Yee FUCKIN Haw!!
HAPPY EASTER?!?!? b0red. its sunday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASH!! I LOVE YOU!
well Jaki just IMs me right? tells me that me and Brad had sex.. No, that didnt happen and then she tells me that Jessica and him were telling everyone that. No that didnt happen. Ive had sex with 2 ppl, and neither of them were him. So to break it to ya'll... newhoos!
Hannah and I are moving to Texas.. like for real.. wow. I wish i lived there.. shoootttt but if i did, I guess i wouldnt know Lee? Hmm...... But i <3 him so Im glad i live here i guess.. Wish i didnt live here bc of Jeremy tho, that would be great. Ive come to hate him, not sucha bad thing hehe.. neways! TEXAS HERE WE COME!!
btw ash is there now, so im going to take here hostage and keep her there.. we are bringing the Erics too.. hahaha me and Hannah are so fuckin cool . lmao. Happy Easter ya'll..

-------hey Hannah, I think I can convince him to ride the bull again..eh eh?

I <3 this song!


I have wandered this world far and wide
I've been all around to the other side
But there's nothin' like comin' home
Nothin' like comin' home
I wanna sit on my front porch and drink my lemonade
Cut my grass after church every Sunday
And go out on Saturday night
Live the simple life
Wake up in the morning to these fields of gold
And take a long walk down a gravel road

Spend my days in the sweet sunshine
Rock in my swing and watch my garden grow
Know that I'll always have someone to hold
Oh I-I-I wanna live the simple life

I wanna take a blanket down to the creek
And let the water sing me to sleep
Let go of time
Live the simple life ... oh yeah
Lately I've seen too many city lights
I wanna go somewhere where I can see the stars at night

Spend my days in the sweet sunshine
Rock in my swing and watch my garden grow
Know that I'll always have someone to hold
Oh I-I-I wanna live the simple life

Spend my days in the sweet sunshine
Rock in my swing and watch my babies grow
Know that I'll always have someone to hold

Spend my days in the sweet sunshine
Rock in my swing and watch my garden grow
Know that I'll always have someone to hold
Oh I-I-I wanna live the simple life
Oh I-I-I wanna live the simple life ... that's right

relaizations
well.. its like its done..
but not? go figure..
he says he wont leave.. somehow, i think its guna change.. what a wonder..
im sick of all the love song shit on the radio.. i want them to die.. maybe thats just bc i forgot how it feels.? Still confused in the love department. It's getting old; I'm starting to see it affect my mood, and I hate letting my emotions take control of my everyday attitude.. but wha can i do? doesnt hlep im on my period.. makes me more upset.. found out something else horrible today.. morwys dad.. god i wish that wouldnt have ever happened.. no one should ever have to go thru that.. im not going to say i know how she feels, bc i dont.. everyone has diff emotions.. but i know it hurts.. still cant stop crying.. god whats wrong with me.. how come i dont ever fuckin know what i want? im such a fuckin loser..

why..
why
fuckin why
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i give up.. i swear to you.. im so not guna be who i was.. i hate myself.. if u need me i wont be there.. i hate when i go into depression.. seem to alot tho.. thinkin i need professional help.. ha.. like that would work.. i miss him.. already and hes not even gone.. ..
* i want to pull you close..
...but you leave me frozen*

Why....
hey guys.
::+:: you are my only one...::+::
blah... really didnt have a good night.. cried wayy to much.. david says i needed a hug.. i really did.. guh.. god i suck so much.. :-( i dont know why i let this happen.. i so fuckin knew it .. i could see it comin... but i let it happen anyways..im talkin to him, its all awkward.. :o(.. im guna go..