godessalthena
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2007 14 July :: 9.51am
i keep having dreams about brooke.
and all of them break my heart when i wake up.
i am afraid to go to sleep...
the dreams here want to destroy me...
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 13 July :: 9.22am
there is a thunderstorm going on right now!
it's exciting and kind of scary...
hehe
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 12 July :: 10.22am
i feel like i've been abandoned.
everyone is moving on.
all my friends are gone...
and i'm alone again.
i don't know if i like this new chapter in my life...
the one where everyone moves away from eachother and forget how important everyone was to eachother.
and now, even my strongest feelings are fading.
and i don't have any passionate loves.
it's like this place is killling me...
and i can't figure out why...
i hate how i feel.
i hate forgetting people.
i hate being forgotten.
i hate change.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 9 July :: 1.32pm
love is how it's lost, not how it's found.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 7 July :: 11.45pm
i want to pretend like nothing ever happened.
like i never knew you.
and i never loved you.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 7 July :: 9.32pm
everyday it hits me harder.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 6 July :: 10.24am
i keep having weird dreams...
today i'm making zuccini bread.
i hope it's good...
1 told me |
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 6 July :: 12.03am
i feel like throwing up.
can i disappear now?
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 5 July :: 9.57am
i had a bad dream last night.
brooke, lauren, theo, julius, zuzu, kirk and allan were all in it.
and it was very, very sad for me.
i don't like the dreams i have here very often.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 3 July :: 10.36am
this is the story of the boys who loved you
who love you now and loved you then
and some were sweet, some were cold and snuffed you
and some just laid around in bed
some had crumbled you straight to your knees
did it cruel, did it tenderly
some had crawled their way into your heart
to rend your ventricles apart
this is the story of the boys who loved you
this is the story of your red right ankle.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 28 June :: 10.08am
i'm going to get twenty sketches done today. at least, that's my goal.
i ate breakfast with my parents yesterday. it was nice. it was a good break from this. I'm glad they came. it was really nice.
i think adam is comig today. at least i hope so since this is the thursday i have off.
i don't really know what to say...
i just want to have a friend here to hang out with.
and to explore with.
and just have fun with...
i mean, i have fun with kirk, but he's always busy or tired.
i want a friend who has a ton of time to spend.
and who wants to go out.
even if we don't spend any money.
hmm... i better start.
1 told me |
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 22 June :: 9.40am
last night i killed a man.
i didn't mean to...
i battered him to death with a shopping cart.
we were highway men, but we used bicycles.
and there were man-eating ostriches.
they came to eat the guy i killed.
who i think was the govener of that place.
then, we escaped down into these cellars.
where this old man distilled pringles.
the old lady i was with tried to kill the old man, but...
he killed her first.
then we all ate pringles.
2 told me |
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 10 June :: 9.32pm
i miss you so much that it hurts my head.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 8 June :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: sore
I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
No,no,no.
I'm so tired I don't know what to do
I'm so tired my mind is set on you
I wonder should I call you but I know what you'd do
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got
for a little peace of mind
I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset
Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette
And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
He was such a stupid get
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 5 June :: 10.05am
"For I think it is Love,
For I feel it is Love,
For I'm sure it is nothing but Love!"
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 3 June :: 10.17pm
right now
i really want some oreos and peanut butter.
and loren.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 25 May :: 8.32am
ahh... i missed the opera car.
i think i'll miss him the most out of all the sounds here.
<3
he's my hero.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 19 May :: 11.42pm
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Take me back to the start
1 told me |
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 15 May :: 6.37pm
it's amazing how a little house cleaning can make you feel better.
my shoulders have never felt so light.
ahh... the release of the burden of a terrible friendship.
all those wasted years have been suddenly released from my ankles...
<3
1 told me |
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 8 May :: 7.39am
since when did friendship get so complicated...?
my tummy hurts. it hurt last night too.
i wish i could just make... i don't know.
sometimes i wish i didn't have friends.
and sometimes i wish i had more.
sigh.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 5 May :: 8.10pm
"you hurt me. worse than anyone has ever hurt me. for that i hate you. i can't stand that you exist."
it's amazing how much yourlife can change.
what's more amazing is how when you truly love someone... you never ever could hate them forever.
i remember when reading that used to make me sick... now it makes me laugh.
i really miss how it was before.
i really hate how i had just became a bitch to everyone... even those who always stood by me.
i think that was important, though... for me to grow up.
i'm glad that it's over.
it's almost been like... two years since that whole mess...
ugh, i miss having real friends who i get to see everyday.
:( it's lonely here sometimes
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 1 May :: 10.17am
my cheeks?
seriously?
AHAHAHA
<3
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 1 May :: 8.36am
i'm going to try to stick to it this time.
because i am not a failure.
and i need to be patient.
i need to do a lot of thinking in this next year.
i think a lot. but never about the right things.
but i'm going to change that.
i miss how it used to be.
when i had friends.
and the drama was never like this.
but...
somehow this drama doesn't feel as bad.
probably because i don't really feel like it has anything to do with me.
whatev.
this place sucks.
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 28 April :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: i feel like an asshole
someone should give me an amazing book to read.
and a really good hug.
and idk.
some nat king cole
or dean martin
or frank sinatra
albums.
idk.
i want to mellow out.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 24 April :: 9.15pm
heartsickness is no one's friend.
i think that's why it's so hard to get rid of.
heartsickness is lonely and wishes it had friends.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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godessalthena
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2007 23 April :: 4.01pm
:: Mood: pensive
sometimes i feel sorry for being myself.
and i want to apologize for being me.
i know that it's ridiculous, because who i am is amazing...
but i wish people could love me for me...
and not for who they thought i should be.
it's the hardest thing ever, to tell myself they don't mean it like that.
but... i know i can.
and i will.
because i was born to be happy, i just haven't gotten there yet.
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i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 23 April :: 9.15am
"So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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aerii
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2007 22 April :: 7.20pm
ahahahaha
strawberry milkshake oreos.
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today was a good day.
:D
i want to hear the stories of your love for me
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