you don't wanna see me heated, ya'll

Well, it is Saturday.
Justin left a little bit ago.
=(
I am still sick.
Double =(
I don't even know what's wrong with me.
The past two days I wasn't able to leave my bed.
Being sick suuucckkksss.

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Well, I am at school right now, and it's 8th period.
I am completely bored.

Yes, I did say school.
I came back.
I was suspended from October 25th until December 6th, which constituted for 25 school days.

Now that I am, Mr. Nagy (the superintendent) and Mr. Z. (my principal) have arranged for me to have two study halls, which meant I was to drop two periods (three classes, 2 credits).
I will be graduating with 25 credits, instead of 26.

School is easy with two study halls. I've never had any before... ever. Not even in middle school.

To update you (the reader, whoever that may be) in on my life, since I haven't updated this for a while.. I don't know where to start.
I have been sucked in myspace, and I have neglected my poor, little woohu account. (which I paid $2 to be a member of.)

You may or may not know that:

*I was suspended from school for a fight between Sarah Bishop and I. The fight was brought on when she called Justin's phone on the morning of October 25, 2005 and said that if I were to come to school on that day, I was going to be "beat up." She denies ever saying that.. but that's okay with me. I've let things go, because although I do not like her, it's no reason to act five-years-old about the ordeal and talk shit. If we happen to fight again, then we will fight again. Until then, however, there is no use in just talking about it. Especially, because every time we talk to each other we get more and more mad.

*Upon returning to school, conversations between Sarah and I had led me to believe that when I were to come back to school, everyone was going to think that I had been beaten up.
However, when I came back, that was not a reaction I had received from anyone.
Some have even said that they had not heard that I had lost, or got beat up, at all, and instead that I had "won."
I was please to come back to school to the things that I have been hearing.

*I am dating Justin. I mean, I've been talking to him for a while now, but now... he's the only boy I see and I'm the only girl he talks to. We went from friends to more than friends, and so it's awesome the way everything works out. We get along soo well, and there's no one else I'd rather spend my time with. =)

*I am on birth control. It hasn't even been a full month yet, and already my face looks so nice.!! My period was wacked at first, but I think it's settling down. I went from having a rrrreeallly irregular period, which lasted 2-4 days.. to.. this period I had last time, when I started b.c., it lasted like three weeks... =/

*I don't have many friends right now, but I'm okay with that.
I talk to a lot of people, but I don't really hang out with that many people anymore.
I spent a couple hours with Mary the other night. I haven't seen her for a while. I miss her, but people grow apart, you know? It was nice to see her though. =)

*I talk to Cody here and there. The other night he called me to tell me that he would pay me $40 to have sex with him. What kind of question is that?? Well, I replied by saying, "don't you have a girlfriend you should be having sex with?" He answered that one and said, "it's not as good as having sex with you."
Sooo.. regardless of what Sarah thinks she has on me, obviously it's nothing that I care about.
...and if she thinks that it's her dating Cody that bothers me, it's not, because Justin is the best thing in my life, and I wouldn't do anything to mess that up.

i don't go to school. ever. i missed 11 days in 6 weeks.

when i go to school, i don't talk to a single person.

but i cry. i sort of cry all day.

my life is kinda stuck in a black hole right now and i don't know how to get out of it.

i wish i had someone to talk to.. other than myself or my notebook or here.

it's enough for me to paralyze when i see that look in his eyes.*

Okay well, I haven't been too up to date on my woohu, I've gotten completely wrapped up in the myspace scene.
Now, I think I'm going to write in here more for myself than for everyone else. If you happen to read it, you happen to read it, but I think I'm going to be public with my myspace more than my woohu.

Anwyasy, now that I've rambled that all out.

Some updates...

Well, I met myspace Caitlin. (haha, yeah i know, what kind of girl meets girls on the internet??) Well, I went to my first Pirates game with her, Dan, and Jody. They're pretty much some of the coolest kids I know now. They live kinda far, but I hope we can still chill.

I spend practically every day with the one and only Justin Marish. What a losah. ;) But despite what rumor says, and what everyone seems to think, I am not his girlfriend.

I got a new cell phone. It's pimp, and it's my first picture phone. (Also my first phone with an antenna).

Jenna is suspended from school for marijuana (hahahahahahahaha), but it wasn't funny at the time. It was actually scary and suspensful at the time.
We were going to school like any other day, smokin in her car before the bell rang. We started smokin bowls out of my bowl and then we decided we'd better head in. Well, I always take my bowl into school with me, you know? Like, I mean, I jsut always have it. Well, for some reason, as I was gettign out of the car, I recalled Justin telling me, "Don't take it into school, just don't do it," and usually I would disregard anything he says, but for some reason, on this one morning, it stuck, and I removed it from the bottom of my purse and put it in the glovebox.
We walked towards school, giggling about our highs; me, liz, jenna, and benji. All of a sudden, teh bell rings. Ahhh, we're late.
We walk into school and have to go throuhg the metal detectors. (Good thing I took that bowl out of my purse, I was about to get searched.) Still a little apprehensive about any paraphanelia, I was rummaging around in my purse as I waited in line to go through the metal detectors and have my bag checked.
"Empty what is in your pocket," was what I vaguely heard as I was rooting around through my things. "I don't have anything in my pockets," was the response I heard in return, and I looked up, knowing familiar voice of Jenna.
Jenna was arguing with the security guard at the metal detectors about something in her pocket....

baby, i'm bad news...
Soo... I haven't been up to anything, really. I hang out with Liz & Ben and some boys all day... every day.

Really, nothing has been going on.

I work two jobs now; waitress at Sweeney's, and I still work at Subway.

Overall, I'm pretty bummed about not going to Warped Tour. Everyone keeps saying it wasn't all that great, and keep making excuses, but I'm still pissed.

Right now, though, I am going to go take a shower so I can go pick up my only friends and chill with however we're gonna chill.

Sooo... click here to see my myspace, and hopefully you leave a comment!!

but it's always better when we're together. :-)
I ~less than 3~ Scooby Doo Fruit Snacks!

Soo. I don't do much of anything lately. Pretty much spend all my time on myspace, because I'm a loosah. Other than that I just work a lot lately.
I got a new job at Sweeny's and I don't know what I'm going to do, because Shawn really doesn't want me to leave, and he offered me a raise from $5.15 to $5.50. He said it is the only thing he can do until I am 18.
But I'd still be making more at Sweeny's. ...I don't know what to do :-/

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"What's your favorite ice cream?"-Lisa
"Vanilla."-Girl
"But you still LOVE chocolate, right?"-Lisa
"Well, yeah... but why can't I have a twist?! They gave you that option at the dairy queen!!!!!"-Girl
....a little while later, still on the subject of ice cream...
"But you would never know what your favorite flavor is if you never go down to Robbie's Dairy Delight and taste all 54 fucking flavors!!!!"-Lisa
"That reminds me, he told me I was a slut."-Girl

Eh, nothin's been up, just been chillin', really. the only thing fun that happened since i last wrote is that me, jenna, and shaun layed in the middle of the road one day when it started to rain so that the ground was dry underneath us, but all around us was wet, and when we stood up there were silhouettes of us on the ground.
...the fun part about it was that we were laying in the middle of the road when it was dark and pouring down rain, just laughing.

I'm sick of subjects
Okay, so the last day of school was Friday, June 6.
I went every single day and even stayed after hours to finish my Accounting test.. and I still got a C in that class because of it. My Reinforcment Activity was soo messed up that towards the end, i was just kinda making up numbers and hoping they'd equal out. Of course they didn't.

On Saturday, I remember I was going to go to Jenna Gira's grad party, and I was at Cody's house, but I don't think we got a ride out there. I felt really bad for not going, and I haven't seen her since school.. I miss her.

On the 10th of June, Friday, I went to Sand Castle with Jenna, Betty, Cody, Dave, and Adam. It turned out it was only $6 and it was the nicest day and the water was sooo nice! We had a great time.

On Sunday the 12th, I wen tto Jason Weslager's grad party with Nessa, and then I wen tot work at 3:30. That's all I remember from that day.

On Monday the 20th, I went to Sand Castle again with Jenna, Adam, Cody, Jenn, Betty, and Dave. Jenna had her car by this time, so we all drove down in that... well.. me, cody, her, and adam at least.
It was about $30 for me and Cody to get in with our $10 off coupon. The weather wasn't all that great and the water was FREEZING. We didn't have the best time that time, and we didn't even get all that great of a tan.

On Saturday the 25th, me and Jenna went to Nicole Bakosh's grad party. I wanted to stop at Shaun's, but we went to Nicole's first and everyone talked Jenna out of going and put a big guilt trip on her, so we ended up not going there.
We did however, leave there at like 1:00am and went to Eat n Park. We were supposed to take Cody home, but we just kept him and picked up Adam. Aww the food was bomb. I saw Jessica there and I was so happy to see her, I haven't seen her in forever!

Other than that, on the days I don't have to work, me and Jenna go to the pool and hang out. We don't really do all that much, we chill with people who want to chill and we just kinda lazy up our summer.

I think that's all for a pretty good update. I'm peacin' out.

Gosh, I just want to be left the hell alone.
Okay, so.. me and Cody broke up.
I don't even know, I had told him every day that he'd better start being nice to me and stop treating me like shit.
The night before we broke up, he was being a dickhead and the last thing I said to him was, "You'll regret it, Cody. Just wait, you'll regret it." he said, "Regret fucking what, bitch? Don't fucking threaten me, Lisa."
That was Friday, I think. He's been crying since Saturday, and he begs me to go back out with him, but I told him I need time to be by myself. He doesn't seem to understand, and the fact that he calls me 3495093485 times a day is just making it easier for me to tell him to let me be by myself. I'm not fucking with his head, I am tryng to fix myself before I end up with a stroke from all this stress. ...and it's not just him that's stressing me out, it's a bunch of shit, it's just that he makes it worse than it already is.

On Monday, Dan picked me up from school and we went first to the mall and walked around, and then we went and drove golf balls at the place on 51. After that we went to South Hills Village and walked around and then we went to his house for a little bit so he could help his dad move his new refrigerator. Then he took me back to Belle Vernon and we went to Sarah's house. Me, Dan, Sarah, and Ryan all went to Bill's and played miniature golf.
It was nice... we ate ice cream.. and we went home.

On Tuesday, which was yesterday, I had work from 4 'til 8. We were really busy because Tuesday we have all footlongs only $4.29.
I had to do all the bitch work, and then I went home.

Today, I didn't go to school and I cleaned my house a little bit, and then I went to work from 4 'til 9. I came home and did some laundry and then just sat here, basically.

Anyways, I'm gonna go. Peace.

another headache, another heartbreak

Well, I haven't updated in like a month because my computer is fucking gay and everything.
Whoa, actually, I updated like last week. Last Monday.. well not LAST Monday, but the Monday before that.

'Cohs, you see, I got ungrounded on the first, and then I.. well.. I don't remember what happened.
On Monday morning I got in a fight with Pete, and he hit me, I hit him back, I got grounded.. and I was grounded for a week. I didn't have my phone, I didn't have a phone line, I didn't have my computer, my mom broke my mouse.
It was a long story, but basically, it's all Liz's fault for wearing my white bra... and it's even more of Pete's fault for talkign shit on Cody.

I hate my family. I can't wait to get the fuck out of this place.

I got ungrounded Sunday night, and I got my phone back and shit, so on Monday.. I don't remember.

I do know, that Monday I had to wrok from 5-8, so I don't know what I did.

Tuesday I had to work from 4:00-8:00 after school, and then I stood outside Jake's and talked to people that were at the carnival. Cody, Toby, and Aaron came and we went to Exxon and chilled for a little bit. Aaron took me home and we chilled in my driveway before I walked up.

Wednesday, I went home with Cody and we got all ready, and then we walked to Jenna's. Megan Mascara gave us a ride liek quarter of the way though, because we were walking past her street. We chilled and we met Kelly's two friends from Monongahela. A little bit later, Tommy came over, and Me, Jenna, Cody, and Tommy all went to Dave's house (Jenna's mom's boyfriend) to clean for Jenna's party. Oh, we cleaned alright... it's sooo much nicer. Dave took me home at like 12:00am, and I went to sleep.

Yesterday, I went home with Cody and we chilled for a little bit, I got a shower, and then we went to Jenna's. Me, Cody, Jenna, Kelly, and Kelly's friend went to the carnival. It was gay. We rode one ride and then left... it was also probably because we went when it was still light outside. I dunno, it just always seemed more fun the other years. Psht, but that ride we rode was fucking crazy.
We chilled at Jenna's and then Betty took me and Cody home.

Today is Friday and Cam's party is tonight but I can't go, because I am going to Jenna's. If I drove, it would be a whole different story, because I'd go to both places.
I'm about to go to work at 5:00 until 9:00, and then after that I think I'm gonna try and go to Wal-Mart, so I can pick Jenna up a present or something.

I think I'm gonna go to work. It's 4:40.

Well.. uh.
Got home at like 9:30.
Got off work at like 9:00.
Dropped some cop-guy's sandwich on the floor today, he was PISSED.

Today I finished reading The Outsiders. I'm ready to go to the library to get a new book. Haha, i know, I'm a dork, but I don't care, I love to read.

Uhm, so far this weekend, all I'm doing is working.

Tomorrow (Saturday)
3:00-7:00
Sunday
4:00-8:00?? (I don't remember.)

I left school early today because I didn't feel good.
Personal problems.. and just because I say THAT doesn't mean I'm on my period... it's a different personal problem.

Want to know somethign embarassing??
...I still have to get my prom dress and prom is in like two weeks.
I know, I know, I feel so bad about it. My stomach turns just thinking about it, but I just don't have the time or the transportation.

Anyways... on Wednesday I went home with Cody and Toby to Toby's house after we stayed for detention. We went to PR and then we took John home, and I told Toby to take me home, too, because I like .2 seconds away from John... but he was driving away and away and I was like, "Toby, where are you going?" and he was like, "Fuck it, I'll find you a ride home later."
I ended up beign stuck at Cody's and crying all night long until it was time to wake up for school the next morning. It was the worst experience of my life, and ontop of that, Cody was being an asshole and I was freezing. It didn't help that he was sleeping with the fan on, either.

So, anwyays, Thursday I got flipped out on. It was take your kid to work day, and I had to go to school just ebcause Cody is a faggot and forced me to sleep over his house and I accidentally did.
(I was waiting for a ride home, he said his sister was going to take me, and it was getting late, and I was SO tired, and I fell asleep and she never called back and I woke up at like 2:30am and flipped out and cried the rest of the night.)

It's 12:00am now. I am so bored and Cody never called me back when he said he would. Oh well, he was at Toby's....

I guess I'll go to sleep.

if it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?

Well.. I didn't go to school today, as you can see from my previous entry. Nor did I have to work.
I went tanning at 2:15, and I was supposed to go with my mom to the vet's at 4:00, but I thought it was 4:30, and I wasn't ready.
I took a shower at like 5:00 and got in a fight with Pete because he wasn't going to let me out of the house because I didn't go to school.
I punched my door and now there's a big hole. that sucks.

Best thing all day: Tory is alright. The veterinarian gave her some medicine for her epilepsy, and she's goin' to be fine.. she's just old.. but I'm pretty excited about that. i'm so happy. all that prayin' paid off.

i'm almost all caught up on laundry.. and that's about it.

Tomorrow, I don't knwo waht I'm going to do.. It will be Wednesday, and I don't have to work.. Hmmm...

I hitched a ride with a vending machine repair man.

I just updated my myspace a little bit.

If you're thinking I should be in school--you're right, but I'm not. My eyes are really swollen and they hurt rrrreally bad. Yesterday, my dog had a bunch of seizures. Sometimes she gets them, but yesterday was soo bad because she had like.. four. I was up most of the night crying, and now my eyes are killing me. The dog is Tory--my doberman. She's 15 and has cancer. Everyone keeps telling me she won't live too much longer, and I don't know what I want. Do I want her to get put to sleep? She's not in pain, but I hate it like this. Do I want her to die? Definitely not, I never had a dog longer than her, she's the only dog I've had all my life. It was sooo hard on me when Brandy died that I don't know what I'll do if I lose Tory. I love her soo much. I just keep on crying. I just sat there and prayed yesterday. She was locked in the living room and just kept on barking and we were all so scared. When I saw her have her seizure, it was the first one I witnessed and it scared me so bad, I thought she was going to bite me, because when she came out of it, she looked so confused, and her hair was standing up.
She just kept on barking, so I gave her a cookie, and saw that she wasn't going to bite, she was just scared. I'm scared for her. I love her.

But anyways, I guess I'll try to get my mind off of it.

On Saturday night, I ended up NOT going to a party. Instead, I went and chilled with Crystal, Cody, Toby, Richie, and Aaron. Aaron later took me and Cody home at like 2:00 in the morning, and I slept over Cody's. The next day, we woke up and sat around. Toby came over and we sat around with him.. like all day. Except for the part where all three of us took Cody's mom's car to Amber's house to take off her tire and then drove her to Wal-Mart so she can go to work, and then get the tire fixed... and then we drove to Stoner's and Cody and Toby almost got in a fight with his fucking gayass brother and fatass dad.
We took the car home and then Toby's mom picked us up in a little bit and we picked up the tire, and then went to Amber's to put it on. While Cody was putting it on, me and Toby went and picked up Leah at her friend's house. We picked up Cody and then we went to Jenna's to get something. Toby's mom dropped me, Toby, and Cody off at Cody's and Leah went home.
We chilled in the garage a little bit, and then went inside. I needed a ride home and Cody's mom wouldn't give me one, and she wouldn't let him take me, and Toby wasn't allowed to have the car, and me and Cody's phones were dead, and she wouldn't let us use the house phone.
Cody was like "mom, will you take them home?" and she was like, "CODY! YOU'RE SO RUDE! I HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 5:00 IN THE MORNING FOR WORK!"... meanwhile, she's on the phone???
Cody-"mom, you're on the phone..."
Her-"So what?! I'm in my bed!!! Leave me the fuck alone, you're so inconsiderate!!!!!!!!!!"
Meanwhile, I'm gonna liek cry.. I'm so mad and so sad and Toby was just like, "it's okay, we'll find you a ride, don't worry about it, everything will be fine.. we'll get you a ride."
So I start walking, and I'm walking down the street, and I'm crying and I was so scared because it was dark and scary out and I was walking alongside of woods... so I turn back. They got the car and took me home. Haha, when they got to my house i was like, "You guys are faggots." and smiled and they were like, "fuck you!"

Yesterday I didn't do anything except stay for a Prom Committee meeting after school and then go to work at 4:00.

Hey.. if anyone wants to buy one of these tickets I'm selling, it would be greatly appreciated. They're $2, and if you win, you get a $500 gas card from GetGo and a $500 gas card from Sheetz.
They can be for anyone.. even out of state. (Leanne)
I would love it if someone would buy one. Please?

Haha.. at work yesterday, I was working with Elizabeth, and we're workin', workin', workin', and all of a sudden we smell somethig burning. Like plastic or something. The smell isn't going away at all, and it's getting worse.
I'm in the back doing terriaki when Elizabeth comes back holding this piece of metal.. thing.
Elizabeth-"I think there was a knife in the toaster oven."
..she hides it in the garbage and then she's like, "What's that smell?!"

Later on, Shawn, our boss, is like, "I think it's melted cheese."
Me and Elizabeth look at eachother, "Cheese doesn't smell like that."
Shawn-"I don't know what else it could be. Probably just a stray peice of cheese that fell down in there."
Me and Elizabeth nod our heads suggestively.

Now.. I need to go to school today because I have an accounting test that I have to take, and if I don't take it today, the make up test will be soo extremely difficult, even Mrs. Wrona said so.

Anyways, I'm gonna go.
peace.

Conjunctions
Shawn is doing conjunctions for his homework. He Is = He's. We Is=We'd. Say that one out loud. We'd. My mom and Pete sat there arguing about it. My mom was laughing soo hard about it, and it was the stupidest thing ever. Mom-"Used in a sentence... Cody and Lisa drove around smoking we'd all day." ..She was laughing her ass off about it.

Weed Day
April 20th. 420. 4/20. Mom to Shawn-"When you are in high school you'll skip this day, too." Shawn-"Why?" Mom-"Because.. everyone does." Shawn-"why?" Mom-"It's a day made up by the bad kids." Lisa-"Not bad kids! You made it up!" Mom-"No, we had skip day when I was in school but it wasn't weed day." Me and Shawn-"Weed day? What is weed day???" Mom-"Nothing." Me-"Did you say 'weed day'?" Mom-"Yeah" Me and Shawn-"What is 'weed day'?" Mom-"I didn't even say that!!!"

My mom just is on crack or something. I don't even know, she's funny.

This week:
I don't even remember.
Today is Wednesday, huh?

Well I can tell you Monday we ddn't have school. I slept over Leah's on Sunday. Monday we woke up and chilled all day and then I went over Cody's and then.. well.. I don't remember. Cody's mom dropped us off at Toby's, and then we just chilled.

Tuesday: I woke up for school and missed the damn bus. I called Allison, and her and Jay picked me up. We were already late for school and Jay didn't want to go into school like 2 minutes late, so he decides we should go out to eat.
So, we go to Eat n Park. The whole time me and Allison tried talkign him into skipping school and he wouldn't. We talked him into going in like 3rd period.
So.. after we eat the breakfast buffet.. we go to Wal Mart to waste some time. I almost knocked the ball rack over.
After that, he went back to school. It wasn't fourth period yet, so me and Allison chilled in his car.
All of a sudden Evan Teich pulls up. So.. we went for a ride with him, then we went to school.
I had to work at 4:00, but my work clothes were at Cody's, so I rode his bus home and my mom picked me up before work. I went down there and signed a bunch of papers and stuff and got my shirt adn hat and aprona dn everything and then found out I ddin't have the right paper for my work permit... so I went home.
A little bit later, Toby was supposed to pick me up, but he never showed up, and it was because he had the truck and he couldnt fit more than two people in. So.. Terry picked me up. me and Crystal walked down to Toby's house, and then we all jsut chilled.
Me and Cody walked home at liek 11:00. We went to sleep after we ate.

Today.. me and Cody woke up and walked to Toby's at liek 7:00am. Me, Toby, and Cody chilled all day.
My mom picked me up at Toby's house and took me to get a work permit. I still couldn't work today, but I'll work tomorrow.
I have to go get a shower so I can go back out there.

Some shit went down in Port Royal. My mom thought it was a drug bust and we went down there and found out that this man locked himself in his house and he was going to commit suicide and when we were leavnig we heard a gun shot and when we went home it was on the news and he killed himself. Geez.

Anyways.. shower time. Peace, playas.