Because of you..

:: 2005 1 October :: 11.56pm

k i just have to write about my hideously LONG day....

today i got up at 8:30 got ready and went to the school. played with the pit all day long in band and then had the little competition on the field and then played cymbols in the parade and then walked back to the parade and watched with roman and then walked all the way back to the school ALONE ahhh and then realized i didn't have my keys so walked all the way to the back and then put my uniform away and then drove to Rosie's , changed and got put on the floor and got tables as soon as i walked back through that kitchen door!!

we were so busy. but at least roman and jess came to see me :0) . i started crying at one point because i was so stressed because we were so exteremely busy. I got a $35 tip. that beats my 20 dollars . that was from a 12 top. WOW . i was happy! and me and chelsy were the only servers tonight. just us two!! and we closed all by ourselves again. i like working with chelsy she's a sweetheart. and to finish the night i made $119 tonight yay!! in tips. not even counting the hourly which adds about 15 more. but wow my feet hurt. i've been standing the whole day. i didn't have a chance to get a drink or sit down or even bus a table the whole night until 9 at night. wow it was a long day.

i got my senior pics back and they are really cool . i have like 8126545612 million wallets . awesome.

:: 2005 1 October :: 8.58am

fuck you i hope you fall flat on your face and die. im done holding back bitch.

:: 2005 30 September :: 4.08pm

YOU MAKE ME SO MAD

but maybe i'm supposed to be worried instead. GREAT.

dg'alskdgjsd;lghjsd;lgjsd;lgj i'm so SICK OF THIS!

Paradox

:: 2005 30 September :: 10.21am

My mom got in a car accident today, she's okay, nobody got hurt, but she totaled her car. So she's off to look for a new one. But until then she gets a rental. Whoo hoo! I can't help but feel responsible for the accident though. She shouldn't have had to bring emma to school. I should have- well emma should have gotten up on time, but none the less. I still feel partly responsible for the accident.

Damn.

Red flannel parade tomorrow. Make sure you stay for the whole thing, 61Syx Teknique is the last thing in the parade, we're gonna end it with a bang, some flips, some mills, top rock, bottom rock, etc. Whoop!

See ya tomorrow!

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:: 2005 29 September :: 9.43pm

play tryouts, powderfuff practice, tanning *FINALLY* (and yes you STILL owe me 20) and now hopefully a LOT of shut eye. say hello to another crazy busy weekend... SHOOT me.

1 love me | do you love me?

:: 2005 29 September :: 6.31pm

i hate college. and i'm not even in it. hmm.

3 love me | do you love me?

jennapie

:: 2005 29 September :: 4.19pm

Red Flannel=KiSs Me WeEkEnD!!! muahahahah!!!!

paradox

:: 2005 29 September :: 3.15pm

So I have the checklist... And I'll do whatever I can to get all of the things on the list the way they should be.

:: 2005 28 September :: 9.56pm

i always worry it might be the last time i say love you baby.

bigwilly

:: 2005 28 September :: 9.36pm

A great allusion to tourettesguy

:: 2005 27 September :: 10.23pm

im so tired. we just got back from the mall(s)... it is NOT fun dress shopping.. but ALAS i found one. and its green.. that wonderful las vegas green.. and i've tried it on and all that jazz again since i got home.. and cant find a single thing wrong with it or that i dont like. thats always nice.

7 love me | do you love me?

jennapie

:: 2005 27 September :: 4.33pm

I CAN'T BELIEVE I EVER LIKED YOU!!!

WHAT WAS I THINKING! YOU'RE ALL THE SAME.

the only guy that I've ever been able to depend on is my Dad, and I guess that's just how it's going to be for me, I'm not willing to be disappointed again. Why bother? Everything that I thought, isn't what it was at all. If that made sense to you then you're lucky cuz I've been told that I never make sense.

Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to try. but I do, and if I didn't, then I would most likely have no friends what-so-eve, let alone have any guys like me. I know you all would say that you would still be friends with me, but if I didn't try, then I really doubt that you would honestly be able to say that.

I don't know myself like I should.

3 love me | do you love me?

:: 2005 27 September :: 6.09am

another day.

i think me and keegan are gonna find my homecomming dress after school today. its about time. i really wanna find that perfect dress... its hard cuz i cant see myself falling in love with a dress the way i fell in love with my prom dress. it really did look perfect.

last night was laguna night...... if ONLY brad would have been awake. *kicks him and giggles

i dont wanna go to first hour today. im already behind on my algebra. GREAT. im just sick of having homework every night. and esp. math homework. i guess more than anything im just sick of this stupid routine of waking up, crawling out of bed, and going to school. to bad i cant just sleep the rest of my life.

my mom got me a hundred dollar gift card to this salon in rockford called genisis as an end of red flannel thing. im SO looking forward to getting a massage with it. i think the day of homecomming im gonna go there and get a massage and have my hair and nails done. i deserve to be pampered once in awhile. esp after this last week.

side note: GET TAN ERIKA! im so white right now. i just hate throwing money into such a dangerous thing as tanning. wooooo.. lets go buy cancer. hells yeah!

after we get my dress... its straight back to keegans for a nap.

i just zoned out there for awhile.. i hate when that happens. well i guess i've rambled on long enough about nothing in particular. and i suppose i should get dressed and try and look all wonderfull....

*sighs... our drama project....

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:: 2005 25 September :: 10.20pm

*sighs

could i BE anymore sad. at least desperate housewives was on tonight to comfort me.

lately... whenever we're apart i get this empty feeling inside. like it almost hurts that you arent with me. and as much as i hate it, i love feeling that way. not empty, but complete when i'm with you. now hows THAT for "is the glass half empty or half full"... 10 months and we're still goin strong.

*sighs again... last night was hard. we are no longer the reigning red flannel girls... but we will ALWAYS be the 2004 girls and the connection we formed with eachother and with Sue is unbreakable.

what a hectic weekend.. im suffering from sleep deprivation... is that a word? ahh well.. close enough.

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