts singing the badger song *
well, yeah, that was fun.
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2003 25 October :: 1.34am
72% evil 28% good
Hell is your destiny.
72% evil 28% good
Put this on your site
Copy the code below into your pages.
On the test..
Out of the 442993 people who have taken this test
19% hibernate in winter
15% are perverted
28% enjoy going on murderous rampages
27% think they are god
13% cause car crashes on purpose
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2003 25 October :: 1.11am
:: Music: Mr. Bojangles, Yohan Anderson
Tori, breaker of cycles.
mmm, cookies, no wait, i think i shall explode, tori... so i'll sit here, thinking about tori, get bored and go listen to the hippies play Mr. Bojangles (I fear as to what the inspiration for that song was) and then i'll get bored, come back up here, the i'll get bored and go sit in my sister's room and molest her sheets, and then get bored and go to bed, or maybe tori will call somewhere within that cycle and i'll talk to her. i love her...
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2003 25 October :: 1.01am
:: Mood: artstic
:: Music: mrs. robinson, Simon and Garfunkle
well that matches a little better. i kinda like it though i still need a more purplish or blueish white to go with the pictures outer space.
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2003 25 October :: 12.49am
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: In your vain - MM (maralyn manson)
purpose
I feel like practicing Tony, but there are all the hypies down stairs... i'm glad tori called. i was scared i had done something wrong. at the begging of the phone call she sounded a little depressed or pissed or something, but after a while she sounded alot happier. she is my purpose. protect her young one. i will. i know that she'll never fit in this world. it's systems and problems just don't work in her mind. they don't in mine either, but i can deal with them. they rip her apart. i love her so much, i'll keep her forever, but yeah, i have to fight for that. but i'm not afraid. i'm not afraid of anything but maybe madeline commiting suicide. that always scares me...
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2003 25 October :: 12.28am
this is a government weapons test, fear not, it will only hurt for the short moment in which the flames pass over you. then you will die almost instantly.
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2003 24 October :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: aggravated
you are all so dear to me, all of you, and you are all more than good enough. don't ever think you're not.
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2003 24 October :: 9.31pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: path, apocalyptica
well, i never said you were ready, but i know you need it. look into my eyes and try with all your might to see what is really in them. then you might understand what i can't bring myself to tell you.
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2003 24 October :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: This zeplin song on the radio.
I want to give you the world. i want to put it on a chain and fasten it around your neck, but unfortunatly i can't do that. although, i can gove you my world, my little world. my heart. so see that charm around your neck that way. it's my world on a chain, ment for no other but you.
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2003 24 October :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: fearless
:: Music: Chrome butterfly
Love
Fate forged me.
purpose sent me.
hate loaths me.
fear fears me.
pain feels me.
feeling is in me.
happiness and sorrow follow me.
who am i?
i am love.
and i have blessed you.
hold her close.
this is your purpose young one.
save her from the world she can't belong in.
i am as old as emotion.
and never have i seen your determination matched.
hold her close.
never let go.
fate forged me.
purpose sent me.
i am love.
you are safe within me.
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2003 24 October :: 9.12pm
ah fuck that's not right
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2003 23 October :: 2.33am
:: Mood: relaxed
sorry. i sort of popped there. i know what needs to be done, and forgive my ingnorance, and accept my apologies. i get afraid sometimes. i know what's going on, but i'm so sick of the ashes. i'm so sick of the poisinous fumes that are emitted from them. yet i stood it for five years, and i doubt if another while will do much more to me. i have to go to bed, but i'll see you all tomorow. *hugs*
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