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2003 21 May :: 5.37 pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: evanescence~bring me back to life
today was a really bad day. I dont even know what to do anymore. I dont even have words to describe what iam feeling right now and i just feel like no one understands what iam feeling. why cant i just be happy for like just one week?? but no that just doesnt happen to me. but who cares i guess i will just deal w/ it. I guess i will just stop caring and stop leting things get to me,but that is so hard. Nothin made me happy today NOTHIN how sad is that?!?! but i just try to show everyone that iam always happy and i am not. I allways try to be happy and try not to be down but know iam just gonna let it all out. I havent cryed in a long time but today i just had to i couldnt hold it in anymore,i felt a little better it just felt good to cry but once i stared i just couldnt stop. but i have got stuff to do so iam out.
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2003 20 May :: 6.40 pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: 50 cent~21 questions
Wow today was a bad day. I didnt feel good for most of the day,i dont like being sick. but ryan just seemed really weird today like he didnt care or even notice i was there.who knows?!?! but i have been wondering about it all day. He just seemed like i wasnt there and ignoring me. but i dont know. maybe he just is forgeting aboutme,that sort of shit tends to happen to me but i dont know. but iam out.
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2003 16 May :: 11.27 pm
:: Mood: tired
I love this song...........
Bring Me To Life
How can you see into my eyes
like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb?
Without a soul;
my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold,
until you find it there and lead it back home.
(Wake me up.)
Wake me up inside.
(I can't wake up.)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me. )
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up. )
Bid my blood to run.
(I can't wake up. )
Before I come undone.
(Save me. )
Save me from the nothing I've become.
Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real.
Bring me to life.
[Chorus]
Bring me to life.
I've been living a lie/There's nothing inside.
Bring me to life.
Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.
All of this sight
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
Don't let me die here/There must be something more.
Bring me to life.
[Chorus]
Bring me to life.
I've been living a lie/There's nothing inside.
Bring me to life
Haunted
Your lost words whisper slowly, to me
Still can’t find what keeps me here
But all this time I’ve felt so hollow, inside
I know your still there…
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you hold me down
Fearing you, loving you
I won’t let you hold me down
Haunting you, I can smell you, alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you hold me down
Seeing me, raping me
Watching me
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you hold me down
Fearing you, loving you
I won’t let you hold me down.
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2003 16 May :: 3.46 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: eminem
hehe i had a very good day,Iam very giggly!! well yesterday me and ryan started going out!! he is so cute. i love seeing his smile!! i actully want to go skool just to see him!! wow that is nerdy but oh well i dont care. i can actually do stuff now so i think iam gonna go to heidis tonight but iam not sure yet and on saturday iam gonna go to tares to hang out with her and andy and ryan!! i cant wait. well iam gonna go bye bye.love ya all!!!
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2003 14 May :: 7.37 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: ja rule~mesmerize
hehe HALF DAY,god i love those i wish every day was a half day but oh well. This is just such a good week!! I have been so happy lately i love being happy and in a good mood all the time. Lots of my friends have been telling me that i am a better person and just a lot more fun lately!! Today was my first day of being ungrounded!!!! what a good day, I have already been on the phone all day!!! god i love it!! well iam out and i love u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2003 12 May :: 6.12 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: ja rule~murder reigns
i love being happy!!
well its been a really good couple of days!!:) I am so happy. I havent been happy lately so this is just so great for me! And untill now i really did forget what being happy felt like but now iam back to myself!! well i dont have much other to say but IAM SO HAPPY!!! well iam out love you all!
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2003 8 May :: 7.03 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: 50 cent
5 MORE DAYS TILL IAM UNGROUNDED!!! I CANT WAIT...HMMM WHAT SHOULD I DO THE FIRST DAY IAM UNGROUNDED?!?!?!
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2003 8 May :: 4.00 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: been arouond the world~p diddy
hmmm what was today?!?! i guess it was an ok day better than yesterday. i have been thinkin alot lately and god damn this is so gay. i really do hate ppl. And i just want ONE good day where nothin can bring me down and i will be happy all day but that will never happen but ppl can dream so that is my dream!!! I think i have things figured out i thought lot about it and i think i have it hehe finally i know what is going on kinda but oh well i BETTER have a good day tomorrow so just try to help me out ok!!!! well iam out love u all!!!!!
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2003 6 May :: 3.38 pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: move bitch~ludacris
Well today was a good day but i dont know just this one person really makes me mad and just kinda ruins my day everday. I just want a day when no can make me mad i thought that day was today but i guess not. I was so wrong i just look at this person and i want to cry. That is so weird. And lately i guess i have just stoped caring what is there to even care about?!?! But me and taryn are better now we are geting back to our normal selves and it is great. i want to be ungrounded so me and her can hang out cause I just need it really bad. well iam out love u all!!
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2003 3 May :: 3.23 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: ja rule
My mom invited some family over...help me????? oh god i dont want ot be here.
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2003 3 May :: 11.37 am
:: Mood: crushed
Your Body is a Wonderland
we've got the afternoon
you've got this room for two
one thing I've left to do
discover me discovering you
one mile to every inch of
your skin like porcelain
one pair of candy lips
and your bubblegum tongue
cause if you want love
we'll make it
swim in a deep sea
of blankets
take all your big plans
and break 'em
this is bound to be awhile
your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
your body is a wonderland
something about the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillow case
you tell me where to go though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it
if you want love
we'll make it
swim in a deep sea
of blankets
take all your big plans
and break 'em
this is bound to be awhile
Your body is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
damn, baby
you frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
but you look so good it hurts sometimes
your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonder I'll use my hands
your body is a wonderland
additional lyrics and intro/outros
I'm never speaking up again
now there's no reason
I've got the kind of love in my hands
to last all season
OR
I'm never speaking up again
I'll use my hands
I'm never seaking up again
now I'm the action kind of man
do I have to tell the story
of 1000 rainy days since we first met
it a big enough umbrella
but it's always me that ends up getting wet
(The Police)
I know my love is real
I know my love is true
(Nelly Furtado)
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2003 2 May :: 9.22 pm
:: Mood: cryin
:: Music: murder reigns~ja rule
well if this day couldnt get any worse. god ppl suck and i cant call anyone and talk about this so well here is goes umm this guy really needs to make up his damn mind. i cnat wait any more. he says we will get together but he doesnt know when and that is not what i wanna hear at all. i just wnat us to be together but hey iam not good enough i guess but hey thats his fault i guess iam just trying to umm blame shit on him but i just dont need this know i wnat us to be more and he wnats it but umm no its not that easy y is it so hard? i cant deal w/ this i just cant. well good start to a good weekend huh god this sucks. and i am crying over something and i dont even know is it worth it maybe maybe not. well w/e fuck it i just dont care anymore iam out
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2003 29 April :: 4.13 pm
:: Mood: bored
umm really dont have much to say but iam getin my hair done tonight i cant wait and may 14th i get ungrounded i cant wait for that to!!!!! today was a good day lots of weird things have been happening to me latly hmmm i dont know. but oh well. umm i have nothin else to say so iam out like a fat kid in dodge ball!!love u all!!
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2003 26 April :: 4.11 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: fighter-C.A
I just got home a lil while ago and i am so tired. I was at linds b-day party oh geez i love her birthday partys they are so much fun. We went to chuck e cheese good fun i tell ya!!! I cant believe my mom let me go cause i was grounded but that is it now i cant do anything till iam ungrounded i cant wait for that day!! but it is gonna be awhile. oh well. Iam glad i was able to go cause me and cassie havent really been hanging out and we had tons of fun this weekend!! and i got to see her kitten he is sooo cute i want him. i still think u should have named him mr.Beefy but oh well. oh ya iam so confused and i dont know what to do but hey lets not get into that. well iam out iam gonna go take a nap!! love u all!!!
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