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:: 2004 16 June :: 5.06 pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: The Vines

This weekend I had my going away party. Jamie, Christina, Jessica, Cindy and Ashley showed up. I had been calling Jon for a week and still haven't heard from him so whatever. Anyway, we had alot of fun, messing around and remembering those good ol' times. Around 10 we all went to go see a movie and then we parted. I think everyone had a good time. I got this crazy funny book from Jess called "The Worst Case Scenario survival handbook:TRAVEL" Yeah it tells you how to survive runaway camels, UFO abductions, Leeches, how to jump out of a moving van, ect. very entertaining to say the least.

I haven't been doing much lately other than going to work and then comming home and doing more work. Oh well.

Leaving the country in 11 days....yay

Later...

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:: 2004 7 June :: 11.43 pm
:: Mood: bored

Saturday was great.
As a graduation present, Jamie was give the weekend at a condo on the beach from here aunt and uncle. She invited christina, jessica, and me to share the wealth. it was awsome to say the least. we got there at 4pm and went straight down to the beach. ooo the water was great and the sky perfectly blue. and of course some eye candy walking around. This is mostly what our weekend consisted of. ahhh it was so great...and no parents to bug us, or siblings for that matter.....

...just awsome...

sunday afternoon, christina had her graduation party. not all that many ppl showed up and i yelled at jon when i found out he couldn't go. he has the worst excuses. geez! he better go to my going away party or hes not going to hear the end of it.Us girls figured i should call him from overseas, on a weekday, on his cell phone. it is mean and i dont want to resort to doing it. i dont think i will since im not THAT mean.


oh yeah...

went with jess and christina to see harry potter on the 3rd..the day before it came out. saw the midnight showing at 12:01 am. it was awsome. we were the last ones to get tickets.

sam and josh broke up. well, sam dumped him for chris. interesting development since he said she looked like a dog and would never date her in a million years. well thats what he told me. i kind of figured that would happen since they were all over eachother the last 2-3 months of school. and since josh wasn't there to see it....oh well...



I am leaving on the 27th and i can't wait. I talked to my mom about the school over there and stuff since she just got an e-mail back from them..... i know for a fact that i will be going with the school to London for a week and another nordic european country.

school in Sweden is going to rock my socks. ooo the excitement!


im telling my job that im going to quit on thrusday....im scared


oh well, they can't do anything, im leaving the country, MU HA HA HA HA!

MMM.... im sitting here typing and eating carrots....i love carrots. they are just great! so crunchy and orange and wonderfull...

..im not going crazy, i swear...



yes MARK, i know that was you who left a comment on the last entry you big silly.

the Travalocity commercials are awsome...


alright then!

guess thats about it, later.

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:: 2004 31 May :: 5.15 pm
:: Mood: eh...
:: Music: New Found Glory...the new cd is good :)

ok. Haven't been doing much of anything lately. On Saturday i went over to jessica's house and we had a LOTR marathon. It was great...we didn't make it to the third movie though because we were up all night playing the two towers PS2 game. IT WAS AWSOME! we had been playing it before a little but we finally beat it. ahhh victory. i love it.......


I went to go see the movie Troy on friday night with christina and alecia. oh man oh man oh man! Brad Pitt basicly sleeps naked in that movie....oo the hotness.

Orlando Bloom is in the movie as well....there are no words that can describe his hotness. He is just beautiful! i will have to buy that movie...^_^


alright, im supposed to go and sleepover at alecia's tonight along with christina. and i should have left 15 min ago and i still need to put on my face and tame my hair. arg...

later...

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:: 2004 24 May :: 8.18 pm

Alright.

Went to Frank's party with Jessica saturday night. i thought more people were going to be there but there was a pretty good turn out. sadly, Adam was not there. i know, its horrible. Justin showed up later though. i played pool with him and we talked and i had fun. hes soo nice to look at. still had a thing for him from last year. oh well hes nice eye candy...mmm lol

at jessica's party we were just hanging out. frank and joe showed up for a while and then decided to leave an hour or so later. i guess there were just too many girls for them. i like joe, hes a nice/funny guy. geeze, now that im done with school i wish i had hung out with these other people! i should have talked to frank more often....hes such a nice guy.

at like 10:30, cindy, jess, linda, and i went to go see Shrek 2. it was great! i have to see it again...:) got home around midnight, couldn't sleep blah blah blah.

i miss jon. he gives good hugs. talked to him online sat and he can do something this week which is a mirical. he never gets out...works way too much.


ok not much else to write about.


Julie, if u can do something ever...call me! im so bored these days....your fun! ^_^


later...

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:: 2004 21 May :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: tired

alright then. Graduation went smoothly and was great. I dunno, what do you say about graduation? I walked across the stage decked out in all my honor cords and suprisingly, i wasn't nervous at all. I thought i was going to be shaking and out of it bc im just that type of person who hates getting up in front of people.

everyone arived at techo/graduation, early..and hour and a half which is really stupid if u ask me. y they wanted us there so early i will never know. alright, so before hand we were all hanging out and i got to talk with jon! oh how i have missed him this year! the best guy friend i could ever have! he couln't go to gala bc his dad just came down so that sucked major. but hes going to christina's party as far as i know which is awsome bc i can see him again. im going to miss him sooo much.

anyway, back to graduation. after we started walking out of the statium, i waited for Jon bc he held my keys for me. i was greeted with the biggest hug i have ever recieved from anyone! it was a good hug. memorable for sure. and i was like, "i love you jon" and he said "i love you too lisa" and then i felt a few tears and he said don't cry bc then i'll start and i can't cry i said i wouldn't. so he hugged me again and headed out. ooo how i will miss him. we've been through so much and had a blast. i dont know what i would have done with out
him. :)

i can't still can't belive that i am now an official graduate. i mean i still feel the same and its just surreal i guess, i dunno....indescribeable.....

After i came home i started to get ready for gala. But first i had to convince the parents that..well...ummm...maybe i should open my present now since i am official and its just not cool to tourture someone with wondering what they are getting for two more days...he he. Soooo... i got a big box...well kind of. In it is what i am typing on. Yup thats right, a Dell inspiration laptop! now my dad is up on all this stuff so he thought it was neccesary to get me the proffessional one with all the high tech stuff. I LOVE THIS THING!

i have wireless capeability, with a DVD/CD drive so i can now burn both and watch the dvds. its the coolest thing. he even special orderd this special kind of charger that is compatable with the european hz and volts, since its different.

oooo yeah....

so, gala. i had fun. i hung out with jessica, jamie, christina, and cindy.:) they had all kinds of stuff set up...casino in the teachers lounge, ping pong, pool, air hockey, foos ball, jousting, and other nifty stuff.

after a while i kinda left jamie and christina to hang more with jess and cindy. we got to talk alot and goof off a bit and it great. it was getting hot in the cafeteria and gym so we went and sat outside....right by Adam.^_^ i didnt talk to him though bc he was on the phone with someone, despite that it was 3 am. i want to know who he was talking too...hmm...'

oh well bc its not like anything is going to happen. im just admiring him. he is very goodlooking. and nice, smart, funny. can't forget that since i know all too well that looks aren't everything. alright so anyway i might get talking to him at franks party if he decides to show so that should be fun...striking up a conversation....not knowing what to say...not a good conversation starter.

alright...JULIE! thanks for the comment..lol um can u leave another with ur journal address?? i forgot the link...its on the other computer and that computer is now gone soo...i had to find all my favorite websites again and everything...oo fun. kk ..:)


Later..........

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:: 2004 20 May :: 3.58 pm
:: Mood: stressed

ok. Graduation tonight at 7:30. Im just a little on the stressed side! couldn't find anything to wear, don't know where im supposed to park, how im going to get there, am i driving? Do i take I-75 or what?????? All this confusion is making me NUTS. I look like a big purple balloon im my grad gown. and who decided that the hats had to be square?? Who wheres a huge square on their head, honestly! Not the most fashionable look.

Going to GALA after...starts at 11pm ends at 6am. im going to be SO tired. Found out Adam is going so its all good.^_^

Sam hates me now and i could care less so i finally told her off last night. She was telling me how i think, feel, and act. Yeah, right, like she can control me. Fucker. So anyway she was saying how i "fall in love with every guy" which is so NOT true, saying that im in love with Chris and Ian and im sorry but....NO. And im Jealous of her...or some bs like that. What is there to be Jealous of?? that HUGE ass thing on her face that she is trying to pass of as a nose? or is it that im jealous of her whoreish ways? Fuck that. Shes a bitch.

I actually saved the convo....

AlwaysSJ1231: so i heard u asked chris to do something with u last saturday night, is that true?
Buttercup12780: yeah y?
AlwaysSJ1231: i am shocked
Buttercup12780: y?
AlwaysSJ1231: b/c u never call a guy and ask them to do something with u
AlwaysSJ1231: what did u ask him to do?
Buttercup12780: thats not true
Buttercup12780: i asked if he was busy thats all
AlwaysSJ1231: yeah it is, u'd never call josh or ian or ne guy for that matter, u always wanted me to call and then me to go with u
Buttercup12780: my friend and i were bored and were calling everyone
AlwaysSJ1231: and why did u bring me up by asking if i hated u
AlwaysSJ1231: u dont have to go through chris to find out
Buttercup12780: bc it seems like u've been avoiding me and i dunno why everyone has to relay info 24/7
AlwaysSJ1231: welll u can ask me
Buttercup12780: then whats wrong?
AlwaysSJ1231: and well i am still hurt about what u said sorry sue me
AlwaysSJ1231: u just seem jealous that him and i are really close
Buttercup12780: what did i say now to upset u seems like i always say something
Buttercup12780: yeah that was when he was avoiding me
Buttercup12780: like a moth ago
AlwaysSJ1231: u still seem jealous and i dont see why u are
AlwaysSJ1231: b/c him and i are best friends?
AlwaysSJ1231: u know what u said but yet u deny it, so i am not saying it again, i am tired of repeating myself over and over
Buttercup12780: i dont know y u think im jealous bc im not i dunno who tell u this
Buttercup12780: yeah ok one thought lasts a MOMENT not a LIFE TIME
Buttercup12780: there is a DIFFERENCE
AlwaysSJ1231: well when it consits of u only being my friend b/c i have a boyfriend
AlwaysSJ1231: IT DOES LAST A LIFE TIME
AlwaysSJ1231: UD BE PISSED TOO
Buttercup12780: I NEVER SAID THAT
AlwaysSJ1231: yes u did
Buttercup12780: i could care less if u have a bf or not sam
Buttercup12780: so GET OVER IT
AlwaysSJ1231: when we went for a walk around the neighboorhood u said that
AlwaysSJ1231: why would i make it up
Buttercup12780: not those EXACT words
AlwaysSJ1231: yes those exact words
AlwaysSJ1231: i wish i would have taped recorded u
AlwaysSJ1231: god
AlwaysSJ1231: news flash u get over it u obesss over guys way too much and u need to get over it that u dont have ab/f
Buttercup12780: im not going to put up with this any more bc u twist my words and then avoid me and assume things ....and NEWS FLASH for you im not obsessive and i could CARE LESS about a b/f ....im LEAVING the COUNTRY!
Buttercup12780: are we clear now?
Buttercup12780: GOODBYE!
AlwaysSJ1231: U ARE TOO OBESESS U FALL IN LOVE WITH A GUY AT FIRST SIGHT
AlwaysSJ1231: IAN, JOSH, CHRIS ALL OF MY GUY FRIENDS
AlwaysSJ1231: i didnt twist ur words lisa
AlwaysSJ1231: i know what i heard
Buttercup12780: i never "loved" or even liked ian or chris in THAT wat
Buttercup12780: y
AlwaysSJ1231: yes u did
Buttercup12780: no thats what U THINK U HEARD!.
AlwaysSJ1231: dude everyone knows u obessed over all of them
Buttercup12780: WHATEVER
Buttercup12780: everyone??
Buttercup12780: no just shit that u told ppl that isn't true
Buttercup12780: I CANT STAND UR CRAP ANYMORE SO GET OVER UR SELF AND STOP FEELING SRY FOR UR SELF ABOUT NOT HAVING ANY FRIENDS ITS NO WONDER U DONT HAVE MANY! U DRIVE THEM NUTS WITH ASSUMTIONS!!
AlwaysSJ1231: actually u dont know how many friends i have so dont go assuming crap
AlwaysSJ1231: i dont assume jack u do, so whatever and yes i do despise u with a passion not hate despise get it right i dont need friends like u
AlwaysSJ1231: so stay away from me got it
Buttercup12780: ok, lets get this straight. obviously, you dont understand the point im trying to get across, so lets make this clear. you are just an idiot who doesnt know forwards from backwards and im thinking that anything that extends beyond the reach of metaphorical speaking will not get through your thick skull.
i do not like you because of your boyfriend. i could really care less about him and i do not obsess over guys. this assuption that i love chris and ian is completely ludacris. the very thought behind it is absolutely absurd. i dont believe i have done anything that would result in a hate of that porportion, but frankly i dont care seeing how u twist my words and tell people things that are untrue. and i know by sending this im to u, you will most likely tell everyone what a horrible person i am and cut out everything you say so i seem like the bad person in this. whatever bc you will always make things turn out the way you want it to bc u can't stand having things not go your way that is just the kind of person you are and i have accepted that since you can't accept the fact that you don't know what the hell is going on or what you are talking about

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:: 2004 17 May :: 1.57 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: i wish i had some to listen to...

Alright then. Im at my moms office killing time before having to pick up carina from school. Oh what fun lemme tell ya.Julie called me today while in "math" class since she was bored......pressuring me to write in my journal so i figured i might as well while im stuck here.

On wednesday Julie didn't call back so i didn't end up doing anything with her but its ok bc i figured her dad was being his usual self. instead i went out to eat with jessica and then jamie joined us and we saw "13 going on 30" which i must say is a very cute movie. After that ,around 7 ish, i went over to jessica's to try on one of her skirts to see if it would fit for graduation. It did so now i don't have to spend any more money. ..well i need to buy a top but whatever. We ended up playing ssx on her PS2...i have the second one but this one is way better...so on friday i decided to go out and buy it. Anyway, we just hung out and i got home around midnight.

Thrusday i went to go pick upmy cap and gown which was fun i guess....how much fun can u have waiting in line? oh well....it wasn't that bad and after jessica,jamie, christina, cindy, alecia and i went to Perkins for breakfast so it was nice to talk to everyone again.

other than that i haven't been doing much....its weird not going to school everyday or at all even. It just feels that im on a break or started summer early and i'll be back next year......but i wont! i will be freezing my butt off in Sweden. Call me crazy i know but i can't wait! sooo sick of this god forsaken state....honestly, who wants to live in Florida?

ok then...have to pick up the sis....


Later....

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:: 2004 11 May :: 7.16 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: ah the radio in my head

Alright. Juile has been pressuring me to write again so i will. :)

Tomorrow is my last day of school and its strangely a little depressing. Today was my last day in German and when mrs. stocker was saying her goodbyes to us seniors, i had to hold back a tear. I've had her for four years and i loved that class. Everything is just so strange now. Your expected to just leave and never come back and its weird. For the past 13 years i've been going to school, seeing my friends everyday and now that all too familure routine has vanished. Granted im thrilled to be out of there but, what am i going to do with myself between now and the time that i leave for sweden?

Im just so afraid that i wont see any of my friends again and no one will be here when i get back.

I feel like such a loser b/c only a hand full of people have signed my yearbook. Adam didn't sign it which kinda sucks but he was taking his exam in class so i didn't want to bug him. Besides, he doesn't know me that well and vice versa. I might get to cram in some extra signatures at Frank's party which im going to with Jess for sure. Im looking forward to it......

So jules, how was 5th today? nice and peacefull? Im going to miss talking to you. Hey guess what? sams ignoring me but i dunno why. shes comming across as cold and annoyed. im lost...

so anyway, im lost, confused, and perhaps a little scared. I just have to jump out of my comfort zone since im being forced out of it. Time has gone by so quickly and it amazes me. I can't even imagine how fast it will go by when im 40. Everything is like a blur. Here one minute gone the next it seems like.

....later...

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:: 2004 3 May :: 10.12 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Three days grace: just like you

Just found out that Adam doesn't have a girl friend and according to miller, he needs one.

...hmmmm....i should go to franks party...;)

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:: 2004 3 May :: 6.48 pm
:: Mood: mellow

Alright, so its been a couple of days. What has been going on lately???

Saturday i had to work from 8-3 which sucked, but i came home and slept so it was all good after that. Around 6 Alecia, Jessica, Christina and i went to go see "mean girls". it was a better movie than i expected it to be. Im not the one for chick flicks and stuff. Lindsay Lohan is sooo pretty! I wish i looked like her....ho hum... Yeah so after it got out, we went to fridays to go hang out a while. I hadn't had fun with all my old friends in a long while. Im so glad we could all do something. it was about time.

Sunday i went to Jo Ann fabrics to get some stuff for my english project. Yeah that was fun.

Today i had a good morning.German was a blast! We had to do our presentation today with the sock puppets ha ha. I had to write a list of vocab on the board so ppl could understand what we were trying to say. Adam kept walking up to me the whole time i was writing stuff just trying to make conversation....lol hes soo cute! Anyway, we did the show and he helped me out with some stuff and no one else bothered so that was nice.

After that we had about ten minutes untill class was over and we talked a bit, along with frank and cede. I got invited to Frank's graduation party and so did adam so i think i might have to go to that. I just need to see if anyone else, like jessica or christina are going. I dont want to show up and be like...ummmmm....yeah im leaving bc i might not know anyone. But i think i should go.

I think sam might be mad at me bc im still friends with Julie. I want sam to be my friend but i want Julie in the picture too. Sam has been distant lately so i dunno whats going on with stuff and...yeah. hokay

Untill i feel like unleashing another emotion..
...Later

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:: 2004 27 April :: 9.31 pm

I have found my friend again but may have lost my other. Why is everything so complicated??

JULIE! I LOVE YOU!

ok then...

today in german i had fun...we are working on a project where we have to make up a mystery and have the class guess who dun it.

Adam is in my group..he was like hey as long as we have Lisa....i was and still am thrilled. Yesterday i talked to him and Frank. Frank is the coolest! Hes sooo funny. Adam talk to me and hesk so nice and down to earth. I WANT HIM. well he will be going to edison so i will have to purposly run into him. He wasn't there today but it was ok since we made sock puppets! ooo it was fun and funny. i hope Adam is there tomorrow so i can stare im mean admire him. Not your average dumb pretty boy...I hate pretty boys. Hes more umm awsome...has the emo glasses and the deepest blue eyes i have ever come across...that tied in with his dark hair makes me weak in the knees. ok so i have a thing for dark hair and light eyes.


every girl has a dream guy.


im just looking for mine

he will come along.

wouldn't it be funny if i married someone from cypress??

Must dream happy dreams and wake up happy.

Someone that i liked once told me to smile as much as i can because i have a beautiful smile.

I think i might....:)

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:: 2004 25 April :: 3.09 pm

Went to gradbash last night! It was really fun and i got to see the Ataris play! oooo the lead singer is sooo hot! I got lots of pics so im happy.I had so much fun with everyone and i miss hanging out with them. I hadn't seen Jon for ever so it was nice to hang out with him and the rest of the group. ok...umm

later....

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:: 2004 24 April :: 10.29 am

Last night sam,josh, danille, chris, and this other girl went to fridays. I was supposed to go but around 9 sam was like i don't think anyone is even going so i said fuck it. Then she calls me when she gets there and asks if i wanted to go. At that point im really pissed so i said no. At 10:30 i got a call from chris and well, he was there along with everyone else and they all told him to call me. So the only fucking night i have off i got screwed over!!! god the title of my journal should be "my non-existant life" ha ha. Oh then five minutes later i get a call from this other girl danielle and i guess sam told her that i hate her. I never said i hated her! I just dont know her! And know sam is telling people shit! oo that pissed me off even more! That was all the pent up rage i've had bc i can never say anything to her.

Call me on my cell today...even though i'll be at gradbash i'll still answer! im leaving at 3 and i'll be back at 5:30 am so i'll be awake all night ^_^

later.....

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:: 2004 23 April :: 10.57 pm
:: Mood: Headache :/

I am so pissed right now. and i hurt all over. bruses from the concert are starting to reveal themselves and i have been betrayed by who i thought was one of my best friends.

WHY DOES LIFE SUCK SO FUCKING BAD??

gradbash tomorrow.......

.....did i mention i was pissed?

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:: 2004 23 April :: 9.00 pm

OH SAM: im not making fucking assumptions! i see it with my own two eyes everyfucking day along with everyone else! You flirt like there is no tomorrow! Brad keeps asking me if you two have a thing. Ask Julie and ...i bet Maya would agree! you just don't see what it looks like! Don't tell me what not to write in my journal...i can write whatever the fuck i want! GOD!

I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU ALSO HAVE TO GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE THAT I FUCKING HATE THEM WHEN I NEVER SAID ANYTHING!! BESIDES! WHEN I TALK TO YOU ABOUT SHIT I THOUGHT IT WAS BETWEEN YOU AND ME!!!! I DONT TALK SHIT BEHIND YOUR BACK!!!!

AND YOU ASK ME IF IM PISSED!!

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