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2 you constantly make it impossible to | make conversation

:: 2005 3 August :: 2.28pm
:: Mood: anxious

I'm going to get my drivers lisencse [sp?].. wish me luck. Blah.

4 you constantly make it impossible to | make conversation

:: 2005 29 July :: 7.19pm
:: Mood: blah

NEW PICTURES.. FINIALLY!!

click on "New Pictures" there's a new picture of her.. :-P

4 you constantly make it impossible to | make conversation

:: 2005 25 July :: 10.13pm

im on keegans laptop... hes in the shower... oh the damage i could do right now... mwah ha ha.

today we had our red flannel pictures done at aspen... its so sad because it makes the end seem so final. the truth is, it'll never end. the memories, and friendship, and sisterhood will never fully go away. and i'll always look back at this past year and be in awe of the amazing experience the 5 of us had.

i've been gathering all my senior picture clothes. greg.... one of the photographers told me to bring my whole closet... i told him he shouldnt have said that! i hope they turn out good... if any of you still need to get your pictures done, or know anybody who's looking to get professional pics done like wedding, family, whatever... let me know so i can get them some discouts at studio 630.

"yesterday wasnt good"
hmph speak for yourself.

anyways.... off i go... keegans back.

stacy i love you. i stopped in to see you.. and ended up talking to your parents for like 10 minutes... i've missed them. and your house. and your wonderful drawer. and the spray butter on the pop corn. and those goofy little hampster things. and the dead bunny. and sleeping out on your tent until it started raining. and porch communicating. and craving arbys late at night at wonderfully having a way to get it. and sitting around your house all day waiting for SOMEONE to bring us to the mall. but most of all... i just miss you. and the long talks we always seem to have. DB4L... i am ALWAYS here whenever you need me ok? you have my number and i have a wonderful ringtone for you on my cell phone. i wanna HEAR it damn it! lets get together soon. with or without the boys.... lets just get together!

ok... hamburgers are calling my name... keegan made them for me with one arm.. poor doll.

night.

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:: 2005 24 July :: 8.17pm
:: Mood: blah

So I've been spending a lot of money lately. I went up to the Grove City outlets and spent $498.87. I got all kinda cute things from Pac Sun, Rue 21, The Gap, and American Eagle. So I'm happy. I still need to get a few more things though..

Yes, I really do have a lot of money. Yes, I'm rich. Yes yes yes. Muahahaaaa.

..seriously.

:: 2005 22 July :: 2.24am

idiot

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:: 2005 15 July :: 7.27pm

trouble in paradise? not even close.

its so nice being able to handle our arguments as adults... there is NOTHING we cant work through, because thats just how we are. i fight with him like he's my brother... most of the time its only because i care so much about the decisions he makes, and he guards and protects me like a little sister... and from time to time gives me a little tough love so i can figure out on my own what exactly it is that i want... but more than that we're best friends.. which keeps everything running soooo smoothly. only THEN can i say we're dating... because everything else comes first. hes my best friend before anything... and thats such an amazing thing.

central air is a beautiful thing.

:: 2005 13 July :: 11.56am

i'm meeting some more of my family on saturday... what an odd thing to say..... seems to me its been an overdue meeting.. but whatever, ya gotta start somewhere.

alyssas comming over after work tonight... we're gonna be all girly and figure out what i should where for my senior pictures... she was a model last for the photography place that i'm gonna be modeling for.. i go in saturday morning to get all the information... alyssa said she saved hundreds on her senior pictures, so im really excited.

i cant go to blues cuz i have to work, and theres no way im gonna drive down there and get lost downtown and then walk by myself to where they break dance..... but next wednesday....

i really need to concentrate on losing some of the roundness of my face, and belly, and legs.... .blahhhh... now isnt the time for a self-meltdown. ahh well... people always tell me how cute my cheeks are.. maybe i should start believing them... riiight.

it kindof sucks to know that she left me in the dark about this... i dont understand her. things used to be..... well hmmm, i shouldnt get into it.. because obviously things will never be the same, we will never be us again, and sometime in our far future, occasional cards at christmas will recap some of the memories that we'll neglect to recall otherwise.

i got my hair highlighted... nobody ever takes my advice.. but seriously go to Colleen at Xscape salon in rockford, she's the only person i'll go to for my hair and its SUPER affordable. i get two colors done in my hair all throughout.. not just on top and it only costs me about 45-50 dollars... and my hair is almost as long as my back... GO THERE!

yay for keegan getting a job at logans! im so excited for him.. now he works at our restaurant! woohu!

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yadiffy04

:: 2005 12 July :: 8.44am

Well, this kinda sux, its been an eventful weekend, but int in the best way, my friends Aubrey, Wade, and Morgan are gone till the 22, and then Im leaving for a week on the 23, so we dont get to hang out. My Aunt had appendicidus, my bro had to get 9 stiches in his hand, and I had surgery on my foot.....So it really sux, Im done with updating now, my foot hurts too much.

Peace

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:: 2005 12 July :: 2.32am

me and keegan had a bonfire tonight... just the two of us.

we ran into town and got stuff to make smores, and it was dark so we had the whole "camping" experience goin on.... it was wonderfull.

i do believe that im becomming obsessed with pigs in a blanket.. keegans mom makes them all the time *for me...te he he* and im gonna become the name of the little piggys... or perhaps just that.. a little piggy. *giggles and wrinkles nose up all cute-like

:: 2005 9 July :: 11.22am

im getting my hair highlighted today... i went tanning last night..... im like geeeeze whats getting in to me!?

must be the senior pictures.

:: 2005 8 July :: 2.22pm

we got alot accomplished today.

im watching shelby... on top of everything else....

buuutttt..... keegan came over this morning and the three of us watched scooby doo... and then he mowed our front yard.. which is a PRETTY big front yard, i cleaned my room and bathroom, organized my red flannel box, made lunch on the grill, and keegan just brought our screen door in to be fixed... now i have to drop shelby off at her babysitters, go to work, and then tan so i can be nice and dark for my senior pictures..

ahh... we're almost seniors....

i think i have this disease where i cant stop spending money at abercrombie and hollister... its terrible... 100 dollars on 3 shirts... im sure thats not healthy!

mmm... but they DO look good.

well... i should probably clean up. im lookin pretty scary right about now.......

ohhhhh... me and keegan went to the lakes mall yesterday and then to grand haven.. it was nice. the sun felt so good... so what if the water was to cold and even kind of hurt.... it was a good day.

:: 2005 7 July :: 12.37am

i went to blues tonight after my modeling consultation... it was pretty cool. they guys from 61syx are pretty awesome.. i still get nervous when keegan does flips.. esp when its on concrete and he's tryin some for the first time... but dammnn is it so cool!

i just got home... im grounded right now... so i guess my moms definition of grounded must be "be home by midnight" we'll have to slowly work back up to 2-3 in the next few days... laughs* being grounded isnt half bad.... i think i can spare a couple of hours for a few days... no longer then that though... hmph.

my cell's been dead for like a week..i just havent gotten around to charging it... and damn.. i should charge my camera cuz we're going to the beach tomorrow.... mmmmm... looks at complicated bateries and such..... nawww not complicated, more like "takes effort" and im tired so NO... hmph.... .im such a baby.

keegan had his interview at Logans today.... we're in there at LEAST 2-3 times a week, so since he's looking for a waitor job... figured HEY why not work at our resturant?! i say OURS because im sure if it wasnt for our frequent visits.. they would be out of business.. FER sure.

mmmm keegans dad made us steak today.... i hadnt had steak in a LONG time... then me, emma, and his dad played trivial pursuit... it was fun. keegan wouldnt play.... jerk.

i can see emma and me becomming really close... we're already pretty close and i KNOW she likes me alot.. his whole family does... sounds cliche, but his house is really like my second home. his mom even labled a part of his room "Erika Dawns" lol.... and then grouped all my stuff there... it was cute. i had kind of a dissapointment today, so right after i called my mom, i called keegans mom.... i just think thats so coooooool! ugrahh! i love them all... except keegan *winks....

i love how everyone is always like... you're so in love, or something like that... and we're like nooooo we're not.. not yet anyways. because its true. we arent... why rush something thats already so beautifull? but i sure am loving every second of falling in love with that boy.

night angels....

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:: 2005 5 July :: 11.21pm
:: Mood: depressed

So last night was the fireworks down Richardson.. they were a lot better than Cokeburgs.. but anyways. I saw a bunch of people down there, I talked to some people.. well one person in perticular. But anyways, I'm just so depressed anymore.

I work all the time, other than that I really don't do anything.

Sorry I never update or leave anyone any comments. I hardley have time.. plus, I don't have a computer anymore.. so blah.

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:: 2005 4 July :: 11.30pm
:: Mood: high or something..

I saw him tonight.. I wanted to kiss him.. but I just glanced.

maybe someday..

1 you constantly make it impossible to | make conversation

:: 2005 4 July :: 10.04am
:: Mood: depressed

So much has been happening lately. I got my report card, I passed everything except accounting.. We all went to see the fireworks in Cokeburg last night, they were boring.. or maybe it's just because I'm getting older.. but Kelly Rochelle and I are going to Richardson tonight.. I have to work 5-close tonight and that sucks, but oh well. Okay// that's all. see ya.

oh wait, i saw someone last night.. it always hurts to know something that no one else does. it always hurts to see him happy.. when i'm not.

:: 2005 4 July :: 12.26am

oh goodness...

boys and their need to "fix" everything..
bobby, bobby, bobby

im so fortunate to know him. both him and vince, its crazy... because if i had never met keegan, i wouldnt have met these two amazing people.... and even though i've only known them for about as long as i've known keegan.... i feel a need to protect them because i love them and they love me and its like they're my big brothers. this big wonderful protective circle... its beautifull.

we're gong to watch fireworks in grand rapids tomorrow... getting away from sandlake... blahhhh. im excited, i've never seen grand rapids fireworks, AND this is my first fourth of july with someone... i've seen fireworks with ex-boyfriends, not on the fourth though cuz i was in Disney World... and keegan doesnt remember ever spending the fourth with anyone... so this counts as his first too... the way we look at things... if you look back and either dont remember or realize an experience was nothing like the ones we share together... then they dont really count.. because they lack in comparison.. so much that they dont exist. we both have pasts, we both have fairly long relationships under our belts, and we can BOTH happily say that THIS is our first relationship.... because nothing else compares. its just an amazing feeling.... i thought i felt this way once..... but the way i feel when we're together is mind blowing.... it totally replaces everything i ever felt. i mean yeah.. i thought i was in love once.... but the way i feel when im with keegan is so much stronger then i EVER felt... and we're not even in love yet! its a beautiful beautiful thing.....

*sighs......

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:: 2005 3 July :: 2.20am

me and keegan saw bewitched tonight... it was pretty good. i love magic. then after that me, emma and keegan went into sandlake.. this is at about 10:30 im guessing... we had more fun on the carride there then we did at the carnival.. the way we see it... the trashy people hang out at the carnival.. the COOL people make a few appearences and then leave.... laughs* you can only walk by so many girls in belly shirts, bleached blonde hair, and nose rings before you've had enough to vomit. ughhh.. laughs.

we were jammin though... DMX.. ohhh yeahhh.... i'd say when it comes to dancin.. i give keegan a run for his money... its true. *giggles.

we listened to this chris rock comedy thing on keegans ipod yesterday, it was like an hour and a half long.. .sooooo funny.

yeah... keegan keegan keegan... i know.
but hey, i didnt see him for 6 days, he's my best friend, and part of me just wants to brag about how amazing my boyfriend is.

*sighs.....

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:: 2005 28 June :: 8.35pm

keegans mom is picking me up at 10 so we can go get keegan from the airport... he was supposed to be home by 4 today but his flight got delayed... so now he should be in by 11:30..... mmmmmm, darn this weather makin me wait.

yayyyy... i have a consultation with studio 630 about being one of their models... my friend alyssa was their top model last year and her pictures just turned out amazing.. im crossing my fingers..

i should probably put some clothes on.
yeah.. thats generally a good idea..........

:: 2005 26 June :: 11.35pm

he never hangs up first....

fucking.. ahrl;akejrl;kj.ac....

on a brighter note, im hanging out with matt tomorrow... i've misssed him.. he's always on the road with his band. it'll be nice to sit down, have some cofee, and catch up.

:: 2005 26 June :: 7.08pm

me and my mom and shelby went to traverse city last night... that was fun. its nice spending time with my family... we havent really done that in awhile.

i miss keegan... i hate massachusetts.

the yearbook thing was awesome... im so sad this was my last year going.. but im almost sure my experience with yearbooks wont be over this year.... awwww... i love kourtney too.. she's so cute!

hmmm maybe i'll call emma and see if she wants to see a movie... just cant get enough of the loye family! laughs* we were planning on seeing the sisterhood of pants movie or whatever... might as well see it tonight...

alright... goodnight dolls.

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yadiffy04

:: 2005 22 June :: 12.08pm

Don't Click Here

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:: 2005 22 June :: 8.03pm

i leave for my yearbook workshop tomorrow morning... and then keegan leaves friday morning for massachusetts on a business trip for lazer skate... so im not gonna see him for 6 days.... call me pathetic.. but that'll be the longest i've gone without him.... :(

but asides from that.. we'll do fine.. cuz even though we SOUND pathetic, we're not... and unlike alot of couples, we're perfectly capable of not seeing eachother for a couple of days... i'll be here when he gets back, he'll come over to my house, kiss my forehead... and all will be well.

i got 40 dollars worth of new makeup yesterday... im very excited... i was gonna go to blues at the mall tonight.... but ended up not, and still put all my make up on... its lovely.... *smiles.

the saying... "all dressed up and nowhere to go" that sucks.... but at least every time i look in the mirror im like..... awwww.

i fell in love with an A&F polo yesterday... but it was 40 dollars... sometime i'll get it... keegan got his first polo yesterday... mmmmm i could just bite him he looks so good. *thinks about it...... he's SO fine... ALL the time.

alright... well im bored now.

:: 2005 20 June :: 2.33am

thank god....

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:: 2005 17 June :: 2.30am

keegans car is so nice :)
no more crappy red one... woot woot

so tonight was good, he called me paranoid... whatever.
i think i feel better now though.

i dont like it at all.... *totally different subject* it just puts these terrible images in my mind because the other night i had a break down about it... i wish ______ would just move far far away and i would never ever have to think about what happend ever again... now that i know details... ugh, i could just be sick. i hate that part of him.

whatever right... cant change it eh? deal with it and move on erika, well its not that easy.

im really nervous for next year... for many different reasons.

i need to become dependent on myself more... i depend to much on my mom and keegan to keep me strong. why cant i just hold myself together... for gosh-sakes, i didnt even want to go to the dentist alone today (which i did end up going alone... yay for me) im afraid of needles, so i just wanted someone to comfort me... but i held my own today.. nobody was there to hold my hand or wait for an hour in the waiting room..... wait, now im kind of depressed.... step backwards erika, step backwards. hmmm, not good.

tomorrow is keegans performance at daybreak, i suppose i can brag him up a little..... they're getting paid 200 dollars to dance for 2 minutes... that 50 dollars for each of them for a mere 2 minutes.... thats crazy! but so awesome..... IHOP here we come! the performance is at 8:30... so we have an early rise day tomorrow... haha... i'll be getting up at DAYBREAK... mwah ha ha..... wow, teenage girls should not try to be corny and witty this late at night.

i've suddenly run out of things to say....
*crosses fingers..... (doesnt concern you why...)
*crosses them again.

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:: 2005 15 June :: 10.42am
:: Mood: lonely

I'm at Kelly's house again.. yesterday I bought myself a digital camera.. $200 for a sony 4 meg digi cam, 50 for the memory card, 10 for the rechargable batteries, and 2 for the cheap case I got for it. Now I feel better, since I've got it.. now all I need is a computer. But I'm working on that.

My mom is moving to phili.. along with George and my sisters.. I don't really know what else to say about that.. too much to be said I guess.

Guys=shit. That's really all I can say. Jim and I are still just friends.. and I'm not with anyone right now, I'm not looking either. I'm okay with the way things are. I guess.

:: 2005 14 June :: 3.23pm

keegans mom just bought me a bike..... *laughs.

for my birthday, so me and keegan can ride bikes together... awww, she loves me! *smiles.... i love that woman..

ahh.. i cant belive she just bought me a bike!!!! hehehe..... im so happy! i havent had a bike since i was like 11.... now i can leave keegan in the dust... since he's to cool to get a normal bike and will be stuck on his little "trickster" pshhh... whatever doll, you're goin down... thats right.....

:: 2005 14 June :: 2.12am

*giggles

i find it funny when girls who are having sex get all defensive about "stupid girls" who get themselves pregnant...

yeah.. that kind of makes you one of them

if you're mature enough to have sex, protected OR unprotected then you sure as hell better be mature enough to have a kid... what a stupid statement.

here... quick lesson.....

SEX. LEADS. TO. CHILDBIRTH.

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:: 2005 14 June :: 1.55am

i spent the night at alyssas last night... we talked a lot... and its nice to have a friend that actually wants to hear about my life and who actually cares whats going on and how im handeling things.... because those kinds of friends are very limited... im gonna say 2-3 tops... no counting keegan.

tonight after i got out of work, me and keegan took pats paddle boat out on lime lake (his moms boyfriend) and chased a super big bird all over it... i think he called it a herrid or a harrend... same difference... we're just talking a BIG bird... and we saw turtles... i named one myrtle.... myrtle the turtle... giggles.... oh and we rode those old school scooters down to pats too.... lol..... i was one of those deprived children who never had one... it was fun.. we were like little kids.... then we rode them back to his house, and lauren matthews was over with emma... basically i spent more time with lauren then keegan.... *shakes fist at him..... i love those girls though... we were running around in the dark, and we EVEN climbed a tree... thats right.. i dont believe there are any trees to climb on any stupid computer.... *shakes fist at him again.... long story short: i'd rather not go into it! but yay im so glad i love emma and she loves me :)

(and lauren too..... she's a cutie too..... awww.. i felt like one of the girls tonight.... why dont high schoolers climb trees and play hide and seek in the dark anymore? stupid big kids...)

yesterday me and keegan met bobby at res life in grandville... it was pretty sweet.. the ground floor (the youth room.. if thats what you wanna call it) was incredible... we're talking INCREDIBLE.... the only thing is... the drive would kill us... all the gas it would take to get down there.....

keegans birthday went really good.. i was there all day, i wish i could fully explain the day... but you wouldnt get it, and i probably shouldnt.. but it was really good.. close to perfect...

we're getting air conditioning tomorrow... there IS a god who reigns in heaven...! we've been dyin over here....

i think thats all i got....

:: 2005 11 June :: 4.59pm

awww.. its my keegans birthday...

and awww... he's standing right behind me....

*giggles...

:: 2005 9 June :: 11.22pm

we went to the beach today.... im fried.
that rarely ever happends....