:: 2003 1 August :: 12.21 am
:: Mood: tired

Well I should really be sleeping cause I have to get up at 7 to drive at 8 but I just cant sleep, I dont know why. . I got to see dan today! YaY! it was fun I guess. But I needed to see him cause I really missed him when I was gone and I realized when I was gone how much I love him and how much I need to be with him he is the best thing to happen to me and I am so glad that we are together. When I was gone I kept having dreams about us breaking up and I was so scared to come home but yet I wanted to talk to him,I thought things were changing for the worst but they didnt they changed for the better,cause today I really did truly know that I was completely in love with him,I know I was in love with him but today it just hit me that I am in love and it just felt so good and I care for him so much and he cares for me,I thought that when I came home he was just gonna foget about me and that he didnt love me anymore but that was stupid cause he does alot. Iknew deep down he still loved me and the feeling i was having were just stupid but it scared me to think what it would be like without him,it would be really stupid. I dont even wanna think about it anymore so good night.

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:: 2003 31 July :: 12.16 am
:: Mood: sleepy

uhhh Well I just got back a little while ago. I am very tired,being in a car for 12 is not the funniest thing in the world. Plus my sister is annoying but I made it home thats all I care about. I came home thinking things were gonna be so different but I guess not...hmmm But over all I had alot of fun,I went horseback riding,I cant beleive I went but it was fun so. I got to see my cousins that I havent seen in two years, I love them so much they are so cute but I dont know how my aunt does it they are 2,4,6 and 8 thats crazy but they love me and my sister its so cute I wish they lived closer. Well I am very tired so I am gonna go to bed.

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:: 2003 24 July :: 3.30 pm

Well I am leaving for North Carolina,so I will miss you all and I love you! Goodbye

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:: 2003 22 July :: 7.19 pm
:: Mood: confused

????????
What does he think? What I am I supost to think? I feel so stupid so embarrassed and I dont even know what to think about all of this? Again what does he think,he told me but how do I really know thats what he is really thinking.... :( I just dont know..

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:: 2003 21 July :: 11.53 pm
:: Mood: content

I am so content with life right now,I love it its so weird I dont think I have ever been so happy with the way my life is going right now! I dont really know if it could get any better,I mean it could but I am good with where I am at right now. The only bad thing is being sick Iam so sick of being sick i have been like this for like a month,why cant it just be done,oh ya and drivers training that is just a pain in the ass but iam almost done with that. But uh back to life... I have dan and I couldnt ask for more I love him so much,if someone were to tell me before my freshmen year that I would be going out with dan and be so in love with him I would have said thats not gonna happen,cause I never thought I would be in love when I am 15. But it happend and I am so happy. I have the best friends anyone could ask for I just feel like nothing could go wrong. :) Well I think thats it so bye!

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:: 2003 21 July :: 8.58 pm
:: Mood: good

So uh today was a good day. Me and Dan and Andy and Taryn all went to the zoo after I got out of drivers training. The zoo is a fun place! I just thought it was so cute. hmm who knows.. I am so glad that I only have 3 more days of drivers training left,wow its so boring. And then on Thursday I leave for North Carolina..that should be tons of fun...I hope. I am going to miss everyone,cause I will be gone for a week I think. Well I really love dan alot,I never thought that I would be in love at 15,but I like it alot! ok well I am done.

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:: 2003 19 July :: 7.07 pm
:: Mood: drained

Its been a couple days so I guess..hmm Today we had our family reunion,wow so boring,I didnt know anyone there. But I lived so. I got to go home early cause I didnt feel good that was a plus I guess,just the going home earlyier part. Me and cass had to drive on friday at 8:00 how stupid is that,but we did good so YES! HEH! right cass?!? I got to see dan yesterday I hadnt seen him in awhile I missed him,but it was fun I love him. Well I guess Iam done here so uh bye!

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:: 2003 16 July :: 11.40 pm
:: Mood: content

Well emotionally I am better now,physically no. I went to the doctors the other day and they called my mom today,they got the blood test back I have mono and strep throat and the enzymes in my liver are up so if i get hit in the liver I would have to go to the hospital. uhh I am much sicker than i thought and the doctor told my mom thats its one of the weirdest cases she has ever seen:( And the reason my feet and hands were swelled up was cause the strep throat was in my joints which is very strange. Iam a freak lol right shelby? oh well

But I feel better me and Katie are hanging out right now so thats good and we went to go see tare that was good also I missed her.It just felt so good to hang out with my friends again i dont even know why,I guess i just really needed to get out of my house.Well I need my sleep.*Good Night*

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:: 2003 15 July :: 11.33 pm
:: Mood: bitchy

Well i now know why iam so angry..no sleep yup and I cant take my family anymore I want to just go away from everything for like 2 days or so but thats not gonna happen so some good old girl fun i guess me and katie are gonna hang out tommorrow, I dont have anything else better to do, I guess. Iam just so pissed at myself like the littlest things are geting to me i dont know why tho its weird.But then again i have my reasons cause some things have been bothering me and I just cant bring myself to tell peolpe i hate making conflict,its just stupid but i guess i should cause well iam really stressed and tired and on the verge of tears who knows why iam so confused and just grr I want to be happy and be back to normal but its just not working iam so stressed i think i just really need to talk to these people about this hmm well I think iam done..

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:: 2003 15 July :: 8.30 pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Where is the love~black eyed peas

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:: 2003 13 July :: 10.56 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

I feel like I am lossing everything:(

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:: 2003 12 July :: 11.48 pm
:: Mood: cranky

WHY?
hmmm Dan came over today and I wonder why he loves me,why he puts up with me? I was kinda a well I dont know but I was kinda in a bad mood all day and I think I might have been mean or said some stuff to piss him off,seriously why does he put up with that I dont know I just feel like I did something wrong and made him upset? god why do i do that,i think i messed up. I think its cause I am sick, i tryed not to show him i was sick today cause i just wanted to have fun but instead of having fun i think i was just mean i dont know.*sigh* Well who knows. Iam done...

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:: 2003 11 July :: 12.39 am
:: Mood: sleepy,content,still sick

Well still sick...but ok i guess!hehe i did new things to my journal today its way cute and i did shebly's i must say i am damn good..haha right shelby?!?! Today was so boring,I went to drivers training(most boring thing ever)we had our first test..hope that I did good.*hopes* ha! ok well theres nothin else I have to say so uh good night and dan I love you!

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:: 2003 9 July :: 10.58 pm
:: Mood: sick

mono
So I was talking to my mom about my illness and we think that it might be mono(kissing disease) heh! It sucks,I dont like it at all. Tonight was an ok night,i guess. Me,dan,andy,tare,josh and marty all went to gr and went skateboarding,well not me and tare haha ya right! Not so fun for me and tare but any time I spend with dan is fun so. I hope my illness goes away fast. hmm i think iam done for the night so bye for now!

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:: 2003 8 July :: 5.46 pm
:: Mood: sick

I hate being sick:(

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