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2004 22 July :: 8.10pm
HI! I'd like to start by declaring China town in San Francisco to be one of the grossest places I've ever been. There are like 100 people all around you at all times. You bump into people and some of them stink and some of them get mad. The only good thing is about it is that its only like 2 or 3 blocks. Everything is so dirty there. I'm not trying to say that other parts of San Francisco are terribly cleen but its worse there probably from all the people.
My mom and I walked up California Street and if you don't know, California Street is a hugeass street that the is on a hill. We had to walk up hill then down hill and then up hill again. I think I strained one of my calf muscles. After that we went out to lunch and went to 3 churches, Baker beach, and home. We drove through Pacifica when the fog was blowing in. How truly pretty that is.
Yesterday was the most interesting day of the week and I don't think that anything could top it.
I went to the mall with Jennifer and Louise because Jennifer is going to England and needed some poop. (sorry we didn't tell you jessica but you were at the beach anyway) We spent like 6 hours there. It sucked. Jennifer and Louise are obsessed with purses and wallets and stuff...I guess thats okay but it got annoying after a while. As we were walking back to leave the mall Louise got a bloody nose. It was really really nasty. We ended up at a drinking fountain because it was the closest thing we could get to. After about 5 minutes this old guy was standing near the edge of the walk path thing and was staring at us. I thought he was going to help or something but instead he had to have a fucking drink of water. The mall is huge. There is more than one fucking drinking fountain. So he said "Excuse me ladies..can you move your stuff" I wanted to tell him to go away but he was old so I had to be polite. So we had to move our shit and Louise had to stand where everyone could see the blood on the tissue while the asshole satisfied his thirst.
Jennifer left and we were waiting for Louise'se aunt to pick us up. We waited for an hour cause she forgot. That sucked really bad too.
Later that night I went upstairs to watch T.V after dinner. I kinda snuck out so I wouldn't have to help with dishes so when I heard Mary yell "Marilyn, get down here" I thought I was going to get in trouble. Relunctantly, I went down to see what I did. I didnt do anything. Mary yelled "Monicas pregnant!". I dont think I still quite believe it..I'm going to be an aunt when I'm still 14. That means when the kid is 14 I'll only be 28. I dont want Monica to have a kid. I can't see her as a mom.
When we were gathered around the phone my dad was trying to figure out when it was going to be born. So some how she ended up telling us the exact day of conception. Not something I like to know.....I don't know what she said after that because I had covered my ears and was trying not to listen. I guess its good that a baby will come into the family but I'm not ready for it to happen...
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2004 22 July :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: nick bouncing and gwen saying
Delirously happy by Gwen (& Nick)
I found out that Jwessika's cousins are really mean and that they don't like books. That's so wrong and I feel really happy because I didn't hit her ceiling when I jumped on the trampaline and Nick likes the puppies and they gave him a present and did you know that life is really great and this is a run on sentence, but Jessika thinks that punctuation is my friend but I consider it evil because then it disruped your thought process with a dot. Dot. Dot. Anyways.... I think that Nick is jumping around too much and that i shoul itch my nose and LIFE IS AN AWESOME RIDE KIDS LETS GO GET COFFEE and that Jessika should not step on the poor puppy because it is a puppy and smaller than Jessika and that is really nice. Nick wants to say something...
I'm wasting my life away on an exercise trampoline... although Gwen is wasting her life away there now, while talking about bouncing body parts... Isn't our live amusing. Acutally It's disturbinly uneventful and sad to watch. We are a waste of space. So, it's nice to know we make good use of that waste. Long live stupidity!!!
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I'm done now...
Positive sheild, positive shield. I am rubber you are glue everything you say bounces off me and sticks to you. Negative thoughts are bad especially when Nick falls off the trampoline without even jumping on it and it's okay to waste your life on the trampoline as long as you have fun doing it. Jessika tried to cut my head off with the fann....QAAAAAS
I've just had a near death experience (I being Nick, of course)... I just reached the edge of the trampoline, and almost went over. It was close, but my great reflexes saved me. What else is of interest right now....
well...
negative space:
positive space:
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Gwen is sneezing in the bathroom. Other than that, it's extremely quiet in here. But Gwen feels much better now.
One might be amazed at how amusing a trampoline can be when one has wasted one's afternoon at Jessika's house. But since none of us go by "one," none of us care. Enter Gwen:
Hi there all you lovely people! did you know that you can create tons of hilarious and new words by misspelling words? It's great fun. Nick is attempting to make the puppies actually nice and all he is accomplishing is mangled fingers. Still this is a great way to learn how not to put limbs in any type of gnashing sharp teethed mouth. Jaws is one example and it inspired me to watch Shark Week which is extreamly intertaining but makes me not want to be a marine biologist... stop playing with the pig Nick..enter your wise words here: I'd like to confuse the spell check. *ahem* AWERPPOSIERLKDJSOEORIDIDEEGHL:IBSAWE!!!!!!
And that was wonderful.
and now for a chicago moment:
And all that jazz!
*end moment*
We've become more like Jimmy... how strange of us.
Oklahoma moment:
Oh what a beautiful mornin'!
Chorus Line moment:
One singular sensation, every little step she takes!
Shakespeare moment:
I'll look to like if looking liking please.
*end nick's time*
Wait! I can explain!!
no I can't....
*real end of nick's time*
Haaahaaahaahaaa! Evil laughs are always a joy!I feel a Norman Bates moment coming on... he's from psyco the movie. Jessika found a spoon stuck to a plate by jello salad!! Aaaaaa! Anyways Nick is attempting to jump on the trampoline I refrain from using the nickname tramp and he fell off the tramp and hit the chair! A sad funny moment and now I think we have written enough,hopefully we have entertained you and enough and Nick is now killing the chair! he killed it! It's broken! More positive space+++++++++++++ ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ ++++++++++++++ +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++! I've got rythum, i've got music... you finish the sentence spider man!
X-POSTED!!!!
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2004 22 July :: 6.21pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: None.
Guitar.
OMG. That bastard better have my guitar. -shall post if he has it or not-
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2004 22 July :: 11.10am
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: Brahms Intermezzo in A; Op. 118, No. 2
Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.
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2004 21 July :: 8.19pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Eve 6 - Inside Out
I absolutely love this song. I have since I first heard it in like 4th grade. This and Harvey Danger's Flagpole Sitta have been forever feel good music for me. Both the awesome beats and the lyrics...
Would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rhines,
but the lack thereof
would leave me empty inside.
I would swallow my doubt,
turn it inside out,
find nothing but faith
in nothing.
I want to put my tender
heart in a blender,
watch it spin around
to a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous
then I'm through with you.
AAANNNNNDDD....
Been around the world and found
that only stupid people are breeding,
the cretins cloning and feeding
and I don't even own a tv
Paranoia, paranoia!
Everybody's coming to get me.
Just say you never met me.
I'm running underground with the moles, diggin holes.
Hear the voices in my head,
I swear to god it sounds like they're snoring....
But if you're bored then you're boring,
the agony and the irony, they're killing me.
I'm not sick but I'm not well
and I'm so hot cause I'm in hell.
Hahaaaa....geez these songs rock so insanely hardcore it's not even funny. And..I am also becoming a lyric whore. :-x
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2004 21 July :: 10.04am
OW.
-Robert
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2004 21 July :: 1.23am
:: Music: Stayin\' Alive - BeeGees (WOO!)
I've figured it out. I am allergic to the sun. That's right. every once in a while, when I spend too much time out in the sun, I get the rash on my hands and arms and it's gross and itchy and I don't like it. I went to the beach this week (I am returning tomorrow) and the sand there is many a shade sarker than moi. This sand isn't exactly Hawaiian-white sand, but it isn't very dark either. It was weird... comparing myself to sand. Yush paleness I am, and I am NOT ASHAMED OF IT! Well.. except when Mom makes me wear shorts. I hate my legs, and if I can get out of it, I will not wear shorts anywhere in public. Just a great random fact for you.
My grandpa came out from Rhode Island this week. Yup. He's leaving tomorrow morning though. It was fun while it lasted. We went to the Boardwalk today and went on some rides and shtuff. Twas fun fun.
I need new eyeliner.
Lupin III is on and it's really annoying me. I don't like that anime. Part of it is because of the animation.
I hate this chair. I've had to use a different computer for a while, because mine is in the room my grandpa is using, and the chair I am sitting in is so uncomfortable - it makes my tushie hurt.
Haha... tushie... what a weird word lol. Fork is a weird word as well.
Camille seems to see things. She says that the huge grin smiley on AIM is missing teeth every time I send it to her. *nodnod*.
"Oh you can tell by the way I use my walk I'm a woman's man, no time to talk. Well blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah being kicked around blah blah blah blah. Well that's alright, that's okay,you may look the other way. We can try to understand, the New York times blah blah blah blah. Whether you're a brother or whether you're a mother, we're staying alive, staying alive. Blah blah blah blah breakin and everybody's shakin', we;re staying alive, stayin' alive..."
Oh yeah. Shake it to the groove baby. I know you can't get enough of that.
Weiner dogs are cute.
Oh yeah.. my grandma had a stroke a couple days back. It's her third, but this time she can't move her left leg at all. My dad woke me up one morning and said Mema was in the hospital and that he had to go. We didn't know it was a stroke at the time. Dad just said she was in the hospital and he didn't know why yet.
But truthfully, it made me realize how weak the last incident had left me. I mean the last time I had lost someone. I have been fearing lately that my grandma might pass away, but when dad told me she was in the hospital it was really scarier then I had thought. I didn't want to feel that kind of pain anymore. I had really been hurt and I hadn't even realized it.
It looks like she's going to be okay. She's going into rehab. I just hope she'll be able to walk again.
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2004 21 July :: 12.26am
:: Mood: emo
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Haligh, Haligh, a lie, Haligh
I like the eyes. Can I have them?
"There is no beginning to the story. A bookshelf sinks into the sand and a language learned and forgot, in turn, is studied once again.
It's a shocking bit of footage viewed from a shitty TV screen.
You can squint through snowy static to make out the meaning.
Just keep on stretching the antennae, hoping that it will come clear.
We need some reception, a higher message, just tell us what to fear.
Because I don't know what tomorrow brings. It is alive with such possibilities...
We need a record of our failures. We must document our love.
I have sat too long in my silence. I have grown too old in my pain.
To shed this skin, be born again, it starts with an ending.
So thank you friends for the time we shared. My love stays with you like sunlight and air.
Oh how I truly wish I could keep hanging around here but my joy is covering me.
Soon, I will disappear.
It's not a movie, no private screening. This method acting, well, I call that living.
It's like a fountain, a door has been opened. We have a problem with no solution
but to love and to be loved.
So, I've made peace with the falling leaves. I see their same fate in my own body.
But I won't be afraid when I am awoken from this dream and returned to that
which gave birth to me. And the story goes on and on and on and on..."
That is for my "friend(s) with problems" (It is indeed mutual)....My interpretations are usually wrong, but it works swell for the emssage I am trying to get across if you happen to think like me.
Today I went to the museum. I was very happy when Spencer showed up. He's a nice kid. But, I was about to hate him because he was late and I thought he was a no-show. I could not take 28 kids at once. My group was younger than his. They were bored and bratty and clingy and I was reminded why I hate little kids.
Everyone should listen to Pretty Girls Make Graves sometime. Especially if you like the Yeah Yeah Yeahs.
I BEAT ALICE!!!! ALL OF MY OBSSESSION TIME PAID OFF!!! I BEAT IT!!!
My computer is messing up. I hope I can post this.
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2004 20 July :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Black Cadillacs" - Modest Mouse
cleanup from a pseudo-vacation
Well, as I've stated in the not too far past, my problems have shifted from schyzotypal to paranoid. How lucky.
Moving on. We took my trumpet in to get serviced today. What a great thing, considering the main tuning slide has been oxidized for.... about 4 years. I've needed this... It will help for symphonic band. Also, I've realized I prefer my piano over my instructor's, which is interesting in that she's got a great grand piano, while I have an old upright. Usually the grand wins, but right now I like mine more. I don't know why. Maybe her's is out of tune... it sounded so.
I'm realizing that I'm craving a relationship more than I used to. I think I'm finally getting over my inhibitions to get close to people (by the way, I saw Schylar at Blockbuster last night. She's got two lip piercings now.). And now, I want a relationship... or a really close friend.... which I have many, but most of them are away for the moment.
And I think I should go to one of the BMX races. I haven't been out to the tracks in... forever, so I think it would be a good outing.
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2004 18 July :: 11.17pm
:: Mood: disillusioned
:: Music: The Rasmus
another cruel realization
The people I hang out with have lots of problems. I have a lot of problems. We tend to make good friends, until we get mad about our problems, which seems to be happening with many people right now.
On a brighter side to that was camp. We had a drama session, in which we had improv games, seguing into a story theater about a girl who was raped in childhood who is reading a book (school assignment) about a girl who was raped (slightly redundant premise). Well, after the reading, one of my good friends was absolutely bawling. I was aware that something had gone on with her, in that she's often violent toward any forward males. Well, she was raped by her cousin in her childhood. So, we spent the next half hour or so talking about problems, she about dealing with her life, then me saying that it sucks to know about problems of your friends, simply because you want to share yours as well, but fear that sharing will only make their life harder, which ends up making your burden heavier. It's unfair to keep all the problems inside, it's unfair to only listen and not explain. Then Melinda and I cried together, just because the majority of our lives have been spent putting up these fucking intricate facades to keep the public unaware. Then, Cary shared about caring for her little sister who is autistic, a rather touching story, which explains her a bit more. However, I will still not go out with that girl (not that any of you know/care to know about her). Then Melinda and I did a bit more of tag team encouraging everyone in camp to just be real for the rest of the week. I can't say that it was completely effective, though I noticed some change in people. Really, what I'm looking for in life is not complete harmony, just the acceptance. I know that not everyone is in agreeance on issues, but I'd like to know that they accept that things happen. Somewhat of a nonchalant standpoint to not put any more care in than that, but it's all I'm really asking for, while I don't ask at all. Anyway, this camp has opened a good awareness to me of some of my beliefs/ beliefs of the young church. I'm quite happy with the camp, and it's extremely hard to explain the experience. It was fucking awesome, but not the easiest thing to share without first-person location and such....
So, we're a bunch of dropouts in many different aspects. It's good that we cling to each other, 'cause each one carries something different. A body is not complete without every part. The spirit is only filled by communion.
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2004 18 July :: 8.02pm
You are Magenta. The lip gloss that sank the
titanic.
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I still need to think of a new username........ x_X
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2004 18 July :: 4.20pm
:: Mood: enlightened
:: Music: Romeo + Juliet soundtrack
so I've been gone a while...
Well, for my birthday I went to Perkins (comfort food). I got $80 combined from my grandmothers. Today, since I'm back, I went shopping and bought Romeo + Juliet soundtrack, Dead Letters - The Rasmus, Good News for People Who Love Bad News - Modest Mouse, and Steppenwolf Greatest Hits. Other gifts: boxers, a T-shirt, a new garbage can (the old one broke), a new trumpet case, a new CD book, Chicago soundtrack, Blue Man Group CD, The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot, complete set of car keys, and that Twister dance moves game (apparently my family thinks this is a good alternative to DDR, a thought which I'm taking lightly... I assume I'll use the thing at some point).
Camp was amazingly good this year. I will probably give a description later, but I don't want to be on the computer much longer. It's nice to be back, but I'm missing a lot of people from camp already.
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2004 18 July :: 9.56am
a sensation through my body
i'm in love...
and i'm scared
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2004 18 July :: 3.05am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Lover I don't have to love <33333
This made me giggle. *giggle*
Gay Bear
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I have to be at the museum in 12 hours. x_x...I want to stay home = (.
I got quite sick from the heat or somethnig today. It was bad. I felt terrible.
I wanna lover I don't have to love! I want a [boy] that's to sad to give a fuck. There is the kid with the chemicals. I thought he said he'd meet us here but I'm not sure...
I want a lover I don't have to love. I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk. Where's the kid with the chemicals? I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full. I need some meaning I can memorize. The kind I have always seems to slip my mind......
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2004 17 July :: 9.39pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: water running
It is very hot here. Especially in my room. I have been getting sick because of the heat really bad today. I need to go lie down again...but it has to be in heat.
I have a 28 pound watermelon in my fridge.
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