Because of you..

:: 2005 16 December :: 10.43pm

what is with today, and everyone being in a bad mood? I can't wait till tomorrow, maybe it will be better.

:: 2005 16 December :: 5.27pm

Gosh, I am having the worst day ever, please someone, tell me what else can go wrong, I might as well get everything bad done and over with in one day. I'm lying, I really hope it doesn't get any worse. Somebody rescue me.

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:: 2005 16 December :: 12.18pm

well, at the moment, I am stuck in Dani's Driveway, and have been since 9 this morning. Too bad I had to go to the dentist! BUT! my mom is on her way to rescue me! ahahah! darn snow anyway!

brokenmentality

:: 2005 16 December :: 11.56am

ugh.. i can NOT believe we have a snow day today.

last night i filled out 70 fucking christmas cards for staff appreciation (student senate committe) and now what.. i give them to them AFTER christmas? not to mention i bought a whole bunch of food to put in the staff lounge... now its just sitting in my kitchen. BAH...

and i was really looking forward to drama. i made peanut butter balls last night and everything. GAH.

oh.. and i better say goodbye to saturdays. thursdays are gone. but hey "its only for 4 months" yeah the rest of my senior year.. GOOD thing it wont be focused on me. fuck that.

STUPID SNOW DAY!

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 15 December :: 3.13pm

Beautiful

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the mother of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.

You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

oh and with the unfortunate chance of ruining this post:
fuck you shannon, fuck you. grow up.

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:: 2005 14 December :: 8.06pm

Jake Mellema has woohu!! YES!!!

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 14 December :: 1.49pm

Will someone please babysit my cat for just a while. he's a good kitty. i dont know what i'll do otherwise. please

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:: 2005 14 December :: 11.14am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Where Is Your Heart~Kelly Clarkson

pretty much, I'm done. I am so glad that I only have two exams left!! Good grades for me all around! whoo! I'm pretty sure that I'm going to do the whole photography thing now. I can't wait until I get my camera. Next semester is going to be flippen awesome. Ya know what though, last night before I fell asleep, I had the strongest urge ever to go and work at the ice cream shop again! I seriously wanted to call Jenny right then and tell her that we had to go in there and do something, make some flurries or something. It really is an addiction, I mean, you hate it, getting all covered in ice cream and everything, but then 5 months later, and I can't wait to open next summer. ahah! But I really love working at Awesome Tan, so no way am I giving that up this summer either. Good thing both of my bosses are absolutely wonderful, and will let me do that without a problem, and work at the famr if I wanted to. And I could still baby-sit, but I think I'm past that. Ya know what's weird? I barely ever do this, cuz I just forget, but I read my horoscope, and it said that yesterday that I would have a meaningful conversation with someone, and I was thinking about the people that I'm really close with that I could be having this conversation with, you know, Jon, Dani, Alice, the ones that are always there for me, and then I thought, well it's prolly someone who I won't expect. And then when Jon, Hilary, Courtney, and I were eating lunch yesterday, in walks Jake Mellema, and we ended up haning out for like 5 hours or soemthing like that, and we talked a lot. So I think that was it. I don't know, I just think it's weird I guess that after such a long time, you can talk to someone like you've never missed a beat. No pun intended there Jake! ahhah! But anyways, bowling, tomorrow night.......yes.

Anyway, I have to work at 2 today, and Dani is coming home for break today, and Sarah is home.......whoo! do I hear pirates? oh, and I decided that I'm going to stop running away from guys. So I guess I can date if someone asks, but I'm not going through any trouble to make it happen either. Actually, I'm still not quite sure about the above statement. hmmmmmm.....

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 13 December :: 11.21pm

uggghhghghghgh

i wanna move away to you of course.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 13 December :: 10.25pm

i just registered for my ACTs after my mom came in my room and fucking attacked me.

she walks in and says "you need to see your guidance officer or something" i turn and look at her like what the fuck.. and she starts going off about college and how its not her responsibility to line it up for me and in that same five minutes it some how spirialed to if i dont go to college i cant live here and blah blah blah.

you dont just COME into my room and tell me that i need to see a counselor and expect me not to get pissed off. i had no idea what the fuck she was talking about until she started in on her rant.

if its SO important to her then why is this the first time i've heard of it? and it was totally out of the blue.. completely random.

of COURSE im going to college.. but im going to CC... i havent been terribly worried that they wont let me in. i mean for the love of god woman...

so in retaliation i filled in all that un-needed information for like an hour and woke her up to get her credit card number. TAKE THAT! HA! laughs* whatever.

im so sick of all this "realization" stuff that its almost over. i dont care about anything except that its DONE. college will come when it comes... which i've ALWAYS been planning will be the very next year dear mother.... and life will follow shortly after.

im ready for bigger better things... away from everything here that has ever givin me limitations.

and on a second thought.... im about to go loco on the entire yearbook class. granted.. its a select few that make it miserable.. well.. not miserable because yearbook is pretty much the best thing ever.... more like irritating and stressful. FUCK YOU stupid people! YEAH..... i love my bitches. (stacy, jess and jess) well..i love alison too.. but she's to sweet to be refered to as my bitch! not that they're MY bitches.... but they know what i mean.

night dolls.

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bigwilly

:: 2005 13 December :: 10.20pm

hmm... I really don't like people. but some people that I really don't see myself hanging around with have been pretty good friends lately. I think people need to stop crying about.. well anything.

this goes closely in tow:

:: 2005 13 December :: 9.33pm

JJJAAAAKKE MELLEMA!!! I had so much fun with you today!! We will for sure have to do it again soooon, and don't worry, I WILL call you!

Paradox

:: 2005 12 December :: 11.34pm

Battle went good.. Show went good...

Got another battle on saturday down in Detriot. this one's for some cash. Hopefully we have a chance... it's possible...

I like to move it! move it!

:: 2005 12 December :: 10.48pm

You really do make me sick, maybe just really annoyed, but it's hard to tell the difference. Get a life please, and leave me out of it!.....please.