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what am i doing w/ my life????
well yesterday was the worst day of my life. THE WORST...... well so far and i hope it never gets worse i cant take it. ok hears what happend me and katie went shopping yesterday and we stole some stuff and we got caught but i was the only one who got in trouble and my dad had to come pick me up and i have never seen him so mad. and i have to pay $200 and i have to go to court and i might have to go to juvey. y did i do this iam in so much troulbe i just feel like the biggest failure and alls i have done i cry. me and katie feel like shit and we dont even know wht to do and our parents told us to not hang out anymore but we just can do that. i wish i could just go back and not do it. and i wish my life would just go back to normal. i just dont know what to do today i just well its all i have thought about and my parents dont trust me anymore what am i supost to do. i just think iam such a mess up and i just wnat to forget all this. its my moms b-day and it is a horrible day for her and its all my fault. i have never seen my mom and dad so mad. i made my mom cry i have only seen her cry 3 times and now its 4 u know what its like to make your mom cry. its the most horrible feeling in the world and i dont ever want it again. well iam out i cant talk aabout this anymore.

where i my life going???
well lately alls i have been doing os thinking about everything. and we all know about what. i dont wanna think about it anymore but its impossible. well ok shelby iam so sry i didnt do anything w/ ya this weekend but ok well iam just gonna tell ya the truth umm i wanted to do something w/ ya i really did its just that i was scared of what was happening i want to talk to u i really do its just i really dont know what to tell ya. its hard i just dont know whats going on in my life iam so confused. i hope u are not mad at me its just so hard to talk aobut something i dont understand. well ahh this is so hard to explain and to talk about. oh ya hehe shelby iam listen to our song god i love it i have been listening to it for the past like 3 days allllllllll day to i never get sick of it!!!! and iam so mad that break is over and we have to go back to skool ahhhh i hate skool but doesnt everyone. well i had a lot of fun hanging out w/ everyone!!!! i love u keegan!!!!!! well iam out i love u all!!!

i love this song
ok so i have been listen to this song all day and i am in love w/ it its by ja rule!!!

MURDER REIGNS


Yea {*echoes*}
I feel the rain comin down on me nigga, heh {*echoes*}
When the sun gon' shine? {*echoes*}
My lord, somebody help us all, heheh {*echoes*}

[singer: repeat in background]
I think the rain is comin back
I think the reign is comin murder
I think the rain is comin back
I think the reign is comin murder

[Ja Rule over singer]
Ja Rule baby!
Last Temptation, time to kill these niggaz
Dear Lord, can you, feel my pain

[Ja Rule]
If you can't it's alright, cause I'ma live my life anyway
Just let, it, rain - on me
I feel, so free like a, cool breeze
And when the sun, gon', shine
Fold up the mini-blinds, load up the lucky 9
And hit 'em up from behind
That's, my, life - and it'll never be the same
Ever again, the game is to blame
Don't get caught up in your Range Rover, pullin over
On the Westside highway shoulder, nigga I'll blow ya
like a windshield, leave yo' mind on the windshield
And have yo' whip doin windmills, that's what rain feels
like, when it's hittin a little harder than drizzle
And pickles flyin out pistols, gotta niggaz cryin they Christians and
I can't believe shit has come to this
It's unheard of, now it's gonna reign down murder

[Chorus: singer]
I think the rain is comin back
I think the reign is comin murder
I think the rain is comin back
I think the reign is comin murder

[Ja Rule]
God only breathes with the best of them, bury the rest of them
A storm is comin, I got a hundred mile runnin head start
on these niggaz cause it's murder for life
Drugs, bitches, and money be my only vice
But I'm livin life in the fast lane, doin the damn thang
In the Ferrari hard top watchin "Hard Rain"
It's a damn shame, no more games
No more love, baby boy I throw back slugs
through your Green Bay throwback, I hits that up
And let you know where the reign is from
You ever heard of mixin whiskey with Jamaican rum? You get Biggie
Mix gin with a little cocaine, you got me
And my style is a little too savage to not be
Be looked upon as one of the illest to MC
Y'all niggaz want it with me? That shit's unheard of
Cause niggaz, now it's gonna reign down murder

[Chorus]

Nobody loves me

[Ja Rule]
Sometimes I wish the good Lord would come down and hug me
I take a look at my life, it's gettin ugly
And now I know that you all wanna slug me
I can get above it, it's my life and I dug it
Even though I live it close to the edge
I'm gettin closer to death, with eve-rrry little step
that I take, in the awake of my last days
I hope the sun shines with a light rain
That would mean the world shared my pain
And now the world could be happy again, smile
Cause if I ever walk "The Green Mile"
You can look at me and blame it on my lifestyle
What can I say? I was raised as an only child, lonely
Poppa didn't show me, so the streets raised me
To call me crazy is not unheard of
Now it's gonna reign down murder

[Chorus] - repeat to fade


oh wow i just love it!!! well iam out love u all!!!

wow i love this song and i love ja rule i could listen to his voice and this song forever. so my life is kinda making sense again. my dad is talking to me now and well some of my friends still just i dont know they think that i have changed,i know i have but i just dont know what to do anymore its hard. but one thing is good in my life well 2 katie and i are having so much fun!! and me and keegan are having so much fun and i know we arent going out but i love that kid, iam happy w/ him and i really havnt been that happy in a while. and i just love hanging out w/ him he is so great. but iam still a lil confused w/ this whole thing. i just dont know what to do anymore i need help. i have been getting shit from my friends and some of my family and i just dont know what to do. that is all i have been thinking about is what do i do. i wanna just talk to them but i dont know what to say we are going diff places in our lifes and its hard cause i wanna still be friends. its hard to tell them things cause i reallly dont know what to say to them. but iam out for now. love ya all

~crazy day~
so i just got home and ate some burger king yummmm!!! haha shelby!! me and katie went to see a movie it was weird but it was funny but i dotn really remember it cause i wasnt all there but ya it was ok. well today i was at keegans for like the whole day it was a lot of fun.i watched jackass for like the 15th time but i still love it!!! well ya at keegans it was fun untill his mom got really mad at us but ya i think tonight was THE MOST EMBARASSING MOMENTS IN MY LIFE ahhh i cant even think about it, it makes me wanna cry. but dont worry keegan i still love ya!!! oh ya my sis came home for the weekend what the hell is she thinking. grrrr oh well i will deal. iam so mad spring break is almost done that sucks so bad i just want it to be summer so i didnt have to think about it anymore. well iam way tired i think i may just go to sleep so good night. oh ya cass i wanna see your new kitten and i so knew u were gonna name it that!!! love u all!!!

wow never thought that all this would happen to me but i guess i was wrong. well today and yesterday all my friends and family have been tellin me that i have changed i think i know what they are talking but i just dont know. i know i have changed but i dont know how i have changed its so weird. i hang out w/ differrent ppl but i still love all of u!! and u all know that. i just need a change i didnt like the old me and that proly sounds real fucked up but i dont know how esle to say it. but other than that katie and keegan came over that was so much fun i just love them both so much!!!! hehe guess what i did?!?!?!?! i really dont wanna write what i did cause i know that some ppl will not be that happy w/ me since everyone thinks iam bad so i just wont say. but if ya really wanna talk bout all this shit u know i will allways be there so go ahead and talk to me. oh god my mom found my report card that has been hidden for awhile and oh no that was not good we had a lil conversation bout that and bout HOW I HAVE CHANGED..AHHHHH iam really gonna go crazy. U know what i need to be w/ taryn and eat some cake yummm and get my ass kicked in monopoly again. well this break has just been fucking weird let me tell u. well im out. love u all!!!!!

y is my life so fucked up
well i had a lil talk w/ some of my friends and i was very enlighting. it seems i have changed.Cass i love u but it jusst seems like we are going in different places and i dont want that at all u are a good friend it is just weird. i feel like taryn is the only one who cares bout me. i love her and she just seems to be the only one that can help me right now. and shelby u just piss me off alot iam sry to say that but u do. and this might hurt u but she is a better friend than u. she just knows the right thing to say. but i love u like a sis but latly u havnt really been there and i needed that. this is just so hard i feel like im loseing all my friends. i guess i know what u guys are saying that i have changed but i dont know what to say or what to do. its hard. well iam out ahhhhhhhh

hehehehehe
This spring break has been great. i had so much fun w/ tare!!! i just love that girl. i had so really good cake the best i have ever had yummmm!! oh ya and i really suck at monopoly wow i hate that game i never do good at that game. awww keegan i love you hun thanx so much for that!! it was so cute. wow like tare said i just need someone like andy. y cant i have that?!?!?! i just need that. well i dont even know right now. grrrrr well one good thing i am going shoppin on wednesday!!! YES!!! well iam out. love u all

so cold
iam so happy it is finally spring break!!! but it is so cold out side. ahhh i hate it. look at this hehe
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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lol hehe thats me!!! well i gotta go get ready iam out. taryn u better call me so we can do something

well i had a really crazy weekend but who didnt?!?! i am so happy that we dont have school friday i dont think i could make it tho if we did. i so need this break. Today was ok everyone maded fun of me and most of us know y. and u know who ya are.....SHELBY. and taryn i love ya for not making fun of me u were the only one that didnt and wow i needed someone like that. y do u allways know the right thing to do?!?!?! ahh i got my report card thats not good cause i will proly get in trouble and get yelled at and no one likes that. great i cant wait.... well iam out