Because of you..

:: 2006 30 November :: 11.06am

Don't you ever feel like you are just stuck in a bubble and rolling rolling rolling down the road of life just doing the same dang thing over and over and over and getting absolutely no where.

doesn't anyone ever just want to move away out of the country and just like move away from everything and get away.

........................................my life is boring and i dont like it.

i feel like i am more than what my current life is letting me be.

i feel like i'm never going to get anywhere with what i am doing now.

i need to live more. i need to live more before i settle down and just settle for being a medical assistant or whatever. but i could never go any further with working at fricken menards.

:: 2006 26 November :: 6.52pm

i think i finished my papers.

wow you have no idea how long that took me.

DUMB!!!!!! college is dumb.

:: 2006 25 November :: 6.07pm

kids:
dont move out of your parents house

no actually do

go away to college and live in a dorm and use all your parents money so you dont have to worry about anything for like maybe 4 years

but don't move out and try to get your own place and go to school and work and shit. it's not worth it. i want a life. i want a life.

fuck.

i hate my life.

2 love me | do you love me?

:: 2006 24 November :: 1.30am

ughghghghhgg...

i can't sleep when i'm all alone.

bleh. should i go shopping tomorrow?

:: 2006 22 November :: 11.57pm

okay well i wrote the hugest entry about how i love roman. and it got deleted ...

but let's just sum it up shall we.

Romey, I love you babe.

and i love my family too.

:: 2006 22 November :: 6.04pm

I am so upset by the whole Michael-Richards-going-crazy-and-being-all-rascist-and-then-going-on-Letterman-and-looking-even-more-stupid-trying-to-apologize thing that I can't even enjoy Seinfeld anymore.

I CAN'T EVEN ENJOY SEINFELD ANYMORE!!!

good goin' Kramer.

tails

:: 2006 20 November :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Elastica 2;1

The list is getting longer but the base is getting stronger
My car is fixed.
Cellphone Still Lost.
Still owe the bank money.
Still in debt with credit cards
Still working one shitty job
Still Living at my dads house.
Still alone.

(Ive got some problems to work on)

(but at least one of them is solved)

:: 2006 18 November :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: confused

help

okay seriously. why cant i do my homework. i just wont allow myself to do it. i seriously wont. what is wrong with me?

and it's not just this.

i can't

do

anything.

ugh. but hey i already knew that so whatevv. ............................ i knew i'd be like this. i knew it. is it wrong that i just want to get married and have kids. it's not that i dont ever want to get an education or have a job. i'm smart. and i like feeling like i'm good at a job or whatever but i just dont .............want that...?? i just want to be a mom. that's so bad! no it's not. it's not bad. it's not bad that i want a family and that i want to be a great mom and have a great family why is that wrong? that's not wrong? but yet i dont want all that SO YOUNG. i dont want all that right now . but i just dont enjoy .................. i dont enjoy like ...working for this undefinable goal that i'm supposed to have since i have a scholarship and blah blah blah but every one says that medical assisting is not enough. well i'm sorry, i'm not striving for this goal to become a doctor or pharmacist or biochemical engineer or whatev. i just dont ... want that

so is something wrong with me because i feel like that? explain it to me.

3 love me | do you love me?

:: 2006 12 November :: 9.24pm

Create Your Own!

:: 2006 10 November :: 9.43pm

ugh i am scheduled to work at FIVE AM tomorrow again. that is so stupid.

so stupid.

they should make people who dont go to school work at 5 am. people who it doesn't really matter if they have to work at 5 am because it doesn't throw off their life because the only thing they have scheduled to do in their life is work. people who don't have to write huge research papers that are due on monday. that's who should work 5 am shifts.

well i got moved up to head cashier so at least if i stay at that position i wont ever have to open at 5 ever again. and i love hardly ever having to talk to guests. ahhh it's so nice. stupid stupid guests how i hate you.

2 love me | do you love me?

bigwilly

:: 2006 9 November :: 12.45am

We need to party this weekend.

P.S. If you're not one of the We.. just dont bother

:: 2006 6 November :: 11.46am

i dont know what to do with my life. and i hate it.

:: 2006 5 November :: 9.28am

does anybody believe that your dreams have deeper, real meaning?

4 love me | do you love me?

:: 2006 2 November :: 10.25pm

what is wrong with me........

:: 2006 1 November :: 3.09pm

Listen up ya'll, Cuz this is it
The beat that I'm bangin' is de-li-cious

Fergalicious definition make them boys go loco
They want my treasure so they get their pleasures from my photo
You could see you, you can't squeeze me
I ain't easy, I ain't sleazy
I got reasons why I tease 'em
Boys just come and go like seasons

Fergalicious (so delicious)
But I ain't promiscuous
And if you was suspicious
All that shit is fictitious
I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh)
That puts them boys on rock, rock
And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)

So delicious (It's hot, hot)
So delicious (I put them boys on rock, rock)
So delicious (they wanna slice of what I got)
Fergalicious (t-t-t-t-t-tasty, tasty)

Fergalicious def-, Fergalicious def-, Fergalicious def-
Fergalicious definition make them boys go crazy
They always claim they know me
Comin' to me call me Stacy
I'm the F to the E, R, G the I the E
And can't no other lady put it down like me

I'm Fergalicious
My body stay vicious
I be up in the gym just working on my fitness
He's my witness
I put yo' boy on rock rock
And he be lining down the block just to watch what I got

So delicious (It's hot, hot)
So delicious (I put them boys on rock, rock)
So delicious (they wanna slice of what I got)
Fergalicious (hold hold hold hold hold up, check it out)

Baby, baby, baby
If you really want me
Honey get some patience
Maybe then you'll get a taste
I'll be tasty, tasty, I'll be laced with lacey
It's so tasty, tasty, It'll make you crazy

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D to the E to the L I C I O U S, to the D to the E to the, to the, to the, hit it Fergie

All the time I turn around always brotha's gather round always looking at me up and down looking at my
I just wanna say it now I ain't tryin to round up drama little mama I don't wanna take your man
And I know I'm comin off just a little bit conceited and I keep on repeating how the boys wanna eat it
But I'm tryin' to tell, that I can't be treated like clientele
Cuz' they say she

Delicious (So delicious)
But I ain't promiscuous
And if you was suspicious
All that shit is fictitious
I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh)
That puts them boys on rock, rock
And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got (got, got, got)
Four, tres, two, uno
My body stay vicious
I be up in the gym just working on my fitness
He's my witness (oooh wee)
I put yo' boy on rock rock
And he be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)

So delicious
So delicious
So delicious
I'm Fergalicious, t-t-t-t-t tasty, tasty

It's so delicious
So delicious
So delicious
I'm Fergalicious, t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t

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