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:: 2006 15 June :: 12.35 pm

well, the last time i wrote was tuesday.
i can't remember what i did on tuesday, actually.
probably chilled at cj's all day. like usual.

Yesterday, Wednesday, June 13
Justin and I woke up and got a shower.
we got ready and then went to cj's.
i had kaylin drop me off and justin rode his bike.
suprisingly, somehow.. he got there first. ??
we chilled there for a while and then it started getting dark.
kris and christina came there,
right before the boys were about to venture out on their bikes.
christina said i should come.
sooo, i left with them and went to the gas station,
we got back to christina's house and got out the bikes.

soo okay, i was riding her step dad's mountain bike.
it came up to nearly my chest.
i couldn't reach the ground,
and i had to literally climb on.
not to mention we couldn't put the seat up.
and we'll add in the fact that i hadn't rode a bike since i was.. 10?
hahaha it was so funny.
and then the boys.. pretty much INTENTIONALLY ditched us.

so me and christina rode around for a little bit, looking for them.
we found shaun driving near the cemetary so we took our bikes back to her house.
i called and yelled at bubby for leaving us and then quitting without telling us.
he asked when i was coming to cj's.
me and christina walked up there.
then she went for a walk and i chilled with chub, jeremy, and cj for a little bit.
then chubby went home.
amber came over.
me and jeremy played xbox til i fell asleep.

Today. June 15
i had the best sleep ever last night.
we woke up and amber left.
me jeremy and cj smoke a blizzy and then chilled.
liza ans bishop came over.
they stayed there for a couple minutes,
then rolled.
jeremy left a little bit later to go to school.
i walked here (bubby's) to get a shower and stuff.
soo.. i'm about ready to leave, jeremy should be home soon.

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:: 2006 13 June :: 12.36 pm

Sooo yesterday I didn't do anything all day and then at about 10:00 i left to go chill at my friend's house and watched Wedding Crashersss.

at liek 2:30 they brought me back home and i fell asleep after eating a trukey sandwich (toasted, of course) hahaha.

in the morning, justin's mom woke me up and i left with ed to pick justin up.
at 9:00 he got in the car and we had to go to his probation building.
i went in with him and we caught up on everythign!!
we missed each other.

we got back to his house and took showers and then we went to cj's.
we chilled there all day.
jeremy was there.
liz and ben and little jeremy weslager got there.
little jeremy left.
liz left to go to liza's.
ben left to go to my house.
justin left to go play with shaun.
i chilled with jeremy and cj aaaall day,
we lit pretty much everything on fire with axe and a lighter.
they were lightign their hands on fire and slapping hi-5's.
we talked about getting stitches,
and pretty much everything under the sun.
at about 11:30 chubby and alycia get there.
alycia leaves.
bubby gets there.
we smoke a blunt.
me and chubs discovered that she is taller than me (whaa??!).
and then i fell asleep.
okay, i passed out.
and so did justin.
and i dont know what woke me up because i was in a DEEP sleep,
(so deep that chub said i was snoring LOUD. haha)
but justin said we were walking back to his house.
i was a little out of it,
and afraid to walk in the cold,
but i put my shoes on and rolled.

when we got back to hsi house we passed out.
well, almost.
when we finally fell asleep it was like 3 in the morning.

i got up at like 12 and he was dead asleep,
he woke up though and put pants on and said he was going to ride his bike to wake himself up.
so here i am.
washing clothes, waiting to put them in the dryer so i can go take a shower.

thats pretty much all. peace.

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:: 2006 11 June :: 12.51 pm

well, yesterday...
i woke up and walked to matt n nikki's to get some clothes.
i knocked on the door to say what's up but matt came to the door and said they were sleeping so i peaced out.

i came back to justin's and took a shower,
i got all dressed and headed out.
i walked to cj's and dave k, "gibbs", kash, and cj were upstairs.
they smoked a blunt with me and we chilled.

oh hey i forgot to add this.
when we went to the mall..
KASH BOUGHT A TARANTULA.

yesterday he was sitting next to me on the couch with its little cage thing and he was trying to get me to pet it.
i was like, "umm i like it with the lid on. maybe in a little bit..."
he let it out and set it on CJ's floor and it was scary.
we all put our feet up cause we was scurred.

kash left and then liz and ben came.
gibb and dave left.

liz and ben fight EXACTLY like me and justin.
like.. exactly.
ben even says the exact same things as justin.
i should start handling things like liz does.

"ben, i'm hungry."-liz
"what do you want me to do about it? walk to my house and eat a hoagie."-ben
"im not walking to your house iwth everyone home to eat and then leave."-liz
ben calls his mom.
"don't!! you're going to say i want to eat a hoagie."-liz
"what's wrong with that?"-ben

then they argued about going to BP.
i told liz i would walk with her.
she said she didnt feel liek walking.
but she kept on asking ben to walk with her.
ben said he didnt want to.
finally when their fighting got really bad, just liek justin does when our fights get bad, ben started to try to hurt liz's feelings:

"you're so annoying. you're with me 24/7 you never give me a break. why don't you leave me alone for a second? you're always up my ass."-ben
"shut up ben."-liz

she handled it so camly.
i would've started to cry, put on my shoes and stomped out of the house if it was me.
i'm a little baby.

anywyas, ben walked to BP and came back with chicken nuggets.

while he was gone,
tracy called and asked if i wanted to come over.
i told her i didn't have a ride and i wouldn't have a way back.
she asked me why i need to come back,
i said because justin's mom asked me to stay so i told her i would.
she said shed bring me back later.
so she picked me up.

i went to her house with her and chris.
chris's two friends were over from erie.
i met them and shook hands and said hello.
justin conrad and his girlfriend margaret were over, too.
i fixed margaret's myspace.

funny story:
while i was sitting there, tracy comes over and says,
"okay so, apparently you're a popular myspace one."-tracy
"what do you mean?"-lisa
"well, those two guys found you on myspace at their house and i was like, 'um thats my sister.'"-tracy
"what did they say for you to say that i was your sister?"-lisa
"they had your myspace up on my computer and i was like 'hey thats my sister!!' and they were like 'nuh uh!!!' and chris was like 'dude, thats her sister.' and we showed them your senior pics on the fridge. so like, they've been DYING to meet you and i told them 'this weekend would've been a good one since her boyfriends in jail' and they looked at each other and said, 'we're going to pittsburgh.'"-tracy

HAHAHA. i laughed. it was cute, i guess.

anyways, so i drank a little rum n coke.
it was good, although i never drink.
one full glass and i already had a buzz.
tracy said it was strong, though.

anywyas, so we smoked and chilled.
then justin conrad and this other guy passed out.
sooo.. we painted justin's fingernaisl and toenails.

then, the other guy was in his friend's car so we wouldn't fuck with him.
we go down there and he's passed out.
the passenger door doesn't open, so i got in from the driver side.
i put makeup all over the one side of his face.
it was so funny because he was moving all around and talking and stuff but he didn't know what was going on.

anywyas, so tracy took me back to justin's and i went upstiars and fell asleep.

this morning i woke up at about 12:30 and here i am.
i ate breakfast with april and ed.

april said yesterday justin called her mom
and was asking where i was again,
and told her to make sure i'm there with whoever picks him up.
(he said that the day before when he called, haha)
he's soooo cute!!
he gave her a bunch of numbers to get a hold of me to make sure i'm there.

i'm kinda glad he can't call me himself,
becuase this way we don't have any contact with each other for a whole 72 hours.
and this makes us love each other more.
plus, it helps me realize that i actually can live without him.
(even though it's hard.)

yesterday i wore his boy deodrant because mine was in my car and i couldn't find hsi girls kind,
and everytime i lifted my arms up it reminded me of laying on him, falling asleep, because i lay in hsi arm and i can smell his deodrant.

i miss him.
this is the last day i have to be without him.
one more night of sleeping alone!!
i love my boy. so much.

i was talkign ot tracy about moving to pittsburgh becuase that's where i'll be going to school at and i told her how i'm going to get a job at hooters.
she asked me if justin would come with me.
i wonder...
becuase i would go regardless, it's just that.. i'd like him to come.

anyways, i'm done for now.

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:: 2006 9 June :: 11.48 pm

well, after i wrote today..

i washed and dryed my clohtes and then hopped in the shower.
when i got out, i sent amber a text from aim and she asked if i wanted to go to the mall,
she said lexi, liza, liz, ben, cj, and kash were going.
soo liza and shane picked me up.
we went to my house to pick up liz and ben, met lexi amber cj and kash at BP on 51, and went to the mall.

we had lotsss of fun at the mall.
i got some new cute, fuzzy, soft slippers, two beaters, two pairs of earrings, a pair of sunglasses, and a pair of the cutest undies!!
everyone else got a bunch of cute things as well.. i can't wait to go back.

after we left the mall, me, liz, ben, and liza dropped shane off at val's and went to liza's house.

after we left liza's we went to cj's and chilled with everybody else.
the girls left and i blazed with cj and ben cause nobody knows where to get buds. justin left me some last night, though. and i got in a fight with ben about it becuase i'm using it sparingly. i mean, i only have a little bit to last me the whole weekend and he wants me to smoke it with him in one day. uhh nOOOO!!!

anyways
adam kash stopoped over for a second,
the girlies came back,
adam left.
we chilled.
we watched hostel,
and we just as quickly turned it off because it's gross.
liza dropped me off and here i am at justin's.

okay so i had the most awesome day today and i hate not sharing it with my baby but the best part of my day was when april (justin's mom) called cj's phone to tell me that justin had called his grandma and told her it wasn't that bad but he asked about me and wanted to know where i was and what i was doing and to tell me he misses me alreayd and to be there with whoever goes to pick him up on monday.

isn't that freaking cute?!?!i wanted to seriously cry.
i was like, "thanks april!"
as soon as i got off the phone with her my stomach twisted.
i was thinking, "damn. three days without even talking to that boy..."
ugh i just want 9am on monday morning to come FAST!

tomorrow, i am pretyt sure me and the girlies are going out for a GIRLS' NIGHT OUT at the Baltimore House and we're going to dress up and be cuteeee!
it was funny because that kid from wal-mart called liza and asked her to go cosmic bowling and she told him that's where she was, so we actually made plans to do it tomorrow night. haha.

anyways, i'm closing this up.
i'm probably going to head upstairs to watch tv and fall asleep.

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:: 2006 9 June :: 10.12 am

okay so.. i'm trying to remember what i've done since i last wrote.
i have a really bad memory and i do pretty much the same thing everyday, so pretty soon those days start to run into each other.

i did write it all down once before when i tried updating yesterday,
but i put that paper in my jeans and i threw my jeans in the washer about a half an hour ago.

i don't know.

i last wrote on Wednesday.

Thursday, June 1
The alternator on my car went bad.
Me, Justin, and Nikki went to Bev's to eat some chicken&biscuits.
Justin went to fix my car and me, matt, n nikki went to my graduation ceremony.
I was like, real mad at Justin for not coming even though he was fixing my car and didn't have a ride, i was still mad.

mary came over matt n nikki's.
casey fought clay and when rebecca got to nikki's we all left to go see it.
i didn't really talk to justin too much because i was so mad.
i told him we needed to spend time apart and i slept over amtt n nikki's.

he was mad because i was with mary and he doesn't want me to "get involved with the wrong things."
even though it's not even liek that, but okay.

Friday, June 2
i woke up and i am pretty sure i chilled at matt n nikki's all day.
i don't know though cause i really can't remember.
i don't see myself sitting in one place the whole day but i don't think i know of anything else i did.
a bunch of people came over.
mary came over again.
jeremy was there with josh hough.
i didn't talk to justin all day because i was still mad and towards the night we started fighting real bad.
it started out that he was mad because i was sitting real close to shaun on the couch.. but we were looking through a magazine, wtf?
when he left, he kept on calling me telling me not to call him (??)
who does that?
i wasn't answering my phone so he started sending me text messages and leaving me voicemails.
he told me to move my car away from out front his house.
he was doing it because he knew i couldn't start my car and thought it would get me worked up.
but it didn't.
instead i just walked down and started up my car and it actually worked.
i parked it at matt n nikki's and not too long after he was sending me more text messages saying it was getting towed.
i told him it was already gone and when he realized it wasn't in front of his house anymore, he walked to matt n nikki's to slice my tire.
childish!!

then when he realized nothing was getting to me, he sent me a text message, saying something like, "yeah and i fucked your so-called best friend."
i couldn't really think of who it could've been because i don't really have friends let alone best friends,
but then i thought about it and thought it could've been sarah ludwick becuase lately i've been trying to be friends with her agian since we've drifted apart.
so i sent her a text message and she said it was true but it wasn't recently.
she said it was when her and ryan broke up.
i have no idea when that was though but when i asked her if it was after february she said no.
then when i was asking her something else she turned into a bitch and was like, "who cares?"
i was like, "umm i care??? you had sex with my boyfriend??"
she might've said that he wasn't my boyfriend at the time.. but i can't remember.
but i do know she said to me, "now you know hwo i felt when he became your boyfriend."
what the fuck?!?!?!?
no.. no you don't.
first off, she had a boyfriend of like 3 years who she said she was going to marry.
secdonly, she went and told everyone that justin gave her herpes and how bad she hated him and everything,
so... i KINDA got the impression that she DIDN'T liek him.

and besides the fact, i am pretty sure i remember her dating this kid i was talking to and was like in absolute LOVE with behind my back,
so no.. i think you might be one up on me, sarah.

anyways, i'm getting fiesty about it now so i'm stopping.
to sum it up i called her a whore and stuff and i dunno.

that night, a little bit later, justin was calling me telling me he was sorry for everything.
he said he'd buy a new tire and blah blah blah.
he said he didn't have sex with her recently, it was way before we even started dating.. when i actually KNEW about it.
but umm that doesn't makesense because, "why would you say it then?" and he said, "because i'm gay and i wanted to make you mad."
okay well it worked and i don't want to talk to you so fuck off.

that's basically how it went.

and then i found out that apparently they hung out last week.
to that one, he said again, "you knew about it. it was when i was on my bike. i told you i saw her every time i did."
but there were 5 people that were trying to tell on him with completely different stories, so it didn't help me out much.
i talked to him for a little bit that night after i got off the phone with shaun.

Saturday, June 3
i woke up and justin called me and he wanted me to come outside to talk and blah blah blah.
i gave in, finally and he was like, "dont send me any text messages, i'll talk to you about ti when i get there."
well, while i was waiting, sarah was sending me text messages saying like that he was on the phone with her all last night crying to her and blah blah blah and he calls her everytime i leave his house and he always wants to hang out with her.
well, i believed it because.. why wouldn't i?
i mean, i don't believe it,
but i definitely do NOT believe him.
i forwarded him every message she sent me and when he got there and i started screaming at him, the first thing he did was take my phone and smash it on the ground.
****brand new phone****
the only reason i had it was because he smashed my old one over the saaaaaame girl.
becuase i was texting her and erased my text messages.
so i was pissed.
he grabbed me up and held me close to him to hug him but i was like, really pissed.
he breaks everything. what the fuck!?!?
and i had a broken heart because my mom bought me a new cell phone cover for my graduation that he didn't even come to.

he started whining to me about how she's a bitcha dn blah blah blah and he never hung out with her, he just saw her when he was on his bike waiting for shaun and tadd and was bullshitting with her while he did so.
bunch of bs. you know.
it went on and on like that, he found all the pieces to my phone and said he'll buy me a new one and buy me a new tire and blah blah.
he told me to call him if i decided "not to believe some stupid ugly bitch who wants to break us up over my boyfriend of a year who cares about me a lot."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
needless to say, i DIDN'T call him.

I slept over matt n nikki's.

Sunday, June 4
I woke up and walked to Jenna's.
it was rainign, but i didn't care.
i wanted to take a shower because i felt disgusting.
jenna wasn't even home so jarrod dropped me off at justin's.
i can't even remember what i did all day,
but he was all, "lisa. i miss you. i hate sleeping without you. i love you..."
i told him that i didn't believe him,
but that i didn't believe anybody else, either.
i said that we aren't going to be together,
and that we need to spend days apart sometimes.
he said he understood that and everythign was okay for the most part.

but... like i said, i can't remember anything from sunday.. soo.. moving on.

i slept at matt n nikki's, though..

Monday, June 5
I woke up and got ready for school.
I couldn't get ahold of Becca cause I didn't know her number since I didn't have my phone, so i walked down to her mom's.
she wasn't there, so when i walked back to matt n nikki's, i got ahold of justin and he gave me her number.
when i called her she said she was over her dad's and she would ask the lady if i could get a ride to school with them.
well, the lady didn't go for it,
so i walked to justin's.
he wasn't there, but april was and she talked to me about everything.
when we were done talking, she dropped me off at cj's.
we chilled there with jeremy and cj and then we walked back to his house.
we went to mcdonald's and covol picked us up and took us back to his house.
he said he had to go help his friend, so he left on his bike and i walked to the park.
kris and christina were sittin in jay's car so i got in and bullshitted a little bit with them.
i got out when they were ready to leave and sat on the bench while jeremy played basketball.
justin came down and told me he was done and asked me what i was going to do.
he turned into a jerk and was like, "i don't want you to go to cj's."
i was like, "okay well you knew i was going to."
he left to meet lex there and me and jeremy smoked a bowl under the pavillion.
liza, liz, and ben pulled up to tell me that bishop was at cj's.
so i was all, "ohhh THAT'S why you didn't want me to go to cj's?!!?!?"
so liza took me up there and by the time we got there she was gone but justin was still there for me to bitch him out without letting him get a word in elsewise.
when i was crying, walking down the street, he chased me down and said, "ACTUALLY I DIDN'T HAVE ANY IDEA THE WHORE WAS GOING TO BE THERE!! CJ SAID IT WAS KASH'S FAULT SHE WAS THERE CAUSE HER AND CODY WANTED A DIME!!! SO DON'T GO ASSUMING THINGS BEFORE YOU EVEN LISTEN TO ME!!!"
i was in my, "yeah right" mood so i walked away.
liza picked me up and when i got in the car they told me he was right and blah blah yeah yeah okay i was wrong.
he called liz to make sure they picked me up and asked for me and when i got on the phone he said sorry for yelling at me and i could come back to cj's if i want.

we smoked a blunt and then went back to cj's.
we chilled there for the rest of the night and i'm pretty sure that's where we slept.
yep,
on the little couch.
amber said it was cute cause we were all cuddled up together.
i don't even remember,
i just know he woke up every 10 minutes cause he was so uncomfortable on that couch.
we were laaying together and then we were laying opposite and then he was laying on the floor next to me and we shared a blanket.

Tuesday, June 6
we woke up and everyoen rolled.
we all decided to go to creek falls,
so me and justin went back to his house to get ready.
everyone left, because me and justin were lookign for a ride,
and we found out kris, wes, buddy, and christina were going so we FINALLY found a ride out there when barry dropped us off on his way to work.
kris, wes, and buddy weren't there so me and justin chilled with christina as we all threw rocks at each other and kris's dad talked about how they used to have spit fights when he was little.
he said it was something we probably have never heard of.
me and justin just looked at each other and smiled.
he winked at me and then we told kris's dad about the time when we spent a whole day walking around belle vernon, spitting on each other when i was in like 8th grade.
i can't help but love that boy.
i always have and i probably always will.
he's the kind that gets you hooked even when you think you won't.

anyways, when the boys got there we all headed out.
kris drove all the way to the falls. it was so much fun.
but when we got there, nobody was there,
and the current was super strong since it had been rainign for a few days.
we all just smoked a blunt and then left.
four wheeling through the woods was the best part.
'specially when we thought we were getting stuck in the water.

shaun picked me and justin up from kris's house and then we went back to cj's.
we chilled there and a bunch of people came over.
i think alycia, bishop, and jamie came over and we all smoked a blunt.
everyone left and then justin called shaun to give me a ride home.
that's right.. my house.

in the morning i talked to justin on the phone for a while, while he was waiting to get tattooed.
Lexi and Amber picked me up and dropped me off at his house when he got back.
Him and Jeremy were there.
We walked to Becker's and then CJ's.
Justin was a dickhead all day to like, nearly everyone, especially kash, becuase he was high on pills from his tattoo appointment.
everyone came over because when CJ went on house arrest, everyone else did too and that's the way it is.
early in the night justin called the bed for us with CJ and Amber and a few hours later, i crashed.

Thursday, June 8
Jeremy asked us how all four of us fit on that bed and we told him it was easy not to take up a lot of room.
especially because justin sleeps pretty much ontop of me with his leg wrapped over me and his arm across me, using me as a body pillow.

We walked to Justin's not too long after we woke up and chilled for a minute.
He picked me a pretty rose because as soon as i saw them i said how pretty they were.
we took a shower and cam picked us up and took us back to CJ's.
We chilled and the girls got there.
(i love those girls.)
Me, Lexi, Amber, and Liza all went to Lexi and Liza's and then we went to Wal-Mart where we gave this really hot guy Liza's number.
We went back to CJ's and all chilled.
Chubby and Erinn came over and left and then came back with Alycia and cookies from eat n park.
they all chilled for a minute but then left.
we stayed there til about 1:00 and then justin's mom came to pick us up.
We went back to his house where we went straight upstairs to go to sleep.
Suprisingly, he said something to me that he's never said before.
"Roll a blunt if you want, if not I'm going to sleep."
Roll a blunt?
Justin has never once let me ever roll a blunt. He has even said numerous times that he will never let anyone else roll his blunts.
Well, I got undressed and he said, "you're not going to roll one, then?"
i said, "only if you realize that i can't roll them as good as you and that it's not going to be perfect."
he said okay and i told him he wasn't allowed to make fun of me, either.
he said okay and smiled.
i rolled it but the whole time he was throwing the blanket over me so i would mess up.
luckily, very luckily, i didn't.
it turned out okay.
it was short and fat, how mine always are.
we smoked it, loved each other, and then went to sleep.

in the morning, april woke me up at 7:00.
justin was already taking a bath.
i got dressed and we left.
we ate breakfast at King's, but Justin didn't feel good so he went to sleep in the car.
I fell asleep on the way there,
but we finally got there and dropped justin off at jail after he gave me a kiss and hopped out of the car.

i missed him as soon as we started driving away, but it will only be a couple days. i'll see him on monday, bright and early at 9am.

soo... here i am.
at justin's house.
i was going to go to sleep as soon as i got here, but i wasn't even tired anymore.
i have to put clothes in the dryer though, so im peacing out.

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:: 2006 31 May :: 11.23 pm


well, i'm stoned.

today.. i woke up early.
justin had his hearing, so he got ready for that and then left and i got ready for school.
i came home from school having accomplished practically nothing,
well actually i didn't go home, i picked justin up at matt&nikki's.
him and nikki got into a fight today so we left as soon as i got there.

we went to get my income tax check, went for a ride, and then picked up jeremy.
today was the last day of my inspection sticker,
so i decided i should get to that.
i needed a mirror and left front brakes because they were grinding again.
dusty said he could do it so we took it to him.
i have to get my admissions (?) thing done and then i'm good to go.

ill write more later i gotta meet my boyfriend.
he's on his bicycle and we're going for a ride.

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:: 2006 30 May :: 11.18 pm

well, justin is off riding his little bike.
he's soo freaking cute.
this morning he got a hair cut.
i want to tackle him to the ground.

tomorrow is his hearing.
i'm sad. =(
his attorney siad atleast three days.
damnit.
but it's liek i said, "atleast it's not three months." ..or three years for that matter.

ahh oh well.
today he went to creek falls.
he's so cute.
he's all sunburned and stuff.
i love him.
and lately i've been crazy about him.
idk?

soo i didn't go to work for the past two days.
sh.
i get paid on friday, my chekcs gonna suck.
i want a new job sooo bad.
luckily, i'm taking a job placement test in school and they're probably giving me a scholarship. well, that's what my principal said.


anyways, i'm out.

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:: 2006 29 May :: 11.26 pm

well, i'm sick as usual.
i have a really bad sore throat and a stuffy nose and it sucks but i'm pretending it's all cool.

last night.. i slept over my house.
weird, i know.
well it all started because...

the other day, justin decides he wants to buy a bike.
that's right.. a bicycle.
so he goes and spends $400 on a new bike.
he loves it.
seriously.
so he goes out and rides around with his little friends.
it's soo cute.
anyways, last night, when i got off work,
i wanted to smoke a blunt,
so i got some bud and i had matt get me a blunt.
well, he got me a wrap.
so i was like, "aww i never rolled a wrap..."
he said he didn't know how.
i asked justin to and he was all whiney, "nooo i wanna ride my bikkee."
so i rolled it myself.
i was so sure i was going to rip it.
but it turned out to be the nicest blunt i ever rolled and..
a lot nicer than anyone else's (except for boyfriend's perfect ones.)
soo i was going to just blaze it to the dome but i decided to call up a few heads and see if anyone was down.
i ended up meeting chelsey and denn in sentown and then picking up ludwick.
we went for a little smoke ride and then we dropped them back off and me and sarah talked outside her house for a minute.
i love that girl too much.
anywyas,
after that, i went home.

real home.

i talked to my mom and she gave me a bunch of mail and a letter she wrote me.
she's the cutest mom ever. i love HER too much as well.
i slept in liz's comfy bed.

in the morning, i woke up, layed there for a second and then got ready for the day.
i decided to leave the house,
and justin called me as i was pulling out of my driveway.
he said he had just woke up and wanted me to come over.
it was soooo hot out that we went down to crystal pool because his mom was there with her neice and her neice's son.
the water was freezing.
i ate a bunch of fries there though.
and i almost passed out waiting for them.
i was seriously so hot.
i was standing there, chillin. waiting for justin's peice of pizza.
tap-tap-tap on my shoulder.: josh albaugh.
i turn around he's like, "hi."
i wa slike what's up?
he's like, "you shrunk."
i'm like, "i grew."
he's like, "no. you shrunk."
haha people keep telling me i look smaller.
wtf?
today jenn was like, "LIS!!! YOU LOOK TEENY TINY!!"
idk?
she's like, "what do you do????!!!!"
i was like, "...i eat..?"
she asked if i exercise.
i was like, "i wish."

anyways, so after we left the pool, (which didn't take long because i didn't want to go in the freezing cold water) we went back to his house and he got his little bike to go riding with his friends and i went over jenevieve's.
her and adam got in a big fight for like a couple minutes when we went to meet him somewhere and the neighbors were all staring and ugh, it was crazy. i was sure cops would be there a-sap.
we went back to her house and smoked an l.
justin came over her house and him and i went to eat n park.
i got a delicious garden burger and he got hot roast beef.
we had some yummy chicken noodle like always.

we went to johnny's and chilled for a second and then i left when him and shaun were leaving to go ride bikes [[AGAIN!]].
i went back to jenna's and chileld for a second.
watching a tv show on crazy things celebrities spend their money on.

jenna was getting ready to go to sleep, because she has school in the morning, so i went to meet justin by the cemy to get his house keys.
eugene rolled up on us, so he started putting his bike in the car so we wouldn't look suspicious.
he got out a couple yards down the road and here i am now.

income tax check came, i think that's what i'm getting my car inspected with.
i need a new job, actually.
i'm thinking something secretarial.
i'm going to make a resume at school tomorrow.

yeaahhh, so uh.. anyways.
nothing new.
i'm out. peace.

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:: 2006 25 May :: 10.49 am

well, i'm getting ready for school.
bub's is at a hearing thing or a pre-hearing thing, actually.
he'll get back before i do from school, but i don't know what we're going to do today.
i have to work at 5, so that sucks.

like, lately, we have been arguing a lot.
but the past two days we've been perfect.
it's good to talk when you're getting along,
that way things can be worked out logically.
and we decided, we're not going to break up,
but we're going to start spending a little bit of time apart.
like, we'll still ahng out all day but i just won't sleep there.
but then he is like, well, "blah blah i don't want you sleeping anywhere else."
but then that kinda defeats the purpose if i still live with him.
soo i'm not sure where we're going with this.

that boy is crazy.
he puts a lock on his phone, tells me what it is.
so i know what it is for like a month.
then, i deleted text messages out of my phone and..
well, he broke it.
sooo $200 phone down the drain.
the next day i went and bought a new one for $180.
ridiculous. money i DIDN'T really need to spend on a new phone.
so then he changed the code on his phone.
i found out it was changed,
i put one on mine,
he tells me what his is so i take the one off mine.
nikki says, "what's good for you isn't good for him, if he's dishing it out he should be able to take it." we call him a pussy. haha.

soo, my graduation ceremony is on the first.
excited? yeah, maybe.

on friday me and justin are going to dinner and then a pirates game.
cute huh? you haven't heard the best part..
fireworks.
...told you. it's going to be the best date ever.

he has a hearing on the third.
for us getting pulled over in the d in october.
he has it set that he's going to jail,
and i'm certainly not bailing him out.
everyone else says they don't think so.
i think he has a good chance either way.
sucks for him.

i'm almost done with school.
i finished my enlgish classes, my biology classes,
and now i have consumer math, economics, and some algebra thing.
i hate math.
i write down all my questions and bring them home for justin.

due to people's convincing and a stern talking to with nikki,
i decided to get back on my medicine.
i went and picked it up yesterday, in fact..
right after i paid my parking ticket.
i was always, "how is taking a pill going to make my whole perspective on things different???"
but everyone talked me into it, so i'm back on 'em.

speaking of pills.
my period is FUCKED.
okay look, when i skip a couple pills in a row close to my period time, my period will come.
well, i skipped like two.
then, the next week, i skipped like two more in a row.
then, the next week, i took them perfect.
then the next week, i was supposed to start my period.
day before my period was supposed to come, i had like spotted bleeding or whatever it's called.
then the next day, it was gone and my period never came.
so i didn't start taking my pills again on sunday like i was supposed to,
and i guess i'll make an appointment to take a pregnancy test and get new pills.
hopefully, i'm not pregnant. that would sort of suck, kinda.

so i've been thinking,
with the help of my better half,
and i think i'm going to get my car off of my dad,
drive that around and save money because it's better with gas and such.
becuase the caddy needs an inspection.
so i'll drive my other car that my dad got inspected for me,
get the caddy painted,
i'm pretty sure i'm going with a green color since it's my favorite,
but me and justin have been talking about pink.
pink would be extremely pimp.
speaking of pimp, denol is also going to detial it.
my leather is a little worn,
so he refinishes it-like.
they make the leather look brand new
and then they steam my roof and carpets and everything.
but what am i going to do with two cars???
probably give one to my boyfriend.
i don't know if he can drive a stick, though.
despite what he says.

uhh either way,
i'm livin day by day,
and i hope my medicine works.

i've been pretty happy lately,
but i gotta go to school. its 11:00 and that's when i susally get there.

PEACE!!

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:: 2006 17 May :: 12.46 pm

well, to update...

a couple weeks ago,
my mom called me and said i had to go to the police station.
so, i go there, and they were telling me how justin and i were in trouble for that myspace with naked pictures of bishop.
i told them he had nothign to do with it and that it was all me and i had to write a statement stating that he was unaware of my actions.
so i did.
he was like,
"are you aware of the severity of your actions??"
i was like, "no."
he was like, "you put naked pictures of a juvenile on the internet."
i was like, "she deserved it."
i didn't go to work that day and the next time i was there kaitlin was cracking up. she was like, "THAT'S SUCH A GOOD IDEA!!" and said i shoudl've jsut printed them out and put them everywhere.
i didn't do that because she would've thought it was justin.
sooo justin's not in trouble because he doesn't need anymore problems in that area.
the cop told me i basically get a slap on the wrist. he said i'm not really getting into any trouble. i have a hearing and probation. probably some fines. no biggie.

other than that, i didn't go to school today. i woke up at 11:11 and was like, "ahh fuck."

yesterday i went to jenna's and helped her do her scrapbook while jusitn was in wheeling with his mom and grandma.

also, i went to wal-mart and got some undies, make-up, air-fresheners, and cute hair clippies.

uhh other than that, i'm waiting for my clothes to come out of the dryer and justin to get out of the bathtub.
i'm mad at him because he raced me to the bathroom, got there first, and knowing i had to pee, he peed all over the toilet and left it there.
so i punched him and came downstairs. ass.

yesterday we got into a fight because i wrote him a mean letter.
nikki said don't worry about it, and we were fine in a couple opf mintues.
like aaaaalways.

anywyas, im out. ill write more later.

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:: 2006 5 May :: 3.33 pm

i'm bored.

i'm at justin's house.
he is getting a tattoo.
i couldn't go with him because i had school, but i wish i could've.

i am in a weird mood.
i've BEEN in a weird mood.
i don't know what's up.

sometimes i just want to put all my shit in my trunk and run away.
i don't even know why i feel liek that.
but i do.
i cry sometimes and justin yells at me because i can't tell him why.

the only thing i can think of is everything bundled together just gets to me. i get stressed out.

look,
i haven't seen my mom in sooo long.
i miss her so much.
ontop of that, my dad gives me a hard time about never calling him,
but he never calls me either.
i'm happy to have justin, but sometimes i want to be by myself.
that's the main reason why i left cody.
i got bored and sick of everything and i was done for good.
but then me and justin started to get close again and all the old feelings i always had for him got stronger and i forgot about wanting to be by myself.
i love justin a lot and it scares me.
i'm sooo afraid of being hurt.
i was in a relationship for three years where i was constantly cheated on and i'm scared to trust people.
like justin.. i definitely don't trust him.
it's not anything against him, but i just won't let go.
i feel like he doesn't love me enough.
he gets so mad at me saying that, but i do.
we've been sort of together since like last july,
but a lot of things happened in that time period.
and then when we started dating,
we agreed to exclusively see only each other.
but you see,
what most people don't know is..
sarah bishop and i haven't always tried to rip each other's heads off every time we've talked.
and there were times when she's told me a lot of stuff that would piss any sane person off.
but for me.. i don't really get "pissed off." i get hurt.
she doesn't know it, but i believed everything she's ever told me.
she might not believe everything i've told her, but i don't try to start up random lies, and i kinda get the vibe that she's sort of the same way.

there are some things about justin.
like.. i know he likes me a lot.
there are just some certain things that make me believe that.
things he doesn't know about.
like.. one time when i looked over his shoulder when he was on aol, he had me in a separate group. "babe"
or.. the things he tells his friends that they tell me,
the way he pulls me close to him in the middle of the night,
the way he gets soo worried when i am upset.

there are a million different reasons.
but then there are two million reasons that i can name that really hurt me.
like the things that bishop told me a long time ago,
he admits to everything, and he says it was a long time ago, but it still hurts to think about it.
liek the fact that i'm second-best. (not second-best to bishop, but second-best to someone else. she knows who she is and he knows who she is.)
when i say that to him, he says, "who do i talk to every day?, who do i spend all my time with? who do i spend all my money on?... etc.,"
but it's just that feeling in the pit of my stomach.
he denies that so my feelings aren't crushed, but i know the truth.

i don't talk to anyone anymore.
there's pretty much a certain group of people who i keep in touch with and still then, i don't talk to them very often.
i want to move away.
i can't wait to be finished with school.

and ontop of everything,
i can't wait for the drama to end.

everyone says, "just ignore her, she'll stop,"
but no. i know she won't.
i don't know what this is all about, but i wish i did.
we both know that both of our fights were better on my part,
but neither of us know what would've happened if they wouldn't have been broken up.
and actually, i don't give a fuck anymore.
i just want it finished.
i was talking to one of my sorta-friends the other day.
i was telling her how like, i know justin doesn't call sarah anymore,
i mean, honestly, she is not someone that i'm jealous of.
she's not something that i'm really worried about,
especially when there is *someone* else out there that probably loves him, even though she won't admit it.
and especially because i know he would drop me in a second for that *someone*.
but sarah,
i don't know what her deal is.
what is this even all over?
if she says she doesn't like justin anymore, then why does she hate me?
i don't even SEE her, let alone talk to her.
i don't talk to ANYONE to talk "about" her.
i don't know what's going on.

the other day cody called me.
well, i guess it was cody.
and it was more liek the other week.
well, i didn't answer because i was asleep.
when i called the number back,
he said it had to have been cody because noone else was over his house, and that cody was drunk, and he probably called.

i wish things would've turned out a little different.
like,
when i broke up with cody i wanted nothing to do with him.
welll, when you spend a lot of time with soemone, you get pretty close to them.
so.. many, many times i tried to be friends.
it never worked because he's always wanted something more.
and i don't want that.

i never regret breaking up with cody.
there were too many complications in our relationship.

but i wish that jealousy didn't exist.
and i wish that cody would stop having feelings for me.

no, i take that back.
becuase after a bunch of shit went down,
i said i never wanted to talk to him again, and i meant it,
for justin's sake.
it hurt him, and i never want him to be hurt,
as many times as he can hurt me,
i'm the kind of person that wants to be friends with everyone.

i don't know, i've spent a lot of time rambling on,
i'm going to nikki's to wait for my baby.

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:: 2006 3 May :: 1.53 pm

i didn't go to school today.
i was too tired.
i sorta wish i would've, though.
today i was supposed to start Keys to Life and get my picture taken.

yesterday,
i went to school and when i came home,
i chilled at tadd's with justin.

we went on a smoke ride with shaunzie,
and then me and justin went to applebee's.
i didn't even eat mine because i thought it was gross,
but justin loved his..

after applebee's, i can't really remember what we did.
we ended up with jeremy somehow and we chilled over matt n nikki's.
we came home at like 12:00 and fell asleep at like 3 in the morning.

that's why i couldn't wake up for school.

anyways.
nothing too much.
i could really go for a thick juicy piece of chocolate cake right about now.

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:: 2006 2 May :: 10.12 am

okay, so after i was done on here, i went to her thing and saw she wrote a blog about yesterday. pretty much the same thing i wrote but a little bit different. like.. she said i called the cops.. no, i didn't even know what was going on.

and stuff liek that.

also, liz and i were talking and we both think it is pathetic that she made up a profile myspace.com/lindalindabo
and she comments herself about me.
she was sending me messages from that myspace that she had set as private, pretending to be that girl and talking shit on me, saying things like,
"i heard you guys fought again and she beat your ass again!!!"
when sarah left herself a comment from that fake myspace,
liz read it and went to the girl's thing,
and sometimes myspace messes up and private profiles don't always come up as private.
well, that's what happened and liz said there was nothing on her site except her default picture, her headline, and her two friends: tom... and sarah.
wow, talk about gettign a life.

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:: 2006 2 May :: 9.02 am

well, i just woke up.
justin went somewhere with his mom.
i am going to get a shower pretty soon.
juust waiting for my clothes to dry.

yesterday, justin was going to go to basketball,
so i met my mom to borrow some money to get my hair cut.
well, he forgot hsi shorts so he decided just to shoot down dq.
there wasn't a place for me to park, so i circled like four times.
finally, i found one, so i was sitting there waiting for him.
he starts to get in the car, and this guy came up to him and shut the door on justins ankle.
he got in justin's face and was saying that he was going to kill him.
i was just sitting there and i was thinking wtf?
so i was like, "who is that??"
and the guy was like, "put your hands on my daughter, i'll kill you."
so i was thinking what the fuck??
justin said he was going to call the cops if the guy didn't get out of his face,
but the guy said he didn't care, he told justin to call the cops because all the cops in the area couldn't stop him.
i don't know, so justin got out of the car and approached the cop that was already down the park.

i later found out that the guy happened to be sarah's dad, and he is talking about the fight that sarah and i were in the other week.
i don't know, justin didnt touch her, shaun becker carried her away because she was laying in the middle of the street... ??

i just think it's ridiculous that a 40-year-old man is going to threaten a little boy. how tough can you get? if you want to fight someone, go after my dad. he's a little bit shorter, but he was in the military, too. he'll be a good match.

jeremy said her mom was calling them white trash and things liek that. grow up.

i am sick of all of this bullshit.
oh my asijdfhasdjk GOSG!!!!

how would you feel if..

okay, you start dating this really nice guy and you spend the night at his house to wake up and find your driver side mirror busted off by his ex-girlfriend?
and then, she starts running her mouth about you.
being the bigger person, i ignored it for a while.
people talk shit, who cares?
well, then she said she was going to beat me up.
i gave her the chance and she was unsuccessful.
then she pours paint stripper or something similiar down passenger the side of my car.

can you say psycho?

now she is saying that justin keeps calling her all the time, all the time.
what i want to know is..
#1. why answer then?
#2. where are the phone records? you keep saying you have them, so press charges!!!

the cops keep saying to ignore her and she will eventually stop.
well, i don't see it happening and i'm sick of it.

i honestly have my own problems and i don't feel liek dealing with these ones.
i know you are probably reading this because my mom told me you and your mother said you both read it every day.
so the only thing i have to say to you two is to please stop.
i know saying that is like talkign to a brick wall, because i've asked sarah about a million times, but oh well. it's worth a shot.

people always say things to me like,
"ohh wait, justin cheated on her with you?" -no.
"so then why is she mad?" -i don't know.
"did you have anything to do with their break up?" -no.
"did your car have anything to do with their break up?" -no.
"didn't you beat her up like two times? why does she still wanna fight?" -it got broken up too soon, obviously she didn't get enough.

you told me i did you a favor by dating him,
so why do you hate me for it?

you have a boyfriend and a new life.
please, stay out of mine.
leave me, my boyfriend, my sister, and my car alone.

anyways, i am going to go take a shower so i can get to school.

peace.

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:: 2006 29 April :: 10.56 am
:: Mood: chilly
:: Music: none

well, i'm waiting for justin to get out of the shower.
he takes fast ones so this isn't going to be long.

i just wanted to give a little update.

i started school on monday and i actually like, love it.
i go whenever i want, leave whenever i want, do whatever i what.
and so far, i'm doing great. =)
i'm definitely going to graduate in no time!
yesterday, i took like 12 tests.

other than that, i haven't really been doing anything.
my uncle that gave me a car is coming home monday,
so i might actually get my car pretty soon.
but i know, i know.. i always say that.

it will be about time, though,
because i think my grandpap might need his car back for a little bit,
my mom says his other one is breaking,
there is something burning or something.
i hate to give it back looking like shit,
but there's nothing i can do about it.
i wish the insurance would go through so it will be paid for.
i don't think we even reported it to them yet.

other than that, nothing reall yhas been up.
i went back to work after my ankle got better.
back to the drama.
i hate that place.

i've been... happy, i guess.
i haven't been to pleased with the fact that a certain someone is calling my work, checking to see if i am there or not.
my mom told my managers to tell anyone who calls that it's none of their business.

other than that,
i got a flat tire the other day.
my very first.
i didn't know what it was,
because i got back to justin's at like 10:45,
and at 11:15, ed walks in the door and tells em my tire is flat.
i wasn't sure how tires could go flat that fast,
but the next day, i made an attempt to change it myself.
i never did it before, but i've seen my step dad do it,
so i figured it couldn't be that hard.
well, we found out, either i ran over a sharp piece of metal that just hit the edge of it, or it couldv'e been slit.
either way, i got brand new front ones.
and i needed them, anyway.

there really isn't much else to say,
plus, justin is out of the shower.
so i'm out. lataa.

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:: 2006 28 April :: 10.17 am

i am getting ready for school.
i'm waiting for my hair to dry a little bit so i'm not blow-drying it for hours.
it sucks having thick hair.

anywyas,
so how about, i write these entries to be somewhat private.
i mean, i know they're probably going to be read by SOMEONE,
but the point i'm trying to get to is,
i've recently found out that a certain someone and her mother are constantly checking up on my journal.
i really don't appreciate it, because i sort of feel it's a violation of my privacy. it's no one else's business what i write in here,
and the sole purpose of my updates are so i, myself, can look back on a later date and remember what i was up to.
so please, if you're not my friend, and/or if you're here to judge me, please leave. i don't bother anyone.

anyways, i'll write more later.

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:: 2006 17 April :: 6.58 pm
:: Mood: lonely

well, here i am.
i'm at my house letting my phone charge.
i just dropped justin off at basketball.
i'm boreddd.

nothing much has gone on since i last wrote.
it's been nice as fuuuck, so i've been out and about everrryyday.

saturday, before easter,
i went home at about 12 or something,
and in the morning i went to churchy with liz and ben.
=)

actually, sunday was the happiest days like.. ever.
i don't know why, but i was freaking cheesin'. haha.
church was fun.

after church, i went back to my house to go eat down my gram's.
i don't eat ham, so i had a potato salad sandwich.
i chilled for a minute with liz and ben,
then i rolled out to go to justin's grams. =)
she has a slot machine, so i watched him play that for a little bit,
and then i ate this delicious peice of apple pie. mmm baby.

we went back to his house and.. slept, i think.
(we sleep a lot.)
we went down to the park and then went for a ride,
we went to matt n nikki's and then we went back to his house.

i don't know what time i went to sleep,
but i'll tell you..
i woke up in the middle of the night,
peeling fucking GUM off of me, everywhere.
i was so mad.
i was like, yelling, in the middle of the night,
"JUSTIN! JUSTIN! WAKE UP!"
he wouldn't wake up, but i was yelling at him anyways.
then..
i reach dwon and there is gum all over the freaking bed.
it was a mess.
i think i eventually said fuck it, and went backt o sleep.

this morning, justin was as annoying as ever, waking me up.
i don't act like it all the time, but even when he pisses me off, or bothers me when i am trying to sleep, or even if he is yelling at me, i am trying to hold back from tackling him to the fucking ground and kissing him a million times.
but anyways,
he laughed at me for having gum stuck on my arm,
and i told him the story,
and he said it was my own gum, anyways.
haha i don't remember.
i'm just glad i didn't half to cut off all my hair.

today, justin and i sat around the house until we got showers and then we drove around for a while.
we went to the park..
what else?
nothing really.
drove around, mostly.
took a nap on the porch swing.
uhhh.
it was a boring day.
then i dropped him and becker off in west newton,
and here i am.
with no gas.
and no money.
i's broke.
=/
and bored.

and i think i am peacing out.
there's nothing else to really say.
except that my new nickname is lisa ali, i guess.
i crack up every time someone says it,
and i heard it a hundred times being at the park all day.

anyways,
peace.

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:: 2006 14 April :: 9.24 am
:: Mood: a little tired
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well, i haven't updated.
mostly because i pretty much live at justin's.

nothing too much has been going on.

tuesday, i thought i had to work a banquet, so i dropped justin off down at dq to hoop.
i drove to sweeney's and they told me the banquet canceled so i went back to dq to call nicky to see if she wanted to come down to the park because i was bored and lonely.
that same day i sprained my ankle walking down this wee little hill.
i'm an idiot, i swear.

wednesday, we went back down the park and i was on crutches so everyone was making fun of me.
we were leaving the park and as i was hobbling into my car, bishop walks past and comments on the baby caddy.
"well this is a nice car."
(yeah, probably 30x nicer than the piece of shit she drives.)
i said something back and she said something back, you know, we were talking shit.
she told me to do something about it.
(haha, she's gonna try to threaten a girl with one leg.)
bubby says i'm an idiot for getting out of the car.
he says my biggest mistake was getting out of the car when i know i only have one foot. everyone else says that's where i get my respect from.
i walked towards her as she looks down at me limping along and says, "aww poor little baby."
she took a swing at me, missed and i clocked her right in the face.
everyone says that first hit rocked her.
luckily, she didn't get in any hits AGAIN,
and she grabbed a hold of my hair. (again)
next thing i know, he boys have us down on the ground and my earrings are scraped off the road. they weren't bleeding, but a couple were missing.

she let go of my hair, and bub screamed at me to get the fuck back in the car.
i hopped back into the car as people surrounded his window saying, "good right hook!," and "nice connect!"

anyways, we left, and i guess girly sat down the park trying to laugh it off because she had herself in tears.
becker said i pulled her nasty weave out and a couple people told me i did her a favor.
all i said was, "she grabbed my hair so i took a hold of hers."
i don't want to think about that, though. it felt gross, like an old barbie or something.

soo it was eventful.
a couple minutes later, she calls my phone saying, "oohhh you got your ass beat! haha haha!"
haah i had to hang up on that one because i just laughed.
justin told shaun and he said people were down the park saying i beat her up in one hit and on one foot.

i talked to nicole last night and she was telling me how girl's going around telling people she beat my ass. ahaha. i heard from a couple people she was getting made fun of at softball practice, though.
anyways, i was out an about yesterday, as i will be today, so if you wanna check my face for any marks, you're welcome to, you won't find any.
that day and yesterday people were like, "damn, it doesn't look like you were in any fight!!"

not to mention the funny ass myspace messages this girl sent me sayign how she heard bishop beat me up.
i'm ignoring the stupid shit. everyone saw for their own eyes.
it was right on graham street.
girly got rocked in just a couple hits.
'til the stupid ol' boys had to break it up.
i was thinking about throwing a couple punches to them, but i knew it had to be done or the police were gonna be there asap.

anyways, i'll write more later.

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:: 2006 8 April :: 2.15 pm
:: Music: when i get that feeling, i want.. sexual healing.

(yeah, i was fucking rocking out to this song on my way home.)

Alright, so I'm home again.
For once.
I walked through the door and my mom was all, "what are you doing here?"

Okay, I last wrote on Wednesday.
To update you:: firstly, that eat n park was fucking good.

Nothing too important has gone on.
I don't remember what we did Wednesday, even.

Thursday, I had to work at 4,
I don't really remember.
All i know is that I went back to his house after work.

Yesterday was Friday.
I worked 5-CL and dropped him off down the park.
After work I went to his house and we went to Wal-Mart to get a new game and stuff.

So far...
I still hate Madden. Even on XBox360.
NBA Live 2005 is.... okay. if he lets me play the practice.
Tiger Woods.. is lame.. and I hate it, too.
Need for Speed.. I like it.. when Justin takes turns.

Other than that department...
Got paid yesterday, but the bad thing is that I still need to pay my speeding ticket.
I have about $70 other than that.
It will be gone in a matter of about a day, guaranteed.
It's a good thing I work tonight.

Justin's gram said I should just wait until I'm 18 so I can be a stripper, "then i'll really roll in the dough."
hahaha.

Tomorrow is my week for the hottest myspace girl of the week contest. shout me a holla.

i have to go to work pretty soon.
i had tonight off, but stephanie asked me to work and i suck at saying no.

uhh after work i'll be over justin's house.

duh.

nicolette got all the stuff for my hurr. =) =)
her, lindsey, and i were talking about extensions cause linz is gonna get them for prom.
but the other day when i was watching Sin City, i got the idea in my head about dying my hair and getting it cut to be just like Jessica Alba.
but.. then I saw a scary sight that changed my mind about extentions and instead she's just dying it.
but so anyways, she got all the stuff except for the brown cause we have to pick one out. it's a surprise how it's going to turn out.

i need to fix my computer soon.
i'm just reallt lazy.
i don't evenf eellike going in my room.
i can't even remember the last time i was in there, or the last time i slept at home. haha.

i can't wait for summer.
i've been plotting....

anyways, i'm out.

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:: 2006 5 April :: 11.15 am
:: Mood: happy

Well, to update since I wrote last...

Okay I last wrote Monday at like 3 in the morning before I went to sleep.

I don't really remember what I did on Monday, but it definitely probably had everything to do with Justin. Haha.
Ohh!!! Now I remember!!
I woke up and he called me and told me to go to his house.
Well, I gladly leave my house to get away from my mom who is bitching at me for everything, and what does Justin do? He bitches at me because all of his hoodies are at my house. *innocent face*
We went for a ride and stopped at Tobacco World first.
In the parking lot, we get in this big fight over... well.. nothing at all. Hahaha. He said I was annoying, I said he was annoying cause all he does is bitch, he said "nobody asked you to hang out with me" (he's a little slow sometimes, I think he forgot that he called me and told me to come over.) I said, "well, i'll just take you home." he said, "good."
we screamed at each other and then I stopped in front of Tadd's house and told him to walk the rest of the way.
Well, finally, he did.
Then I sat there for a little bit before driving down the road to find him.
He said he already found a ride.
I picked up Liz and took her and Ben to the gym and got some McDonald's (okay, it was a hot fudge sundae, i can't live without them.)
I took her and Ben back to his house and then after driving all the way down the street I decided what I had wanted to do..
so I drove BACK to Ben's house and got Liz's sweatpants and shoes (I was wearing jeans and boots) and drove to the cemetary and changed. I ran for about a half n hour until Justin called me and I went over his house to go pee. (I was going to pee my pants.)
I left his house because he was going to basketball, and then I picked Liz, Ben, and CJ up and we went to RedDawgs.
Okay, actually we didn't go in, we smoked in the parking lot.
But anwyays, then we went to get a blunt because supposedly I had a whole bunch of shake in the bottom of my purse. (haha oops.)
There were tons of people at Exxon.
That is where I heard the news that bub's (pathetic) ex-girlfriend is trying to start all these rumors. Some kid was like, "You better tell Bubby that the bitch is trying to start shit," so I called Justin.
(This is one of the many reasons why I love this boy, he is so logical and rational:)
When I told him the story..
"Lis, why does that matter?? That girl means fucking shit. Who does she talk to? Fucking homos that I don't want calling me anyways. She's getting little high-school kids to not call me which is what I've been trying to do forever."
He has a point.
I was still like sorta mad about it, but I kept it to myself.
Like, I don't understand.
I never did anything to that girl.
She still had feelings for Justin when we started talking and she drove past his house to see if my car was there.
One night, while I was sleeping over, she punched off the mirror.
Who does that? Especially to someone that had never done anything to her??
But now what I don't understnad even more is the fact that I have minded my own damn business this whole time and she is still talking about me. This right here is the only time I'll ever say anythign about the little wench and it's only to get my frustrations out because nooone reads this anywyas. It's my freakign journal, who would read it? (Obviously YOU are, whoever you may be.)

So now, after getting in trouble over her time after time in school, I decided not to go back. Belle Vernon withdrew me and I'm getting my diploma elsewhere.
(Becuase I can't wait to go to IADT yeeeaaaahhhh mafuckas!)

But whenever I get fiesty,
(I mean, I guess who wouldn't? You probably would too if someone you never talked to started doing everything she can to try to get to you.)
Justin is always there to rationalize everything.
He always says, "You know the truth. I know the truth. The only people that don't are little kids."
and I guess he has a point.

I just wish this whole thing would freaking stop.
My mom told me a couple days ago that she is trying to get harassment charges filed on me.
I was like, "Don't I have to harass her for that to happen?"
She said that the cop who called her made it seem like a joke and told her to tell me just to stay away from the girl.

I was talking to some kid last night about the whole ordeal.
We were on the subject of school and so forth.
They were like, "You do not look like the kind of girl who would smoke." I was like, "I know. =)"
And they all thought I had been good in school and stuff and I was just like, "Well, I was good. I was in 5 years of Spanish and wanted to major in it until that school fucked things up for me. I got suspended for 25 days and then when I came back I got suspended about 3 for walking away from the girl that I didn't want to get in trouble over again," and he was like, "Ohhhh that was you wasn't it?? I heard you decked her in the face a few times before it all got broken up." I was like *embarassed/modest face*, "Yeah.. well.. I mean, it was dumb to fight in school. I wish I could've waited."
That's all I ever say. It was a freaking fight in school. Fucking d-u-m-b. If I could take a couple things back, that would be one of them. I would've never went to school that day when she called Justin and told him I was going to "get my ass beat" (more like, "get my eyes clawed out,") and I would've just waited until she got home form school.

Oh well, I am stupid.

Anyways, I miss the babe too much.
I found these freaking cute pictures of me and him that my mom just got developed.
I wish my computer worked so I could put them on here.

Yesterday, I don't really remember what we did.
We just basically max relaxed.
We chilled over Matt & Nicky's for a little bit and watched some of 50Cent's movie.
Then we went for a ride, got some McDonald's and then went to John Mike & Tara's. We watched King Kong and all pretty much passed out.
I woke up at the end of that movie and let me tell you, it's one of the saddest things I ever saw. I was crying, crying, crying.
I woke the homo up and asked him if he wanted to go home or crash there. He is so freaking cute and replied with, "No, they're not coming."
When he realized what was going on, we put on our shoes and went to his house and fell asleep.
I woke up this morning because he was screaming his head off.
He is so fucking loud.
I went to my tanning appointment and the spoiled little brat went to Wal-Mart and got an XBox360.
He gets everything he wants. Grr.
Anyways, he called and asked when I was coming back over and I told him now, and thatr was like 10 mionutes ago, so I'd better hit the road.
His mommy got me some eat n park anwyays that needs to be eaten up!!!!

peace, loves.

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:: 2006 3 April :: 3.19 am

i'm only...

MISSING THE SEXIEST BOY ALIVE!!!!!


yeah...
i woke up today early as fuck AGAIN becuase of jusitn.
i tried to go back to sleep, but i just couldn't.
so i woke up and played with the bunnies a little bit,
got on here for a second,
and then took a shower.
justin & i got subway and then i took him home cause i had work.

i worked with delaaaaannaaa. it was a little crazy.
but i definitely havent seen delana in forever!

after work i came home instead of going to the boyfriend's house. i need my rest, i plan on sleeping in tomorrow. haha. i can't be having him wake me up.

either way, i am going to be going over there asap in the morning.

on another note: the drama has ceased!!!!!! (or has it?)
i thiiink it may be gone. i don't know. but so far i'm freaking psyched.
or maybe it's just the fact that i don't talk to anyone anymore for people to constantly tell me that she's been talking about me.
like i said, i don't know.
maybe she grew up.... let's hope.

soooo... i'm going to be in next week's Hottest Myspace Girl of the Week contest.
not that anyone at all reads this anyways (you can tell from the large amount of comments that i get, haha), but if there is someone out there that is actually paying attention to my life, holla.. and vote for me. i mean, not that i will actually win, but it's just cool anyways.

okay i think im hiting the sack.

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:: 2006 2 April :: 10.58 am

so yesterday i went to work.
cute stephy brought me a juice box!! how cute.
umm i had about 12 tables and 11 credit card slips, so you know my night was bangin'. (yeah right)
i walked out of there with $10 cash.

i went to my sister's house where justin was playing xbox.
he's so cute.
i'm at work, i'm busy, i'm running around, and the boy is calling me 50,000,000 times.
i answer, i'm like, "yeah? i'm really busy.."
he says, "i looooove feeding these bunnies!!!"

anyways, we went to bed and here i am.

how about some guy tipped me $5 for take-out. haha.

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:: 2006 1 April :: 4.14 pm

well, i'm about ready to go to work.
i'm going to go take a shower in a second so i'm not laaate.

woohoo work with stephy tonight. =)
i wonder who else i work with??

Yesterday, i sat around for a little bit and then took a shower before i went to the boyfriend's house.
me, him, and his mom all ate some yummy yummy wing dings.
and you know what? i think i've finally figured out why i am losing weight and losing weight and losing weight when all i do is eat.
well actually, this is just a theory..
but anyways, i do eat like all day long, but i never really eat that MUCH. my little tummy fills up fast. so i think it's just the way i portion out my meals. maybe..?
i don't know, but either way.. i think i want to start exercising.
i know, i know.. i say this all the time.
but i think i'm serious this time.
i think i am going to start waking up early.. like mad early, and go running.
i've never exercised a day in my life, and i'm never even put my finger on a weight, so i don't know how this is going to turn out.
but i would just like to be a little bit toner.
oh, and i definitely need to start thinking about what to do with these arms.
i seriously have the smallest arms you will ever see in your life.
my biceps are smaller than justins forearm. how sad is that?
haha that's why i tell him "i'm just a little girl, my punches don't hurt." haha. the other day he said to me, "yeah, a little girl packing a big punch..."
(i think he's just a little baby.)

anyways. i don't really remember what we did yesterday anyways.
he dropped me off at work. and i made about $40.
he picked me up and we went back to his house.
we ended up watching some American History X and falling asleep.
(We watch that movie like everyday...???)

This morning, the fucker wakes up at like 5am and is annoying as fuck, as he always is when i try to sleep and he wants me to wake up.
first, he carried me from one couch to the other so i could lay with him, and he kept fucking with me while i was trying to sleep.
then, at like 8:00, he tells me to get up, because he wants to cut all of his hair off. (WTF, weird??)
Then, he decides we have to go to the mall.

So.. we went to the mall.
Randomly, I decided to get my ears pierced?? Haha.
So while he went to Hollister, I spontaneously got my ears peirced again.
But it was weird, because.. I have my earlobes pierced once on either side. I used to have them done three times, but the third holes on both ears closed and the second hole on one ear closed. So.. I got that second hole re-pierced.
and then, since the peircings were free and all you had to do was pay for the starter earring and i already bought a pair, i figured i might as well get it peirced again, and i paid a $2 cartilage charge for the second hole in my right cartilage.
did you get all that? hahah, becuase it was rough to explain.
after the mall, me and justin went to eat n park and ate,
and then we went to my sister's house to let the dogs out.
CUTEST THING: she has bunnies!! and they're so freaking cute. i seriouslt wanted to take one and squeeze the fucking life out of it.
they're so big, too! they're like super big bunnies. i fed them all these veggies and then i decided i wanted to hold on. (i dont know if i ever held a bunny!!! i think maybe when i was a kid), so Justin picks one up and it ssqurming all around and we were screaming and yelling like little kids. it was so funny.

after that, we went back to his house and chilled for a little bit. (actually, i was tortured.. as always.)
you see, justin always likes to fuck around. ALWAYS.
justin fucking around always involves me getting hurt in some way.

he LOOOOVES to fucking pick me up and throw me around like a toy or something.
well, one day he picked me up or something and wanted to flip me over and as i was yelling, "no, justin, stop, i'll hit the ground, stop!"--BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!! my face smacks off of the floor.

Those sort of things happen all the time.
Today, he was fucking around and punching the couch next to me to try to scare me or something. With full force, he would hit the couch right next to my arm. then one time, POW, right in my already bruised, left arm.

oh well, he's an asshole. what can you do.
because everytime it happens, we both just start cracking up.
(i can't cry from physical pain, even if i try. wtf?)
to make up for it, though, he layed ontop of me and licked my face til i was yelling at the top of my lungs for him to get away.
he's such a weirdo, you'd never believe.

anyways, i came home and now i'm about to go to work.
acutally, i'd better get ready now, so.. peace.

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:: 2006 31 March :: 11.10 am

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Well this is the first morning I haven't been with Justin in the gad damn longggessttt time.
I haven't even been home to clean my room for like a month, so I got into that a little bit.
My mom is painting my bathroom and she wanted me to help her with that.
I think sometime soon I am going to Lowe's or WalMart or something to buy paint to re-paint my room. I am pretty sure I'm going to keep it green, but definitely a softer tone. (It's like bright, bright, Nickelodeon green right now.)
I'll also probably buy a couple different shades for accents, you know?

I have my hearing coming up pretty soon for my speeding ticket.
I hope the fine definitely gets dropped down, because I have to pay it myself and it's $160 right now. That sucks.

I am pretty psyched for this summer. I signed up for softball with Jenna this year. I haven't played softball since... 8th grade.
I can't wait to suck and have a lot of fun. =) =)
I'm seriously so excited. You should've heard me scream when she told me she signed up for softball. I was like, "YOU'RE PLAYING SOFTBALL!!?!?!!?!?!?" and I knew I had to sign up, too.
Haha, I'm such a loser, but it's the little things that get me through.

I have to work tonight. That sucks. Only 4-V, though. I love that shift.
I'm sleeping over Justin's house after work and I don't know what we are going to be doing Saturday... until I have to go back to work for 5-CL.
(Closing blows. Damnit.)

Liz's virus scan is complete. They are fixing her problems.
It's so funny. That fucker took like four days and it found 1,023 serious problems. Haha!
It has fixed about 930 so far, so that's a plus.
I wish my computer was working. The electricity on the one side of my wall doesn't even work to turn my computer on to see if it works yet. How freaking stupid!
Ben says that Liz's was doing the same thing mine was for a while and then one day it just.. worked.

The last time I wrote I said I didn't remember what Justin and I did on Wednesday after we went to Randall's, well, I remember. We went and chilled over Jenna's for a little bit and got a pizza and stuff and then I slept over.

Umm... I think I'm done for now.

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:: 2006 30 March :: 11.59 pm

Back to Lisa's Myspace.

Well, yesterday, Justin and I did go to Randall's.
I got a couple of "private" calls on the way. haha.
I had Justin answer and it took like 20 seconds for them to hang up.
Pathetic. Grr. Call your own girlfriend. (??)
People don't make sense!!

I don't really remember what we even did after we went to Randall's.

I never remember anything. Like how.. the other day Justin went to get a tattoo. I completely forgot about that one. It was Tuesday. Me, him, and Shaunzie went. He got a little bit around his elbow done. It looks sexy. Hahaha.

Sooo last night, I slept over Justin's house and that's basically all I remember.
We woke up around 10:30 and I was walking around the house in my underwear and stuff looking for food and got yelled at to put pants on becuase Jeremy and CJ were coming over. (*innocent face*)
Shaun came over and I took a shower then we all went to Randall's for chicken and biscuits.
We went back to Justin's house and Shaun rolled out, then a couple minutes later, I did too. I picked Liz up from school and took her to Ben's. (She's so cute, you should've seen her cheesin' as she was walking out of school to my car.)
I went back to Justin's house and we went to the mall for a little bit.
He bought a new pair of shoes and I looked at a million things I wished I could've bought. =(

We went home and did nothing pretty much all day.
We went to matt&nikki's and chilled with a minute.
Then, we went back to his house and watched a little bit of a movie and then I went home.

I hate leaving that boy. =(
It's so nice to actually have something perfect.
My family gets along with him, his with me.
It's like, great. I don't even have to lie to my parents about where I'm staying.
I call and ask my mom if I can sleep there and she says sure without a second thought.
It's just reassuring or something. I don't know.
I'm just.. really happy where I'm at right now.
Honestly, I don't blame people for being jealous of what I have, because I would be too.. and I'm not even one to brag.
It's just that I can't help but go on and on when I think about him.
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me...

Anyways, my bored ass is out, I think.
I put some new pictures on my mysapce, so comment them.

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:: 2006 29 March :: 11.13 am


well i woke up at about like 9:00am today.
haha, that is so early for me, but pete was talking so loud to my mom in the kitchen and i was sleeping in the living room.

i have been lazy all morning, you know how i do.
i sat aroud and stuff, i'm about to take a bath.

justin just called me, actually.
he wants to go to randall's, so i am going to go get ready.

So someone calls me today while I was washing off make-up.
It was Private (FYI: I've given up answering Private calls becuase it only turns out to be one of two people, neither of whcih i wish to hear from.), so as soon as I answered I was about to hang up until I heard a different voice on the other end.
Well, it was only ***.
She told me that Sarah wrote my number all over the bathroom and stuff with, "If you need a lesbian lover..."
Hahahaha. dude, get a life.
I just think she's immature and needs to grow up. That girl spends 24/7 thinking about me, seriously.
Anyways, Ludwick & I used to do that shit to each other joking around so it doesn't bother me.
I just laugh at the fact that she probably thought it was going to get to me. Haha. What a freaking dumbass.

I was going to visit my grandma in the hospital today, but she called my mom a little bit ago and said they were moving her.
She is going to be transported to a rehabilitation center, so she is going to call us when she gets there and we're going to visit her another time.
As for now, I'm about to hop in the shower and perhaps go tanning or something and then head out for the homo's house cause me misses him. =)

Liz's virus scan is now 56% complete and so far only 40 viruses. HAHA. I hope I don't have to reboot mine, but I'm pretty sure that's what it's come down to.
It doesn't leave the, "Windows suggests you restart in Safe Mode" screen. No matter which option I pick, "Restart normally," "Restart in Safe Mode," "Restart with the last working settings," it just restarts and goes riiiiiight back to that same "Windows suggests you restart in Safe Mode," screen.
Damnit.
What a piece of trash!!

Okay. Peace, bitches.

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:: 2006 28 March :: 9.00 pm
:: Mood: siiick =(
:: Music: American Idol!!


Okay, well.
I was supposed to work tonight 4-V, but I was too sick and I came home. I'm always freaking sick!! Ughh!!

Anyways, after I wrote yesterday, I got a bath and then went to Justin's.
We didn't do anything special, really..
We sat around and watched t.v., mostly.
I made him soup && stuff and we went to bed early.
(Losers.)

My dad called me, actually.
He said the reason he hadn't called yesterday was because he had some bad news... my grandma Rosie had another stroke. =(

My grandma Gladys (my mom's mom) had a stroke one time a long time ago, and she is paralyzed on her left side. They said she'd never walk again, but she is a fighter, haha. She doesn't use a walker or anything. Even though she doesn't have use of her left arm, she still gets around fine. She uses a cane, sometimes.
Well, just a couple years ago my dad's mom had one.
It wasn't all that bad, but she isn't able to do some of the things she used to.
I guess she had another one on Sunday, though, and my dad says she's doing pretty bad.
I prayed for her and stuff, so I have a feeling things will be fine.
I'd like to visit her tomorrow.

This morning, Justin woke up super early cause he couldn't sleep. (He kept me up practically all night tossing and turning and rolling around.) I woke up at around 9:30 and we watched t.v. and stuff and then headed off for his tattoo appointment.
We met Shaunzie at GetGo and we all went to BodyWorks.
He got the suckers on his little octopus done and a couple things filled in. I went halfers on it with him as one of his birthday presents and he was pretty happy. I love when he is happy. It makes me happy.

We dropped Shaun off at his car and Justin and I went back to his house.
I was mad at him becuase he yelled at me and I don't like being yelled at.
Everyone who has ever rode in the car while one of the two of us were driving will tell you it's enough to give the most patient person a splitting headache. The only time we everrr fight is when one of us is driving.
Well, that happened, I drove and he yelled at me for missing an exit or something. He says I am going to have to start paying attention because if I'm ever NOT with him (like that ever happens, psht, haha), I'll get lost. I told him I didn't care if I got lost and that I know all the roads that I need to know.
Anyways, he pinned me down and kissed me while saying he was sorry until I said I wasn't mad at him then we went upstairs.... and then I left to go to work.
I went back to my house to change my shirt, feeling liek shit.
I went to work and threw up a couple times. I took two tables and a couple to-go's. I helped some of the girls out and then Stephanie sent me home cause I was too sick.

I played Frogger, I threw up, I ate some salad, I talked to my babe, (He's at a MCS show that I REALLY wish I was at and I'm mad I had to work.) and then I started writing this update.

Nothing too great.

Oh, and the drama that I thought I was involved in,
Well... no more, no more. I prayed and everyhting is fixed.
My mom called me this mroning and said not to worry about it anymore and that it was all settled. =)
Either way, I knew God would make everything okay. I hate when stupid things happen and it looks bad on my part.
One time, I was at work and the only one working the dining room. Robyn was bartending and if I ever needed change throughout the night, she would say, "go ahead, I trust you." and I would go in the bar, ALL BY MYSELF, with nobody around, and get two 5s for a 10 or two 10s for a 20 and so on.
Well, that night I get a call from her after I had left, saying that her drawer was short and Matt thought that since both of us were in there, we should have to split it.
I had no problem paying it, but it was the fact that I didn't want her thinking I stole off of her. =/
(Afterall, it did look bad on my part.)
Anyways, she called me the next day and told me they had found the missing money. =)
Like I said, God fixes everything, I just hate to be in those predicaments.

Soooo... I am sitting here waiting for the boyfriend to get home. I miss him. He doesn't get service up there so he calls me every so often from Shaun's phone.

My computer is still freaking beat as fuuuck so I am on Liz's computer right now. Her computer is pretty bunk, too, my mom is running a virus scan on it and it's not even half-way done yet and it says there's like 40 viruses so far...

As for school, I'm jut waiting for my doctor to talk to Mr.Z and sign some papers.. Ughhh, I just want to freaking graduate!!!

I talked to Jenevieve yesterday. =)
I've been trying to get a hold of her for the longest time, but her phone has been broke forever!

Anyways, I'm out. Later alligator.

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:: 2006 27 March :: 4.06 pm

shake that ass for me

okay, it's been a minute, but that's cool.

nothing exciting has been going on.

the school FINALLY gave my mom homeschool forms.
fucking assholes.
the only thing is, my doctor has to switch things around because they're for "physical" disabilities, and i'm not really physically disabled...

the other day, i was sneaking out of school and almost got caught. HAHA.
i slither through the halls to the door where i give a little double-take and then book for the parking lot.
i'm sure people probably laugh if they see me.
but anyways, i get to my car, turn up my jams and i'm cruising along, making my getaway, and there he is: Big Pete.
He was just sitting there chillin' in the Trail Blazer. I came up with a plan and drove past him, as he quickly followed behind.
I pulled into the student parking lot and found a spot and then got out of my car.
He was all, "busted!!!!!!!"
and I was all, "EFF OFF!", you know?
no, not really. but i was like, "leave me alone! you're going to get me in trouble! you know im not allowed to park over here!!" and pretended like i was just moving my car to a more accessible spot. *wink, wink*
I get into the school and I called my mom yelling at her that he is retarded and stuff and told her that i was only moving my car and he acted like i was trying to leave school!! i played it cool, you know, put on the innocent act.
he got it when he got home, i bet.
either way, i got blamed for keying a bitches car that day. haha. if you ever saw my grandpap's car, you'd know a couple little key scratches aren't really "payback."
anyways, i talked to the cop, and my story matched up with one of the girls' who saw me leave school, so i'm cool for now, but the other witnesses who saw me walk to my car that day still need to be talked to.
i guess i'm not too worried about it. i don't know who they could've been, though, cause i didn't even look around. (obviously! i mean, my dad was sitting there watching me trying to sneak out of school. HAHA)
either way, i straight up told him, if it was me, i would've done a lot worse. chkchk. ;]
all in all, props to whoever did it. if you tell me, i won't give out any names. =)

besides that, i've gone back to rollin' in the dough, (since i've been sick) and i've gone for a few little shopping sprees.
i just wish i had llike a whole day to devote to freakign shopping. i'd love it.

anyways, it was my babe's birthday Saturday. =)
I slept over Friday night after I got off work and we spent the whole day Saturday together.
He woke up sick. =(
But we went to the movies and then went to the mall with my older sister and her boyfriend.
When we got back to his house we waited a minute and then went down to the Carnegie Science Center to watch another Pink Floyd laser show. I was streeeeemly high, so I slept throuhg most of it. Later to find out he did as well.
We got back to his house and [[pretty much]] passed the fuuuck out.

Sunday I worked 3-CL.
It was mad crazy. (As Sundays usually are.)
It must not have been THAT crazy though, cause I only made about $60.
I felt bad though, cause the whole time I was there, poor baby was in the hospital. Him is sick!! I want to squeeze him and give him a millions of kisses cause it makes me so sad to see him that way, but he tends to not go for the squeezing so much on a count of his body aching so bad. (I think he is just a baby, though.)

After work, I went to his house at about 9:00 to care for him and tuck him in and stuff. He fell asleep and then I fell asleep watching My Best Friend's Wedding. (Favorite Movie!!!! well, one of them.)
I woke up in the middle of the night to him crying cause I fell asleep on the opposite end of the bed. Haha.
We woke up crazy early this morning and couldn't fall back asleep.
We watched some t.v. and got up at around 9:45 so I could drop him off at the doctor's and run home to get some papers.
I took the papers to my doctor's to be signed, (i explained that earlier, though.) and then I went back to Justin's house.
I then went BACK out to Rostraver to get some Subway, (Rostraver Subway dominates Belle Vernon.) and then went back to Justin's house cause I had to take him to the hospital for a throat culture.
Instead of going to the hospital, though, we went to the chiropractor and I chilled in the waiting room for a second til we rolled back to his house.

We layed around and watched t.v. for a little bit and then we got into a argument cause he wanted to go to the mall and didn't want to wait for me to get a shower. I was like, "Justin, I HAVE to change my underwear!!!!!!!," but does he care?? No!!!!!!! He never cares if I am dirty.

Anyways.. so he went to the hospital with Shaunzie and here I am, about to get a shower.

Anyways, this update is beat. My life is boring.

me & my daddad are probably going to do something this week, i think. he was supposed to call me back yesterday, though.. and he never did. maybe he just forgot? he will call me today, i bet!!!

i haven't been on all that much lately, i spend too much time with justin and he hates me loving the computer as much as i do. (he has i am obsessed and addicted.)

okay, i'll hit this up later. ppeace, ya'll.

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:: 2006 19 March :: 11.37 pm

well the last time i had a chance to write was thursdya night.

so to give you a bit of a summary..
on friday, I woke up and went to school, but when I got there I sat in the parking lot to do my make up and then drove away and went to my baby's!! where we slept the day away!! =)

actually, i can't remember what we did.
but probably went out to eat, just liek every day.

i worked from 4:00-about 7:00 that night,
and then went right back to justin's house afterwards.
we went to sleep cause we're lazy like that,
and we didn't wake up 'til about 3:00 because his brother was knocking on the door, but if it wasn't for that, i don't know when we were waking up because we were both passed the fuuuuck out!!

so saturday, we woke up and smoked a blunt with shaunzie and then i ran back in the house to get changed for work and then peaced out.
i workd 5-CL and then went back to Justin's house.
We wraaastled around for quite a bit cause we're fiesty like that,
and eventually we went to bed. (my favorite part of the day, i think, besides waking up next to himmm. =)..)

today, we woke up and layed around for a while,
then eventually woke up and went to pizza hut!!
we bought like all this food that we didn't even eat but that's okay!

we went back to his house and i went to work 3-CL.
i love working sundays.
no one ever wants to work them, so every sunday i work from 3-9 by myself and i absolutely love it. it's my favorite day of the week.
last week i made $75, today i made $65.
my baby came in about 8:00 and helped my close up.
i tried to teach him to roll silverware, but he is like a little kid,
so instead, i just had him put the bands around them as i wrapped them.
he's so freaking cute.

whcih reminds me..
i am so happy right now.
this boy makes my heart skip a beat every freaking time i look at him.
everything in my life could be blown to pieces, and just having him there with me makes it A-OK.
there's nothing i have ever wanted more.
i am a complete loser,
i do nothing with my life,
i talk to NO ONE but justin,
and i am PERFECTLY okay with that.
there's still the haters, yes yes,
but i don't even care.
bitches are jealous and i've learned to accept that.
there's always going to be the ones that talk shit.
people try to get to me, but it will never work,
'cause i know what i have and i don't care who is trying to make me look stupid. =)
i just can't wait 'til i can actually seclude myself from everyone that can't stay out of my bizz-nass and move away and spend every second with my babe.

other than that...
lately i've had this real big like, super great urge to start exercising.
okay, okay. i've never exercised my whole life,
i know i'll never be able to keep up with anything!!
it's just nice to think.
maybe justin will join the gym with me..
(i can't do anything by myself!!! haha)

okay,i'm peacing out with this, i wnt to go to sleep soon, anwyays, it's like quarter after 1...

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:: 2006 17 March :: 12.19 am

and it's you that does this to me.

well yesterday i didn't get a chance to write because... well.. i think because i came home and fell asleep.
i went to school in the morning and I got there on time. Z yelled at me for walking through the fucking side door. what the fuck does it matter? anyways.
i left at about 9:00 and went to Justin's.
uhh i tried to get some sleep but the fucker wouldn't let me.
he was cryign and stuff and he kept on fucking with me which wasn't letting me get sleep anywyas so i finally woke up.
we went to the mall with shaunzie and then we went back to his house, but shaunzie went home 'cause he was sick.
me and justin just chilled, i think..
yeah, i can't remember doing anything all day.
we did manage to go to wal-mart and get a lot of shopping now, so that's something out of the way.

this morning i woke up and went to school, but left at about 9:00 and went to Justin's.
I quickly fell asleep and stuff, but I woke up because today is Thursday and we eat at Randall's every Thursday.
I was super hungry, anyways.
So we went there and then we got our hair cuts.
That was around 2:30. We left Tussy's about 3:30...
We then went back to his house and then for a smoke ride and I dropped him off at 4:50, just in time to make it to work. =)
After work I went back to Justin's and we smoked a blunt and then I dropped him off and came back home.

Nothing exciting today. No siree.

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